I want my carRrr.. Sigh. Is it bad to want to have my own car and not share it with my sisters? Haha. I want to use my car tomorrow night but my whole family has plans and are taking all 3 cars! So where does that leave me...at home ALONE! Grrr..I hate it. This is the 3rd or 4th week I'm at home on a friday night!! HEiiii..that's supposed to be the night to be out...! Guess I'd just have to either ask someone for a lift or cancel my whole plans..@(#!*!*@#!&!@#&*@#....

The thought itself...makes me sick. I don't like to be at home alone when I can be out with my friends. Grr..guess sometimes I've got to sacrifice. Haih. Let's stop talking bout this depressing things. I'm so frustrated. I just wish I had my own car and that I need not share it with others sometimes. But that'll only be when I'm working I guess.

Too much stuff to read and too much stuff to do and too much stuff to study. Can't leave it till the last minute. Got to start already. Sigh. Another 3 weeks and my 2nd year is done. SIgh. Currently, I'm not in the mood to leave malaysia. Help. Why? When everything gets to its peak, I've got to leave. GRrrr...but I guess if that's where I'm meant to be, then that's where I will go.

Enough of my ramblings..I'm gonna get some studying done. Sigh. HAd fun today. A whole day of rushing here n there. Haha. Had a quick jog 1 round and I felt like I was gonna die. Grr..need to train more often. Hehe...till next time..  ¶ 9:36 PM 0 Comments

  List of things that I want.. It's been awhile since I've posted anything. Hehe. Been really busy with my assignments...still am but am a bit more relieved now since I've finished the major one. Phew. Nothing much has been happening. Got my new lap top on monday. Feels very different..sighz..sometimes I still prefer my older one that got stolen but no use crying over spilt milk. This one's not that bad...quite cool and stylish..:)

Anyway..on monday night as I was talking to ee mei on the phone, she suddenly asked me whether I could feel her apartments shaking. I was puzzled for a moment till I suddenly felt my bed shaking. Haha. It's a tremor that was caused by the earthquake in Sumatra. It was quite fun feeling my bed shake...but if I was at the site of the earthquake, I think I'll most probably be running for my life!

I also scraped my car on tuesday..the under chassis of my car. Ouch. Misjudged the roads depth and *scraPEeeE*...it was painful seriously..my heart felt like it was being shredded to pieces as the scraping sounds persisted. Sigh. *slaps self*

Anyway, I've just been thinking bout things that I really want and here are they..sharing it with you all so..well..er..hahaha..it's okay..:)

List of things Justin wants
1. A cameraphone (waiting to go to UK..)
2. A digicam ( my old one got stolen..)
3. A sports car
4. A girlfriend ( hahaha..just kidding..not at the mo tho..)
5. Holidays
6. Nice pair of shoes which don't hurt my toe..
7. Nice pair of shirts to wear for formal functions
8. A pair of jeans
9. Comics which I have booked for 4 weeks and have not taken yet..sigh..
10.Sleep

Haha..yeah..that's the 10 things that I would want right now except for no. 4...ahhaha...i want that but not now la...have to fight my own wants..:P

Well I'm gonna get some sleep. Been deprived. Hehe. TIll next post...enjoy!:)  ¶ 4:29 PM 0 Comments

 
This is the pic I promised all of you about! Huei Tsuen in a skirt!!:P hahahaaaaa...er...me and 2 of my image consultants/boss outside tgif at one utamaaa..:)   ¶ 10:51 PM 0 Comments

  Easterrr Today is what I would call...a great day!:) Cos today is easter day!! YEAH!:) Had so much fun!!! *phew*...now I can't stand looking at the amount of work piled up at my table. Sigh. Whyyy..? Why must there be so much work? I think I just love hanging out with the youth. Sigh. This is the way it should have been years ago. Now, as the days of me leaving to UK approach, then only I get closer to the youth. Sighz. Hope it won't change when I come back, at least not for the worst.

Well, today I had to go for qing ming in the morning. The place changed. THey cemented the place where my family and I would usually walk through. So had to go through the long way, stepping over peoples graves and tombstones...not a very nice feeling but there was no choice since there was no pathway. Ate breakfast after that and headed for the easter service. The service was great. I enjoyed myself. I felt what I have never felt for such a long time.:) Easter is truly a day filled with hope and renewal for myself personally. THe fact that Jesus rose up on this day truly amazes me at times. The songs that were sung today, reflects His death and His sacrifice for us mere humans whom He loved so much. CAn you fathom that? Who would EVER give his life for people who didn't deserve it? Only Jesus.

