House of Payne: 2012

Sunday, November 11, 2012

The Last 2 months

I have not blogged for 2 months. I have been so busy with work but I wanted to do a quick update of what we have been doing. Even though I had a busy few months of work Bryan had family medicine rotation in October and had a lot of time off. It was so fun having him to myself again.

First weekend was Disney World. We did not take one picture! Pathetic. But it was a blast as usual. We are already planning our next trip.

We bought a new car!! My car was getting old and starting to have problems. So we traded it in and I got a 2011 Volkswagen Tiguan. Its fully loaded with Navigation, AWD, bluetooth, IPod dock, sunroof, leather, heated seats and so on. I feel very spoiled and hot in it!

Alisha, Logan, Lauren and Alora came into town. We spent the days at the beach and eating good food. We dropped Logan's family off at Sanibel Island and got to spend the day there. Its a beautiful island. That night Alisha and I went to Naples. She wanted to see the town. Its my favorite city in Florida and love going there. The next day we drove down to Miami and went to Shake Shack. DELICIOUS.

I cried when my sister left. It was so fun having here in town. It makes me want to live near family so bad.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Emotional Roller coaster

This post is probably too personal but why is that not surprising! I can't keep anything a secret...

In May, Bryan and I decided to stop taking birth control. I was having some complications on it and my risk for breast cancer were increasing and we thought well why not start trying for a child. We said that half jokingly. Well one month later I took a pregnancy test just for fun and it came back positive. I was hyperventilating and crying. I know this sounds horrible but the first thought was my life is over. Bryan was thrilled. I could not believe it. I was like no way, how is this possible. After taking 10 test I was finally convinced.

When I went home to New Jersey my family asked me if I was pregnant yet and I was like yes. They were all so excited and started crying and it made me excited to have a kid. When I flew home to Florida I had my first doctor's appointment. We did an ultrasound and the Dr said there was no heart beat and the baby was measuring small. He said he was concerned and would do another ultrasound in 1 week. Then, he gave me the speech about a miscarriage and I started to cry. Bryan was at work and his phone died so I instantly called my mom and sister. I could not hold it in. I knew I was going to miscarry and every time I thought about it I would cry. I went home crawled into bed and cried all day. Bryan joined me shortly later and just cried as well.

That week was the longest week of my life. I started to bleed really bad and have horrible cramps and I knew what was going on. The worst part- I was at work and my patients kept yelling at me and I had to try so hard not to loose it.

Finally 1 week later, Bryan and I went to my ultrasound and again there was no heart beat and the size of the baby did not grow. The doctor said the baby passed away around 5 weeks and it was not my fault. It was nature's way of things. I knew that to be true but it was so hard not to think I ate something, had too much stress or should of not had those horrible thoughts of my life is over!

The doctor gave me some medications to help my uterus contract. Let me tell you, it was the WORSE pain of my life. I felt like I had a glimpse of labor contractions. I was in bed for 3 days, drugged up on pain pills with a very loving and compassionate husband to comfort me. The hardest part of it all was knowing that I just flushed my child down the toilet.

I know one day I am going to look back on this experience and think it was all for the best and everything worked out in the end. BUT right now I am mad and mostly sad. There is song by Maroon 5 called SAD and he says, "I am scared to death that there may not be another one like this." I constantly think that.

Its been 1 week since I lost the baby and I can finally talk about it without crying. These last 3 weeks have been the worse emotional roller-coaster of my life. One minute I would have hope for my baby and the next minute reality would set in and I would cry. I decided women are the strongest people I know. Bryan and I decided our little baby was a boy and we named him peanut.

The only good thing about this experience was Bryan said I needed some retail therapy and bought me a beautiful purse-which I will be honest did make me much happier.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

California

Once we got home from Puerto Rico the next day I went to work and Bryan flew to California. Eric, Bryan's brother was coming home from his Mission and the family was getting together. I worked my 3 days and flew in on Thursday.

