Change..... I am usually a person who is okay with change. I like most change, especially if it is for the better. I am not set in my own ways. I adapt well to different situations and changes.

Well, this week was a change that I was not ready for. Our baby is no longer a baby. He no longer has baby curls. He no longer looks like the "Nathan" we know. He got his first haircut because supposedly it was "just too long".

I was not ready to see our boy with "no hair". I never 'planned' to cut it that short. I LOVE his hair and his curls. I always wanted to him to have that long beautiful, black curly head of hair until he was old enough to say "Mom, I want a hair cut that does not make me look like a girl!"

Now, I know you are all thinking, "this is just a hair cut Stephanie!". But most of you were the one's who got to make the decision and choice of when/how your child's hair was cut for the first time. This situation is just now familiar to many....

This is just a reminder of all the things we are missing, how big he is getting, and that he is not really a "baby" anymore. We have watched him grow since he was 2.5 weeks old and now his is drawing near to 2 years old.....

We also found out that he is now down to just a night time bottle and drinks his milk out of a sippy cup the rest of the day. I have prepared myself for this, but once again, a reminder.... someone else is loved, cared for and bonded with Nathan for 20 months+.

Nathan does not know us. He has no idea what kind of prayers that are going up on his behalf to bring him home to us. He has no idea that we are fightly with all we have to bring him home to us. He has no idea that we thought he would be home with us when he was about 8 months old. He is just an innocent child who is an orphan, and has no idea. I am thankful.... I am so thankful he knows no difference and that he is loved and cared for by wonderful women.


We do not have a new date. I do not even know if/when we will. Things are changing daily in Guatemala with these cases in this situation. I am back at the point when people ask, What is the latest? I have no answer..... I honestly do not know. It truely changes daily/weekly.


We continue to trust and hope in Him. Without faith during this process, where would we be??? WOW, I do not even want to think about the lonely, lost feeling. God is so good.

Well, first let me say, no we do not know of a new court date as of yet. Praying it is already scheduled and we are just not aware.





Today, Nathan is 20 months... TWENTY MONTHS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!??! How did this happen??? It is really hard to think about all that we have missed and ARE missing. I just want to be with him so badly.....

This was Nathan March of last year. Hopefully we will have a new set of pictures soon... Oh, where did the baby go???? 20 months..... life is just not fair for this little man....

We got our 3rd social worker this week. This is starting the third year of this process, so I guess we needed a 3rd SW to go along:). All kidding aside, we are sad that we are loosing our SW, but we wish her the very best!! We look forward to working with the new one, praying we do not have a long "business relationship" and that she will be the last SW in this lengthy journey!





The agency that our local agency works with is closing their doors. Not shocking since the Guatemala adoption program has not opened back up. We kinda of saw it coming. It doesn't really effect us, but just another part of the story that has to be told.

Thank you all for following and praying.

well, once again... the pgn official was a "no show". to say we are disappointed is an understatement. our attorney and nathan traveled several hours for nothing.

thank you all for your prayers and support this week and through out this journey.

~stephanie