you had me at hello;

alone?
by the beach maybe.
toes in the sand.
some stuck under the nails?
hmmmm.
odd thought.
salty.
the ocean.
i like the serenity.
it calms me.
but then they come.
hand in hand.
it makes me go.. *
i chuckle.
should i? thats bad.
i relish the moment.
they look nonsensical.
i help.
only one.
and we walk off.
its so random.
the breeze restricts my moment.
i try to.. *
no.
warmth.
is that the sun?
awake.

eeeee.

cant stand it.

i love that feeling.

the feeling that makes everything seem so good.
the feeling that stops time and eases all my tension.
the feeling that lets it all seem like pure fun.

simple.
but complicated.

i cant explain.

aahhh!
this is super confusing post.

oh wells.

life would be so much simpler if i just didnt let things happen.

life would be so nice if i knew what would happen.

life would be so different.

but..

life would be so boring without all the experiences.

life would be so mundane if i didnt have to go through all the nonsense.

life would be so dull.


i just wish it didnt have to feel this way.
i just wish it didnt have to be so tough.
i just wish it didnt have to reach this stage.

oh wells.
tmr's gonna be a busy day.
CNY's gonna be real busy too.
the following week's packed.
haha so many things to do!
and im awaiting results.
i really hope things go alright.

yawn.
eye pain.

laa laa laa.

i feel so tired.
physically and mentally.
havent had a good night's sleep for months.
havent had home cooked food for weeks.
havent been in a good mood for days.
i dont know why i put myself in this kind of situation.
i dont know why i let myself feel like this.
and im feeling things i shouldnt.
im feeling things that arent right.
im feeling horrid.
i feel like leaving everything behind.
but there's a responsibility.
i have to account for the people around me.
i have to complete my tasks.
i have to make sure it's all done before i go.
oh well.
i just hope i dont continue to live with my mistakes.
as much as my head is telling me one thing, my heart's saying the other. and i know im the kind of person that goes with my heart's desires regardless of how ridiculous or warped it may be. but oh well.
im just tired.
and i want to sleep.

chestnut and noodles.
the two new additions to my family.
small.
furry.
quick.
basically adorable little creatures.

love 'em to bits!

hahaha okay, i shall not forget to mention caramel and pudding too. hehe they're really cute too.

laalaalaa.
exhaustion.