Monday, October 26, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
God is our hope...
I sit here thinking what to write when there really is nothing to write....
I think about whether or not to continue this blog, what to say, how long with this blog be needed??
As far as our case of adopting Nathan.... we need a miracle. Things are not good, we have not recieved good news in a long time. What if we never recieve good news??? Is God still good? Is He still in control?? Is God sovereign?? YES!!!! God is our hope! BUT, that does not always make this easy... it is never easy.
Nathan is good. Nathan is happy. Nathan is loved. This is God's plans for now. Where will God take us?? Where will God take our family? Only He knows... my prayer is that we continue to follow.
Thank you for faithfully praying for Nathan, our case, and us. Please continue to pray. God knows. God can move the mountains....
Our sufferings can't compare with His glory....
"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us." Romans 8:18
God has a purpose in our sufferings.....
" And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called accoding to his purpose. For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whome he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified." Romans 8:28-30
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
July.....2009
My little pointer.... He loves to point at the camera then see the picture you just took of him. He will love my camera then, I have it all the time! In these pictures, he is wearing an outfit and shoes that we sent down with his birthday package. Thanks Lisa for delivering it!
All the boys.....
Ashley said Nathan loved this dog.... Gives me hope that he will love Brock and Graycie!
The picture is foggy because of Nathan's little finger that touched the lense:)
This is Nathan with a wonderful woman named Ashley. Thank you Ashley for all you have done for these children, the mamma's and the people of Guatemala this summer. You are a true blessing!
"DO NOT TOUCH MY COOKIE!!!!!!"
My handsome boy..... he is perfect!!!!
How can you keep this precious gift from us?!?!? Lord, bring him home!
Nathan's stats:
All the boys.....
Ashley said Nathan loved this dog.... Gives me hope that he will love Brock and Graycie!
The picture is foggy because of Nathan's little finger that touched the lense:)
He looks like a little man in this pictures:)
This is Nathan with a wonderful woman named Ashley. Thank you Ashley for all you have done for these children, the mamma's and the people of Guatemala this summer. You are a true blessing!
"DO NOT TOUCH MY COOKIE!!!!!!"
My handsome boy..... he is perfect!!!!
How can you keep this precious gift from us?!?!? Lord, bring him home!
Nathan's stats:
Weight-35.6 lbs
Height- 35.5"
Head -20"
Foot- 6.5"
He is a healthy little boy!
He is starting to get really active and speak a lot of spanish, which means we need to improve ours!
Below is what the mamma's had to say about Nathan this month:
He likes to eat by himself, but he does not do a good job using at spoon. He is learning to color, paste pictures into shapes. He still gets mad as other pass him by.( I think what they are talking about is when he is on a tricylce)
He is going to be my little leader! I can't wait!!!!!!
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Nathan's Special Day....
God is my provider.....
God provided for Nathan and for us today on Nathan's special day today.
See how Nathan celebrated with his friends, old and new.....
Thank you Preiss Family..... You will never know the gratitude I feel towards you!!! You are a true blessing to me!!!
Happy 2nd Birthday Sweet Boy!
2 weeks .....
Our Sweet 2 Year Old Baby Boy.....
Our baby boy is being loved on by precious people today and this week. I am so thankful for these blessings......
We love you baby boy. My heart breaks knowing we can't be with you on such a special day, but the peace I have knowing how much you are loved and cared for gets me through.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
a new day....
Well, 2 years of Nathan's life is approaching, fast. So many emotions that I feel: sad, happy, mad, peace, angry, joy, numb, etc. Never in all my dreams did I see us here at this point. Never in my wildest dreams did I see us here watching our son celebrate his second birthday in Guatemala without us. Never in my wildest dreams.......
Nathan has no idea who we are, how much we love him, how much we pray for him, how desparate we are for him to come "home" to us. All he knows is his life he has lived at Eagle's Nest with the same nannies for the first two years of his life. He is happy. That makes us happy. In the picture above, Nathan is smiling. We do not get to see this often in his update pictures. But in this picture he is by himself, with his favorite nannie, Mimi. He is happy....
It is so hard to explain to others how we are doing through out this journey. God has been so faithful to us. We have learned so much, yet still have so much to learn and so many questions not answered, and may never. But getting to this point in our lives took over 5 years, so explaining is not the easiest.
When people go through trials, suffering or times of pain in their lives, sometimes there may be an end in sight. They can see the goal line, the light at the end of the tunnel. They know that it will not last forever. This journey does not seem to have an end in sight, at least here on earth. I pray we will see one soon, but who knows how long it will be. That to me, is one of the hardest parts....
