Monday, September 26, 2005, 11:22 pm
amazed
Nothing much has been happening lately. Haven really been feeling the urge to blog either. But I do have new american cravings though. I'm currently really diggin THE O.C because most of my close friends has been telling me its good and I haven really got down to watching it. I'm the kind of person who only start doing something once the popularity or trend kinda dies down. Dun think I am the kind who jumps onto the backwagon blindly. You know frankly speaking despite all the You Jump, I Jump hype abt Titanic I seriously have never in my life watched that movie before hehe. In any case, I am practically lusting after the moose polo tees. Actually its just the abercrombie and fitch polo tees with the moose logos. Currently quite mad over Indie Rock as well thanks to my influential gf, I am currently sourcing out all those songs in my music folder.
Anyway the only things remaining that remind me I'm still a nineTEEN yr old in an adult world is when my dad laments hw come I always borrow uncensored dvds with those sex scenes and he tells me I must look away..*rolls.eyeballs. And the other only thing is when you still have something on your bed which you hug to slp and you cant live without coz you had it all your life. Well I do. And I'm nt telling what it is. haha..
Somebody's returning home to Spore tmr nite. His return tells me that time seriously passes real fast. Oh and I still jog at Fort Canning and still see obscene couples making out but I consider it all part of the scenery hehe.. And Newton Circus Hawker Centre is closing for renovations till June nx yr and I seriously do think I'm gonna miss the food and the oldish feeling it brings.. I don't really like modernised Spore.
Boy, do I really hate change.. *sulks.. Guess I'll stop here.
Sunday, September 18, 2005, 12:04 am
amazed
Black with Cline, HZ, Jiahui and Eve was a lacklustre experience. Guys on the podium, guys who cannot dance, guy who cannot spin good music and guys who were making girls drunk. Gootness!! I still prefer Jiak Kim Street lah. Oct 21st!! hehe
In any case I have a love affair with Minute Maid and Rubber Maid. The former is the brand of the lemonade and limeade drinks. The latter is a water bottle brand. So cute got straw in the bottle one. Would like to thank my Brain's mum for buying the cutesy bottle for me.
There is a very artsy fartsy boss over at Galilee and Friends in Cathay Cineleisure. The restaurant took over Lips which I think most ppl are more familiar with. The boss reminds me of a Lim Yu Beng, Lim Kay Tong mix. He's got that arts factor abt him. Just the other sat I was there with my Brain and I was asking his opinion abt the mudpies. I ordered the Bailey's eventually. It's actually cookies and cream with bailey's(alcohol) as a sort of sauce. He pronounced liquor and well to me its pronounced "li-ke" but to him it was "li-kro". But he's got that air about him that makes me feel like I'm talking to a really refined man. It's fun to be at a cafe with a funky or unique boss lah. It just makes the atmosphere different. Anyway they open till like 4am on weekends and they have so many plasma television all over for the premier league soccer matches. It was so cool lah everyone groaning and whining when a goal was missed. It felt like the World Cup all over again haha when I used to remember hearing the entire HDB block exclaim or cheer excitedly whenever a goal was scored.
Just returned from Sean my calf's surprise bday party. It felt good seeing him and I hope that at least he was surprised yet happy that we were all there for him. He's one guy that really feels like a son to me even if I dun see or talk to him often. Though he looks like a giraffe and horse mixed but there's just something son-ish about him that makes me love my son so much. Not been to bday parties for some time and I really thought his girlfriend who I suppose is my calf-in-law was really very sweet. She managed to gather all his friends from sec skool, two different jcs and church altogether. And I guess they are the impt ppl in his life. It would take someone who really has the connections and the communication with her guy to know all these ppl who matter to him. Though I din noe all the people there and most were under 18 and I felt old but seeing hw shy and surpised and ultimately happy he was was a great consolation for me. I think I would probably cry if my partner ever did such a thing for me. The effort and just the thought of having all my loved ones around me to celebrate such an occasion for me is really wonderful.
Because I have a earring storage problem, I really think that someone shld just quick go invent a earrings holder. I dun see why there can be holders for pen, cards and the works and there is no earring holder in the common market.
Was just commenting and whining to Eve that movie titles these days have no creativity. I'm sick of the "the" word. It's like so duh.... What with THE eye, THE ring, THE maid, THE cave, THE red shoes. I really wldn't be surprised if they come up with THE handbag, THE waterbottle or THE curtain movie titles.
Anyway, my niece Sarabelle is growing up to look like a little me. And my brother is whining and lamenting that its not a good sign. Ass.. hehe.. not been posting pictures for some time. Would do so when I have the time to load.
Ever had the experience that there's someone you are wishing to meet and you miss pretty much even though it's not like you haven seen the person in a long time and later in the day when you are out you actually do bump into that person no matter how ulu you may think you are located in? It happened to me today and it happened to me many times before too. What do you think that is? Coincidence or just karma? hehehe..
