Fly Away..

Listening to: Have You Ever

I haven't heard or sang along with this song for like don't know how many million years already. When I was still in Lower Sec I think. I can still remember the lyrics, not bad ehs? Haha. Well, didn't really do much today. Just went to school for CO and then came back home and watched TV all the way from 3 plus till now. Haha. Winter Sonata actually. Re-watching it. So nice. Haiz. Bae Yung-Jun really very good-looking leh. Wahaha. Talking about him, I want to catch his new released movie. Everybody Has Secrets. But then, it's M18!! SO IRRITATING. Haiz. Don't know if I'll get a chance to catch it alreadys. Anyone kind enough to get me a ticket and bring me in??

Feel like today's another wasted day. Like, it's Saturday but I didn't do anything really happening. Been playing the instrument half the time I was awake and now my fingers kind of hurt. Stupid strings. Oh well. What to do. They're preparing for the SYF and the NEw Year Celebrations next year. I don't even know if I'll be able to play with them next year. Thinking of quitting CO already. Well, surely I'd prefer something I can identify myself more with right? Mummy was like, 'don't go for those CCA that takes up a lot of time.' Like duh right. But then, like what? Library?

Anyway, tomorrow's Sunday!! Can go to church already. Can't wait! And then Monday's the youth camp already. A little excited, a little nervous. Cos it won't be just CCR people going. Got people from MPCC also going. Well, I'm not exactly a very out-going person. So I tend to be very quiet in front of people I don't know, or people I just got to know. So obviously people will say I'm very dao. But then, I don't know. There was an exception. But, forget that now. Like who will bother about what I'm saying now. All I need to do now is to focus on the camp and as for the rest, I'm leaving them out. Haha. You know, that kind of thing.

I realise the best thing to do when you're bored is either go to sleep or to read a book. Well, I do both, but more of the latter. I've been reading a lot these past couple of months. After the Promos I've been reading a lot. Going to the school library to look for books practically became an addiction. And now that school has ended, I still go on to San Bookshop down at Tampines Mall to look for books to read. But, I always learn a lot of other new things. But then, I prefer all those bimbo books lah. Those romance novel kinds also. Hahahahahah. Don't laugh. Hmph.

I've got a lot in mind I want to say, but I don't know how to start. So I guess I'll wait till I know what to say before I actually do. So in the mean time, I'll go friendstering. Ciao. Enjoy the weekend people!

P/S: I know. I know I changed my skin again. I'm too free. Ok? But you can't blame me. I love pink!

Shaz, Szeech, Ifah, Di, Priya and me. Yeap yeap. I hate dangling earrings. *ooowwww* 

Listening to: Perfect 10

Well, actually typing this on Notepad lah. Wanted to save time from thinking what to say while online so decided to type everything I wanted to say here first before posting this up on Blogger. Yeaps. Well well. What do I want to say now? Hmm, I'll try to make sense today ok. Won't be like the last post. I'll try.

Gasp. Glory of Love. Playing on Perfect10. *faints* Sooooooooooooooooo NICE!!! Oh my god. *sighs and regains composure* *starts to sing along* Hahaha. Lames.

Hmm, went to school for dance today. It was so fun!! Wahaha. Too bad Szeech and Di weren't with us. Di was at camp[right?] and Szeech was I-dont-know-where. She said she would see me in school today so I assumed she would go for dance. Hmph. Guess she went out with Bakar huh? Can't be bothered anyway. Just that they missed out on all the fun and whippings. Whippings. Wahahahaha. So, a little of hip hop here and there. Yeap. Oh by the way, Frederick looks more tanned today compared to last week. I bet he went for a tan. Hmph. I want to tan! I think I should keep bugging Szeech. I'm so lame I think I need a wheelchair.

The rest of the day was rather boring. Didn't really do much lahs. Came online and chatted with Ferli and Yuan Shyuan. I still don't know if that's how you spell his name but yeah. Just guessing. Funny, witty guy. With all those toenail[freshly cut] soup and durian in curry huhs. Pretty interested in cooking I can see. And then Ferli sent me all those wallpapers she did for Taa-tuuuu-taaaaaaaa and also one for me and Wanky. So sweet of her isn't it? All thanks to Adobe Photoshop. Yeap yeap.

I need to get a pair of slippers for the camps coming up. Mine are like, eews. And I don't want to buy the Bata pair for two camps. Like, so wasted. So I think I'll just settle for a pair of Trails. I guess I'll get them when I get to Tampines on Sunday after service. And other toiletires. *sighs* So lazy to start thinking of what to bring and all that. I guess I'm leaving everything to Sunday evening. Something like that lah.

