Fighting Farrows

OK , so it ha been awhile since I posted. Quick catch up.Bryan has graduated work g as oil engineer in new mexico. Brenna is almost 5 jack almost 4 and Scotlynn hasx turned 1. This past Wednesday I turned33 yrs old and I am so overweight I feel like I have hit rock bottom. I will post some pics of what ok like now because in a few months you will not recognize me. I love that I have come in to contact again with a good friend who will be helping me along the way. I also have a supportive husband that is with me on this as well. So tomorrow I start and I will do regular updates on my progress.

  I feel like I live my life one event at time. I prepare and prepare for the next coming event then hold my breath til it's over and then move on to the next event. This is not always a bad thing it just seems that is how I measure my time. Brenna had her first primary program today and said her line and sang her songs and also colored on paper that her friend brought up there. She did very well and I am so proud of her. She also was brave enough to sing at her cousins baptism so we are done with these events and now moving onto the next event. The ward Halloween party and the many many birthdays this month. I just feel blessed that I have the energy to keep up and my children are actually very good for me and i am able to do these things.

Wow... Been a very long time. Last Post we had just moved in with Gramps, well it has been 18 months since his passing and today is his Birthday. So I want to just go over a few memories I had of living with. To start I think he knew after Grams passed away I was going to take care of him, he was asking for me to be with him when he had many others around, but he knew and Grams knew as well. The night we moved he shuffled down the hall grabbed my face kissed me and said with emotion in his voice "welcome home". We were able to have brennas 2nd birthday with him and Jacks 1st birthday. We spent Halloween and Thanksgiving and New Years with him and also had Easter (very fun family get together. He and I would watch westerns and he loved FHE and prayer and scriptures with us. We bantered back and forth quite often but out of love. He desired to be in the Temple but was unsure of himself and ability to go. After he fell and went to rehab the kids and I visited him often in the mornings and enjoyed breakfast with him and sometimes rehab. I would push in his wheelchair in the yard area and we would sing songs together. When he came home it was hard for him and us but we did our best. We he started going down hill, I remember during the April General conference he would fall asleep and wake up with start and talk about seeing Grams and one dream he had he was talking to her and he desired to stay but she pushed him back and he was so sure it was real he woke up yelling because he thought he was falling. He passed shortly after Easter but was able to have a nice family get together and see his family enjoy being here with him.
    I miss my crabby and our talks. I know for certain that he loved his wife, he loved his children and grandchildren, he how a love for his Savior and Heavenly Father and he knew that this is the true church upon the earth ans Eternal families are real and important. He knew and I love him for that.
   Happy Birthday Crabby!!!

SO here is the latest...
We moved form ASU housing in the middle of Oct. last year and moved in Gramps after Grams passed to help take of him. It is not easy being here and I feel lost sometimes but it has gotten better.
A couple of weeks ago gramps came down with Pnemonia and ended up in the hospital for a few with various other issues, along with that Brenna ran high temps and had to have breathing treatments and also double ear infection and Jack got sick as well and then were told that Jack had to have a procedure done for hydrocell. Everything kind of hit at once and I wanted to break down... Things only got better and everybody started feeling better then Gramps had to go and break his leg on Sunday morning... I keep thinking what am I to learn from these trials but maybe these trials are not for me I only need to endure them. I have incredible friends and family that surround me and support me and my beautiful kids are wonderful and so is my ever patient and loving husband.
I am enjoying my calling in scouts and now in nursury, this is a great ward we have and look forward to making lots new friends. This will be a great new year and hopefully I will blog more.

We get the keys Thursday to our house and then we are moving in!!! Been waiting awhile for this. We will miss our friends and neighbors but are glad to move on and save money.

I have maybe one or two pics of me and the kids because I am the one always snapping the pictures so my mom did this for. I do love my babies.