

"Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."
Lamentations 3:22-23
Last week we celebrated Ben David...his sweet life of six years...the miracle he is...the faithfulness of the Lord that is evident in his very existence. as easter approaches, i have found myself reflecting more about God's sacrifice...giving His own Son to redeem us from a life of sin and death.
it seems that lately, i am met with with reports of sickness, loss of a child, deep suffering. it is difficult to have a "lens" for understanding why these things are happening. even ben david being born prematurely...while graciously his life was preserved, six years later i still have no answer for why that occurred. why my water broke, why i was on bed rest, why he had to stay in the hospital for a month.
it can be overwhelming to process the "whys" of life. to find a logical explanation for illogical, seemingly senseless events. yet...i feel i have been most impressed lately with...not an answer, but something much larger and more profound. the immense love of God the Father for his children. a love deep enough to send his one and only Son to save us "while we were yet sinners (rom 5:8)." a Father who loves us this much...enough to pay the ultimate price, to give the greatest sacrifice....his love must be enough.
when i start to ask "whys", the answer i come up with is "i don't know." i don't know why my sweet niece selah is not here with us living her life on this earth. why my friend casey lost her unborn baby unexpectedly. why my neighbor's two year old died of cancer.
yet somehow, all of what i don't know forces me back to what i do know. the only thing i truly know for sure. that jesus loves us, that he saved us, that he walks with us daily. feeling every hurt, noticing every tear, aware of every heartache. and somehow...that has to be enough.
Jesus has to be enough, because in truth...He is all there is.
When this life does come to an end, He is all we really have.
And as Lamentations 3:22-23 says, it is only because of His great love that we are not consumed.
And so i am thankful. thankful for ben david. for his sweet, precious smile. his heartfelt prayers, his tender spirit, his compassion, his love for life...the six years he has been a daily blessing in our lives.
and most of all, i am thankful for jesus. because he is the giver of life...on this earth and most importantly...for all eternity.