Friday the family went to Sea World. It was a blast. They have fun rides there now.

Saturday we had a baby blessing for Quentin Scott. Family drove in from all over. We had delicious tacos afterwards. That night Bryan and I met up with my friend from college and her new husband. It was fun to catch up. The rest of the time was well spent relaxing, hanging out and being together as a family.

With Chandler and Jen Call.

I wanted to take family photos while we were there so here is a few that we took. It is also proof to my family that I do where my hair down sometimes!

Puerto Rico

Bryan took his step 1 boards exam on June 12 and did not start school again until July 1. We thought a long over due vacations was needed and went to Puerto Rico. It was beautiful, relaxing and fun. I could tell Bryan was truly relaxed because he was his old self again. Gone was the stress and tiredness. We were there Wednesday to Sunday and every day was packed full of fun.

Wednesday flew in, picked up our ghetto car, checked in and went straight to the beach.

Thursday we relaxed all day at the pool and beach reading books and sipping on Pina Coladas. That night we went to Fajardo and did the Bioluminescent bay. Its where algae glow in the water. It was amazing and beautiful. I took pics with a water camera and can't put them up. It looked like a scene from Avatar where the water glows.

Friday we woke up super early and went to Isle de Culebra, where Flamenco Beach is located. Flamenco beach was voted 2nd most beautiful beach in the world. It had the bluest water I have ever seen and the sand was so white and fine. It did not stick to you at all.

Saturday was our last full day in Puerto Rico and we went ALL OUT!! We had a fancy breakfast in the morning, rented a cabana for the day and at night we got a couples hot stone massage. We ended the night with a fancy Italian dinner. We spent every last penny we had but it was so worth it.

Sunday we woke up and said good bye Puerto Rico but we will be back!

Friday, June 1, 2012

Miami Zoo

Florida has this awesome deal for the summer. For 50$ you get unlimited access to the Miami zoo, Miami Sea Aquarium, Children's Museum, and the Lion Country Safari. A couple of my friends and I decided to get it and have a fun summer while our husbands are busy!

Our first trio was to the Miami Zoo. Mckenzie and I went with her two darling kids, Mckay and Quinn. It was the perfect day, overcast and not too hot. Again, not very good at taking pictures but I got a few of us with the giraffes.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Alora Rae

Logan and Lauren came to visit and we finally met Alora Rae! She is so cute. She loves being held and we cuddled the whole time. I also loved watching Bryan hold her. It made me excited to have our kids one day. Bryan would wrap her in the blanket and watch her while we all got ready for dinner. We were not very good at taking pictures only have one from Bryan's phone.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Accepting changes

I am not very good at accepting change. I know life is nothing but constant changes but its hard! Bryan and I's life is on a new roller coaster and I am scared for it. I have always eventually accepted and loved every stage of life we have been in. When we moved to Florida and started medical school I was so nervous. I cried a lot because I did not know what to expect. I hate not knowing what to expect. But once we got here and settled in I started to love it.

Bryan just finished his second year of medical school and studying for his first boards. This is a huge test. Afterwards he starts rotating in the hospital for the next 2 years. Instead of having a study all day husband I am going to have a gone all the time husband. Bryan studied a lot these last 2 years but he was always home and I never felt lonely because we were in the same house. Now with me working nights and him practically having a job (just doesn't get paid, well actually he is paying money to work in the hospital!), I am scared we will never see each other. This is the change I am not ready for.

This last month I have been so emotional. I kept asking myself why am I crying all the time. Then it hit me. A huge change is coming up in my life and I always cry when that happens. I know most people would say grow up and this is not that big of a deal-people are dying of hunger in Africa. But for me this is a big deal. However, I know it will all work out and it will not be as bad as my mind is making it to be. After the change happens I always love it. I always love the next stage of life better than the last one; after I accept it.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Birthday Present

On my birthday after my facial I came home to get ready for dinner. Bryan said he had a surprise for me. He blind folded me and took me on our deck. I thought he bought patio furniture and was getting mad inside. But when I opened my eyes this is what I saw:

A GARDEN ! I WAS SHOCKED.