I think being a radop deejay is pretty fun. You can to talk so much! Wahaha. But doesn't the mouth get too dry sometimes for talking too much? I can't imagine myself talking for 4 hours like Edwards does every weekday afternoon. I know her part is with all that '30 minutes of non-stop hits' but still.. for 4 hours? Wow. But I guess overall the job is pretty fun. You get to listen to all those music and all that. Great for a music freak like me.
Well, I'm still waiting for Shutter. Heard that it's just shocking and that kind of thing. Nothing scary about the ghost though.

Feel like changing my blogskin again. I guess I get tired of the ones I sue rather easily ehs.

I'm getting so lame today. Why ah?

Ferli did this. Wanky and Me. HEhs. 

This so nice right? hweengee ferli and me. Done by Ferli Ang. Love her to bits. Whee!!!! 

Aaaahhhhhh. The bbq went pretty well, except for the re-starting of fire because it died off at around 8 plus. Wahaha. Well, it was the first time I actually helped out in a bbq. The rest of the time I just wait for the food to be served. Haha. The people were still as funny as ever. Especially WeiLing. Buay tahan. Haha, it's so fun to be around her. Hehs. Didn't think that I would enjoy the time there as much. Glad that I decided to go.

I have absolutely no idea why I'm blogging at this time of the night. Usually at this time I would already be in bed dreaming. Anyway, I realise that guys make better friends than girls do. Seriously. With girls you crap and gossip all you want, but guys are the ones you can share your deepest secrets to. Though I haven't done that with all my guy friends except for ET and Joash lah. But to me, guys are more practical when it comes to things, and they won't laugh at you. Or at least Et and Joash don't. Haha. I didn't have a lot of girlfriends in sec sch. Probably because I was going out with one of the most good-looking guys of my batch and there were too many kids in lower sec that were talking, or probably because I just didn't hang out as much with the people outside me clique. But even with my clique, I don't tell them much secrets. Cos when I tell one, she kind of tells another girl of the clique and then it goes on until all 5 of them know about it. Not that I don't trust them, but it's like they won't understand what I'm going through. And guys give proper advice as to what to do, and they don't laugh at you. Something like that lah. BUt after coming into MJC, I have a balance of guy and girl friends. Haha. Probably because every friend knows another group of friends and they introduce them to you and all that. You're probably linked to another person from this or that friend somehow. So, balanced.

It's ok if you don't understand what I'm typing now, cos I think I'm just laming. I have no idea what I'm saying either.

Got to go sleep. Got dance tomorrow. Ciaoz.

Another photo during LMD. Nada, Farhan aka Snuffles, Wenqi and me standing behind them. Canteen I think. Looks like heaven behind. Wahahahahahaha. Lames. 

This was taken during Love Meridian Day. Don't know why I didn't post this up. Yeah so it's me, Di, Azry and Priya. 

This is cool right? Made by Wenqi. Don't know how the hell she did this but yeah. Pretty good ehs? Oh by the way, it shows MJC 04S401. =p 

This was taken like so long ago. Sometime in August I think. There's Hweengee, Ferli and me. Ta-tuu-taaaaaaaaaaaa. 

Good Charlotte- Predictable
Something isn't right
I can feel it again feel it again
This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know why
I let you in

I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

So take your empty words your broken promises
And all the time you stole cause I am done with this
I can give it away give it away
I'm doin everything I should've
And now I'm makin a change I'm living the day
I'm giving back what you gave me
I don't need anything
I knew it all along

You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all want to know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back
Never..never..never..never.....[echo].....

I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)

Everywhere I go for the rest of my life (so predictable)
Everyone that I love
Everyone I care about
They're all gonna wanna know what's wrong with me (so predictable)
And I know what it is
I'm ending this right now..

Listening to: I Miss You by Blink 182

November has been a rather historic month for me. 5 movies so far, going only for History lectures during the extra lectures{one Chem lecture not counted cos neither did I have notes nor was I listening], having weird meals at really weird times of the day, hearing the most ridiculous things come from a 17 year old boy, doing nothing besides using the com-watching tv-eating-sleeping[well, most of the time], and I haven't excercised for the whole month!! Eews, that sounds so disgusting. All thanks to emjaysee, no more PE lessons. Eews. I've got to go exercising soon. Yesterday on my way home from town I was on bus 3 and I passed this huge piece if land. Short grass and huge piece. Square or rectangular I don't know, all I know is that it's huge. Perfect for running. Hahahahaha. Alright!! Hehs.

Szeech!! Can we decide on a day to go tanning?

Queen Latifah is hilarous!!! Watched Taxi yesterday with Ferli at Cathy Cine. It was free lah cos her friend Xinyi works at Cathy and there are free movie tickets for the movies that have been released for some time already. And Taxi was one of them! Whee!!!! Oh and Ferli and I were given the couple seats. Wahahahaha. And she didn't believe me until she lifted the arm rest thingy and then we laughed like mad. Oh that model! Gisele Bundchen[or smth like that] is so freaking skinny and tall. Damn. Look at her legs! Whoo! Haha.

