Op Zending

We have kind of been living in a fog lately. Chemo is getting much harder. The Dr. has decided not to have me start my 4th cycle until some of my stats are more stable. I don't know why I just can't be normal and react the way the rest of the population does. This program he has me on is a pretty aggressive one and I was told it would be tough but sometimes I just have a difficult time keeping the faith and trusting that all is in the Lord's hands and HE knows what is best for me.

I am grateful for Ben for reminding me of the many miracles we have seen so far and I just need to focus on that. I have such a great support system that I really could not be in a better situation. Between my faithful companion, children, extended family, mission family, ward family and close friends life really is good and I can't forget that. Thanks to my good friend Julie my wound is healing much faster than what the wound clinic had expected. I only go into the clinic one day a week now and the rest of the time Julie comes here and takes care of me. She is so dedicated and caring that I know she is the reason for the quick healing.

When we left our mission our mission President and his wife came to the airport to send us off. At that time Sister Brubaker told me that I had angels all around me and I can tell you that she is right. I have seen and felt the strength of angles from both here on earth and those on the other side of the veil at more times than I can tell you. We really do not walk this path of life alone. We just don't always stop and recognize those individuals the Lord allows to walk along side.

I'm in the middle of my 3rd cycle of Chemo and this time I feel much better. It has really made a difference getting rid of the Wound Vac. The wound seems to be healing even without the noisy machine. I was even able to eat today. Funny how I have spent most of my adult life watching my weight (mostly going up) and then at this point everyone cheers me on when I put on a few pounds. Life is still great and I would not trade with any one.

This week is my week off from chemo and I can't tell you how much better life looks. I was actually able to make it out for about an hour to find some new duds. Nothing in my closet fit anymore so it was good to be able to find something new and in style.

Monday starts my 3rd cycle of treatment and I am gearing up to handle it. I know it will be much better now that the wound vac is no longer a problem.

Thanks again for all your prayers and concern. We really do appreciate all of you.