Nathan turning two has been tough. Tougher than what I thought. Many people do not understand that just because we did not "birth him" or that he is not here with us physicallly, or that we are "in the process of adopting him", then he is not really our son. But if you really understood adoption, then you would really understand us and the pain. But imagine someone taking your child from you and spending AT LEAST the first two years away from him/her. The pain would be unimaginable, wouldn't it?
I never new "I" could do this. But that is the funny thing... "I" didn't. God is so much greater and stronger than us. Only by His grace and mercies do we see a new day each morning. Our hope lies in Him. HE is our strength......
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
where have i been??
Where have I been???? no where, still here...
I have been somewhat busy lately, not feeling real well while trying to keep up with life. I have not had much to say on here because there is not really much to say. Things do not really look good at this point with the adoption. I will not go into details for privacy reasons, but know that we DO NOT know what is going to happen. No one really knows. We are still hoping, believing and trusting that God will bring our son home to us. God is in control.
Nathan will be turning two very soon. This is hard to think about. It is hard to accept. We were wanting to badly to be with him whethere here or there, but neither are going to happen. Pray he know and feels how much he is loved....
On a different note....
Our little friend, Tucker, went to be with Jesus May 31, 2009. Please pray for his mom and dad, Courtney and Jason, and his little sis, Lily. This family is amazing. Their faith is amazing. Their strength is amazing. Tucker was amazing!! You can read more of their story on the link to the side. One last thing.....
YOU MUST WATCH!!!! Our pastor suggested us watch this video last Sunday. I watch it today... WOW!!! What a testimony for Jesus!!! So much truth!!!! http://www.deathisnotdying.com/
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Happy Birthday Daddy! May 11, 2009
May 2008
Over the weekend we celebrated Casey's birthday. I feel he always gets the raw end of the deal with Mother's Day always being the same weekend:) We ate lots of good food and made lots of good memories.
Happy Birthday Casey (yesterday)! I love you more:) I pray your birthday wishes come true!!!!
Sunday, May 03, 2009
Friday, May 01, 2009
2 years ago....
we were placed on the boy's waiting list. We were number 4....
To think back to the emotions of how we felt during that time. "How in the world were we going to get through the waiting time for our referral of our son?" HA HA! If we only new what true "waiting" is....Waiting... such a hard thing to do. Still after soooo many years, I do not think I do it well.
BUT, that is the key... I am obviously not doing this alone... God is with us every step of the way.
I will wait forever for you sweet boy!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
a year ago...
This time last year we were in the process of trying to get Nathan's birth certificate rectified. We still do not know what exactly was wrong with the BC, but it took 5 months to fix when it use to take 2-3 months.
If we only knew what would lie ahead of us for the year following. I try not to say "what if this, what if that?"; but some days it is all I can say. I know all the "Sunday school" answers to this journey... it is the answers to the hard questions that I do not know, that answers no one knows, and I probably will never know this side of heaven. Not always the easiest to accept.
This past year has been the year of the most learning in this journey. If anything could go wrong, IT DID!!!! And it continues to. When life seems like everything is wrong and nothing is right, all you can do is learn. If I had to choose between learning this way or another.... well obviously it would not be this way. But that is not and was not my choice to make. It was God's plan all along for us to go this journey. We are His children, His followers. I am so thankful that I am not in control. If we were in control, who knows where we would be?!?!?!!?
In the midst of all this, I try to remind myself... it is not about me!!! This is a time of trial. And, YES, it is misserable and it hurts daily. BUT, it is all of GOD. It is all for Him. IF I am a follower of Him, then I suffer for Him. He never said it would be easy.
John Piper said in 'Desiring God'.....
Christ said to the suffering apostle, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Paul responded to this: " Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamaties. For when I am weak, then I am strong" (2 Corinthians 12:9-10). So suffering clearly is designed by God not only as a way to wean Christians off of self and onto grace, but also as a way to spotlight that grace and make it shine. Tha is precisely what faith does; it magnifies Christ's future grace.
It is all about suffering in His name. If you are a follower, trials and suffering have come or will come. Rest upon Him......
Friday, April 24, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
a few things....
Well, first thing... we have roomies for a couple of weeks. My brother, his wife, two girls, and two dogs are living with us. It sounds like a lot, but it has been great so far. This is when we are thankful for our new, bigger home:).
They closed on their former home, but are waiting on the closing of their new home which they are praying happens next Thursday. We are excited about their new location which will only be about 10 minutes from us! It will be nice to be close to them again....
Today, the girls are 19 months!!
We are praying things will happen this week in our case, good things, GOD things. I pray God will do mighty things to bring our son home! Waiting is so hard.... I never dreamed I would be able to wait this EXTREMELY LONG WAIT and be stable:). IT has to be GOD!!!
