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Honestly I am wondering... what is going around people's mind?
I have notices a lot of aimlessly people study in school and carrying on with life...
where is your X-factor?
I'm not really give a wake up call to anyone, but just want to let you all know that
don't waste your life and time.. start searching for your soul!...dreams!...purpose!... or probably Adolescence! or self-realization!
Don't let matters bring you down...and trap with a small hinders when you still have a long road ahead! high and low!
where is your motivation force?! (MF)
you know? there is a formula for MF, MF = Expectancy x instrumentality x valence, those who are from RP should know for your enterprise. Those who don't wiki "Expectancy theory"...
Just thinking for the sick of other's future...

Okay back!
okay~ if you people have notices I have finally change the song to something I don't even know what is the language lol but it belong to "Ar Tonelico" not sure how many people heard of it but hopefully can cos-play it one day(btw it's kinda like a sim-dating game for PS2 but more of fighting)

I'm now removing my post to 2 post now haha to probably put a cut to my messy day a few weeks back but still be remembered, thus not deleting it.

I'm wondering about getting a part-time diploma...probably a accountancy, Mechatronics or material sciences in other poly...but it seems only ngee ann have the Mechatronics course and SP have only Business Administration and as for NYP, TP and RP can go hell lol... there isn't any PTD
However, I fear of neglecting Julia again and letting something that happen on her poor friend happen to me!! Bwahahaaha ( not laughing at her friend)

I can't find my fate-stay night eps 8, 13,14,15,16,17 ....sob

Still sick but far from dying soo... Sorry peeps
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AND SOMEONE STILL OWN MONEY!!!
COS.... YOU OH MONEY, YOU PAH MONEY LoL
calefare

people are asking me..."what's wrong? you don't seems to be who you usually is"

My mind will first go...what a strange question to ask, who am I to you usually?
Anyway, if you people see me not acting normal don't worry so much, I am just thinking about something or just unable to do something like during the chalet, it's just hard for me to speak so, that is why I'm quiet.

I also do wonder...why did I add more links, when we will be seeing each other less often now...
by the end of RP I might have flooded my links board

The storm is over now, time to head home from my busy lifestyle...~~ =)
bye bye~

Okay certainly, I am very busy even though it is holidays...
Probably I will be even more free after this coming chalet on 18,19 and 20
could spend more time with julia, work and my own time.

I guess I really going to quit this end of august, sorry gesh...
to me now... work is like a journey to me...I don't wish to interfere nor change it's culture, but just experience it, if possible work as many kind of job as possible...

I have always admirer wilfred in the past to work subway in the morning, movie staff or book store keeper in the evening and factory at night...

anyway i have a few job available for me...pumping balloon, starhub, relieve teacher or anything that i can find.

I think intent to name the kids ninja - "kakegaru ninjado kido-team" haha I think it is quite okay and cool~

live would be easy if money can be planted (not as in money tree)
live would be easy if everything is utopia ( not exactly)

I will miss the class but live on
I miss my friends but work hard
I miss my dear but I want to give you a good future...

Honestly, i wonder... how are people able to skip school so easily...
anyway, i skip 1/3 of my day during the O's...

Yes, i admit that jm isn't working very well at subway...

the class is dense to notices...
those people who criticize others does not make a differences from those who are being criticize...
for me I do not hate, but rather not wanting to socialize with them...

i am not strong and easy targeted...

But somehow, as i speak through the phone with my julia... it always trigger to express my feeling... after expressing my feeling, i feel so much better

arghh... anyway a picture represent a thousand words...
A picture I draw at ikea to express my condition and how i feel... can you find the word "sympathy"?I know my drawing is like kids but I dont care as long as it show how i feels now

Julia send me this video that really brighten up my day and the following day as well as the next coming one...

Basically, what's so good and funny about this video is that...
the cow is cute,
the cow is pregnant,
the cow's name is "woof" haha~


aiming for a better day ahead...
good night...

...Sunday we depart from each other... make a agreement that we shall not see each other for a while...It was a painful, decision...but I believe situation will improve...

this post is a reminder for myself, so you may skip and ignore if anyone don't wish to read it..

Monday was the first day, like normal day I undergo all the school thingy and manage to still entertain the class and team... but every time I try to entertain others...it always seem that I am in a different dimension compare to those people...like my intelligent have taken over the situation rather than emotion...

I wonder if grade is the reason that make me use more of intelligent than emotion...I would rather not get the grade and have equal among of emotion and intelligent in life to love my dear more than ever...
It seems that I can multi-task, but incapable to switch mode fast...

I miss my dear...but I am, currently incapable to express those feeling into emotion...
I miss my dear...but I am, too tired and somehow injured to give her the sense of security...
I lied once, twice...but my habit seems to have returned...
If only trust could have build up with only words...
IF does not exist in my dictionary...
So I will act it once the 2 week of not seeing each other is over...
Now the only things that constantly keep me sane is your theme song and the ring...

Small lies, white lies... they are still lies...

I do wonder...maybe...we will just see each other less this month...I am poor, I admit and I am emotionally weak to match the level that I used to have...

Monday I met up with jm at jp...went to his house awhile...passed by your house...I looked up...as I went home...Passed by your home again...I saw your light on...I felt relieve...that you're home, in the comfort of your husband...