I used to try really hard not to be a vain person. I typically didn't care what others thought, and I loved that about myself. But this post twin pregnancy has been very difficult for me. I have lost all 25 lbs of my baby weight plus 5 more, but I just don't look quite like I did prebabies. My weight has been shifted to other less flattering areas and my clothes just don't fit me right. I try not to be one of those girls, but I have, sadly, have a muffin top (sob). One thing I will give myself credit for, you won't ever see it hanging out with skin showing. I have enough pride not to let that happen. I still would like to lose an additional 25 lbs that I gained from other babies and just life in general, but that must come with work and time.
Side story...the very first thing Seth says he noticed about me was my...assets. He told his friends I had a bice nutt. (Seth likes to switch the first letters of words) So at a YSA dance he asked me to dance and his friend walked by and yelled "BICE NUTT," I said "what," and Seth recovered with "Nice One." "Oh, ok," I said. Later he told me what was really said and what attribute of mine caught his eye.
Back to the blog, so since having children my "bice nutt" has officially and so sadly turned into a Mom Butt. So what am I going to do about it? I guess I could sit on the couch, sulk, and eat Bon Bons. Isn't that what all mothers do? Or I could actually get my butt in gear and do something about it. (Yes, pun intended)
So, I went running for the first time tonight since having my twins. It was only a mile, but hey it was something. I plan to run a mile every day for one week, then I will add on a half a mile every week after that. I used to love running and I am looking for that long lost love again. I will get my bice nutt back. I will rearrange my body so my hips are wider than my waist. I will lose the 25 lbs, maybe even 30 that I have wanted to lose for awhile. I care what I look like and dangit I want to look good. Not really for anybody else. Mainly just for myself. I will allow my self to be selfish about this. I am not having any more kids, so why not. I won't ever have to work off baby fat again, why not just work off all my fat and then just have to maintain!
I am sorry if this is the vainest blog you may have ever read. Once again, I am giving myself permission to be selfish about this. I will check back in in one week to see if I have kept up on the running. You can check my weight loss progress on my side bar. I would post a before and after picture, but I am too vain to post a chunky before!
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