Burnt I am terribly sunburnt!!! Crap. It's gonna be a week of torture I guess. Haha. This morning went to FRIM for a team building event organised by my church youth and the young adults. Was fun! Getting to know people more. Cooperating with them to win games. Yes it was definitely fun!! My team ended up last...but nevermind..we still got a present anywaY!! Haha. After that went for the canopy walk which is what I call toture before pleasure sessions. Had a torturing 45 minute walk uphill with stairs before reaching the top of the forest to walk through a suspension bridge. The view from up there was spectacular!!:) Hehe. I will upload some pics later when I get the chance to. Still awaiting the pics from Julian!! But it was great. Went for volleyball too. Haha. I'm dead tired now. If this happens every sunday..I would've lost LOADS of weight I tell u!!! Hahaha.

Had dim sum in the morning as well..which explains why I am extremely exhausted. Went for a jog yesterday morning with Julian and a few other church people. Had Faith Embassy yesterday!!! It rocked!!!:) hehehe..been working together with a team of people to get it going and boy was it good!!!:) Hehe. The next one is coming on the 19th of March. Please come!:) It's in CBC Seapark!! Same row with Cheow Yang...!!!:)

Well...that's it for now...i'm pooped!! Gonna get some sleep soon to recover!:) Got sunburnt badly!! I'm a lobster nowww...  ¶ 9:22 PM 4 Comments

  useless ramblings.. Being in a mood now
I begin jotting it down
Life is not what it seems
Love is always an illusion to those who seek for it
Allow it to find you, and it becomes a reality
Thinking of girls makes one miss them terribly
Even worst when one undergoes a series of emotional unstability

When u think you've found the right one
Problems definitely arise
Beginning with the green eyed monster caused by insecurity
When one u like speaks bout another
And treats u as if ur not there
You begin to wonder bout your existence
Life feels as if it is undergoing a eternally slow motion
And all you can do about it is just to let it be
Continually being stepped on and being invisible

Could it be that I just never showed enough emotion
Never paid enough attention
Never treated you the way you deserved to be treated
Never been what you expect me to be
I guess it's too late to regret
But it's never too late to change

I begin to pick up the pieces of my life which I have left behind
And the pieces of my heart which have been shattered
Start piecing them back again
Hoping that someone would come along the way
And patch up the gaping holes
Ending my lonely suffering
But all that is a long way to go....  ¶ 9:02 PM 0 Comments

  Bad experiences Ah. Regarding the topic of my blog. I just sat down one fine day and my mind went back 2 years ago, when I started SAM. Hm. This depicts my sad story of my bad experiences with girls. Sigh. 2 years ago, liking a girl and making my first ever move to tell someone how I feel left me feeling empty and worst; underwent a period of emotional wreck. Couldn't get her out of my mind. I think I still can't get her out of my mind. Sigh. But at least we're still friends which I'm glad we are.

2ndly was a case of unsuitability. I didn't admit anything but something happened which I don't want to put up here. Haha. Then, the 3rd one was someone who played and messed with my feelings terribly. I still can remember that very clearly. It only happened this year. Still fresh in my mind. Getting my feelings all played up like that causes one utter disappointment, rage and unforgiveness. I didn't talk to her for few months after that once I found out that my feelings were being played. Now I guess I'm okay with her already. Then the 4th one was a case of misunderstanding. She treated me as someone else. So..I can't possibly think of anything already. Abandoned it.

Now I'm left all alone. Enjoying the moments of singleness when there are no emotions involved. But there are times when one wishes to have a companion. To share every moment of life with them. Well, I guess it's not my time yet. Getting involved in any relationships now will cause utter heartbreak since I'm leaving for UK in September. Sigh. Well..this is the road of loneliness travelled by people like me. One fine day I will see the end of the road. Just got to remind myself of that.

Anyway..nick this is for u..NICK...hahaha..ur name is here.:P HAppy? Lol.

