Mmm.. Coincidence?
Seems to me that I only update my blog when I'm at Singapore.
Back in Kuching, there's no such feeling of wanting to post something.
In fact, I have this urge to start a journal right away.
That's why I'm here, using blogger to control this urge. :)
Life's okay in this one year.
I'm now an undergraduate in UNIMAS.
Truth be told, I love university life if compared to high school's life.
So I'm pretty content with how I ended up at UNIMAS now, especially when I don't have to spend much on tuition fees.
Entering a Higher Learning Institute is one of the milestones in my life.
It marks the end of teen hood & the birth of a young adult.
Now I'm at a stage where I have to make my own choice and be responsible for the consequences they bring forth.
With freedom, comes responsibilities.
I have to look further and plan my route ahead now that I'm already in my 20's
Looking back, it's been 9 years since I've met one of the great people in my life - M.
Now look ahead, the same amount of time that 's gonna pass in a blink of an eye will have me blowing a 30-year-old candle.
Had some serious talk with the gang recently, and it hit me hard at that moment - we are no longer kids.
I can no longer camp at home everyday, playing audition & ignoring mum's nags.
Now in 2013, my mum no longer nags me for staying up.
Partly due to my stubbornness, but mostly due to age.
Time never stops.
And it's time for me to think of what I want to achieve.
I've used 'Live Happy' as my motto for the past 20 years, but now that I've hit the 20-year-old mark.
I have to start making elaborations to that statement, definitions of "Happy".
Well of course, I'll be happy holing in my room and gaming everyday.
But seeing how the world works, I'm not allowed.
Happiness comes at the cost of one's sacrifice.
"Equivalent exchange", quoted from the anime
Fullmetal Alchemist.
You gain to lose, you lose to gain.
Want something? You have to work for it.
My 'happiness' all these years, were the result of the sacrifices my parents made.
Since I'm gradually stepping into adulthood, by right I should do things with my own hands.
Achieving my objective by my own hands.
But here's the problem,
no money no talk.
I study for career, I work for money.
I doubt I'll be happy working in the business sector since my heart belongs to Anime/Manga & Games.
So I spent years working unhappily for money, and spend them all for?
House - What's left is this feeling of achievement in the end, like obtaining a hard-earned trophy.
Car - Simila to above.
Shopping - Fleeting moments of self-satisfaction.
Let's exclude the need for food to survive in this case.
In the end, what do I work for?
Guess I'm finished with my rants for now
Upcoming To-Do's:
- Organize FEB Convocation Events
- Come up with a blog for PERFEP
- Find volunteer work (?), basically something to fill in my future CV.
I'll stop here.
Good night world!
Love,
yh
p/s:
PERFEP is the student council for my faculty.
Currently a proud member of that group. :)
