I've been busy... so busy for the past few weeks that I didn't have much time for myself. The week just fly by, and lin has even came back from Shanghai.
Everyday is packed with activities that by the time I go home, it's already 10pm. Honestly, this lifestyle is very draining. I have very little contact with the outside world. Though I'm not those social butterfly that will die without any contact, it is still kinda sad. I am happy to have my own free time to do things or perhaps just stare blankly. After working for 1/2 a year, it made me realise the importance of rest. Especially weekend rest where you can just recharge and do nothing.
My life has been exciting, with constant training and races to go in addition to my tuition and full time work. Am I loading myself with too much activities? I just played a Bridge game over the weekend and it reminded me that I wanted to excel in it.. In every sports, to excel means you need to spend time.. Do I have the time?
I know I've always been saying that time is a perspective. Depends on how you allocate your schedule and time to make it happen. Sacrificing some other things along the way to make it happen is inevitable. For me, it's always sleep... but whta's next after sleep? You can't be compromising on work right? There are other things to worry about right? So how?
The new job scope that I've been given is going to make things worst. It'll be even harder for me to meet friends and I'll be running around everywhere. Experience for my growth? perhaps.. I wonder how much I will be able to learn and whether it's worth it. I just don't like the feeling that I've been made used of. Switch so much things for me, but yet dont' want to adjust my pay. Come on.. you must be kidding. Still ask me to prove it to you, when you are the one that thinks I am up to it, that's precisely why I have this new profile isn't it.. Joke
I have no sense of belonging to the company.. sadly..
Asking me to expand the biz in Penang and Batam, but yet leaving me to fight for myself with minimal help is interesting. Do you really trust me that much that you hand me a branch to manage, just after 4 months? Asking me to talk to big client in Malaysia after just 5 months? and further expanding the OTC biz in Penang after 6 months?
Is it a matter of you have no time to execute what you have in your mind, and I happen to be a cheap labour that can help you start it? Some colleagues tell me that they you think I'm capable enough to do it, that's why I have so much opportunities. Thanks, but I would really appreciate if there is a bit more guidance. Throw me into a pool, and I either swim or drown. With my high adaptibility I would likely survive, but excel? I don't know about that.
I don't feel happy now... I dread what I'm doing for some of the things..
Knowing more about how you handle the customers, it gives me an insight to what you may be thinking when dealing with me as well. Being so sly and tactful when talking to customers, it makes me very wary about what you say. Can I really trust you? Sorry I can't. I'm not so gullible.
I thank you for giving me this opportunity to learn (on myself) and regional exposure. How much I will learn really depends on myself now.. ( since no one is guiding). With the current messy that you two have generated, treating your staffs like chess pieces and reshuffling us to whatever you like, you will not get the best out of us. Especially me... Cos I know that I'm one that needs stability and sense of belonging..
Good luck to your plans. If I'm still around.. I will help out in what I can.. for now..