I still want to watch Shutter. Feel like dragging my churchies to watch. But then now, we're having lesser people going out together. Some don't even come for service on Sundays anymore. And then some run off straight after service. Haiz, so sad ehs. I heard the Shutter is a pretty nice movie.

Holidays. Sometimes I hate holidays, but sometimes I just can't wait for them to arrive. I get no allowance during the holidays, so for 2 months I would have to scrimp and save and dig for my handphone bill. I eat at the weirdest hours and probably one or one and half meals a day. One for brunch and one sometime either at 4 or at 10. Hmm, what a nice life I have ehs? I haven't eaten anything since the Chessestick Ferli bought for me yesterday at Takashimaya at around 5 plus. That's like 17 hours without food already. And I think the next time I eat later it would be at the CO Bbq ehs. Been having loads of Bbqs but no form of exercise this month. Damn. I'm getting fat.TER. I want exercise!!

I'm looking forward to the youth camp coming up on Monday. Even though it's with another church but heck, I won't be home. I'm going to have fun and be as crazy as possible. Hehs. So I won't use the comupter for like 2-3 days. Oh wells.

Carol is coming back from Japan today!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh yah! By the way, went to town right and I saw this black OP sling bag. So nice!! Ok I know that it's BLACK, and that it's only a SLING BAG, and that OP stuff are really SIMPLE and PLAIN, but whoo! That bag is nice. And it's only 40bucks! 39.90 to be exact. I'm going to try telling my Mom about it. Hehs. When I go out I only bring along my wallet, keys and handphone. Unless when I go to church then I'll bring my bible and bottle along. So it doesn't make sense to carry my haversack around everytime I go out with only 3 small things inside right. Hehs. Me and my excuses.

I love this colour. =)

Gosh. I'm tired. Woke up early today and went to town pretty early. I was late, like for 20 minutes. Wenqi was worse. She was an hour late. One whole hour. Hmm, like fun ehs? Haha. Can't imagine that kind of shit seats we would get if we bought the tickets when she arrived.

The Incredibles is great! So funny! It leaves Shark Tale nowhere, seriously. Jack Jack is so cute!! Hehs. Overall it's a very nice movie lahs. There's my summary. Wahahaha.

I still want to watch Taxi and Shutter. Ehs, spooky. But then, I can't find the money to. Holidays are here, and I don't usually get allowance during holidays. When I actually do get them, I usually have to face the Nutcase[which I seriously don't want to see most of the time], have to face my Mum's naggings for wanting to go out. But hey! I'm having my holiday! And I don't have a boyfriend like Nutcase does, and who spends every cent the bf has in his bank account do I? Oh let me say it a little nicer, till he's left with 60cents? I know I'm supposed to study, but can't I play for awhile? Haiyoh-ness.

Anyway, I got the following on Friendster. If you're a girl, you should read. If you're a guy, you should know what you should and should not do. But if you actually do, I only have two words for you: You Moron.

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him alone.
4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
6. Don't force an attraction.
7. Slower is better.
8. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
9. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can't "be friends."
9a. A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don't let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.
11. Don't settle.
12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
13. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship--take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?
14. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
15. Honorable men take care of their business and aren't involved in a whole lot of mess.
16. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
17. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he doesn't want you.
18. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.
20. Always put yourself and your happiness first.
21. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.
23. Like from the show Sex and the City, if he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.
24. Be honest and upfront.
25. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.
26. Don't fall for the "I'm confused role". Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out (but don't wait for him, move on).
27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just mom).
28. There's more than physical abuse, there's emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them...flee.
29. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.
30. Don't let him place rules on you that he is not willing to follow himself -- double- standard.
31. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job.
32. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
33. Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't have you!
34. Don't compete with the other woman, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.
35. If you think he is cheating, he probably is. Confront him right away and if you feel he's lying, let him go.
36. Actions speak louder than words.
37. Never let a man define who you are.
38. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.
39. Never borrow someone else's man.
40. If he/she cheated WITH you, he'll/she'll cheat ON you.
41. Just because he says he loves you, doesn't mean that he won't hurt you and it doesn't mean that you are meant to be with him.
42. To use painful hard-won wisdom -- 'get it right' the next time.
43. Know that you deserve to be the number one person in his life!

I have a feeling I'm going to type a lot of crap here today. What am I doing online anyway? Nothing. Just surfing Friendster, Blogskins[yes, again], and chatting with my beloved Ferli. I'm supposed to be offline and slacking at home.