Life is good being single. Cheers to singleness!:)  ¶ 11:59 PM 3 Comments

  Sunday I am soooo tired now. Feeling exhausted. Went out the whole day!! I feel sundays are taking its toll on me. From church to lunch to cell group to volleyball to dinner. Whoa. It's been a REALLY long day. Not only that, I forgot to call Karen before she left to Aussie. What crap is this? UGh. I actually called her earlier during volleyball, but she was busy. So when I called back like 2 hours later she already off-ed her phone. Sigh. How sad is that? Haha. Anyhow I enjoyed my day today. Had company of my church friends which was quite fun, played volleyball which is also quite fun.

Sadly, I've got to restart my mode into the university student life mode which encompasses doing my tutorials and studying every moment I get. Sounds nerdy eh? But I'd be lost if I don't do it. So..yeah..till next timee...  ¶ 11:11 PM 0 Comments

 
The Brotherhood and Sisterhood of Seaportians. Took this few months back when my good friend Soo left.   ¶ 5:30 PM 0 Comments

 
Iris, Me and Huei Yuih at Iris's house before her leaving back to Aus.   ¶ 5:29 PM 0 Comments

  Bleah *Bang* I got into an accident. It all occurred this morning at 7.30 am. Sighz. As I was in KL heading towards my university. I was distracted by this pair of mosquitoes who were flying around me and annoying me. I tried to kill them and I released my brakes when I was on a slope downward. And next thing I know, I was heading towards the car in front REALLY fast. Tried to emergency brake but it was too late. So I hit the car. Sigh. That's not the bad part. I got out and wanted to settle the matter. This lady got out from her car. And to my horror, she's a police officer!!! Haha. I thought I was dead for sure. Her car suffered minor dents but you can never predict people. Anyway, I gave her my handphone number and she gave me her husband's hand phone number. She told me to pick up the call if he calls. So I was like okay.

All this happened on the first day after getting my REAL license. Sighz. Had to sit for a gruelling 7 hours of lectures, not including the 1 hour lunch break. Hmm. Glad today is over. It's just sheer torture being in uni from 9-5. Ugh. Well, I'm still in eager anticipation to watch constantine. Supposed to watch it on friday with a friend. Hopefully she can make it. Hmmmmm. Have this weird feeling that makes me rather uncomfortable. Well. Got to go now. Time to eat my dinner:) Till next time...  ¶ 5:51 PM 0 Comments

  Haha I'm quite happy today. Got my ACTUAL driving license!! No more Probation! No more having to worry bout getting marks deducted! Can finally tear the 'P' sticker off my car!! YEAH! Had lectures today. Not bad except for the fact that I was having a rather bad stomach ache which went on and off throughout the whole lecture. Grrr.

My cat, Toulouse, is just an adorable darling. Haha. She is so huggable and so lovable. I don't know what I'd do without her. For those of you who have seen her, you can't agree more. Hehe. I'll post a pic of her when I get the chance to photograph her yea. Haha. But I love my cats. They are the cutest creatures!:) Hehe.

Well that's it for now. My emotions are in a stable condition. Haha. I hope it remains this way..  ¶ 4:29 PM 0 Comments

  Pure rubbish.. I am in a moment of utter silence. I wish a song could express me now. But I can't seem to find that song. Emotions causes me to go unstable. I'm sorry bout not having pictures lately. Will post up some soon. But there seems to be no occasion to put it up. I've come to a point where I'm just feeling all messed up. Guys can never seem to understand girls. Such varieties cause guys to be in utter confusion. Sigh. I guess guys are never meant to understand girls. Haha.

Forget all my useless babblings. I'm just bored at the moment and feeling a wee lil bit melancholic. I have to surpress my emotions..keep it under control. Emotions have been running wild lately. When it comes to girls, I'm all messed up. Most of my experiences ended up painful and unpleasant. Maybe it's the way I approach the matter? I don't know. I've been told to be more confident when it comes to this, but I seem to fall. I'm always optimistic, but when it comes to a matter such as this I become a pessimist. Is there something wrong with me?

