Thursday, June 22, 2006, 3:23 pm
amazed
Just got home at 6am this morning after work and I'm leaving for bangkok in a few hours. Really no feelings abt this trip maybe because I'm tired out mentally and physically. Holidays are really timely especially for a season of life like mine.
I'm starting part time studies on August 7th. I'm really excited abt school even though the Advance Diploma is gonna cost me 2800 bucks for one year. My two jobs hasn't taken a toil on me. I'm still the same me just maybe minus the free time. But if I'm told in advance of a meeting I wun take up my night jobs so there.. I'm not married to my two jobs.. Miss meeting up with people but then again when I occupy my time with positive things and keep myself busy I don't think abt heartbreaks and disappointments so much that I kinda just let it pass and forget abt it as time goes by.
My two jobs' contracts are ending in July. Will be looking out for new jobs after that to fit into my school timetable. You know when I know that I'm headed somewhere with more purpose in life... suddenly it just feels real good.
Saw secondary school friends, Maggie and Jiayong yest at the PS starhub centre and it was real pleasant because I was just thinking of old school friends. Missed catching up with alot of my sec school friends. And I do hope everyone is doing well. Alrite I think tts abt it till I return from Bangkok. Be prepared for loads of photos and rants I bet..
*Happy Birthday Mummy in heaven. You would have been 59 today. I love you.
Sunday, June 11, 2006, 10:27 pm
amazed
*Hollers!
I finally found time to pen down my thoughts tonight and I'm really really happy. I'm at a phase in my life whereby I really dunno night or day because I have been working really hard and with really little rest. Yet there is that satisfaction not just because of the money but that it's something I know I can achieve despite the 16 to 17 working hrs I subject myself to. Finishing work at 2-5am has become part of my life this June and waking up at 730am for my bank job is like a cycle. But I believe I'm taking care of myself pretty well. Somehow finding time to spend it with my gfs be it shopping or kboxing or bitching or dinner and playing board games hehe..
Korean and Taiwanese dramas have been filling up my free time when I actually do have free time. And these dramas only serve the purpose of informing me that Singapore doesnt have the talents to produce great idol dramas nor the ppl to look the part of teen idols or whatever hehe..
Bangkok in abt 11 days. Hip hip hooray... yippie.. yay.. *cartwheels.. somersault hehe.. Borrowed this ultra huge luggage from my bro just to store my shopping.. Photos.. great food.. great company.. no work.. no worries.. great shopping.. what more can I ask.
I realise being a happy person aren't that hard... when I occupy my thoughts and my free time with positive energy or ppl I realise I'm really so much happier and at peace with myself. People who love me and elevate me.. thoughts that ensure I'm not being hard on myself and suddenly I realise the worries I previously thought I had disappeared from my radar.
I've learnt to treat people I love with sincerity too. I fathom these days that there are times we make a promise to ourselves to meet up and love the people we seldom see then forget abt that promise to that person as well. And then friends.. become acquaintences and acquaintences become strangers. And I really do dislike friends who tell me we will have the chance to meet up but then 6 mths.. a yr has passed and they are never free to meet me. So much for sincerity hehe..
There are times things never turned out my way this year. Felt crushed and felt broken.. thought I was strong but I wasn't. But my security isn't in the circumstance I find myself in each time but in the fact that I have great Father in heaven who loves me and promised to me that ALL things would turn out for my good. And then even if my whole world seems to be crumbling and hopeless.. I know my Hope would be there to make ALL things beautiful.. In His Time..
=D