Well, after service, headed for lunch at one utama with the youth and my usual bosses, huei tsuen and huei yuih. Haha. Sometimes I find people annoying. Especially those who just stick to you for no apparent reason except to draw out certain advantages for themselves. I can't stand people who lean on me for so long, jab me for no reason when I already don't like them..and never ever say please when they ask. I sometimes feel sad for these people. No manners/ethics. Hmmmm..*shakes head*. Today's highlight of the day would be...drum roll please...*drum roll*...

Huei Tsuen wearing a SKIRT!!!!! :P

Hahaha. How rare is that? Told her it looks good on her. Hahaha. But no she didn't want to believe it. Even took a picture with her and her sis at one utama. But got to wait for Julian to send it over..then I'll post it on my blog!!! Told you I would tsuen..hahahahahah.:P I always think that girls should once in awhile wear 'girly' clothing. Haha. IT's just good. Please don't mistake me for a pervert ok? I'm just stating a fact.

Went driving around with ee mei after that and she dropped me off at volleyball since my damn car was spoilt. The mechanics are not doing a good job. I sent my car TWICE to do the wiring. And it is still not working. Grr...*shakes head again*.. looking forward to survive this week with 2 major datelines hanging. MY design project and my management assignment. Phew. :)

Well that's it for now. Shall post the pic i took with the huei sisters in their niceee long skirts when I get the pic..hahaha..till then..ciaoz!:)  ¶ 9:25 PM 1 Comments

  Robots.. Please notice that most of what I put in my topic has sometimes a very small portion of my blog entries. Haha. Anyway, today was quite a...good day. I woke up late for jogging, went to fetch wai and huei yuih. I was supposed to give wai a miss call when I reached his house. When I was bout to call him, my credit was too low to even give a call. So I messaged julian to give him a call. Luckily I messaged him as well also so he came out. Picked huei yuih up and all of us were late! LOL.

Jogged up the big round...my goodness..it's torturing man. One round can make anyone who is a beginner like me feel like shit. My legs are still killing me now. It shows how 'fit' I am. Haha. Gotta start training more and hei I might just lose a lot of weight. *grins* Haha. After that, wai asked me to join him to watch Robots since he felt weird being the only guy with 3 girls..hei I won't feel weird man!!:) Hahaha. Decided to join them. The movie was good. I loved the originality of the concepts. The part of how they transport the robots around, the toilet signs of a socket and a plug..hehe..so many original concepts. Very interesting movie indeed. Was quite touching as well.

Came back half dead and wanting to get some sleep, but was not able to due to dinner time where I went to eat a full chinese meal in a restaurant with my aunty. Not bad. Very filling. :) Came back and started on my work. Design, design and design. I find it quite interesting, but at times I wish lecturers would give more logical and practical values instead of just dishing out any values. This causes frustration among students who don't get logical values due to their illogical lecturers. Sigh. The life of a student never fails to amaze me.

About my previous post, haha, the concepts were from my friend soo ann..haha..and I just thought that they were worth thinking for guys. Hmmmm. See soo ann, you are educating soooo many people just by educating me u know. Hahahaha. Don't pai seh k. Cannot stop teaching me more stuff....hahaha...:P

A long day tomorrow where I've got qing ming in the morning and easter service in the morning and then lunch with the youths and then volleyball and dinner with them as well. Gosh. My days are flying by like light years. Grrr...on monday gonna go rounding with my friend since she got her new car and she's not sure on how to drive manual. HAhaha..:P Yeah!

Well..that's it for now. Just thought of posting something from my deep thoughts..
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  Drum prodigy extraordinare.. It has been awhile since I last blogged..actually only a few days. But much has happened in these few days. I'll pick up where I left off..which was on Thursday. Huei Tsuen's birthday! Haha. THe night before I offered to pick her up from Bukit Jalil cos she wanted to come back but had no transport...and since it was her birthday..I decided what the crap..it's not like I got anything to do. So I went to Bukit Jalil..got lost for awhile..and then found the place, picked her up and decided to send her back. I actually had no plan for anything that day okay. I just planned to pick her up only. Then we decided to go to williams to eat dinner cos both of us were starving. So we called her sis along and picked her up and went to eat. ACtually, wai was planning of surprising tsuen. So he told me bout it. And he called me when she was in the car. -.-" hahaha..but she didn't know they were gonna surprise her. So before we left williams, they came. Wai, Ik and IVan. And well they did surprise her. Hahaha. We decided to talk at the car park..and then suddenly out of the blues, we decided to go and watch a late night movie. Haha. Dropped huei yuih back and went for a movie. Watched Hitch. Really good movie!:) Hehehe. Reached home at 3 am after dropping tsuen and wai off. And slept.

