I really feel the need to post about this today. After a year of trying, my husband and I have sought help in trying to have a baby. We haven't been told that we are infertile, yet, and are in the testing phases of our journey. We ask for prayers that we can find the answers to our questions and support while we go through this difficult experience. There are days when I feel alone. There are days when I feel sad. I feel a myriad of emotions and I am ready to blog my feelings. I tried to keep in inside and it was wasn't working for me. I hope no one is offended by my thoughts. They are all honest.

Right now, I am simply charting my temperature every morning when waking up and anticipating two things. 1) ovulation or 2) a period. Last month I took a 10 day cycle of Provera and then got my first period since June. Oy. That hurt and was long and crampy, but I survived and was able to have my blood work and HSG test. My (amazing!) doctor said that all of my blood work came back normal, so nothing appears to be "wrong" with me, outside of not ovulating. TJ gets to have his test in early December so we'll see how his side of the baby making is working out. I'm sure he's fine though and I am the defective one in the baby-making department.

Let's talk about that HSG test. It wasn't as bad as I had expected to be. I took 800 milligrams of ibuprofen an hour before I left for the hospital and had started taking an antibiotic the day before the test so that I wouldn't cramp and die from infection. My husband and I arrived at the hospital about 15 minutes early so that I could get signed in. The x-ray tech was waiting for me, so I didn't have to wait that long. I was glad. I was also terrified out of my mind. I had been reading that Hysteriosalpingograms hurt like nobodies business. My own mother told me that she passed out after it! (Not to mention that's where she found out that she had 2 uteruses!) I was not feeling all that brave that day, but the x-ray tech was so nice to me that I feel calm. I changed out of my clothes into their gown. Then I waited. The doctor was late, but that was for the best so that I could calm down before she arrived.

When my ob/gyn arrived I felt calm and she told me to lie on a table and she did the test. (I will not post details of that here.) I was able to look at the screen and see my uterus and fallopian tubes and they looked normal. Also, I'm pretty sure that I am the only person in the world that thinks that fallopian tubes are pretty. THEY ARE! They are so swirly! I like them and I'm glad mine are not blocked.

After the test, I was asked to get off the table and then the cramping started. It wasn't really that bad, just a period cramp. Pain wise, I've had worse. Length wise, it didn't go away for about 30 minutes, but once it did, I was good for the rest of the day.

We arrived home after a quick stop for a snack (I was starving!) and then I took a quick nap and then we went out to dinner.

In all, it was a good day and I'm glad that I was able to have that test done and know that my plumbing looks good.

Hey everyone! :) I'm still here, just busy with all this driving and working business. Big things are in store for the Flinns this coming year and we are excited for all the possibilities that lie ahead.

TJ is doing well. He still works for his company answering calls from clients and financial advisors. He is lucky because he gets to work from home. He is the best husband in the world and I love him very much!

Jen is still working as well. It's not a glamorous job, but who thought that Wal-Mart would be. Actually, it has been a great job with some great people. I am blessed to still be teaching in Primary and I know I won't be released for a few more years. 7 to be exact. (Long story. Let's just say that I am very happy where I am in my calling and how much I love the kids I teach!)

Rubi is still our darling kitty. She is growing and being sweet. She loves cuddling with us and sitting on our arms, legs, or backs. Anywhere she can. She also enjoys sitting by the window and looking out at her perch. She is an absolute sweetheart and we love her very much. :)