Days of Boredom
Spending 4 days in Singapore with nothing much to do is an excruciatingly boring experience that I really wouldn't care to repeat.
Returned from Perth on Tuesday night.
Wednesday wasn't really that bad. It was my day off and I planned a bike lesson in the morning, an evening run (which was cancelled due to heavy rain and promptly replaced by a soothing nap) and dinner with Kim.
Didn't plan anything concrete for Thursday as I was on standby but brought my dog for grooming and went for a hair treatment trial in the morning. Paid bills. Lazed around for hours, read a bit, dragged myself to the gym and then went running at Bedok Reservoir. Settled my London holiday accommodation and cancelled the transport. Cooked dinner at home. No callup.
Was also on standby on Friday and couldn't believe I hadn't been called up yet. Spent most of the day in my bedroom. Absolutely hate not having the freedom to wander about the house as I please. Had some cereal in the morning. Packed my room. Read. Drank protein shake for lunch. Read. At 3.30pm, I decided I couldn't stay in my room any longer and forced myself to go out for a walk around Eastpoint. Paid remainder of bills. Had some chicken from NTUC and a lotus biscuit - that cheered me up :O)
Went home and back into my room where I napped for an hour. Finally, my dad went out, and I kinda raided the kitchen. Had ice-cream and potato chips while watching TV and felt gross after. So, went out for a run. Came back and ate the leftover dinner from Thursday. Planned part of the itinerary for the London trip. Finished off my book. Uploaded a tonne of photos onto Facebook.
Hrm... Actually, the last three days don't really seem as bad as it felt. But somehow, I've adapted to a lifestyle that is so on-the-move - I always have something to do, somewhere to go, someone to meet, sleep to catch up on or a workout to squeeze into my busy schedule. And now that I have extra time on my hands, I feel lost. Well to be honest, I wanted to go for my bike lesson but because my schedule was not confirmed, I couldn't really make plans.
Well on the bright side, I did manage to sorta pack my room and read 2 books - "Left for Dead in the Outback" by Ricky Megee and "He's Just Not That Into You". Have been thinking about getting the DVDs for "Sex in the City" but am worried that I'll turn into a TV series junkie. I can't imagine myself addicted to the TV. Not healthy. Maybe the book series would be a better idea.
So, today is Day 4, 1.30pm. Had breakfast with mom and Ann at home. Went out to buy dog food and change money. Might be collecting my blackout curtains later + church. Need to paint my nails and pack my bag for tomorrow. Go out for a run. And possibly work on the London itinerary. Any better ideas?
Not That Into Me?
So, I've read the book. And watched the movie.
Actually I watched the movie first and then ran out to buy the book.
Point is, I understand now. I think. That I am the rule and not the exception. And that while he may like me to a certain extent. It is probably not enough for him to put in any more effort than what he's giving at the moment.
Do I think that's good enough? Do I want to wait around for him to make up his mind or get his act together? Do I want to waste any more time? Obviously not...
Quite frankly, I have better things to do with my time and there are others who are trying ten times harder and more deserving of a chance.
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Food for ThoughtHow much you exercise is as important as how much you eat when you are not exercising...I need to stop junking.
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And so, I have resolved...
1) Not to reply to his smses (which are way too infrequent for my liking anyway). Plus, I sent him a serious text last week after our date and he didn't even bother to reply. And now, it seems as if he has conveniently swept everything under the carpet. Or is he going to pretend that he didn't receive the sms? Well, if he really wishes to find out why I'm suddenly not replying to his text, he can jolly well try harder. Call me, drop by my place or the airport. Whatever. I'm sure he can be resourceful if he wants to. And if he doesn't even seek an explanation and decides to let me disappear from his life without a word, doesn't it just prove that he wasn't that into me in the first place?
2) To tell him (if he is sincere enough to persuade me to meet him) exactly where I stand and the minimum standard that I have of a relationship. I'm not putting up with any more nonsense. If someone is truly into you, wouldn't he want to spend more time with you? Wouldn't he make more effort in planning dates and on special occasions? Wouldn't he call or stay in touch in some way even when it's not possible to meet? Wouldn't he be more generous?
3) From now on, to never "settle" for anyone. I'll rather be single and happy than spend my time with someone below standards or impossible to decipher. If you really like someone and want to be with her, I'm sure you'll do everything in your power to let her know how you feel, impress her and make her like you too right?
4) To not bat an eyelid when someone brags about his past or tells me how fit/caring/disciplined/organised he used to be. Yesterday is not today. Today is today. And just like you are not supposed to fall in like with someone's potential, isn't it also pointless to dream up possibilities with someone's past? Who you are at present is what matters. The effort you make to turn your life around now is what matters. Go take stock of your life and pull yourself together before looking me up again.
And if I am not worth your effort, well then that is no loss for me because I can defintely do better...
Playing Tourist
Just returned from Perth where I took another trip down memory lane. This time at Murdoch University (ate at the Asian Caravan - where food is no longer served from a caravan, visited a bustling Bush Court - with the usual Friday flea market and ECA booths, the library, Sir Walter's Cafe and the Student Village), explored Fremantle (Weekend Market, E-Shed, Prison, Shipwrecks Museum, Cicerellos, Jesters) and shopped at Harbour Town. All in the span of 11 hours! And guess what? I'm going again first week of March!
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I shall never again complain about how hot the weather in Singapore (or anywhere else for that matter) is. After experiencing the European winter, I have realized it's better to be a little hot and sweaty than to be walking about all day in soggy shoes, freezing my ass off in the trecherous rain. Europe is a gloomy place to be and I hear that the weather stays pretty much the same (maybe minus the rain) for 10 out of 12 months during the year. Fortunately, the sights are pretty and every street corner and building oozes of history and is worth dozens of photos. If stones could speak, I can imagine the stories they would tell...
In Italy, I visited Venice (even though it was only 5 hours and raining most of the time) + Milan City (Duomo + several other unidentified locations + the shopping street) + San Siro Stadium (where I watched David Beckham play for AC Milan against Reggina). Getting around in Europe is not easy and expensive. Street names all sound alike, most town centres are miles apart, cabs are not readily available and the train system is too complicated for my liking. Still, I suppose a few more trips and I'll be galavanting around like a local. Hope to visit in the summer next time round.
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Planned a 10-day holiday with my mom to London/Paris/Bordeaux from 24 March to 2 April and booked promotional air tickets with SIA. Unfortunately, it seems that my leave has to be shortened to 6 days so we'll only get to do London. Problem is, I'll have to top up like 1.4K to change the return dates! Fabulous. Just fabulous...
Trying to work my way around the situation but can't confirm anything until my roster is released. Crap...
