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Blessed 2009.

G O O D B Y E!

There's always suppose to be a summation blog entry for all the love and joys and breakthroughs I have received this year.

In many ways, Daddy God has been very faithful to me. I'm ending work in 10 minutes and simply do not have the time to sit back and recount the good times this year. For all that I can remember I want to be thankful for

- CG
- Quitting sg pools
- new full time job near school
- trips to Malacca, HCMC and JB
- Bday surprise
- activities done with loved ones
- cards, presents, smses and calls of love
- new friends
- exceedingly undeserved awesome grades for exams
- provisions for me daily

Everyday has not been a holiday for me because I do struggle sometimes. Days at work, and hours in school can get draggy and all. But He has still been very faithful to me. I think for me, this year was more of a personal journey with my Daddy God and learning to trust and lean on Him in situations so unimaginable.

Thank you to those that love me.

- Anais
- Christline
- Angie
- Sean
- Euwin
- Cheryl
- Sammi
- Tirene
- Marcus
- Pris Gan
- Pris and Pam the twins
- John
- Randy
- Samuel
- Krystal
- Ivan
- Bao
- Kak Nana
- Akka Devi
- Aunty Jenny
- My family

You are not position in order of merit. Just to clarify hehe. I've felt the love in big ways and small ways this year from all the above mentioned people. Believing, comforting, befriending and caring for me.

I made new blessings with the likes of Pris and my kakaks in the office who love me like their own little sister.

I look forward to new journeys with new people and new paths of experiences in the coming New Year.

Blessed 2009 to everyone who still reads my blog and may our love, experiences and journeys with one another grow to an even deeper level than this year.

With all sincerity and genuinity, I love you all very much.

It's been a while since I last blogged. Pretty long for my standards. I've had an enjoyable past one week plus. Good christmas spent. I will just give a summary of the wonderful time I had

- starting school and learning about world politics
- cabbing down to join the cg in for the dying moments of christmas celebration and then having an extended one with anais, darren wen yuan and jj over lime joo and bak chor mee
- spending christmas at christlines. Watching Australia, potblessing, slicing my pinky and non stop bleeding, bottle tree park and ms claritys
- last sunday svc of the yr with cg and extended time at foodcourt and coffee club
- meeting sammi n reney

I received my presents this yr. Not too excited about buying and receiving this yr. I think the cards once again meant more to me. Received 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 cards maybe? Some of them just bringing forth truths about what God has done in my life. I truly appreciate these words of encouragement because I need affirmation from time to time as well.

I've been feeling great except for some hiccups.

- I've felt that some of my guy friends do not value me
- I've felt that one of my gfs has that undesirable habit too.

I have been quite frank in telling them so and I do not know if being frank changes anything. I've learnt to just let go.

Also, because I have really become more involved in the cg and allowed myself to be a lil more vulnerable this time around, I realise that I do love the people inside the cg. Can't say much about the guys but the girls are really beautiful and so so precious to me. Though there are some who I feel underestimate me as a person and was feeling nt too good about it.

Then on msn last night, Christline, Randy and Pris Gan just affirmed me by thanking me for the different seeds I have sowed into their lives and I realise how much God wants me to know tt 2008
has really been a yr of manifestation of His hand of favour over my life and these were my fruits. And if people had a favourable opinion of me, how much more my Father God?

Doesn't matter the ones who don't appreciate me, I believe the giftings God has blessed me with are meant to be a blessing to those who value the beauty and favour of Christ tt is within me.

I'm looking forward to 2009. I pray that the last 3 days of 2008 yield a greater manifestation of the Lord's blessing than you can ever imagine. Amen.

Its a friday again and I am ever so thankful that the work week is over. Another 6 days to christmas and I am hyped up for the impending holidays and love shared among treasured ones. Anw, Clara dear has posted some pics on facebook of the caregroup session I went for on tues and I just want to say these people are really precious souls.

Clara dear and I. I've known this lovely babe for 6 years but it's only this year that I have had the chance to re-fellowship with her.



Curry chicken brought. Now I know my cg ppl love curry, potatoes and bread. manz..



The core cg members..



My only regret about this was that I did not take more photos with the beloveds. I was too engrossed sharing my life with Pris Gan that it slipped my mind to eat or to take photos haha.

I had an awesome sharing session yesterday with Christline and Anais. I came down from work to fellowship with the cg. Unfortunately many of them did not take down notes nor remembered the preaching. But praise Jesus that cline did and the three of us shared over some coffee. I am very very impacted by cline's sharing. Growth is when you are uninhibited and unashamed of the love tt God has freely given. I know we were sharing so loudly and a lot of tables were just turning to stare at us. But I did not care. We were glorifying His name and I just want to lift it even higher.

