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Yup, I'm back kicking in my life after some lone time... don't like to be in the problematic state (don't you PEEPO think so too?) haha =)

I refuse to surrender to the world no matter how much it is kicking in...

Reason why I gotten so kick up? that's because I just went for paintball fight! OMG it is totally war-zone when you enter the field. But I'm not going to tell anymore and leave it up to your imagination~~

All this kicking back have to thanks to everyone I know, all the cyriva club members, Camp mates, Seniors, JCIG members and most of all Julia.

okay now...I will never post anymore emo post else it will affect others ;)~ haha

Now is year 2 and many things are hard especially to have your 2nd BREAK shorten how irritating is that?! haha I WANT TO PUNCH THE PRINCIPLE FACE HARD!
what is it they have in mind man haha I want to attend next principle dialogs and keep asking him and shooting him question
go CHEEEEEEEEEPP CHHHHHEEEPPPPPP him haha

For the rest of the activity like position for cyriva, plans for jcig and most importantly my julia
I have plan them already, so now just wait for it to unfold and PLEASE have faith in me =)

There is a reason I'm a special case~ bwahaha

blog isn't supposed to be too open sometimes haha
BUT! Appreciate your life and people who care and love you =)

and tips to all year 2... theory are easy to understand but finding out the reason? you have to do practices book again and again :) let's have a study group everyone! Jcig or Cyriva

JCIG...Cyriva...Relationship...

Another internal Conflict with myself...even though SEG camp and FOP is over...SLA...

All 3 somehow feels important and yet at the same time I just feel like dropping them...

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it really hurts me to bring out relationship to be part of my internal conflict...
2 year and unlimited to go...

I have yet to choose a position for Cyriva club...ending of vote on 27.4.09 ...

I have yet to decide what to do for JCIG...I'm not that important...

Guess i'm not much of a superman after all or naruto to split myself...
(if) I have a split person or a twin....

I want to escape from reality and enter a world of Virtue...I want to defy paranormal now...

Labels: I've made mistakes that I can't erase...I've made mistakes

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Finally get to have a break after FOP and SEG camp~

I guess the SEG camp was a success~out of 4 houses I get to see 3 noisy houses in FOP and 1 of the houses are having many outing haha~

Though the FOP was chaotic, but at least we survive through it and I guess people are having fun~
the year 1, the student leaders, the game master and the cyriva club members (lol stealing logistic)

soon all the year 1 coming in again and every thing going to follow a cycle again~ SLA, interview, welcome party and stuff...

anyway away with the stress now... I feel like staying in clubroom forever! LoL it's just so fun to be playing foosball with people and doing what you want and need to do~

anyway I suddenly have this surge of ideas for this year Halloween night~sure freak the hell out of people/camper haha

17.4.09 - after FOP, went off to ECP to fish with my gf and friends haha~ thank goodness julia came to pass me my skates else, walking from Area C- F is freaking long~ you save me haha (must get my license soon)

have been posting some emo post lately but thats because I need to vent my angry as well~ after all I'm a human and I'm not as perfect as everyone thinks...

been playing facebook "restaurant city" hahaha damn lame yet funny, been rushing kenny, fabian and other people for ingredient hah - I NEED LEMON *for my food!!
*i just realise what does lemon means...*

Seriously, cant wait for Halloween night to scare the hell out of people haha damn fun seeing people crying~ (the element of sight is very important~)

*ONE MORE THING, all this SEG camp and FOP... lets consider it a success and I'm not the only main focus to calm the credit, it goes to every single one of Students Leaders, Camper's cooperation and Cyriva's members... and also Special thanks to winton, chung wu, samuel, afiq and shafiq (not sure if the names is right). well done everyone!~ hope to see you guys soon for future camps and activity~*

one photo of me in fop and i'm done~

Ever since SEG Camp, Somehow I cant feel the void around me anymore...everything seems so numb and irritating...guess I'm just in the not enthu-stage now, need more rest...

To be honest, I didn't confess everything during debrief and such because I still want to keep things to myself...

