Shocker, I know! We just know how to make boys....and I am great with that! I love boys and I know what to do with them. I think Greg had a harder time with the idea of not having a girl but that is because I KNEW it was a boy and he thought it was a girl!! To say that this pregnancy has been an emotional rollercoaster would not do justice. I really feel like up until this week I have been fine and really haven't let myself venture into the "what ifs". The last couple of days I have maybe been a little more unfaithful and doubtful and SCARED to DEATH!! When Greg came home to pick me up today, I was shaking so bad....but he gave me a blessing and again I just felt that peaceful feeling.
The fact that he was a boy was pretty obvious from the second she started the ultrasound. Let's just say, my boys are proud to be Johnson's!! HAHA! As scary as it is going to these appointments, it is like a family reunion. I love these doctors and nurses and all who work there so much! Both the technician and our doctor do a full over ultrasound from top to bottom and so far he looks good. When we did the brain doppler I was terrified. I just wanted him to at least have a chance. We know that if the baby carries the antigens that it will tend to be worse with each baby. Again, the chart ranges from A-D. A is transfusion level and B C and D just tell us how close we are getting. Lets just say we have never had a baby in D! So sad!! Alex was in C at this same appointment and Colton was in the middle of B. I just wanted a B at least so I knew we could give it a fighting chance. We knew that if it was in A then there would be nothing we could do and we'd wait for the baby to die. You can imagine how happy I was when in actuality the baby was not only in B, but closer to the bottom of B range. YES....we have a chance and while I know it could go quicker, or run a different course, and will most likely be a roadtrip through hell, I don't care...I have a fighting chance!! We will begin seeing the doctor weekly at this point and if at our next appointment he moves up the B level towards A, than we will procede with the amnio. This will actually give us all the answers we need to move forward as far as what antigens he carries and what his hematocrit score is right now but we want to wait a little longer to do an amnio. If he needs the transfusion before 26 weeks we may have to do other methods than what I am used to. Usually they transfuse into the umbilical cord and it is so hard to do before 26 weeks and so if it is too early for that we have the option of transfusing straight into the baby's belly(not as affective), or the baby's liver (risky...) or straight into the baby's heart (to risky for my liking and hasn't been attempted too many times...). So here we go on this journey!
I have been so moved by the love and support we have recieved through each of our pregnancies and this one is by no means any different. We have some amazing family and friends and we are so thankful for everyone who has prayed and fasted on our behalf. Honestly one of the neatest things with Colton's experience was being on the opposite side of prayer and fasting. I always explain it as not only a spiritual comfort but and actual physical support and comfort...I don't know how else to describe it. I believe in prayer and fasting and I know without a doubt we are being watched out for...I am not naive and I know things don't always turn out how we want or plan...but I am very optimistic at this point!
We love ya!! We are so excited to add this sweet little boy to our family!!!
