3.25.2011

Thanks & Praise

I just finished up my quiet time for the morning for which I have been using Cory's Bible. About once a week, I come across a verse that he either marked off or highlighted, which honestly feels like I've found a treasure each time it happens. Today I found this one marked:

Therefore, we do not lose heart; though outwardly we are wasting away yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
2 Cor 4:16-18

I'm also in the middle of a lenten study at church about Christ's last 24 hours - and read Psalm 118 today which talks about giving praise to God even in the face of adversity. I was struck by how little praise and thanks I have given Him lately - rather just have been pouring out my problems and requests. Cory could praise God while he was dying, and Christ could praise God in the hours before he was crucified, yet I have problems praising him regularly in the midst of my "light and momentary" trials.

I remember learning an order of prayer in college that always put thankfulness and praise first - before presenting your requests. This seems to be a good way to think about other relationships too - not just prayer. Focusing on checking in with the person you love first before making your list of requests or complaints to them.

Happy Friday!

12.16.2010

10 Things I Want to Remember: Langley Edition

1. She is so brave - this year she has amazed me with the things she has done with such confidence. Some examples: Jumping fearlessly into the lake in McCall this summer, pulling out her own tooth, and auditioning for the Nutcracker.

2. She loves "her people" - the people in her world (and there are many!) are so loved by her. She just genuinely craves time with all of us. She hugs and loves so openly without holding back.

3. She knows empathy - her teacher has shared several times in which she has stood up for the underdog in class, taken the one without friends under her wing, and worked to be inclusive with her friends.

4. She is hilarious, and feeds off of our laughter. She finds ways to be crazy and get a laugh out of us every day. When we laugh, she laughs harder....and the cycle continues.

5. She is an amazing big "Sis." - I expected her to be good but didn't know she would be great. She shows so much patience and compassion with Mercer and puts Mercer's needs and wants in front of her own on a daily basis.

6. She is intelligent - I can't believe the books she is reading, the spelling lists she is mastering, and the math and science she is excited about! She wakes up early every morning and reads for 1-2 hours without thinking twice about it.

7. She has matured so much in the past two years. For someone who had such an intensity about her, who had such a difficult time calming down, sleeping well, and trying new things - I can't believe the things she does now that were such a challenge at 5 and 6.

8. She gets God - she gets faith and belief in God more clearly that I do. She asks important, thoughtful questions and then applies them to situations that come up in her life in ways that are so simple yet so meaningful.

9. She is patient with me. Parenting is hard, I mess up. She is gracious and sweet and loves me anyway.

10. She loves ballet, and music, and performing, and entertaining! When we started ballet at three it was because I thought the pink leotards were cute. Who knew, she would love it this much at 7?

Bonus: When I just re-read this list to myself I realized how obvious it is that she is Cory's. I know she's mine too, and that we share many qualities that are wonderful. But the core of her is so Cory. I am so thankful for her and so sad that she and Cory didn't get to enjoy each other for as long as they could have. I can just see the two of them reminding me together to chill out and have a little more FUN with life. I'm working on it....

10 Things I Want to Remember: Mercer Edition


1. She loves books - she will sit and read to her dolls or to herself for 20-30 minutes a time.

2. She is so funny - she makes me laugh out loud every day.

3. Her language is freakishly good - enough so that she even impresses her SLP mom and preschool teacher Grammy. She also takes strangers off guard when she says, "Merry Christmas! What your name? I'm two, I'm tiny!" or starts belting out all of the words to "Up on the Housetop."

4. She is strong willed (aka mischievous and feisty!). Unlike her sister when she was 2, Mercer likes to wait until you have told her not to do something to then walk over with a smile and do it again. Occasionally this is accompanied by "no no no" out of her mouth just to make sure we know that she knows she shouldn't be doing it!

5. I love so many of her expressions - some examples: "How bout.., You silly, What you doing? What happened? It's okay, she's sooooo nice, Ruby Duby, I lub you, I so much, I'm tiny, sis, where daddy go?"

6. She loves her sister, and wants to play and dance with her all the time and 99% of the time, calls her "Sis."

7. She cuddles, not for long, but it's so sweet that I'll take the short squeezes.

8. She pretends ALL the time with her babies, her elephant, her tea set, etc.

9. She sings everything - Jesus loves me, Twinkle Twinkle, Silent Night, Amazing Grace, In the Jungle, Baa Baa Black Sheep, ABCD - a few current favorites!

