Le cHeRi, VeNiR cE qUe PeUt, Je VoUs AiMeRaI, jUsQu' ? mOn JoUr MoUrAnT.
hmm finally.. my core subs are over.. in like 2 days? yeah.. i'm in sch library.. think i will type a pretty long blog today.. finally can use the net without feeling any teeny weeny bit guilty.. hmm.. feeling kinda hungry but really dunno wad to eat in sch.. dun wanna waste too much money oso.. doing frenster and stuff.. feeling rather relaxed and scared at the same time.. relaxed that the cores are over.. scared that i'd get hell from my mum.. tt would really suck.. yeah.. anywae i'm free.. until thurs afternoon.. haha.. and it's a sch hol on monday cos it's youth day.. no sch..!! haha so exciting.. another extra day of fun and crapping.. but dunno wad to do sia.. mind's pretty blank now.. you know it's bad to go shopping when you really dun have cash but really need to buy the thing you wan? i'm totally feeling it now man.. cant possibly get a job to support myself now can i? tt's the sad thing.. haiz.. actually i was really excited to see my classmates on the 1st day of sch yesterday.. but due to over stress of the exams.. my 1st day of sch was kinda bad.. just wanted to sit down and cry.. but i had to be strong.. i sound like i just got ditched.. haha.. but am actually feeling rather loved.. will he be reading this? i dunno.. but i guess so..
anywae, ever since sch started on March 22nd for me this yr.. i hafta say i really enjoyed myself in this sch.. no matter how much stress i got from both the teachers and my mum and sis.. i was really able to relax myself and have fun.. even when my maths result for the lecture test came back to me and i got 2/30.. i din actually get all depressed or stressed out.. it's not like i'm proud that i got only 2 marks.. but you know.. all i wanted was a pass in everything.. be it a AO level pass or an A level pass.. as long as i passed it.. i would be okie.. seeing my classmates and sch mates everyday really perked me up.. having the thot of 'a brand new day'.. afresh and all.. hmm i guess you can say i really enjoyed myself.. during orientation.. finding frens i had lost contact with in this new sch.. like WanTing.. speaking to Leon for the 1st time(haha).. knowing that both joyces are in the same lump of shit with me and cheering each other on.. and meeting new people like wenqi shaz dee nada priya szeech and all.. really thank them for all the laughter that they brought to my life.. and not forgetting my sec sch frens like carol.. my sister.. and vanisha the one who just tok craps with me at the baq of class..really cherish you guys..
i feel i've changed from a immature sch kid to an adult.. having more responsibilities.. both in church and in sch.. thou i'm not some kind of leader in sch but the responsibility and pressure of having to do as well as my sis did in her A's really gets me sad sometimes.. even thou i really have fun in sch now.. but sometimes i still miss of the days i spent in St. Hilda's.. esp in Sec2, and Sec4.. those were the best days of my life and i will always rem it.. more responsibilities in church.. having opportunities to train myself and prove wad i can do.. really wanna thank my churchies.. zhaohao.. like a big daddy to all of us.. the oldest amongst us, and of cos we will usually turn to when we have probs we cant solve, ferli.. for going thru with me my ups and downs.. being there for me.. treating my as your bosom fren.. trusting me.. the rest-lynn yongming chris hweengee etc.. you guys have really made a big diff in my life.. growing up with me from the days we were in kindergarten.. really wanna thank you all for who i am today.. you all will oways be my best buds..
my mum and dad and jas and grace.. giving me the feel of family for the past 16 and half yrs.. after all the fights and quarrels and scolding and unhappiness we're still one big happy family.. haha.. hope this family stays together.. forever..
finally i wanna thank terence for being there for me thru all these years.. there to just give me a tight hug when i just break down and cry, making me feel like i'm everything to him, making me feel like he's all i'll ever need..there to listen to my nonsense and trash from sch.. just listening to my sobs over the phone and none of us saying not even one word.. it just feels he's one to depend on for the rest of your life.. seriously.. even thou after all these years that we've been together i may not really understand you fully.. but hope you cherish me like i cherish you.. love you..
till then.. take care people.. see you guys someday.. taz..