Reached home like super early today. No outing after church because people were missing and I hate going out with the others without them. Why you may ask? Because nobody can come to a decision and all they will do is follow me around to everywhere I want to go. So meaningless! I'd rather we split up and go home. If Kelvin was there, he would make a decision that everybody would agree with. That's why I dread it when he doesn't come out with us. But I think now he's going to spend time with us less often[HAH! I know your secret].

Going out with Wenqi tomorrow. Going to town! Yeahs. Finally away from Tampines Mall or Century Square. Come to think of it, I haven't been to Punggol Plaza ever since I shifted here. But Mum said it's boring. Hmm. Anyway, watching The Incredibles tomorrow. If I have the money that is. Wahahaha.

I should go read the book I borrowed from San Bookshop. Special Relationship. Looks pretty good. Ciao.

Whoa I'm tired. But this time, I don't feel like going to bed. Was at Pasir Ris Park just now and had to play 'Guess the Number'. Damn. I had to forfeit 3 times. Had to eat all that crap. Haiz. Feeling so freaking full now.

Was supposed to meet Ferli for lunch just now. But was super late cos was chatting with Yuan Shyuan[or something like that lah] and I forgot the time. He's so funny! Rather nice guy lahs. Haha. So.. Camp meeting went fine. Can't wait for it. We've got Amazing Race and all that lahs. Right smack in the heart of Singapore! We would be staying so near Orchard, near Great World City. So a lot of time for shopping I hope. Haha. I hope it would be fun, cos we're not the ones planning it this time lahs. *crossing fingers*

I bought the pink top from Giordano already! Was thinking of getting the peachy one but then it was too bright for my skin colour, so took pink instead. It's in the wash, so I'll wear it with the S & K Jeans I bought last week to church tomorrow. Yeap.

Got Summerscent later. Yeah. Can watch TV. One thing I really dislike about Korean dramas is that they always repeat and repeat and repeat the same point. And then the story lines are always the same. Two lovers and then evil people trying to break them up. Haha. But then, very nice ehs. The lead roles usually very good-looking one. Hehs.

Hello! This is like, so early on a Saturday morning. AAAHHH... I still want to sleep, but can't seem to go back to sleep ehs. Maybe because the TV's a little distracting and noisy. Yeah it arrived yesterday with all the amplifiers and speakers and all that lahs.

Anyway, I got a job available for me. But then it's like, night shift and all that lah. Till about 4, 5am in the morning. How to go home like that? Nicholas said the bus shift starts at 6. So what? I have to walk home ahs? Cannot be right. But the pay is good ehs. I'm very tempted, but no freaking bus to go home! Haiz. Dilemma dilemma. And he said the place's pretty secluded. And plus he's giving up the slot. *spooky*

Anyway, remember the Opening Ceremony thingy I mentioned on Thurs? We have to dance. And it's people from the different houses in MJC. So we have a lot of people lahs. Dance dance dance. I can't freaking dance for nuts can. Wah piang. Haiz. I'll just make a fool of myself lahs nvm. Hahahahahahahaha.

Later got to go church. Got camp stuff to plan. After that still got practise for tomorrow's youth service. AAfter that got to go down to Pasir Ris Park. Got church bbq lahs. Don't know why it's always these few people we having bbq with. But oh wells. At least I get to stay out, so I won't have the urge to use the computer. Doddles.

I want to go swimming!! Yeah. Going with Ferli on Tuesday. I'm going to get a tan! WWHHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!! So happy. Then after all those camps and worship retreats I'm going to start studying. Like, seriously. Studying. But if I'm taking the job at Loyang then maybe I'll be a bit slack at studying. Hehs. I'm going to exercise lah. I want to go running.

Anyway, my hair's getting back to normal. Cos I've got my Organics already! Yeahs! Haha. Ok lah, got to go prepare alreadys. Meeting Ferli at 1pm for lunch. Doddles.

I'm in the school library. Got to come to sch for some Opening Ceremony thing lah. So tired. Went out Jalan Raya-ing yesterday with some people from my class. So fun!! But super tiring. Haiz. Fell asleep straight away after I went to bed. AND I HATE MY HEELS. Of all the times that I wore them it didn't hurt, but yesterday it did. So irritated. Maybe because everytime I wore them I was driven around in a car and I didn't have to walk much, but yesterday I walked so much! Eews.

Anyway, the sofa and tv table arrived yesterday. So the house looks rather complete now. Except for the study room, cos it's still super messy and all that lah. The TV's coming tomorrow, so we're still using the one from our old house. Hmm, the old TV is still working, vision clear and all that, don't know why they want to get a new one. Haiz. Ok lah, got to go. Bye!

I hate LUX Super Rich. It's spoiling my hair.

I want my Organics. Darn.

Today was like.. fun. Haha. Cos I didn't go for lessons at all. Not even for history. Just hung around the canteen and library. Then I came home. So bored.

Going for the handbell chalet laters. Aloha Loyang. Got barberque ahs. Going to get fat-ter. Wahaha.