Friday, Nathan will be 22 months old... why? where? how? All those questions will not matter once he is here with us. He is our son and nothing will ever change that.
We are in the process of trying to get our fingerprints done for the THIRD time!! This is EXTREMELY frustrating!!! I PRAY this is the last time. Everything has gone wrong this time!! I want go into details, but just pray my appt sheet comes in the mail today!!! Dealing with the government is never fun!!
And I leave you with a pic of the most precious little boy ever with a wonderful woman who loved on our son for us!!! Thank you Cindy!!!
Monday, April 13, 2009
My wish....
Today I celebrated my 28th birthday...
my one wish is for my son to come home.
God hears my cries....
I pray this is my last birthday spent without our son.
I pray this year will bring great things.
I pray my son comes home forever.
Thursday, April 09, 2009
"Lover and Controlling"
That's my boy!!! My little lover and controller. That will be fun when he gets home. His mommy is the controller here:) (Casey will tend to agree)
He is weighing 35lbs and is now 35inches long. They said he loves to ride the little motorcycles and gets angry when someone gets in his way. When something happens in the Nest, they said he runs and tells. Hopefully that will continue when he comes home... that way no one will get away with anything. Addison and Taylor might not like that too much:)
So much personality!!! I love that sweet smile!!
Such a precious gift from God.... could not be more perfect!
how can he know that look already???
Timing.... I get that a lot. "All in God's timing..."; "It will happen soon enough, you just wait!"; "God's timing is perfect".
He is weighing 35lbs and is now 35inches long. They said he loves to ride the little motorcycles and gets angry when someone gets in his way. When something happens in the Nest, they said he runs and tells. Hopefully that will continue when he comes home... that way no one will get away with anything. Addison and Taylor might not like that too much:)
So much personality!!! I love that sweet smile!!
Such a precious gift from God.... could not be more perfect!
how can he know that look already???
Timing.... I get that a lot. "All in God's timing..."; "It will happen soon enough, you just wait!"; "God's timing is perfect".
I know this. I have lived this for a long time now. If it was not God's timing, then what would be the reason for all this waiting?? HE is the only thing/reason that makes sense of this whole journey. That is where my hope is placed... IN HIM, nothing else!
As we celebrate the resurrection of our savior, JESUS CHRIST, I am so humbled by what HE did for me (and you) and what HE continue to do for me. I deserve nothing but death, yet HE chose to save me. For that I am forever grateful.
Oh, how I look forward to the days to come when we, as parents, get to teach Nathan about the love of our savior.
Praying you home sweet baby boy!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Friday, March 27, 2009
A special gift...
It was a wonderful experience having them in our home. We enjoyed getting to know them in such a short period of time. I wish they could have stayed so much longer! It is amazing the work God has done through them and continues to do. We will never forget them and hope to see them again!
Thursday, March 26, 2009
my little pointer!
You sure can tell, and I have been told, that this little man is full of personality! I can't wait to see it live in person.... I pray it is so very soon.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
21 months old...
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2009
My baby boy is now 21 months old. As he is now walking in a size 7 new balance shoe, wearing size 24 month clothes, drinking his milk out of a sippy cup.... the reality sets in of just HOW BIG he is getting and just HOW much we have missed. I am so thankful he is well loved and cared for. BUT, not too far from him there are children who have no shoes, who have no milk to drink, not even clean water, nor do tehy have clean clothes or shoes to wear. I am thankful my son is being cared and provided for.
My beautiful baby boy.... I so want to be with you... I pray it is soon.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
priceless gifts!
Nathan hanging out with Brad....
(the outfit he is wearing is the VERY FIRST one I bought when we started this process)
watching over the playground from the poarch...
Check out his new "kicks".... they fit him!!!!
The most precious woman!!! She loves these babies!!!!
My poor baby has a black eye, :(
What a blessing to find a TON of pictures in my email last night!!!! These priceless pictures are from some friends who are on this journey with us. They are fighting to bring their little girl, Flory, HOME!! I am thankful we have met them and that we have each other through this journey. Thank you Ana, Brad and Cyndi for all the pics!!!! I could never repay you for this gift!!!!! I know your trip was amazing and can't wait to hear all the details! Thank you for taking Nathan his package and for loving on him while we can't.
There is a mission team which arrived this weekend in Guatemala who will be installing security equippment at the orphanage. Please pray for this team while they are there. Nathan will get some extra love while they are there also! I will be getting some pics from them too!!! You can read about their journey here.
Please continue to pray for our case. Hopefully things are moving in the right direction and God is making a way for our son to come home to his family. Just one day at a time....
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