6.28.2004

blog chismis

louie has a new blog for an allegedly new and more honest side of him.and chrissy has finally revealed her blog after months of keeping it a secret.
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just found out that i might not be able to go home during the christmas break.apparently, we wouldn't have a two-week breather during the yuletide season.

6.23.2004

thank god for dogs

daring to break away from my usual choice of food on those rare occasions when i do have to cook, i temporarily said goodblye to fried chicken, canned sardines and instant noodles yesterday. for my culinary debut, i tried doing sauteed ground beef with potato ala jeanie.just this one more domestic task to master and i can claim to be a price catch, the perfect little housewife who can cook, wash and clean the house.
empowered by some misguided and delusional confidence and some vague recollections of my mom in the kitchen, i took to the task without even as much as a recipe or a call to any of my relative who can cook for some consulation.first, i crushed the garlic and chopped the onion which i had to rush out the house for and buy from a store because my aunt and i didn't buy any more when we went to the market. then i dropped them in oil that was slowly heating up. i just love the smell of garlic and onion, it always reminds me of my mom.
then, i dropped the ground beef first which cost me a fork that got bent out of shape when i tried to scrape a handful of frozen beef. then i dropped the cubed potatoes, which was not uniformly cut as some were bigger and longer than the others. the beef ended up burnt and crisp but the potatoes remained hard and raw.and despite adding a few pinches of salt, several dashes of soy sauce and knorr and shaking the msg bottle a couple of times, the food still ended up tasting bland.then of course, i placed too few water and even fewer cooking oil so the food was dry, bland, raw and burnt.
it was almost 10, i haven't had breakfast, any sleep or a bath yet.i had to have at least one.so i turned on the fire once more and reheat the chicken adobo i've had for breakfast, lunch and dinner the previous day.and my culinary masterpiece?gone to the dog(s).literally.

6.16.2004

there's a book with my poem in it!!!

and just when i thought i have outgrown the jeanie-who-writes-better-poems-than-programs stage, i stumbled across a pleasant surprise and reminder yesterday. i passed by powerbooks live yesterday to check out books i might start reading when i happened to see one of my old, sad poems in the newly published anthology from up press. so my dear, wonderful friends, if you have time, please do check out one hundred love poems philippine love poetry since 1905 which was edited by krip yuson and jimmy abad. the poems, i assume, are arranged chronologically according to the author's birthday so my poem is the second to the last poem on p. 119, right before gelo's.naya , nikko, and eva are there too, as well as other "older" writers who definitely have better poems than me but because we are friends, you'll read mine and pretend to love it anyway.:)
and i'm sorry if i sound like someone who's just had her poem published in the book for the first time because it is true and i'm just so excited and happy because i haven't seen my name or my poem in print after a long time. and seeing it happen again when you thought you've completely neglected it and writing has completely given up on you, gives you some kind of nostalgic nudge to take it up again.and so here's crossing my fingers and wishing that i will write again with the fervor and enthusiasm of jeanie-the-college-student-who-always-thought-she-was-in-love with hopefully the insight and maturity of jeanie-the-one-who-pays-taxes-and-now-knows-that-love-won't-foot-the-bills.
might i make a disclaimer though that it isn't one of my better poems, although all my poems are barely good enough, and it was written when i was younger, more dramatic and i didn't know any better.but i love my poems even though most of them still embarrass me and remind me of a stage in my life i'd rather forget.anyway, i hope you can get a hold of the book and enjoy the poems, and i couldn't resist adding this --> especially mine.

6.10.2004

it's pick on jeanie day!