I'm home alone! Cos like everytime I come home now there would be my Mom at home. But then today I came back and there wasn't anyone home. Hehs. Kinda fun. Cos I've got the radio to myself. Yeahs.

I am sick and tired of explaining myself and getting myself out of the shit that he put me in. But I'm glad that I've got worthy friends who know me well enough to know that I'm not that kind of person. And things are clearing up. Everyone else will soon see that it's his problem. Not mine. I never thought I would see these kinds of things happen in a JC. I thought 17 yr olds would be mature enough not to do things like that. I thought these kinds of things only happen in a secondary school. But then, I forgot that guys usually act like two years younger than their actual age. Yeah so.. Oh wells.

I think some guys in the school are pretty weird. Like the guy friend that Dee has. The things he does and the msgs he sends are like.. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. You would never expect something like that from him. But then, like what Shazleen says, I think he's the kind that girls will scream 'MOLEST!' in future. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHA. Pardon me, but he just looks like that kind of person. Hehs.

I don't feel like blogging already. Ciao.

Listening to: Pokemon and Team Rocket from outside the room.

I am tired but can't get to sleep. Cos for one, it's freaking hot and I can't switch on the air-con. And for two, my Mom will kill me if I go to bed now.

Reached home like at 11.30 last night. Hehs. Was supposed to go shopping with my family, and to go home after going for dinner but after dinner I went out with my churchies. Hehs. Went around the east side lahs. And ended up in Tampines again. So we went pooling! Yeappie doddles. And everybody was like so off yesterday, except for YongMeng lah. My Mafia for the day. Wahahaha. He and his black hair and black shirt and black pants and black shoes and black car. His aimings are like, whoa. Not bad for a guy who looks so blur ehs. =)

So I can't go tanning today. Another day I guess. When there are more people going. I want to get a burn. People say it's so dumb of me, but I just want to experience the feeling of getting a sun-burn. And then I'm going to the gym sometime soon. Cos Wenqi wants to exercise.

Ok I got to go. =)

Oh yeah. Went to S&K and bought jeans yesterday. Couldn't decide so just decided on this comfort straight. Hehs. And then we went down to Isetan and Mom bought necklaces! Like, whoa. And not cheap k. Each costs like 16bucks. And she bought 3. Right? Unless Nutcase paid for hers and Grace's. Oh and when nutcase and Grace were at Esprit asking the person about stuff, Mom and I were just standing at this thingy that sells Swatch watches. Then Mom was asking me, 'See when I buy watch for you. Which one you like?'

I was like, HUH?!? 'Er, I already have one that I like, but it's not Swatch one.'

'Then what brand one? Those branded one har?'

'Don't know. But very expensive one lah.'

'How much?'

'Yi bai san shi wu kuai.' (135bucks)

'Oh ok. See when lor.'

I was shocked. Why are Moms so nice nowadays? Like Wenqi's Mom. But then, I don't have high hopes of getting it from her lah. Or from anybody else. Some things cannot be trusted or taken too seriously one.

Wah sian. I hate it when I get cramps. I thought I was going to die this morning without getting pass my 17th birthday coming up in 3 weeks. Or is it 4? Never mind, doesn't really matter. Not like I will be having anybody special to spend it with me. Plus some churchies are going for the leadership camp thingy, so will have even less people celebrating with me. Why am I talking about my birthday now? Hmph. Ahs, no point.

About this morning, I was just rolling about my bedroom floor and I just couldn't get up. Everytime I tired to stand up my vision would just go all white and my head would feel like 10kg of durians just hit my head. Damn. Is this what I will have to go through everytime I get it? Like for the next 50 yrs of my life[if I actually get to live till that old]? But I still made it over to my Mum's bed, and laid on it. Because the heat in my own bedroom was getting unbearable, and I was breaking out in cold sweat. Glad I had my storybook with me. Then after reading about half the book I fell asleep for like 3 hours. Miraculously after I woke up, the cramps were gone. Wow. Sleeping help cramps to go away. Goodie. Hehs.

Had cell gathering last night. Well, not exactly the whole cell was there, only half of it. At least those who usually attend cell were there. Had dinner at Pastamania, then went to Pavilion to play pool. Hee so fun! I thought I would suck but then I didn't fare too badly. Hehs. Well, I can shoot long distance though. And I didn't get thrashed too badly. I didn't even get thrashed lah. Not even when I played with Kelv[super duper good pool player], or YiGuo[another super duper good pool player]. Hehs. Couldn't help feeling pleased with myself. And left the place with a great sense of achievement comparable to when I got my O level results back in March. Ok, make it much more a sense of achievement. Yeappie doddles. But then, I've still got a lot to improve on. Hmm, should go pooling someday soon. Hehs.

