DAMN SICKENING. it's really getting on my nerves alr..
dun try to put things in a NICE way juz to conceal ur real feelings and intentions. for goodness sake, i can see through that facade of urs. wadever la. i try not to care that much lest i go mad but i cant seem to help it. my mind juz runs wild. no job. penniless. negligible. unimportant. insignificant. to anyone. that's me.
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it's sad that one is feeling down and has no one to turn to. i wonder who i can turn to in the middle of the nite when i'm feeling sad. some ppl have friends who will answer the phone and show care n concern even in the dead of the night. these ppl are so lucky! too bad i do not have this priviledge. =X
it really hurts when ppl hold some things in much higher regard than others, just the simple, condescending 'orh' is enough to make me depressed for the whole day. i'm happy for you guys for the good opportunities but that does not warrant you to be critical. so pls be more sensitive, would you?
and you seem to be offering comfort but sparingly and just for the sake of doing so. do not attempt to fool me that u're just plain forgetful. i think it's more of your deliberate selective memory. thanks SO much. -_-
there has been no news from the job agencies too! sian diao alr..-sighs-
everything's just piling up..the worries..i wanna be rid of them! =(
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haha..GSS fever. though i'm kinda tight on finances. =x
went out with jo for only 2 hours today and i've alr bought a pair of flats..oh no..haha..=p must exercise self-restraint! it's just so good to have great spending power manx..i yearn to have that..oops..haha..someone pls lower my 'fever'.
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relieved. i really should thank God for His blessings. =)
anw i have not received any reply from AH! these few days i've been keeping my hp in my sight religiously in case any job agency calls with some job offers. haha..i even bring my hp into the bathroom! =X i'm kinda desperate for a job la..haha..GSS is here! hands a little itchy alr..but no income how to participate rite..sadded. hehe..=p if u guys know of any job opportunities must update me k? arigato! =)
i think i've a fetish for uniforms and formal suits. haha.. they're so cool! and uniforms dispel the need to crack my head to think of what to wear every morning.

i think i no long understand you.
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is it that difficult to make a decision? when can i stop being so indecisive and reliant on the opinions of others? oh well. i guess it's high time i lived for myself. haha. easier said than done. again.
looking for a job is tough manx. esp when i can only work till the end of july. y do some ppl manage to find jobs so easily!? haha...
rotting ard is really boring..i need something constructive to do. haha.. isn't it ironic that when one is busy, one yearns to just laze ard and do nth and vice versa? human beings are too complex to be fully comprehended. haha..
hm..was doing some thinking yest..wonder how long friendships will last..so many ppl are alr saying they are busy and have no time to keep in contact now..and they can't even spare a few seconds replying a simple sms! next time when we step into the workforce, wouldn't the situation be worse? wad is all this talk abt forever frenship? does it really exist? i do hope so..
tml's job interview at AH is so early! 830am leh..haha..wish me luck manx..=p one good thing is that the uniform n shoes will be provided..=) haha...hopefully can get the job lor..
may everyone stay happy..=)
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yest went ntu spms de welcome party..haha. was scared at first cos i went alone (most ppl went nus sci talk) but got to know 3 new frens instead..chelsia, yinlu and bao ting..=) the profs were very nice and friendly and the talk was qt interesting with lame jokes n stuff..haha..=) the infrastructure is really impressive and the easier to get honours aspect is one that is very enticing. moreover, the intake is ard 140 only which is smaller and better. haha. oh ya..and at least u alr know wad major u are in and not cry after that when u can't get the major u want.
went back to nj funtasia after that..haha..actually i went back juz to see my frens and teachers, not really for the funfair itself la..haha..anw thanks shanyin for the $10 coupons..haha..we spent them on food. =)

Thank God for everything! =)
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life of blanks.
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wOoO~ another job hunting day..haha..woke up feeling kinda restless..n after coming back from aussie, i realised i've a bigger appetite. goodness gracious! this is bad. haha..but over there, i can't even finish half of the plate that is given to me. weird right? lol.
went to international plaza today with hester..put down our names at the different job agencies there..hope we'll hear from them really soon! i need a job manx..and the money of course.. juz hope that my mum will give me the power to control my own finances soon. -prays hard-
on the 18th floor, there was an indian guy who was very freaky! he kept staring at us lor..after walking one whole round on the 18th storey, he was still at the same position staring intently at us. oh manx. if hester wasnt there with me, i think i'll really freak out alr. i'm a scaredy cat. =x
everyday when i come home, i'll peek into the letterbox with hope..if my dad returns home before me, the first thing i'll do when i reach home is to see if there are any letters on my study table. none these days. sadded. and nus is so so so slow. at least if they dun accept me, they should at least give me an answer right? goodness. i hate being kept in suspense. just show me the truth. i can accept it after so many things that have happened.

hm..can u pls stop doing this to me..especially cos the person is you.
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haha..i guess life is juz like that..the more hope u put in sth, the more disappointed u are. oh well. juz another of life's realities~ haha..
i'm trying to find a job right now..any recommendations? kinda sian staying at home..having all finances controlled by my mum.. i dun even have 1% of spending power! =x why is she having this uber tight control over my money? -sighs- but actually even if i get a job, my pay is still controlled by her. i really yearn for more freedom manx..wad is this world coming to..
hm..thanks everyone for being so understanding..=)and the weather here is so warm!! =x haha..prefer the cooling winds of autumn..though cold but shuang..n the layers of clothing can cover all imperfections! hehe..ok..almost all..=p

i juz wish that u will show more care and concern..stop acting so aloof, would u?
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sometimes life is just a cruel and ironic little game isn't it? -ponders-
have been feeling this sense of tiredness, hope it'll vanish soon.
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i juz wanna say that i really appreciate all my frens..for everything..all of u are juz so sweet! -hugs- =)
the weather's here is so erratic! haha..it's really four seasons in a day manx..sunny, rainy, cold etc..can suddenly have a short period of hail too..haha..the ppl here are very friendly and helpful..=) n i guess eveyone is happy leading their own peaceful lives..haha..during their work hrs, the employees can ans personal calls, go out n smoke, chat, laugh etc..haha..so slack rite? this is the life..hehe..=) everything is not confirmed yet..shall see how..take care ppl! =)
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someone enlighten me pls...-sighs-
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That day had a gathering at sf's hse..thanks for everything! wa..really very touched lor..=)
now i'm in a dilemma..sighs..i dunno wad to do...
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