It used to be darkness
Without you I
I lived my life in blindness
But now I am found

And I’ll sing, sing I love you so
And I’ll sing
Because the world can’t take away
Your love

Found me in weakness
Broken
You came to me in kindness
And now I live

I’ll give my life for you Lord
For all you’ve done

the heartcry of this song is like.. soup for the soul on a cold cold night.

feeling physically tired and a little worn around the edges. THE monster week is fast approaching.. i can’t say i’m on top of everything yet, but i’m giving my all.

without fail, God has little ways of reminding me that exams are never the be all and end all. honestly, i find some of the material dry and sore on the eyes, but it’s never just an exam. it’s a challenge of self-discipline and time management. a challenge to do it all with God placed first, and to do it with the flourish of a s-m-i-l-e. it’s part of a life-long journey where our God, the carpenter, chips away here and there our imperfections, because He sees the final product. there is no pause button. no rewind. breathe it in. enjoy it, now!

roasted sweet potato.. for those who’ve tried this before, i’d think you’d agree that it’s one of the yummiest things you can eat on a cold day. it’s so nice to peel back the skin of sweet potato and see the steam rise up. today i had steamed sweet corn, roasted sweet potato, pumpkin soup, hot chocolate and green curry (fried) rice (not all together!). sweet~ winter and exams do go hand in hand when it comes to food.

hmm, i seem to talk a lot about food. honestly, i don’t always rave about food, but i do enjoy eating.. haha. okay, i swear i’m going jogging as soon as exams are over.

anyway, today was just a really nice and rejuvenating day. the books were hit, the house is clean and the pantry is filled with food. thank you, God for Your blessings~ i’m also rediscovering Genesis and picking up little things that i didn’t take much notice of before, like this verse:

Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth. Gen 9:16

the uplifting word of God.. i love.

i had the best dinner tonight.

japanese curry and steamed tofu.

it was the best ‘cos Eileen cooked it, haha (:

miranda dropped by afterwards and somehow we ended up resuming our convo on peoples’ idiosyncrasies.. just little things that we picked up from the people around us using our super brilliant observational skills. haha, or more like rachel’s ^__^; it’s funny how we all have these habits and actions we like to do that are unique to our personality. we may joke around and have a laugh at ourselves, but at the end of it all, it’s awesome how God created us along with all our quirkyness. apparently, i have very exaggerated facial expressions and i get shocked really easily even before the ‘punchline’ comes. i think my expressions are pretty reasonable, lol.. but i do admit that i have trouble controlling my reactions, much to my dismay at times -__-

exam time is around the corner and i finally got around to checking my exam timetable. all i can say is, WOW, the faculty never ceases to amaze me >__<; looking at the next couple of weeks and doing a quick mental plan of the work i need to get done, i feel quite overwhelmed. however, i’m determined that a repeat of last year won’t happen again and by God’s wisdom and strength, i can sit through my exams with confidence. during sub-district prayer meeting, God brought me to Matthew 14:13-21 where Jesus fed the five thousand from five loaves of bread and two fish. ps wilson touched on the same story in John 6:5-13 today and it was really confirmation of what God has been trying to tell me throughout this past week. i’m quite easily overcome by the stress of my studies but i’m reminded again and again that God provides for our every need. looking to Him in faith allows us to see beyond our obstacles, beyond our own limitations and focus, instead, on what God can do. i don’t think it has quite struck home like it has these past few days.. ‘do the humanly possible; let God do the humanly impossible’.

This service that you perform is not only supplying the needs of God’s people but is also overflowing in many expressions of thanks to God. Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else. And in their prayers for you their hearts will go out to you, because of the surpassing grace God has given you. Thanks be to God for his indescribable gift!

– 2 Corinthians 9:12-15

wow~! after campus evax today, i was just pondering over the concept of ‘sowing and reaping’ and how God’s timing allows for things to fall into place, much like the pieces of a jigsaw. usually it’s impossible for us to see the big picture of God’s plan simply because we’re NOT God- we’re not omnipresent, we can’t control time and we’re not all-knowing. we don’t have the capacity to know exactly how our words and actions will affect the people we approach, but that doesn’t mean we can’t make an impact on their lives. during evax at the beginning of this year, i was impatient to see God move in their lives. i wanted to see their lives transformed right there and then, and i was determined to unveil God’s unconditional love to them.. but when things didn’t really work the way i wanted, i started to become disappointed by the level of response from some of the people we shared to. HOWEVER, today God reminded me to not focus solely on reaping the harvest, but to concentrate on sowing the seeds that lead to the reaping. without sowing the seeds, how can there be a harvest at all?

the people we met today had been approached by Christians before and i could see that because of this, their hearts were softened to our friendship- even if we don’t necessarily share the same views from a spiritual standpoint. because of the people who availed themselves and shared before us, we were able to speak into softened hearts instead of hardened ones. seeds grow better in soft ground, right?!

really, thank God for reminding me that there’s a reason why sowing always comes before reaping!

on another note..

i found this on a bookmarked site (forget which one >__<):

haha, SUPA KAWAII!

i was playing around with a friend’s rubik’s cube last night and in the midst of all the twisting and turning, i was struck by how closely life can resemble the cube.

taken into our own inexperienced hands, no matter how many moves we make, the cube just doesn’t fall into place. no matter how close we come to finishing the cube, there always seems to be one little corner or portion that’s displaced- and it drives us crazy! it’s the same with life when we live only to fulfill our own needs and desires. no matter how hard we try to clean up our messy lives and how close we come to achieving our goals and ideals, when it’s not according to God’s plan and purpose, there will always be something missing from the big picture that leaves us hollow and unsatisfied. coming back to the cube, if we place it in the hands of someone experienced, someone who knows the steps involved inside out, the colours fall into place effortlessly. in the same way, when we place our lives in God’s hands, He moulds and shapes us for the better because He has a plan for every single one of us that will come to fruition. when we surrender our lives to God, it doesn’t mean we’re giving them up, but rather it means we’re GAINING new lives that are infinitely more amazing, more satisfying than our old ones.

on another note, i’ve NEVER been able to solve a rubik’s cube. funny how i’ve gleaned all this from something that drives me nuts ^__^