Sunday, February 26, 2006, 1:44 am
amazed
It's strange how the feelings and opinions you try so hard to deny and oppose actually come back stronger that you can't help but contradict yourself.It's strange that one can lead a double life as a friend to some n lover to another. It's stranger if you are both at the same time and can still coexist as separate entities.
It's strange how you are nv satisfied with yourself but there are people who admire you for the very things you despise.
It's strange when the things you worry about become bigger worries in your life and the things you learn to let go n remain carefree abt seem to find its own solutions.
It's strange that I am feeling randomness for so long a time. It's like I somehow lost focus some way along the last few yrs of the 20 yrs of this life..
A stranger to myself..
Friday, February 17, 2006, 12:33 am
amazed
Being at the edge of nineteen has got me completely off the edge I tell ya. I have never been bothered that I'm still a teenager that looks old no I mean mature for her age till now. You see.. my very kind male colleague told me that looking old bt not being of the legitimate age to watch R21 movies ain of any good to me at all. I'm hot and bothered under the collar because I would very much want to watch Brokeback Mountain on the big screen rather than the 29 inch screen at home. *pouts. Sometimes I wonder what is wrong with the censorship board. How does M18 and R21 make any difference other than the age limit? You cant really determine the mentality and maturity level of an individual. You can be 21 and not seen a prick in your life and you can be 18 but probably be married with little yous in tow. I sure hope as heaven Transamerica ain R21 but I wun bet too much on seeing a more transparent censorship board when it comes to issues still considered taboo in spore. Anyway what further angst me abt being 19 is the fact that I wld be 20 come May 1st and wld miss the Govt budget announcement of giving all working (6 mths at least) adults 800 bucks because they have surplus. And I wld be missing out on it because I'm 10 mths too young. Humpf. So I would probably have to wait another 5 yrs before there's propaganda agn due to the General Elections and another budget surplus announcement. Oh why wasn't I born in 1985?
Oh and is it just me or is it that the shopping centres in spore close way too early? Just when I seem to be getting in the full swing of matters.. the shops start closing at ard 9 plus. I mean I haven even worked it yet. Maybe some day when I become MP I shall petition against such injustice done to the spore economy and my palate for shopping. Who plans these things man.. as in what time shopping malls close and stuff? How can there be midnight movies and 24 hr eating places but nt late night shopping centres? You only get midnight sales during festive occasions like christmas and new yr. There shld be a woman MP to fight for all the shopping diehards in spore. hehehe..
I nv liked celebrating vday so I din celebrate it. Din really feel much of love in the air anyway. Just a simple dinner tucked away from the hustle and bustle of the hyped up event. February's been nice to me. Grp dinners.. celebrating Sammi's bday and meeting up with Tirene darling.
Truth be told I have been worrying and worrying unnecessarily.. education.. life.. money.. etc.. never felt that trying to survive in society is so draining. And yes I wish a thousand times I'm back studying agn. I can endure the exams and school rules because at least I always had a bunch of close friends who understood what I went through and where I can bitch with almost every day of our school life. N nv having to worry abt which shoes matched which outfit since it was always uniform. Am missing school life and old old friends all of a sudden.
You know when you are working in an office where most ppl go through life and are way past worrying abt their education.. there's just so few ppl you can confide in who are the same age as you and who can understand what you are going through.
Anw I'm pretty much done here.. Photo whoring in my nx entry.. =)
Thursday, February 02, 2006, 12:32 am
amazed
It's been a quiet end jan filled with normal cny visitations and reunion dinners. Had my reunion cum niece's bday celebration at Marche. My pretty princess is finally 2 yrs old. Will post pictures of her bday party soon. She had a Tigger ice cream cake from Swensen's for her bday party at her childcare centre. Coincidentally it was also the last time she wld be there because since my bro's office has shifted she has to change school for convenience sake so it was kinda like a farewell party for her too. Anw if you happen to fancy Porky Pig or Piglet or any pig related cartoon character pls take note that Swensen's being the halal restaurant that it is informed my bro that they cant put pictures of any piggy stuff on their cakes coz they are afraid to offend the muslims. So my niece cldn't have her fav piglet cartoon on the ice cream cake. What a pity.Been spending time over at my bro's place. The actual reunion dinner night.. I cooked a Western themed dinner for daddy which took me 2 hrs and plenty of sweat. I bet cooking chinese food wld be so much easier. Visitation was scary coz all my cousins are married except me and the odd one or two who have sworn allegiance to the singlelonelihood clan hehe.. And the married ones all turned up full force with their kids and that means I'm an auntie of perhaps abt 35 little rascals. Goodness haha..
Visited a couple of colleagues on the 2nd day of CNY. And we ate and ate till we nearly puked I believed. Steamboat, hot plate, buffet, snacks.. there was just an overflow from every house it was simply appalling and scary for us. Guess I'll post up some pics of my visitation at one of the houses..
My upcoming weeks are packed with bday celebrations, grp outings and dinners. It's been good. Having a sibling day with my bro tmr agn since I'm nt working tmr and in any case I had my Crystal Jade La Mian Xiao Long Bao with my beloveds hz, jing, brainy and angie dearie. It felt like eons since I last saw them and it sure felt nice to joke and catch up on old times.
Guess I'll end here with the pics of my visitation.. =)
my darlings.. eve, (me), asri and sazali...
the tons of food we were fed with.
grp foto after our meal..
seriously caught in the act man.. looked like we were some Pros or something haha.. bt they are really just a fun bunch of friends..
the actual foto we were posing for..
I swear my darling Eve and I took so many blardy pics before one turned out decent enough.. hehe..
Utterly scandalous! Just look at how blissful that woman looks having her arms around Ali.. humpf hehe..
Ali acting cute sia..
That's it.. will post more pics in the days to come!