it started with the stomach pains and body aches and the heightened sensitivity and moodiness that accompanies the onset of that monthly thing.then on my way to work, in the middle of my nap, the driver knocks at the door and asks us to get down because he needs to fix the tires.so there i was, in my best office clothes in weeks with my new pretty pair of earrings with three roses in pink, white and fuschia, standing in the middle of edsa, below a flyover with the rest of the world grumbling at us for stalling them. after an eternity of waiting for him to change the tire, he starts the car only to bring it to the side of the road and tell us to take a hike or take another ride.so i opted to take a bus.because it was 7 am, the mrt will probably be crammed with people and we were stranded in between stations.so i took a bus, that day, that one day when i had to be on time because i had an important meeting.
but the universe was kind.or so i thought.because we got through cubao and ortigas with not so much fuss.and then we came to a bottleneck in boni because a bus hit something.so 15 minutes till my meeting and i was still in boni right smack in a crash.how lucky can i get?perhaps enough because i got there in time.then the rest of the day was fairly uneventful.then i had to go out and meet some friends.
while walking along ayala ave, a girl approached me and told me that there were all too visible signs of this cursed monthly infliction.so i had to rush to the department store and get reinforcements and hide any evidence of this predicament.there were to many long lines to fall in, and so many wiating to do as well as a grouchy janitress who believed that you shouldn't squat in a public cr.i wanted to tell her to shut up and just do her job.her definition of hygiene might include sitting in a public cr and contracting std and all sorts of disease, but not me.but i was too tired besides i've messed up her stall pretty bad anyway.nyahaha!
when i got down to the mrt platform, there were people, people and people.i couldn't get in and i was running late for a meeting with a friend who was going to show me her place. the next train comes and goes and i barely got to move an inch.when another train came along, i felt myself propelled towards the train, casting doubts about how much acn one space really hold if matter really is as impermeable as we thought it was.then i get off at the next station in buendia to get a cab to rockwell.15 minutes and no cab stops, no cabs are free.i go up the stairs and try to get a cab on the other side.i go down the wrong side, there's only an escalator going up.and just when i'm about to cross, the mmda aide signals for us to stop and has the gall to remind us not to rush.finally, we can cross and i get to hail a cab.i wait for the cab to approach me at the side of the street where it's safe when this stupid mmda aide shouted at me telling me to approach the cab instead of waiting for it to come to me.i raised my hand at him in a whatever way and shouted what i've been wanting to say all day, shut up!
so i'm in the cab and ny friend tells me she has a meeting till 8 so i say it's ok, i might as well meet my other friends who were going wall-climbing.i get there and the place is noisy, hot and dirty, at least it seemed that way when my day has been nothing but noisy, hot and dirty.i won't climb i say, i'm too exhausted, i'll just watch.and so i watched people climb for an hour or so.and then they said they still have to try out the trampoline and i said i'm out of here, i'm going to the mall.and so i pretend to be interested in going to shops when what i'd rather be doing is having dinner and hanging out with my friends like i thought i would. thus the mad dash and the all out effort to be there despite all odds.then my other friend tells me her meeting's over and we can go over her place.i said i was too tired to walk and that i might have to meet my other friends for dinner.maybe next time, i said,while mentally crossing out one item i failed to do in my to-do list.
we go back to the wall-climbing arena and after two hours, people were not yet done!i rushed to get here, my body was aching and i'm not in the best of moods but i get there, i rush to get there only to be kept waiting for two hours!at 830, i was exhausted, cross, hungry and harrassed and i had to wait again? i hate waiting, i hate staying out too late especially when i have to go home alone and i hate not having plans kept.and so i said, i was going home.after all the hassle i went through to get there and being kept waiting for two hours, all they could say was ok, bye-bye!
any friend of mine would've known that i wanted to be stopped, calmed and asked to stay.any friend who knew what i went through to get there would know that i wanted to be there and that i needed to hear that they wanted me to be there and they wanted me to stay.but there was a little comfort to my ego when someone offered to give me a ride.so i consented to stay.
and then after waiting for a few minutes, we go up to have dinner, finally.and then the receptionist asked us if we have reservations.of course we had none, and she had to say what i've been doing for the past two hours that i hated doing, that we had to wait.and that was the final straw.so i said i was going home.and i did.i took a taxi, rode the mrt then took another taxi.it was one of the worst days of my life, i was cross, tired, hungry, humiliated, disappointed, frustrated, sad and broke because of all the taxi rides.
yes, i know the world doesn't revolve around me but it sure feels like it's shitting on me.

6.08.2004

get ready to scramble

it's amusing to watch how people here at work scramble like crazy ants at the earliest hint of a network failure.it starts with a surprised gasp, a puzzled look, a growing sense of panic when the computer comes to a halt along with all the other programs, transactions and operations it's running.then the commotion grows as they learn that their seatmate, their groupmates, the adjacent team, the entire floor, the entire building is having the same problems.then calls and service requests assail the call center - people complaining that their work has come to halt, that things aren't working as they expect them to, demanding for an explanation, an assurance of an immediate restoration of the order of things.

"the network's down!oh no, the network's down!" you'd think that by the way they're freaking out, the four horsemen of apocalypse has been unleashed and the world is coming to an end.but perhaps it is, in this little world that is hp where where the network is as vital as solar energy, a downtime is tantamount to an overextended typhoon season when all the polar caps have melted, flooding the world like a rerun of noah's ark.i would be panicking of course, but only because I dread the thought of having nothing to do and not being able to surf, send emails or even chat with people online.and so yes, i admit i panic like people in noah's time, not because the entire world's underwater but because i'd have to be stuck with the animals.
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i just came from lunch with aisa and we were talking about people we used to be in the same org in school with.our conversation came to a common acquaintance who used to star in one of those short-lived teeny bopper shows.and it got me wondering where have all those other teen wannabee has-beens and never-beens gone from circa that's entertainment to ang-tv to tgis and gimik and pretty soon, the generation starstruck and star circle quest?do they miss being on tv, having people shout their names in adulation and their faces gracing every ad, billboard and magazine?or are they thankful that they've finally achieved a semblance of a normal life without the frantic schedule and the role-playing?and for the more famous ones, can they ever have that normal life most of us enjoy plenty fine?or is there nothing distinct about a star's life from mine except the fact that they're richer, more famous, perhaps have better prospects of a love/lust life, and have a greater tendency to die earlier from some disease than me?
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what is with girls less helpful and accommodating with their fellow girls than boys?i realized this during the past few days when I've been asking for help from the girls in the group and the boys seemed more willing and eager to answer my questions than them.but when boys asked them, they seemed friendlier and more accommodating.is this paranoia, girls being girls (loosely translated, subtle flirts) or am i just more appealing to guys(thus their willingness to help)which might probably mean I'll never be a lesbian object of affection?