Mum bought apparels from Samuel and Kevin. *shouts yeah and jumps up and down* When I saw the 50% off all over the shop last night I wanted to tell her to go buy them, but then didn't. Just in case she gave me a thrashing for wanting to buy new clothes. But then today she came back with clothes!! Yeahs! Super happy. Haha. I've got new cropped pants, and when I tried them on just now I must say it looked pretty good. Just take away my face and it would look gorgeous. Not like I'm pretty or whatever. I look.. average. So whenever I try on something I try not to look at my face. Wahahahahahahaha. Ok I'll stop laming.

Got to go. Feeling sleepy again. I'm turning into such a pig. Uh oh.

Hi! Hehs. I'm in the school library, and I skipped Math. Uh ohs. Like I care. Hehs. I can't do sports today anymore. Apparently Dee hurt her foot. Aiyah her whole body's aching. So weird. And it's not like I have other sporty people in the class to do sports with me. Hmm oh wells. Anyway Szeech just confirmed tanning on monday! Whee! That's enough to make me smile in my dreams. Hahas.

Oh god. I hardly slept last night. I went to bed at 11.30. But didn't sleep until like 12? And I didn't sleep soundly. Woke up like don't know how many million times. Eews. And then, the sun rises like super early at Punggol. I woke up at 6.15 and the sun was like already up. Outside was so clear, blue-y and all that. Back at Tampines, it would still be dark and all at 6.15. Hmm. And the weird thing was I set the alarm at 6.05 but it rang at like 6.12. Weirdos.

I feel like watching Princess Diaries again.

I heard the funniest thing in my life in school this morning. Wahahahahahahahahaahhas. Look who's talking! HMPH.

Ok I got to go back to reading. I'm becoming more and more like a bookworm alreadys. And KT is still as long-winded as ever.

And by the way, I starting to believe that guys look fat after they cut their hair. As in, all guys look fatter after they cut their hair. For example, KT and ET and Joash and every other guy that I know. Wahaha. But then, some guys still look pretty cute, even though their new hairstyle's a Mohawk, which is like so 'I-don't-know-what-to-say'. Hehs.

And you know what? Sometimes bitching about people is so fun. Especially if you're with Dee and Wanky and Shaz. And Szeech and Ifah and Priya. Bascially the whole ang-moh group lahs. Wahaha.

Oh. My. God. They've got Glory of Love playing on Perfect10. Oh my god. It's the first time I'm actually hearing it lahs, and IT'S SO NICE! But no point making such a fuss over it. Cos there's no one to share my joy with me. It just makes me think.. but never mind. I'm getting by. I haven't been hearing Breakaway or Angels Brought Me here on the radio for days. What happened? And can they play Glory of Love again? Hehs. Stupid request I know. Like they would come in here and see like that.

I've been wanting to blog the whole day. But everytime I start to blog, my Mum would want to use the phone. So I forgot about the whole thing and tried to sleep. Miraculously, I slept. For 3 whole hours without the fan, without the air-con. I thought I would die, but I didn't. Guess I was really tired ehs. Now I'm wide awake. I have absolutely no idea how in the world I'm going to sleep later. And there's school tomorrow! Uh ohs. Never mind. I'll just use the com until my eyes get tired, then I'll be able to sleep. Yeappie doddles. Self-excuse. Hahas. 2 hours should be more than enough ehs? So I'll switch off the com at 10. No later than that. Ok stop it.

I can't wait for school tomorrow. Diana said to bring PE attire tomorrow, so that we can do sports. Tennis badminton whatevers. Running! I'm going to try to make her run with me. ANd then we've got Wenqi. I guess I'll msg her later to remind her. She's super blur. Yeahs!! Sports!! Hehs. This is enough to make me want to go to school for once. Like really. For once. I haven't been feeling like going to school for the past 2 weeks because I didn't feel like seeing things[and people] I didn't want to see. And I didn't want to say hi and act friendly to people I really had no intention to say hi to. Ok I know that sounds kind of anti-social and mean but, I just didnt have the mood lahs. I went to school only because I had to, and that because there's nothing for me to do at home. But when I say hi to people and all that, I really meant it lah k. I'm not fake can. So yeah. Hehs. I'm going to spend my last 5 school days in school like I've never spent it before. And then I'll really try to start studying for next year. Yeap.

I've got so many things I want to buy seriously. I need to get a mouse pad for my mouse, and some rest thingy for my wrists for the keyboard thingy. You know the long long kind you find in shops like Mini Toons and Happy House for your keyboard? What's that ah? I want to get that. And then one big nice box for all my personal stuff. Not exactly a jewellery box lahs. Cos I don't have any jewellery stuff to put in. Just one box with a locket so that I can at least have some nice box to put my private stuff in. I thought the drawers in my wardrobe would be useful. There were 3, so like 3 sisters would get one each. But then I realised that all the keys could fit and open all 3 drawers. So dumb. And now all my stuffs and all that are just all arranged nicely in one cupboard that was brought over from my old houseand once you open it you can see everything. And it's not safe in my house to put all your personal stuff unlocked with [ehem] nosy people around lah. Hehs.

