Thursday, September 10, 2009

Sacrificial Attempt


Have you ever come across some stranger who unexpectedly joins you for lunch and begins to open your eyes on hidden blessings in your life?

Well, today I just have.

I went for an unusual earlier lunch, just a few blocks away from where I worked and satisfied my cravings for some Chinese dish. The restaurant was expectantly filled with working people and therefore made my way for the bigger table by the end, nearest to the kitchen, where most lonely people sit for lunch without any lunching partners.

A man drags a chair by the table where I was sitting and asked if it was OK for him to join me. Without hesitation, I quickly said, "Sure! No problem!"

One obvious reason why I didn't hesitate was because I knew him one time, during an event where he had to take pictures together with his crew. Though I didn't know him personally, i felt the comfort to have a casual conversation.

All I knew about this man was that he's a very talented photographer and rather polite - or so I thought he was just being one. But throughout the brief conversation we had, he was more than just what I thought he was...

I saw a guy who had painful scars in his heart but never stopped believing in God's purposes for his future.

He told me stories about his family, life in Brunei as a Philippine overseas worker and his shattered dreams of becoming a less appreciated photographer.

He has been working in the country for almost 21 years, supporting two kids (one 18 and the youngest 13) and wife who are residing in the Philippines. He told me that his family has never visited Brunei since he started his work, abroad due to financial reasons. For almost 18 years he has worked for the company he's working for, at present, he has lived to the extent of earning about B$350 per month and sometimes even B$200. His working hours are from 8:30 in the morning till' 9:30 in the evening, everyday without shifts. He's facing a number of challenges in life where he had to sacrifice so much just to make a living in a country where opportunities aren't so clear.

But he kept on working harder and harder each and everyday. No matter what it takes to be a servant with no complaints. He faced his everyday with a smile on his face and to be excited with what the day has to bring.

From his stories, he revealed how blessed I was to be staying with my family, supported with a good job and better opportunities. He showed me that no matter what your profession is, we need to make sacrifices in life to see how far God will take us. That no matter how much pain we have to go through, in the end, if we keep on trusting God, everything will be worth the risk.

Everyday, I wondered how far the Lord would take me with what He has done for me and my family here in Brunei. Would I be ready to make sacrifices in life one day and face my everyday with a smile no matter what it brings?

What about you? Don't you think you are blessed today with what you've got? Even the lil' things in life that you have and what others don't have?

I thank God for speaking to me through strangers in the unexpected days and for teaching me lessons which I can share with other people.



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Tuesday, September 8, 2009

The girl in the Mirror


Today I came home asking myself what people actually see when they look at a Filipina girl like me staying in a country which is not my own. I've been told ones, not by one but many others that when one of your kind does something tremendously bad that reflects your race, the other people of the same kind reveals a stinky reputation to the eyes of many.

Perhaps a quarter of the population of Filipina girls found around the other parts of the world has a reputation which Isn't very pleasing to many. And just because of that, alota people would quickly judge the rest of the Filipina's based on what they know or may think they know.

It's quite heart breaking to feel as though you're being looked down at just because of your race. Especially in a country which outnumbers you by many other races. Truly it Isn't just because most of the Filipinas you know who are awful at many things means every single one of us are equally the same. Remember that we are just any other human on earth who Isn't perfect.

I have been living in Brunei since the age of 1 and quite frankly I've made both good and bad relationships with many different races. I have never quite actually been treated badly due to my race yet but growing up things just started to look so much different. Even though I've been brought up almost my entire life here, i can differentiate quickly how we are treated so differently to the other races. Differently in terms of trust issues.

Often i hear a lot of stories about other Filippina Women being hooked up in juicy stories as Mistresses, Hookers, Users, Liars, Abusers to their employers and other awful stuff you hear within the country they stay in. This in fact breaks my heart to know that because of these issues, most of my people are looked at this way and I don't blame those who can't seem to trust us easily.

I pray that this issue would be fixed. Where no racism occurs in our midst. Though i am still hurt by the issue, I will stand tall and strong. What lesson would this give? How can I help to solve the problem? Would I have the heart for my people too? Do i remain embarrassed about the situation or should I be brave enough to do something about it?

Guess this is the only thing which I am not proud about my race...

Heartbroken will I remain...

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Sunday, August 23, 2009

So Damn Occupied

Excuse me for not being able to update this place. I've been MIA simply because of work. And I won't be able to fill this place up for any updates until September I suppose. =(

Overall, I've been well and healthy. I honestly thank God for family & Friends at this state of time. =)

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Monday, July 13, 2009

Maybe I should

and 5, 6, 7, 8... *Bones cracking* :(

Terrible! at the age of soon-to-be 22 already i feel like 82. My dancing skills need real polishing. I'm so out of shape and for the past couple of days I've been watching "So you think you can dance" I feel like I should've pursued my dance training and never have stopped after high school. They're just so inspiring and its giving me that motivation to go a lil' step forward.

Teaching dance and learning dance has a whole lot of difference in many ways. Right now i just want to be a student once again. I need new ideas, fresh techniques and a whole lota warm ups (with more discipline and push in excelling one self) :)

Ok! So I've been thinking... Maybe I should take this seriously. Like apply myself in a dance school where dance is seriously taken. It's just my time management with everything else that goes around that's bugging me right now. haha... God willing I can pursue this thing I love doing most! hehe...

Anyways, here's a vid of a guy named Alex Bullon with extreme talent!



Observe the little kid on his right. haha..so adorable! ;)

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