Everyday Moments Make The Best Memories

This is the talk http://lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,23-1-947-9,00.html

that has gotten me through these last few weeks. Most of you know by now I was 8 weeks pregnant. I went to my first apt. and the Dr. said I was either not that far along or the baby stopped growing at 5 1/2 weeks. WHAT!!!?! Yes after having 3 healthy pregnancy, I wasn't expecting that nor did I want to accept it. I was devastated after several labs, many ultrasounds and a few long weeks my heart was broken. They never found a heart beat and I had to have surgery since my body wasn't realizing the pregnancy wasn't viable.

I've been through many emotions these last few weeks. So how am I doing??? I know heavenly father doesn't give you anything more then you can handle. I honestly wonder if he has me confused with someone else right now. I am so thankful that no matter what an emotional mess I feel inside right now. I have a firm foundation of the gospel. My savior fully understands my pain and suffering and when I'm ready, I know he will lift it from me.

Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin Said

"If we approach adversities wisely, our hardest times can be times of greatest growth, which in turn can lead toward times of greatest happiness"

"Learning to endure times of disappointment, suffering, and sorrow is part of our on-the-job training. These experiences, while often difficult to bear at the time, are precisely the kinds of experiences that stretch our understanding, build our character, and increase our compassion for others."

"He who descended below all things will come to our aid. He will comfort and uphold us. He will strengthen us in our weakness and fortify us in our distress. He will make weak things become strong."

I have faith that we will be blessed with another healthy child someday and I will be able to look back at the blessings this trial will provide for me. For now I know I need to focus on what I do have and that is an Amazing Family, 3 beautiful children, A husband who is a worthy priesthood holder, Knowledge that I'm a daughter of god and he loves me, Faith that has gotten me through many trials these last few years, Blessing my family has received for enduring through each of them and that we continue to be blessed and that our Family is Eternal.

*****I'm thankful for all the blessings, messages, love and support. I truly am blessed to have such amazing friends and family. Thank you T for driving 3 1/2 hours to give me a blessing that testified the truth fullness of this scripture to me. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!

Dc 84: 88 And whoso ^areceiveth you, there I will be also, for I will go ^bbefore your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left, and my ^cSpirit shall be in your hearts, and mine ^dangels round about you, to bear you up.

My parent's birthday was on Sun. I honestly miss them more then ever right now. I miss my moms phone calls, I miss her messages saying "Ali this is your mom call me" ( like I had no idea who it was) I miss just showing up at their house and seeing what random things they were into. I miss discussing American idol with my mom. I know she would love this years contestant. I miss the feeling of comfort that I need from them when things are wrong in my life. I miss shopping on my birthday, knowing she would go to as many stores as it would take for me to make a decisions. I miss her chili and homemade chicken noodle soup. I miss my dad telling me that life is just rough. I miss that they are not here with my children. My dad would be so proud of D seeing him on his mule riding it around. I can't help but think that grandpa was sitting there right behind him when he was ridding on his birthday. D normally is afraid of new things but he rode like he had been doing it for years. I need them so much right now. I know that they are closer now then ever and I hate when I feel this way because, I know that it hurts them and they want me to be happy and enjoy these moments. So here is my :) mom and dad I know you will help me through this time and many more. Happy Birthday!!!!!


and last but not least Happy Birthday to ME........Thanks for all the birthday wishes I sure did need them. Jul's and fam thanks for the sun umbrella and treats. If I were you I would of let us fry in the sun after all we chose to move right. Thanks to my in- laws for the cute card and the boring gift ;) and all the love and support this week. (that's all I really needed) Sorry to my sib's for up and leaving early in the morning. I know you understand. I will just catch you next time. You all know I like to drag my birthday celebration out as long as possible.And last but not least Thank you T for taking me to dinner and for my new bling. Late but definitely worth the wait love your guts!!!!

My birthday bling from T and CO (T&the KIDS) 2 Rings WHAT!!!?!! Love you guys