Our meeting with the RE went very well. I asked her if I was crazy for wanting to come in before 12 months and she said no. My age makes it ok. Hmm.. don't know exactly how I feel about that. Anyways, she did an internal ultrasound and reviewed my charts and confirmed I am ovulating normally. The next step for me is bloodwork and an HSG (that's a test where they shoot dye into your tubes to make sure they aren't blocked, supposed to be VERY painful, goody) I will schedule these as soon as my next cycle starts. Jamie also did his tests and it turns out he is above normal. again... don't know how I feel about that... I guess it's me or we're just taking a long time and I have no patience.

Anyways, I guess the best part is that I feel 100% more relaxed. I feel like we have taken charge and there is a plan. In January after my tests we will start treatment, even if everything is normal we will move things along. Neither of us is willing to do IVF so we have limited options and will have exhausted them (tried 3 times) by May-June. Once that has been tried we will move on to the adoption process. So God willing we will be pregnant, have a baby or in the midst of adoption this time next year.

Well my temperature dropped real low this morning which means my new cycle will start tomorrow. I knew this was coming, it's not a surprise but I am still overwhelmed by depression. This day sucks every month. I know I will feel better in a few days but that doesn't help me today. I want to curl up back in bed and hide.

This is too hard. I am tired of repeating this every month. We have our appointment for the RE 2 weeks from yesterday and I am sooooo glad. I don't feel like I can try again on our own this month. I am just so beaten down on this.