I will remember the 5 steps to a loving relationship though I did not attend Women's Meeting yesterday. Patience, Kindness, Generosity, Appreciation and Forgiveness. You know as we were sharing, revelation upon revelation just hit me. Relationships with my family, friends and other loved ones. I've learnt that there are some fruits of the spirit I am already unknowingly incorporating in my daily life. I took back some other nuggets of truth as well.

1. In order to revolutionise others, your own world has to be revolutionise first.
2. When does a yakid (happy Christian single) know he/she is ready for a relationship, is when he/she does not want to get into one. Thinking that he/she is already very self fulfilled and has all the love he/she desires.

I truly believe that when one is very filled with love and not craving any that one can outgive one's lover. It would not be a drawing from each other. It would be a pouring out of exceeding love.

You know, the people whom I truly appreciate and know that they love me is when I say something once, and they bother to listen and they bother to remember. It shows that they truly want to know what matters to me. I hate it really when I have told ppl once something but they have forgotten because when I first told them that something, they did not bother to remember at all. Sharing with my babes, I yearn for a hearing heart as well from my loved ones. I really do not need advice its true. I have come to realise that all I need is to know that these ppl have heard me out and just understand tt these things are important to me.

I have come to a stage with cline whereby we can talk about our future life partners and what we desire for them to be like. It's a beautiful thing because we know that this individual that will enter our lives is being beautifully moulded for us right now.

Cline also pointed out the one fact why Anais, herself and me are so hungry for the word as compared to some others we know. We realised that we do not have all the time in the world and with the little amount of time we have, we just want revelation to hit us like tt. We are not full time students and we do not have the luxury of time to just enjoy God and school. Many a times, miracle hits and we have missed the process altogether. It's true I yearn to go through the experience with Him and its so so precious to me. The end result I know, it will be good but the process of patience and faith once gone is gone.. and I don't want to miss that journey with Him.

Your relationship with people also reflects your relationship with God. If you are insecure, selfish, has impatience, then most decidedly that's how you treat your walk with God as well. Not being patient with His perfect timing, only wanting to receive blessings and not trials. Yearning for security from the One who has already given freely on the cross.

My desires just increased for 2009 and I know so assuredly that I am standing on the brink of something beautiful for each of our lives. I have never been this eager for my transition.

I am happy, contented and beautifully held together by His love. And I have gotten my pretty christmas dress in the mail. Can't wait for Sunday svc at Indoor. Weeeee...

BIP BIPPP *private joke

I am somewhat still thinking about yesterday's session with the cg. We had good food, we had good conversations, the people are generally nice but I dunno why I feel uncomfortable. Isit the lack of trust? Isit that I cannot be vulnerable? Isit tt my experiences and the things I went through have made me so hardhearted? When they were asking me to share about something I have overcome, I wanted to say low-self esteem and the need to care about ppls opinions of me. Instead the moment I said tt I had gone through a journey and I mention I lost my mum when I was 19 I started tearing. In front of 18 other strangers to me. I'm close to none and its just weird.

Even in my darkest days and times when I poured out my emotions to my close ones like John and Tirene over the last moments I spent with her, I did not cry. But I got emotional and I really have no idea why. I nv like to appear weak in front of ppl and I wonder if this vulnerability I show is a signal of walls of false strength I have been putting up.

I also am having this sudden passion to learn the guitar. The twins, Pris and Pam led worship yesterday and the whole session was just so anointed. I did not care about off key voices or what, I just felt tt the voice, the hands, the guitar cld be such a harmonious and melodious tool of worship to Him. We were all linked by the common desire to praise Him. I wrote down my dreams for 2009. I have plenty and they have never died.

Am sleepy today but I think I'm gonna just get all my christmas presents over and done with for the week.

=))

I have no idea why but december seems to be a busy month for me while the rest of my colleagues are like wrapping up for the year already.

In addition, my days have also been fully packed with dinners, facial, books and family. I have also spent much quality time over Sunday afternoon talking to beloved Sarabelle my niece. She's just a joy to behold.

Today I will be attending a pot-luck but my caregrp calls it pot-blessing session. My new cg leader wants to see the potential core members of the cg and I'm feeling very overwhelmed because I have been in this cg for less than 6 months since I quite Sg Pools and there is just a drawing God and extreme favour from my cg leader to be integral in the cg that I am in. I am truly excited that there are additional moments to be in the presence of God.

The year's coming to an end faster than I can say Merry Christmas. I will be involved with a new module something along the lines of Political Science, serving in the cg and in church, drawing near of my USA trip, re-evaluation of my hopes and dreams for 2009, taking out my hope card for 2008 and crossing out the blessings that came to past for me this year.

I have this strong feeling I can't explain. But I just know tt 2009 is gonna be an awesome year.

My best year yet.

I cannot believe it has been so long since I last blogged. Have been very busy with ALOT of activities over the past weekend. And it's friday all over again. How exciting.