Sigh. I guess all I can do now is pray to God and ask Him to help me out. That's the only thing I can do now. Well, just want to wish all of you reading this, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!:) Enjoy it. Show your loved ones how much u care. And help contribute to the food industry and the flower and chocolate industry too!:) haha.  ¶ 5:41 PM 0 Comments

  Emotions I'm feeling weird. Things called emotions get triggered off at its peak when I come into contact with beings called girls. Gah. This sucks. I hate it when I feel like I'm being ignored but sometimes it's just my paranoid self. Hmmm. Is this common? To feel ignored when someone doesn't message u back? But I guess it's just my emotions kicking in. Controlling emotions is hard. Sigh. Sometimes I just wish I could let it go crazy. Hmm. Many variety of emotions overcomes me at this moment, but most predominantly is the feeling of being ignored. Guess life is just like that. Why couldn't God make things simpler between girls and guys? Haha. The complexity of it all.

Sometimes I wish I was a being with no sense of feelings. I think that would be the best at times. So that I won't get myself into such an emotional wreck. Or maybe I just have no sense of managing my emotions? I guess I've started to babble to myself again. Forgive me that. It's just some thoughts I'd like to share.:)

Till then...my emotions are in a wreck now.  ¶ 12:28 AM 0 Comments

  Valentines Day Valentines Day is around the corner. And what am I doing on that daY? Asked someone out but she can't make it. So I guess it's time to be alone on this special day. ACtually, it's not special. Everyday is special. Valentines is just a misused commercialized day to gain more profits and have all the more excuses to hike up prices in restaurants. Hmm. Weird. But I still feel alone. I have a feeling that I will be single for some time more. But is being single wrong? No. But I find it hard to be single in a community of people who have each other. Am I desperate? Maybe. But I won't simply get into a relationship for the sake of getting into a relationship. That I'm sure. Hah. I'm just mumbling again. So for all of those who have dates on Valentine's Day, enjoy the day and make sure to make ur loved ones feel loved.:)

I am in a dilemma now. Sigh.  ¶ 1:03 AM 1 Comments

  Chinese New Year Chinese New Year. Reunion dinners. Visiting houses. Getting ang pau's. Every year it's the same thing. Same people to visit. Same people who give us ang pau's. Same people we talk to every New Year. It's fun. Cos it's not like we see them everyday. Hehe.

Went to uncle's house for reunion dinner. The rest is basically the same. Visited many houses. Ate a lot of vegetarian food, or what my dad would call fake food cos the 'meat' is not meat. It's soy. Haha. But tastes good tho. Very tiring cos I slept at 2 am the last night cos after the reunion dinner I got back and I talked to karen on the phone til bout 1.30 am. Then she had to go cos she had to pack her bags to go Alor Setar and Penang. Sighz. Hehe. Really gonna miss her when she leaves for Aus. Hmmm.

Collected quite a number of red packets so far. Hehe. Not opening them yet till I feel like it. Now I'm just dead tired. Got a whole mess to clean up in my room. I think I'll get started once I wake up. Hmm. Yeah that'll be good.:P Enjoy your chinese new year everyone!:)
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  SkirTz!:) I realised that girls who wear jeans/pants/slacks often and then suddenly start wearing skirts look very attractive! I can't deny that fact. It's as if there's a more feminine side in wearing the skirt. Don't say I'm sexist or what, but I'm just stating something which is a fact for me. When I saw my friend who doesn't wear skirts at all in a dress, I have to admit that she looks really good in that dress. Same goes for today when I saw my friend in a skirt..I have to admit that she really looks good too!! Haha. So girls, if you want to attract any guy's attention, just wear a skirt! Hehe. Eh and of course a top la.

Had a weird day. Had classes today. REally sucked. Going to class when everyone else is on holiday. Hmm. Came back and went to bed for 1 hour. After waking up, I was contemplating whether to go to Karen's farewell party or not. Very tough decision. Since I'm an anti social and I only know her in the whole party, it does seem pretty scary. So since I don't like to break promises or go back on my own word, I decided to just go ahead and go to the party! Went there and was greeted by karen who looked really good with a skirt..! Haha..oops. I hope she doesn't kill me for saying this. There I was. FEeling totally alienated around a bunch of people whom I never met before! So I was eating there, and then Karen decided to pull me and introduce me to her friends. ANd she had to add that I'm her history teacher's son!! Gah. Malufying! But well, I can't ignore my true identity right? LOL. Had fun in the party. Didn't feel like leaving early actually. But well, had to attend something else in church. So, that was it. Had naan mumtaj and 3 barley panas. Woo. Nice.:)