To be honest, I guess I too nice to dare say all the bad thing about people, whether I like it or not...

To be honest, I very picky, protective and easily irritated person...

To be honest, I wasn't a very nice kid when I was young, you rather have me dead...

To be honest, I hate people who isn't initiative...Bird brain

To be honest, I also learn ninja-do, because to protect myself when I go provoking people...

To be honest, I totally hate the existence of different laws ...

To be honest, I join DMNT to invent things and create futuristic equipments...

To be honest, I hate yet I love human being...

To be honest, I need some time alone after FOP...
not emotionally unstable...just want to voice what how I feel...

Note* "Emotionally unstable" refer to low EQ people who can't seems to know what they are feeling wrong and uncomfortable...

For me, I just want to get some breathing space... and I have done what I KNOW I want...so it's not emotionally unstable
regard...

Hey everyone.. there is a reason why I love this song a lot ... cause it just express what I feel every time, it is not a emo song but if you understand it you would enjoy this song more...

We are here
We exist here
The slow time is
Flowing in this room

Even if the summer days vanish,
The smiles that remain
Are a chains of happiness up to this point.

Ah, the meaning of honesty,
Is within the innermost depths of your heart.
Hey, the days are wonderful
In the midst of weakness and anxiety.

I won't say goodbye,
Because forever
The days will be unchanged
Surely forever

The happy moment
That exists in my memories
Was inside of light
It overflowed at this place

Let's say, it's 3 years later
Will I be able to recall
Our time?

Ah, the days that have ended
Are always, always tightening my heart
Hey, I learned about the feeling
Of thinking of you more dearly than before

I won't say goodbye
Forever, from now on, too
I leave behind my heart
In the days that won't return

So that I won't part from you anymore

Ah, I got the days when I wished
Turning those thoughts into strength
Hey, I embrace the feelings
Of thinking dearly of the wonderful days

I won't say goodbye,
Because forever
The days will be unchanged
Surely forever

hyuu~ the blog title doesn't means I having problem with my WMP but I have pass my day listening to my music haha (Some old music are actually quite nice and meaningful =) (and FYI all my music is Japanese anime hahahaha)

woke up at 11pm and thought that Wednesday is Thursday need to go school for Cyriva meeting, but after seeing my laptop sidebar i realize its Wednesday, went to play burger rush then play "you" on my piano...
brush my teeth and went to bed again lol...

went to cut my hair and it look kinda strange yet I still find it nice
Now only left with coloring my hair, clothes and weapon before I cos-play Noctis from final fastasy 13... but now is too early to dye my hair...and this cos-play will be my last cosplay

Not that I hate cosplay... but something just feel strange...

Was at lakeside mrt waiting for darling, so I brought a bottle of apple juice and sit by the stairs looking at that lone-lighted path, then I remember that I told my darling 1 or 2 years ago that i think this pathway is actually quite lovely and nice~

Then the rest of the day is classified haha
FOP
Yesterday was RP FOP rehearsal haha was fun since we (cyriva club members) are not the organizer but the follow-up for OSG.

Learn some weird hand-shake which I think is damn lame to be shared... the OSG have also planned on doing something interesting haha will post the video in the future~

We also had Inter-school Tug-O-War, in my opinion SEG won though we won the 1st round with SHL and lost on the last round (we got 2nd) but great job as we also won OSG team (Rp dragon boat team which belong to SHL as well) haha~
oh-well win or lose is'nt really a matter but the Ra-Ra and atmosphere created, that's more important for any event.

Taught all Student leader and helper the SEG dance which my committee and I came up with haha damn fun~

then I got my ass signed by them (thanks goodness no ink and my ass hurt) LOL memorable sia...

okay that's all for now~
gtg bath and slp

btw I know people are wondering why I don't like posting my gf profile in my blog, that is because I'm too protective of a person to let too many people know whose my gf is...and what we do and memories made are kept in another diary which is my brain... =)

my present for my gf~ it is called rilakuma haha cute right? haha look at the size as compared to my hand haha caught it in an Arcade in Japan~ just so adorable~