My first strawberry.

My first cherry tomato.

We have strawberries, roma tomatoes, cherry tomatoes, heirloom tomatoes, zucchini, red bell pepper. This garden makes me so nervous that I am going to kill it. I can't wait until I make a dinner with food from my garden.

Adventures in March

March was a fun filled month. Its making April feel boring. The month started off with me ending job orientation and started working on my own. Next, Devin Lynette and Austin came into town. Lynette and I went to the beach on Saturday while Devin and Bryan drove up to Daytona Beach for the Supercross races.

Mom came in next on Monday. That week I worked Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday so we could all go to Disney World on the weekend. I came home Thursday morning from work and we headed up to Disney. I love Disney and it never gets old. This was Devin, Lynette, and Austin first time to Disney. Alisha flew in, and Logan and lauren drove up too. It was a small party! My mom went on a roller coaster and I was shocked. Lauren was 9 month pregnant and we got a wheelchair for her. It was also a great vehicle to stash all our stuff!

This was our first time to Animal Kingdom and it was awesome. We always go to the other 3 parks and skip Animal Kingdom. I thought it was just a zoo. Its not a zoo at all and it has awesome rides.

After Disney World mom came home with us and relaxed in the sun. After I worked my 3 days I would hang out with my mom. It was fun to come home and not have an empty house. It feels so empty now.

March is my favorite month cause its my BIRTHDAY MONTH! This year we did a low key celebration. Bryan wanted Pizza, a movie and cupcakes. So that is what he got. I wanted to go to Miami to the Shake Shack for dinner and the Ice Box for dessert. So that is what we did. I was so full at the end I was sick.

Earlier in the day I went and got a facial and my nails done. Two Groupons that I bought in January and saved for my birthday. My face was so red after the facial that I did not want to take any pictures on my birthday.

Next, it was up to Tampa to end this fun filled month of celebrations. My mom and I drove to Logan and Lauren's home and dad flew in. We were hoping to be meeting a new little baby but she did not want come yet. She did come on April 13th so Bryan and I are heading up to Tampa this weekend to meet Alora Rae!

Can't wait for our next trip!!

Monday, February 27, 2012

Nothing new in our lives

I have not blogged in over a month and started thinking what came I write about. Nothing came to mind. Our lives have been boring lately. I got to work, and Bryan goes to school. We come home eat dinner and pass out. I feel like I live at work. This week I start working nights and I am excited/nervous. I make more money so that is sweet. On a positive note I am going to Disney world in 2 weeks with my family and so excited!!

So what's been going on our lives???... Absolutely nothing! The high light of my weeks are working out and going to the beach. I started running with a friend and I really like it. We run 2.3 miles and sometimes go to the gym afterwards. With work being stressful running has been very relaxing for me. Never thought I would say that!!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Spontaneous Adventure

After Christmas and the beginning of January I worked 3 weekends in a row. Bryan and I felt like we were living different lives and didn't see each other very much. Wednesday night Bryan jokingly said let's go to Disney this weekend. You finally don't have work and my school schedule is going to get more intense so now or never. I was like yes let's do it! Bryan was shocked I said yes. We did not talk about it again. On Friday morning I asked Bryan are we going to Disney or not. He said yes. So while he was at school, I cleaned the house, did laundry, ran errands, booked a hotel, took out cash for the weekend, fill the car up and planned our day at Disney. When we left our house Friday night I was exhausted from getting everything ready but so excited for our trip. We are NOT spontaneous people. We NEVER just up and leave on a weekend trip. This was big for us. We drove up Friday night and slept in a cheap hotel. Saturday we went to Hollywood Studios in the morning and Epcot at night. We were planning on doing Magic Kingdom late at night but we got exhausted and decided to drive home and do Magic Kingdom next time. We love Disney World and loved spending the day together. Our lives are only going to get more hectic and this was a nice last minute get-a-away!