This is like, super long. Hehs. I think I'm too naggy already. Ok lah I'll stop. Bye people.

Avril Lavigne 'Nobody's Home'
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.

Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home,
but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

Blink 182 'I Miss You'
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

Liz Phair 'Why Can't I?'
Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you
It's just like we were meant to be

Holding hands with you, and we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right
And I've got someone waiting too

This is, this is just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too
It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful
Here we are, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but heads spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

I'd love for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
I'd love for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'for this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

I think these songs are really cool lah. Really nice.

GOOD MORNING!! Ok, now it's like super early ahs. It's 9 in the morning and I'm here in the sch library blogging because I skipped Math Lecture. Hmm, not very nice to announce to the whole world out there is it? But haiyahs, I don't care lah. There's no point in going for lectures anyway. It's not like I'm promoted is it? Oh wells. Hmm, I don't exactly have much to say. Except that I came to school on my own this morning! Ok, not very big news but it is to me! Like, for the first time in don't know how many months since I started school here at MJ I came to school on my own in the morning lahs! Dad drives me actually, but he's sick today. So I had to come on my own. But the good thing is that I stay so near, and then there's a straight bus that goes to school from my house. The whole trip takes about what, 15 minutes? Yeah so I reached school like freaking early today. Even though I only had to be in school by 7.45 but I reached at like 7.15. Yeah so. Hmm. Ok, nothing much to say. Got to go alreadys.

OH WAIT!! I've got something to say! I watched Shark Tale! And Doll Master! Yeap both on the same day yesterday. Went to orchard with Eng Tian yesterday after PW in school. Doll Master is scary, it's nice, but it's not exactly very scary lahs. Not my favourite kind of horror movie. And Shark Tale isn't funny lah. Ok I think I'm the only person who thinks it isn't. I mean, it really isn't. It's not even up to Shrek's or Finding Nemo's standard. Such a waste of money for the movies yesterday. Oh darn. Oh wells. Hmm, I want to go to town again. SHOPPING!! Hehs. Ok now I really have nothing to say.

Ciao.

I'm at QL's place. AGAIN. For what you ask? PW lah. AGAIN. PW sucks seriously. Why is MOE so bloody mean? PW drains everybody. With stupid articles and notes of meetings and evaluation for information to do and stupid GPF to settle. What is wrong with the stupid minister of education? It's so retarded ehs. That nutcase pisses me off like nuts. So piece of ****. What is wrong with her? Argh. I can't stand the sight of her. Eews. Ok got to go. Macdonalds here I come! Haven't had lunch. Haiz.

Oh yeah, slept like pig last night! Woke up at like 12 noon today. Hehs. For the first time in my entire life Mummy didn't wake me up or kick me off the bed. She's weird.

Oh yah! I forgot. I watched Princess Diaries already!! It's so nice. Haiz. Anne Hathaway is so pretty, and her dresses are all so nice! So envious. Hahaha. If only I had a room like hers, and a Grandma like hers. Wahahaha. I don't mind watching it again though, cos it's so nice can! Save up a bit of money first. Whee!~

I still want to watch Shark Tale! Jasmine watched already and she says it's as nice as Shrek and Shrek2. Haiz. Looking out for people to watch with me. Anybody?

Listening to: Wo De Di Pan

Yeah!! Computer computer computer!!! Hehs. At QianLi's place. Came to look for information on the net. Got to look for articles to do the stupid P-eet-W. Sian. Ji. Pua. I'm done with all that shit, so I decided to blog. Finally I get to blog!! Yeppie doddles!! Moving house is fun, but very very tiring. Especially when you have to help your Mum carry all those heavy carton boxes, not wanting her to do all that alone. Especially when you have a younger sister like mine who does nothing but walk around shaking her bottom and reading her Winx[if that is how you spell that] magazine and talking on MY handphone like nobody's business. Especially when you have an elder sister like mine who buys stuff only for herself, and doesn't bother to lift a finger to help. Daddy's working, so all that is left is just plain old me. Tired tired. Glad all that is over, and I'm living just fine in the house now. Hehs. But it's damn difficult to get out of that place though. Going to Tampines is one big hassle and bus 3 takes damn bloody long to come. Taking a cab is even worse! Oh my shit. Mummy Grace and I were thinking of getting a cab down to Tampines, to our old place, but all the cabs were taken! So irritated. So we ended up taking bus3 to Pasir Ris, then alighted near MJ, and took a cab down. So sickening.