I had a wonderful week and shall just summarise in point form and ALOT of pictures.

- friday shopping with anais and drinking at Alley Bar
- sat arrow service, MAAD flea market, FashBash, Muddy Chunk Fest, Supper at suddenly i forgot the name, the one that serves free french loaf.
- sunday svc with cg, shopping AGAIN at haji lane and bugis and damn shiok BAK KUT TEH dinner
- monday ktv session with the lovelies.

So you see I do have a lot of fun and I just met tirene yest. Love her so. Can't wait for a GST
reunion.

After having 1 yr 1 mth of half a virgin head of black hair, (I last dyed my hair in November 07 and showed pictures of that hairstyle in a blog entry) I finally dyed my hair again. Yay Im a redhead. Its red with purple hues. Pictures will nv do justice to the color. And it also looks as if I had my hair highlighted. Anais also had her hair done.





Am a lil lazy to say much. Just some before, after pics and our new hairdos.. colors nt too true to the current color. Cut my hair to have a steeper slope. We were done by nearly midnight okie, and I catch the last bus home.

I do love my hair very much now. Satisfied. =)

Christmas is around the corner and there is no excited atmosphere in the office whatsoever. Maybe its the fact that there are few christians around. Even in town, it doesn't feel as festive as it should be. Talked to one of my angmo manager just a while ago. He was describing to me how christmas is like in the UK. How everyone just lets their hair down and enjoy themselves, not thinking about work or bonuses. He described to me how family, love, giving, snow and beautiful decorations became a pivot for every person in the UK during the christmas season. . Sure doesn't feel like what Singapore is experiencing.

Anw, Anais and I ventured to town yesterday. At toys r us, we decided to take pictures with some animals and ended up looking quite extraordinary. You know, we kinda just fidn joy in what we do. hehe..


How lovely, our beautiful expressions... wahahaha

Blast the christmas carols, I just want to celebrate this wonderful season of love, joy and giving.

It's a lovely december morning. The start of new beginnings to a smashing finale for the year. Here I am blogging and awaiting the 12 noon chimes coming from a church if I am not wrong. I wonder if all over Singapore, you guys have heard the chimes at 12 noon on the 1st of each month before? Anw I have always had awesome weekends and the past weekend was no exception. I hope everyone enjoys their weekends as much as me. =)

I met cline and angie for a estee lauder private sale on friday evening and got my bobby brown lip tint at an awesome price. Also we tried the ramen on the 2nd floor of Liang Court. I can't remember the name but Ah-gong shld know. The steamed egg really had steam still whiffing out from the cube shape pieces. We also had an awesome walk and I'm just so excited for our future. Qns on who is gonna get married first, how our future will be like. We are just brimming with great expectations.

Saturday was spent at 3 places.

-USA Residency Briefing in school
-Fleaflyflofun flea market at Home Club formerly Mad Monks
-LauPaSat for dinner

USA Residency

There are plenty of underlaying cost. For one, a VISA at the US Embassy is gonna set me back by SGD 500. And I have to show the embassy that I have a certain 4 figure sum in my bank account and I am financially fit to travel. More on this trip later.

FleaFlyFloFun

I bought a dress, a japanese pink leopard print tee and a made in india boho skirt which will double up as my tube dress and a pair of red earrings. All for just $22. Hahah 4 items for 22 is worth huh. I really love all the pieces bt I can't wear the orange vintage style dress because of my assets. So I will keep it till I lose the weight someday haha.

LauPaSat

This food haven has been renovated and I really had an enjoyable time feasting and relinquishing the wonderful Saturday with Anais.

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Sunday was spent at church. I saw my cute guy in the food court and did a 180 degree back turn on him. Lord grant me the poise and elegance of a swan to face him. Doesn't matter if beneath tt facade/water, I'm paddling like crazy hahahaha..

I loved Sunday's sermon. A message on what faith really is. It was more of a believe and therefore receive kind of mantra for me before that. I have heard pastor P preach about Believe and Speaking out the promises of my life but yesterday's sermon just blew me over. Saturday's briefing was very disheartening because for a short moment I was looking at my circumstances. But now, I am just relaxing, NOTHING is too difficult for Daddy God really. I will not worry nor fret because nothing I do will cause the sum of money I need to arrive. It's not my do-ing but how I am receiving that truly matters. So yes I am a happy woman and my priority is to enjoy this december and the wonderful season of loving and giving with family and friends.

Upcoming events
- MAAD Museum flea mkt day
- Chunk fest (Ben and Jerry's)
- FashBash
- Midnight KTV

Above all, there's Arrow this Saturday and another wonderful church service. I love myself and my life. I really do. I value what I possess and I will never trade my life with anyone in the world.

December is gonna get better than what I have already experienced in 2008.

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