you had me at hello;

i didnt realise that i could actually feel so much for people whom i werent close to initially..

leaving my pals at MI was tough. and seeing them again last sat made me feel sooo.. man. the feeling is simply indescribable. i just miss them so much.
charmz, geri, jacq, geri, jas.
i just cant wait to see you guys again.

church on sunday was different. i finally felt like i did somethin useful.. just hope class will work out this week.. mosey! we can do it!
cc4. seeing the people in the attic made my heart go 'awwww'. thinking back, the camp was just totally awesome. and seeing some of the facils made me realise how much i missed some of them.. haha james said MI wasnt quite the same ever since i left.. though we didnt really talk much in sch, we still did see each other. in any case, i missed him. missed van, aaron, gerald, kevin, and so many others too.. but somehow they all seemed pretty busy and caught up with chatting and everything that i didnt know how to 'cut' in and give all of them a huge hug. oh well. i cant possibly expect everyone to feel the way i do..

dear's sailing now.. 15 months soon. thats like totally cool.

im glad God put me where i am. in a family that supports me, with friends who love me, and with a wonderful partner who makes me laugh. im just so thankful i know i've got God. im just.. content.

hmm, got to know gerald a whole lot better lately. its weird how we've been friends for close to 7 years, and yet only know each other better now. im glad i've got him.

hey _____, i really hope you can stop treating me coldly. i dont like the pretence. i dont like it when you pretend to give me the sign of peace when you so obviously have an issue with me. sometimes i wish we could go back to the days when everything was much simpler.. when we would laugh and play and wrestle without a care in the world.. i miss those days. i really do. i just dont like everything thats happening now.. its affecting me in a not-so-good way.. i just hate it lah. argh.

tired. just tired. assignments, class. oh well.

take care loves.

much has happened, and i've yet to update.
so, this is gonna be a long one.

first things first.
MI, goodbye.
Learning Capital, hello.
last day of school --> MI Fun Day
we went to sentosa.
we had fun.
we ran.
i tried to make things good.
i wanted to enjoy myself.
but somehow, the whole 'some people are selfish' issue surfaced, though not very obviously.
i mean, hello, not all of us are fast runners..
oh well.
thank God for people like jieyi, geri and charmz.
but.. i dont know.
im just tired thinking about what the class was like in 2005.. and this year.
so different.
in any case, the last day was tough.
charmz got the class to write well wishes on a black card they (or most probably she) made, with a poem stuck behind it. after they said "we'll miss you" in a synchronized manner, charmz presented the card to me.

i was like, totally shocked.
seriously.
i was so happy, and sad, at the same time that i couldnt plug my tear ducts. charmz and i just hugged and cried and hugged and cried. it looked like some drama-mama chinese serial. but in any case, the goodbye made leaving a whole lot tougher.
teared big time all the way back home.
oh man.
really miss the peeps now..
charmaine wong, geraldine tango, xie jieyi, jacqueline jacob.
i love you guys.
miss you all like nonsense.
feeling tired for you guys too..
yeah charmz.
oh well.

Learning Capital.
new class, new people.
different age groups.
different personalities.
interesting.
what a combination.
DPTF16.

CC4 '06 Confirmation Camp.
awesome.
i dont know how to describe it in much detail, but i'll try.. so here it goes.
the first two days werent the way i thought it would be. despite all the effort of changing smelly water, fervent praying, and draining powerhouses, things didnt seem like it was gonna change..
til day 3.
woah! friendship babeh!
it was like totally awesome.
totally.
van, gerald, aaron, aaron, oliver, sy.
some things you guys said really made my heart melt.
and some things didnt need words..
hugs did the trick.
thanks.
anyways, i just wanna add that im so happy i got to know so many people better.. haha, actually, im just happy i was at camp with so many wonderful people..
james, maria, dorothy, melvyn, jacq, and so so many more.
cc4 '06 confi camp was great.

hmm. shabs dear's in batam now..
miss him loads.
and yeah! alright!
gonna meet the usuals on fri.. thats like fantastic. miss them pretty much.
tmr got some presentation thingy..
heels! black. nice.
yawn gonna watch CSI now.
take care loves.

Work


If you only once would let me
Only just one time
Then be happy with the consequence
With whatever's gonna happen tonight
Don't think we're not serious
When's it ever not
The love we make is give and it's take
I'm game to play along

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time

oh oh, oh oh oh
oh oh, oh oh oh

All the best DJs are saving
Their slowest song for last
When the dance is through
Its me and you
Come on would it really be so bad
The things we think might be the same
But I won't fight for more
Its just not me to wear it on my sleeve
Count on that for sure

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
You want to take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
Yeah - We still have time

oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)

Can't say I was never wrong
But some blame rests on you
Work and play they're never okay
To mix the way we do

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
You want to take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
We still have time

oh oh, oh oh oh
oh oh, oh


Jimmy Eat World

so many decisions to make.
polys, work, sponsored diplomas..
so many choices.
im like lagging behind lessons in MI just trying to settle the uncomfirmed.
its quite silly actually.
but in any case, im really set on leaving.
i wanna embark on a new life.
i wanna see a new world.
i wanna learn something different.
i never realised how much i really wanted to take care of children.
its pretty cool.
well, hopefully God puts me in the right place.

ooh yuck. spaghetti and taiwan sausages dont go well.. eew. feel like puking.

in any case, what is love?