First ride of the day? Yes, that's The Toy Story Ride.

I wanted a picture of Minnie Lane. The day was cold like in the 50s so I was wearing many layers. It looks like I have a huge upper body!

After Hollywood Studios we went to Epcot. This is in the French country. It really does look like France!

It was so cold that I bought socks and wore them with my Sperry's and capris.

I took out cash we could only spend during the weekend. We both got to choose one treat. Of course I choose a carmel apple and Bryan choose a funnel cake with ice cream.

I finished the last bites of the Funnel cake.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Christmas 2011

This Christmas was unique. Bryan finished up classes and flew home to California while I stayed in Florida for another week to work. I arrived in California on the 22nd of December. After 6 fun filled and relaxing days Bryan and I flew home on the 28th so I could get back to work. It was weird only have 1 week off for the holiday but it also made every day special. I knew I only had 6 days and wanted to spend as much time as possible with Bryan's family.

Christmas eve the girls went to get manicure/ pedicures. It was the most relaxing one I ever had. I was exhausted from work and loved every minute of the spa treatment. That night Megan made delicious Mexican food. When we first got married and Bryan told me they have mexican food on Christmas Eve I thought that was the weirdest thing ever but its delicious. I think it is a tradition we are going to start in our family. Now I need to learn how to cook Mexican food or fly Megan and Andrew's family out ever year!

Christmas morning right before we opened presents.

Dallin was the cutest elf! He is so big and fun to play with. Bryan loved having him around.

Christmas morning we woke up early, opened presents, talked to Eric and went to church. Bryan and his mom got me the IPad and I teared up with excitement.. no lie. I cried. I was so surprised. Minutes before Bryan's dad opened an IPad and I was so jealous more like mad. But then I opened one too!

At church we sang Christmas songs the whole sacrament and it was one of the most spiritual experiences I ever had. I don't think I made it through one song without crying. After church I called my family to see how their Christmas was, played with my new presents, and enjoyed being with family.

Christmas morning before Church.

Monday we went to Down town Disney to the ESPN zone and watch the Lakers v Kings game. It was a blast and love the Disney atmosphere!

Tuesday we went to SPRINKLES CUPCAKES. My favorite place in California, after Disney of course!! Tuesday was a bitter sweet day cause I knew we were leaving in the morning and did not want to go. Bryan and I alway have a blast when we go to California and love hanging out with his family!

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Thanksgiving

We kicked off our holiday celebrations in 2011 with flying out to Utah to spend time with my family. My parents flew out as well. We stayed at Dallin and Shannon's home and had a great time hanging with the family. It made me really miss having family around. I was most excited to finally meet my nephew Hudson!

Us on Thanksgiving day.

The boys cutting the turkey. Dallin and Shannon hosted Thanksgiving dinner at their house but I think I did their job. I made the turkey, cranberry sauce and dessert!

Friday after Thanksgiving the girls went and did some shopping. That night we went on the Polar Express. We took the train to the North Pole and Santa came and visited all the kids. My nieces and nephews wore their PJs, like in the movie and loved the train ride.

Oliver is the cutest kid ever! Ava and Ashton are best friends.

I could not get enough of Noah. He loves to cuddle and is always smiling. I think Bryan was most excited to see Ashton again and to finally meet Oliver.

Saturday Bryan and I hung out with Natalia and got see to Carrie and Eric Moyle. Saturday night we went to Temple Square to see the lights. It was packed and freezing. We did not stay long but the lights were beautiful. Being in Utah surrounded by so many temples make me want to live there.

It was FREEZING!!

Sunday we just relaxed with the family, visited Bryan's cousin Brent, his wife Luci and their kids. That night we took the red eye home to be back to the real world. I started work at the hospital the next day and Bryan had finals. It was so nice to get away and enjoy the holiday with family. It was a great way to kick off the holidays.