I think I will just end here. Blessed week peepz..
Thursday, September 15, 2005, 10:51 pm
amazed
I would give away all the dengue breeding potted plants on the ground floor of my block to find out who on earth died and why are there such extravagant funeral processions at the multi purpose hall beside my block. The racket is taking its toil on me. What with chinese banners hanging all over the multi storey carpark and leading to my block. The resounding noise pollution caused by the complete brass band for funeral processions and the howling or wailing of grief-stricken relatives is absolute appalling. This has got to be the most dramatic funeral I have ever witnessed.
It's been two mths since I last cut my hair and finally today my hair cannot be spiked up with gatsby anymore and I'm happy. And oh yeah I discovered for quite some time that wonka bars can be bought at Candy Empire at Millenia Walk and there's also golden tickets to be won.
I cannot believe that 10 mths has passed since my A lvl examinations and it really din feel like it was so long ago. I'm missing so many ppl right now. Really glad that hammie called me just nw. I was browsing through my first outing photos with sammi and tirene and it brought back so many memories. Friendship works in such mysterious ways. I'm really blessed to have friends that can not contact for eons and yet still have so much to talk to me abt when we meet or sms. You know I used to think that friendship is the most integral part of my life but then after the loss of my mum, I realised that my family is so much more impt to me. Family is just family there's no way to describe that word.
Am heading for Black tmr and I really hope the crowd and music is good. Good nite.
Saturday, September 10, 2005, 12:28 am
amazed
I am on a gold fetish this mth. I think there is this long term preconception that gold is for the older generation bt I do think that this unique bling bling color goes well with black n most subtle colors. Move aside silver.. gold is really in for me. Just to drive home the point I am kinda mad over gold... I bought a pair of open-toed gold shoes, a pair of black n gold trimmed shoes, three gold and black bags and one gold skirt in one shopping trip. hehe.. I really wish I could take photos and post on my blog my pretty bling blings but budget deficit is in for the time being.
Started on my course of medication for my complexion again. I really wish that this course of medication wouldn't cause a weight gain like how the other medication did to me.
Just got home from pubbing with my colleagues. Wonderful live band on at this bar at robertson walk. I would say better than boat quay. I'm the youngest amongst them but really they dun make me feel that age is such a barrier. Someone even said I look like I'm 24 yrs old. I dunno whether to be happy or sad hehe.
Am in love with night jogs these days around the toa payoh estate. A bit freaky esp near the construction and secluded areas but I would say that night jogs still work for me the best. And I really dun mind that I am alone. Gives me time alone to think things through. But on quiet moments like this, I would often think of mum and tear.
Just the other day I was cooking at home and I saw this frying pan that was still attached with the tag from ikea and I recalled the last time I went with my mum to the ikea sale and the moments we spent at the ikea cafe just chatting abt life. And I cried just because I discovered the new frying pan from ikea that my mum bought and never got to use. I dunno if its emotional or what but I really miss her even when I seldom talk abt her. I dun think I can ever get over her because she is such a part of me. Imagine going home to a house filled with her memories. Everywhere you turn, you see a part of her which she left behind. Hurts badly and I find it so hard to express myself these days. The reservations I have in grps of ppl and the silence I give during conversations.
I'm really sick of eating my own home cooked meals because yong tau fu, pasta and western is just abt what I can manage to whip up. I wish I had learnt peranakan cuisine from my mum so I can whip up a storm in the kitchen for my family and dearest friends. I'm really touched by the hospitality of so many of my close friends' mums... You know how strange it is that ppl call me muddercow and look upon me as a motherly figure yet I myself am searching for someone whom I can look upon as a motherly figure. It's like attempting to fill the void or absence in my heart.
Moving along, I am so evil-bayed now by ebay hehe. I thought yahoo auctions was good but ebay is better for me. Kinda in love with online shopping now and though I recognise the risk of it all but its also a great place for bargains and irresistable sale items.
I kinda like the way I'm living right now. Clearing my head off studies and exams and school and worrying what to wear to school each day. It really ain that bad working and supporting myself each day and having enough to spend and saving up for my education next yr. If I had it any other way, I would still choose this path. Though sometimes I feel alittle lost when my friends talk to me abt school and the pains of studying and I can't identify. I think working with my colleagues have really broaden my views abt life and education and marriage. I really see the world as it is and not still remaining in a school girl point of view. It's like I'm waking up every day and smelling the roses and tasting it too. It changes my perspective abt so many things in my life and I am humbled by the life experiences of those around me.
I think that having a toa payoh clan member is really a blessing to my life. The toa payoh clan used to consist of me and only me and it was really highly depressing. I'm glad and thankful for my si 38 who is really my colleague and partner in most stuff and someone I love very much. awwww.. hehe..
Alright blessed week ppl... I think I will just end here.