And now Friendster has deleted all my testimonials! What the hell? Can you imagine that? Freaking shit. Wah sian. Super sian. Haiz.

Can't wait for school to start. Nothing to do at home eh. Everytime I want to listen to the radio Grace wants to play the piano. I can't listen to music in peace. Haiz. I better pray I get back into Castor next year. I want to be in Castor. Diana's games I/C for Sargus, so I won't see her very often, but Shawn's in Castor! Yeah. Hehs.

School is becoming my second home. Ok wait. It already is my second home. Haha. I'm in school again, about to see KKK in about 15 minutes. Bom bom bom. Heartbeat's beating really fast. Don't know what will happen, don't know what to expect. I changed my blogskin. Cool ehs? I think it is though. Wahahaha.

I met Eng Tian on bus 81 just now! Haha. That guy. I was on the upper deck, and he came up at the TPJC stop. He plopped down beside me and I was like, 'who's the idiot who chose to sit next to me instead of all the other 40 seats that were not taken?' Then I looked up and I saw him! AHH!! So happy. Wahahaha. I sound like I like him ehs. No lah, he's my friend. My good good buddy of like 9 yrs? Hehs. We're going out again some time soon. Next week I guess. Yeah!!

Ok, I got to go. Ciao.

Listening to: Accidentally In Love

Ok got to make this super quick. Got to leave home at 12, going to my new place to unpack stuff and all that. I've got lesser and lesser things to do here at this old house already. No piano, no vball. And soon in a matter of hours or one day, I won't have a computer! Haiyo! How to survive without a computer? I will get so bloody bored ah. Plus over the new place there's no TV, just a radio. Darn.

Anyway, class outing was fun last night. Not exactly class outing because only like 5 of us were there. Haha. Farhan, Wenqi, Shaz, Szeech and me. Then we had Azry and Khairul[is that how you spell his name?]. They were at KFC having chicken lah. After that the guys went to pary and then we the girls went shopping. Bought a whole new outfit for Wenqi. That woman. Then I saw this pair of flip flops at Bata! Oh my god it's so nice!! Blue and pink[more like fuschia] and with butterflies! Havaianas. Oh my god. Too bad I didn't have enough, and I can't count on my ATM to get stuff cos there's only like 3.90 inside. Wahaha. I'm going to get it some day soon. Hmph. And then we went on to pool at Pavilion. Haha, I was laughing like nuts seriously. So retarded. We were like this bunch of kukus lah, laughing so loudly. Hehs. I so enjoyed last night. I so want to have fun like that again. Playing pool with them is so much fun!!! We should organise it again some time soon. Then we can have Khairul with us too. And I'll partner him again, cos he's so good at playing pool. Wahahaha. Like he shot in 4 balls in a row, and we won! Wahahahahahaha. So happy, couldn't stop laughing. HEHS.

Ok I got to go. Got to unpack stuff already. Ciao.

Listening to: Broken

Jeng jeng jeng. Feeling hyper right now. Maybe because Oral Presentation ended this morning, and so PW has finally come to an end! Yeah!!!! Haha, damn happy lah. No more PW for the rest of my life, or so I hope. If I pass it that is. Results will come out only in April next year, so have to wait. But meanwhile, no more Chinese education and language policies shit. Super happy man. But I don't exactly expect a high grade either, cos I know I didn't contribute much the past few months for PW. Haha, but who cares right? Can't be bothered lah. Now, what's on my mind is what will happen on Thursday when I go back to school. Scary. I don't want to keep my hopes too high, cos I will just feel more disappointed if I don't get I want to. Yeah. If things don't go well I can just anyhow do my CLAO exam on Friday lah. Haha. Oh well.

OP was a piece of cake! Though I thought I presented a bit too quickly, but the others said it was fine. Clear and loud. So that means I was good. Wahaha. And I was so freaked out for the Q&A session, but I didn't exactly get too hard a question either. I just hope I actually made sense lah. But I didn't like stutter or think for too long, so I guess it was fine. Yeah. I just hope to pass PW. So if next year if I retain[read: IF] then I won't have to take it up again. Yeap.

Class dinner later. Yeah! Think we would be going to Long John Silver's later. It was supposed to be some place called Mak's Place. Some Malay version of Jack's Place. Haha. Lame seh. But most of us were on budget, so we decided on LJS instead. Yeap. I already thought of what to wear, but then I realised that the top is already at my new place. So I can't wear it, and I would have to find another top. Sian. But then, I'll be going out with my classies! Just hope more people would go this time. The other time was so pathetic. Only 9 people turned up. And out of the 9, Shab wasn't from our class. Yeah so. Oh well.

I think I should go sleep. My shoulders are still hurting from the workshop I attended last weekend. Argh. I want to play like crazy later. I want to laugh like crazy later. =D