Chinese New Year is near!!:) Ang pau's!! I can feel them!:P
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  What a day pt 2! My day is just so full of crap. Haha. Woke up today and realized my coughing is not so bad already. Got up, cleaned up and drove to uni. As I was walking from the car park to my uni, I felt that my body was feeling uncomfortable. DUnno why. And it was sooo hot. I felt like some kind of dish. Haha. Got my results. I find my results really shocking. Haha. Anyway, after that drove back. As I was reaching home, a stupid kancil in front of me was goin at only 20 km/hr!!! What's wrong with them? Want to cause road accident only. Anyway..I stopped in front of my hse and got out and locked my car. After that, as I was walking to the gate of my house, I realised something!!! I forgot to take my keys out of my car!!! UGHhh..and I was looking forward to a nice cold shower and taking a nap under the air cond till my mum calls. So I had to grab a cab( which took me 15 mins before I could grab one..) and went to sri aman school to get the keys from my mum and I got back. It was so blazing hot. My head feels like it's gonna burst already thanks to the thermal expansion of my brain. HAha. So now I'm gonna take a nap but just felt like putting down the story of my unlucky day.

Oh..my results were quite good. I managed to get a first class average once again! Yay!:P Hehe. REally don't know how it happened. BUt I'm quite sure it's definitely help from ABOVE..:) God!:P Thanks God!:) Weird thing is, I got lowest marks for the sub which I thought I did quite well. Hmm. Weird. Anyhow, gonna study harder this semester. Gonna get another first class average again!! MWahaha..

Sleeping timeeEe...
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  What a day! Today was rather interesting. Started off really bad. Couldn't sleep well the night before due to my bad coughing spasms. It got worst today. Now I'm okay I think. Went for 3 hours of classes. After that headed to ss2 for lunch. Funny thing. My friends left earlier than me and I reached there before them. Am I THAT fast at driving? Hmm.

Went out with karen. Had a small misunderstanding. Haha..she thought I was going to take her to KL to go Low Yat plaza..oooh boy..when she got in the car I was like let's go one utama..then she looked at me shocked. It was then t hat I realized she didn't think we were goin to one utama. Haha. Anyway, I took her to KL so she can look at her stuff. Hei how often will I see her after she leaves? Haha. So it wasn't that bad. Went one utama n bumped into Evil Eli. She was with a guy. OooOoO...

Walked around n did some shopping with karen. Was fun. Came home dead tired. Ate dinner and passed the computer stuff to Pak Wan so she can pass it to Pak Mun. Was fun day but tiring.

I'm dead tired at the mo. Results are out tom!!! Die. Coughing spasms suck. Life at this mo is okay. Love life at the mo...nothing la. I'm so TIRED! Gonna get sleep now. Nothing is going on in my mind now. Just that a lot of studying to do this sem!!:P haha..
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  Confidence I have been wondering. Been reading articles from magazines and I find this thought interesting. People love other people with confidence. Especially girls like guys with confidence. Personally, I think I have a problem with confidence. I feel that I don't have as high confidence as others. Maybe it's caused by my physical self. Hmz..but once again, can anyone teach me how to be more confident? Heh. Been reading so many things on how to increase self confidence. But when I increase it, all it takes is one person to crush all my effort and roll it up like scrap n toss it away. I feel at a low confidence level when I meet new people..especially if they're girls! Haha..is it only me who has this problem? Or is it common? How is it possible to increase one's self confidence?

My results are coming out this week!! Panic time!! HAha..I doubt I did well. But anyhow, it has to come anyway. Chinese New Year is next week!! YAY. Time to take angpau's!:) haha..can't wait!!$$$$$!!

Well I'm still sick for all those who don't know. Stupid bug just won't stop bugging me. Cough sucks. Being partially impaired at hearing sucks. Having a blocked/running nose sucks. GAhh..stupid sickness. Get away from me dammit!:(
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