you had me at hello;

pirates was awesome.
so was the lake house.
im just glad i caught both with him.

19 months dear.
and im just so glad its you im with.
thanks shabs.
you're my bestest.

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things havent been the way i would've liked it to be lately.. everything's different now.
i need time.. for them.
all those who have a special place in my heart..
friends.

how do people keep in contact often?
how do people make things work?

i guess someone might tell me that its all about time management. i guess so too.
but talk is easy,
and i dont wanna only talk.
oh well.
its time to catch up with them.
siok, nia, kat, nat, wen.
matt, lyn, daisy, gerald, wena.

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i actually worked, and completed my task.. i did. but guess i didnt send it out fast enough.. im so upset. why cant i be a fast worker, or quick thinking, or approachable, or whatever i can be? i dont like this. maybe im not cut out for this ministry.

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okay, i shall not worry myself to bits.
all i know is that i cant change the past.
i can only forge my future..
hope it wont be horrid or anything.

alrighty, take care loves.

do you know what s-t-r-e-s-s is? well, i certainly do. im like so freaking tensed up now to the extent that i feel like tearing out all my hair and crying and screaming and whatever things stressed up people do. oh my gosh, i hate hate hate this lah! i hate all my wrong decisions and the way i feel and whatever whatever whatever! i need to find a million jobs to keep me occupied so that i wont let my mind wander. darn im like becoming some seriously depressed woman who needs to be admitted into the the m.institution or smth.. aahhh!

okay. time to calm down and relax. and dont worry, im not really going crazy. just needed to release all these pent-up frustrations.. sigh. im just really tired of everything. need a big break.. now i understand how shabs feels.. oh well.

life hasnt been great, neither has it been awful. all i can say is, shabs has made my life a whole lot better. alrighty, time to get back to work.. take care loves.