10. She thought McCall was "Miss Call" and when we finally arrived at our cabin for Thanksgiving she said "This Miss Call's House? Where's Miss Call? This Miss Call's Bed?"

Bonus: When I take the time to stop and just watch her, I am filled to the brim with so much joy and love that I get choked up on a regular basis. I'm so aware of how fast this time will go because I can't believe her "Sis" is 7. I'm trying to soak it all in and wishing I could rewind and soak up more of Langley's first three years instead of freaking out and reading all of the parenting books that told me we were doing it "all wrong". Second children are such a testament to the fact that given a little bit of practice, Mamas really do instinctually know what is best for their children.

11.17.2010

Worship Fully

Worship Fully
Spend Less
Give More
Love All

We started a four week discussion group at Cathedral of the Rockies tonight focusing on the message of the Advent Conspiracy. The four short phrases above summarize the entire idea beautifully. After watching the video, we started our discussion and most of us fast forwarded to thinking of ideas to "spend less" and "give more." We had many great ideas but our friend Erik, who was facilitating, kept bringing us back to the first idea - to "worship fully." Looking back on the evening, it's interesting to think about how easily I (and most of the people there) slipped right past step one and on to steps two and three.

I'm human and pragmatic. My instinct is to cut to the concepts that are tangible, the ones I could list and then check off on a sticky note. In the midst of our discussion, one woman stopped us and reminded us (as Erik had) that we were moving past the most important part when what God really wants from is to enter FULLY into worship during this advent season. She said we need to "stop and listen" to what He wants from us before moving on to the next steps. Several hours later, this is what is stuck in my mind as I think about how I want to head into the holidays this year. First I want to stop and listen - neither of which come naturally to me. I'm up to the challenge but will most likely need hourly reminders to just stop and listen instead of go and talk, and talk, and talk!

I have hesitated in the past to write in detail about my faith on this blog, which I've realized has resulted in me censoring myself. Since the few of you who read this blog know me well enough to know what I believe (whether you agree with it or not), I'm also challenging myself to not hold back on that aspect of my life when I blog. Why I've held this part of me back from this blog may take some exploration on my part but I can at least offer this reason: I have beliefs that are shared by people I love and beliefs that are not shared by people I love. I worry (you all know I worry) that by sharing tidbits of my faith I may isolate those of you that I love who don't share my beliefs. However, instead of worrying, I'm just going to let that go, and write without worrying.

Recap..I may have overdone my challenges in this blog: worship fully, stop, listen, and stop worrying. Yikes, that's a year's worth of challenges but no better time to get started than right now!


11.16.2010

Prayer for the week....

This is from the weekly study guide from church on Sunday. Love it. More later on what we are loving about the church we have been attending.


Prayer for the Week:

O God, I’m thankful for the restful rhythm of a life filled with your grace. Teach me how to cling to that Good News even when the TV or my 401K statement pushes me toward an obsessive, fear-filled lifestyle I can’t sustain. Please guide me as I sort out my “needs” from my “wants” so that I may be faithful to you.

Amen.



11.15.2010

Smart Cookie

Yesterday Langley and I took Ian, my nephew, to lunch and Build A Bear for his 5th birthday gift. On the way to the mall, I told them that we would eat at the food court and they could pick whatever they wanted. We haven't eaten at McDonald's in over 6 months so I thought Langley would head directly to it. After looking around she said, "I want Blimpie's. Every time I eat McDonald's I feel sick afterwards and it's really not healthy for you."

After eating, we headed to Build A Bear so Ian could make his Clone Trooper Monkey. We started allowance with Langley about a year ago. She gets 5 bucks a week, one to give, two to spend, and two to save. We've been talking lately about not spending a small amount just because you want to buy something (instant gratification) and instead finding something that you want to save for. However, Langley had $10 that was really burning a hole in her pocket while Ian shopped. I've been working on trying to not influence her purchase decisions, since it is "her" money. After looking around the entire store for about 15 minutes, she walked over to Ian and I and said, exasperated, "Mom, everything in this entire store is way over my budget!"

Parenting is hard much of the time but it's nice to know that SOME of what we are modeling for our kids is being generalized!

Silly

Both of the girls are SO funny lately. They are always performing and making me laugh out loud. Mercer often says to Langley, "Come here sis, come here, sit right here sis!" Strong willed with a sense of humor on the side - I'll take two please!