anchor-hold

i'm home...at least for another week...

it's not what you think it is. you should know that i have always told you the truth.maybe not always in a straightforward, explicit way but i have always told you what i think and feel.

most people remember friday the thirteenth's, i will remember saturday the fourteenth and sunday the fifteenth.
from cafe med to starbucks to narnia to westin to alabang to heaven and eggs to a fuschia cardigan at u2 to 30g ipod video to a pair of shoes from florsheim to friends marathon and yet another 30g ipod video. and finally redefining over-compensating.this isn't what i had in mind when i wished for a wonderful surprise but it's not bad.not bad at all.thank you for making my birthday wish come true.and for everything else.

...yes that was sarcasm, in case you missed the tone. at least i have learned i am capable of transforming pent-up frustration, disappointment and irritation into energy for work so potent it can keep me up despite the fact that i am sleep-deprived, hungry and supposed to be taking it easy on a weekend. now, i have edited, updated and prettified a 50-page work how-to. really, thanks.

a new theory, the length and frequency of your blog entries are in indirect proportion to the excitability and noteworthy level of the recent events.so here's a quick recap of an almost two-week-old new year:

• excellent analysis, my boss in brussels replies in the email and it's enough to make me smile for the rest of the day.i am so blessed to be working with such brilliant and warm people. i wouldn't have done with your help, godslittlebear. here's to us area 3 girls! the fate of millions of head and shoulders bottle and downy packs rest in our hands. now if only i could raise my dwindling enthusiasm for work.


• i guess it's true, when it rains it pours. although in my case, it might be a case of drizzle. nonetheless, i am thankful. i will not say anymore for fear of jinxing it.


• at last, i finally managed to "launch" my project at work. we had our first run this week and judging from the dynamics during the training, i think it was a success. i guess it helped that the food was delicious too. but i'm glad that i was able to help make some of my teammates' lives easier, at least as far as work was concerned. here's hoping future runs will only get better than this.


• i learned my rating for last year's worth of work and let's just say, it might not be the straw that breaks the camel's back but it definitely weighed it down further.


• we've had some security issues at home causing me to be more paranoid and be a bigger scaredy-cat than i already am. we've added some locks and installed an intruder alarm device (thanks to my housemate nina, who manages to find things you never thought you'd find like wall putty to seal cracks between your walls and floors -> or am i just that much of spaz when it comes to diy?). i hope we won't have to move, i like my room and the 15-minute commute and i hate having to pack and unpack and have to transfer all my things. ugh. why can't people take responsibility for themselves? we work hard and the last thing we need is to be anxious about enjoying what we worked hard for.grr.i told my housemate i wish i were an aswang so i can just scare them off away. yes, i could've been a fairy or an elf but i had to say i wish i were an aswang.
  
• it's my birthday in exactly two weeks!yey for me!even more yey because i'm going home to spend it with my family.i'm so excited, i'm counting the days until i get on the plane. when i went home last christmas, i absolutely fell in love with my cousin who is probably one of the more adorable and smart kids around. she always says things that crack us up. isn't she cute?

• speaking of family, my lola has decided to become my matchmaker and promised to set me up with her friend's grandson. she does her sales pitch, he comes from a good family and is well-bred. my tita who was sitting beside me was rolling her eyes, saying i shouldn't get my hopes high because it's probably just one of the lolos from my lola's org. meanwhile, my mom says not to rush things, i'm young and i still have all the time in the world. then my cousin who was already in highschool tops it off by saying he doesn't want to fall in love because he doesn't want to get hurt. and we all know, nothing beats the melodrama that is adolesecence so we get up and get more food.

...a-week-late happy new year to everyone. here's hoping this year will be more fruitful than the year before. my only resolution for this year is to work even harder and better. in other words, year of the dog is year of the career. now, if only i can find my motivation. i have been so disheartened and frustrated with work these past few days but here's hoping i'd get over this rut and resume my normal routine a.k.a. at least 10 hours per day at work.

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on a slightly narcissistic note, it is my birthday in less than two weeks (in exactly two weeks, i will be flying home again!). yesterday, my tita mistakenly texted me instead of my mom asking when she should bring around my gift. apparently, my mom asked for my tita's help to get my birthday gift. i replied and told my tita that she sent the message by mistake to me and that i now know the surprise. she texts back, your mom would kill me, can you just pretend to act surprise?hehe.
gosh, i can't believe it, i am turning 23 already, getting older and gaining more weight.my only birthday wish for this year is one fantastic, heart-stopping, deliriously glorious surprise that is so great and totally unexpected that i would spend days afterwards asking myself, what did i do to deserve such a gift? yun lang.