Woke up the next day at 1 pm. Haha. Dragged myself around and started doing my design project. Which really sucks btw. Then julian asked me to join him for an outrageous feat which I would never want to attempt again....the haagen dazs buffet!!! Grrr...hahaha...it was really good..but I would never want to touch ice cream again for maybe the next few months..!!! Or year!!! Grr..hahaha...only ate like 7 scoops..but that was WAY enough for me. HAve to watch what I eat. Ate a burger after that as well. Can't stand the sweet taste of ice cream. Went to the park with Julian and his friends. Talked and then headed home. I finally solved my damn design projecT!! Hahaha..got the values which I need. So I'm rather glad.:) At least I have something to pass up now!! Yay.

Went jogging today. Was rather invigorating. Went the big round instead. Really felt like dying for a moment. Hahaha. But it was good. Feels..good after the torture!:)

Learnt a few lessons this week. All thanks to my goooooooood friend soo ann!! HAhaha. She thought me things that..I would say I knew but I never paid attention to it...so let me share it with you GUYS out there. Not for girls sorry...ehhehe..:)

1. IF you are driving and you send them back, please wait for them to go in their house safely before you leave. I got sounded by 2 people for this. And well, I am learning. From now on, I will not leave till they get in their house safely. Applies when dropping girls and guys off. But girls must pay extra attention.

2. IF you are walking with them in a crowd, never leave them behind. Either stand at their side or behind of them so that you 'secure' them. Haha. I realized that I tend to leave them behind at times. I'm sorry. BUt I never realized it till now. So next time, if any of you go out with me and I ter-left u behind, please remind me and well..gimme a sounding so that I will remember.

The rest...as my friend said, will be discovered when I get a girlfriend. Peculiar eh? Haha...but I find it rather interesting to learn from my mistakes. Hmmmmm.

Then I always wonder why girls tend to find guys complicating and guys tend to find girls complicating. Haha. I guess it's cause both parties are never honest with each other and always try to beat around the bush. Causing hell of a complication. Haha. Another thing I must take into heart. We must be straight to the point. Clarify everything. And then everything would be so much easier.

Oh and as I was eating in bangsar, I saw a small boy bout 5-6 years old..performing on his drum kit!!! OMG. It put me to shame!!! Imagine, the small boy playing all the fills and getting the limelight. I was dumbfounded. Seriously.

Well..that's the accounts of my life lately..hehehe...:) Got to stop now or all of you would die reading this post..haha..  ¶ 10:50 AM 0 Comments

  Si San the cAr thieVE professional!:) Today was a rather interesting day. Haha. I must say although I had continuous lectures throughout the day, the highlight of the day would be my friend, THeresa. We, well I, call her Si San. This one is an internal joke. Anyway, she left her keys in her car today. And it was damn funny as she was approaching her car, she was searching frantically for the keys. Then she finally concluded that it was left in her car. Best part is, that's her ONLY car keys..and it's in the car! So, we used a small starry wand I got from Robyn's bday party in January, and tried to pick the lock!!! Haha..we soooo looked like car thieves okay...very obvious ones. Haha..oh yea..and I came to a realization of the 2 habits of malaysians which I cannot stand.

1. Malaysians are so damn kay poh..Busy body in other words. For instance, when an accident happens on the road, the whole road undergoes a jam not because of the blockage, but because they want to see what happened and stare and go slow while they're at it. Pisses me off.

2. Malaysians have no spirit of neighbourliness. I can't stand this one especially after I got robbed. Damn neighbours are useless. They're not cooperative at all...useless people who don't give a shit of what happens to their neighbours. Only care bout themselves.

Although I'm a malaysian, but hei..I don't see these 2 points in me. And I can't stand it! So if you are one of these people, change urself! Grr...

Anyways, she managed to unlock her car using a wand!!! Hahahahaa...how great is that? Oh and I almost got rammed down by a taxi. USeless Taxi drivers. Don't give a shit bout who or where or how they're driving. I had to make a spider man like jump to avoid. Luckily. *phew* or I'd be in the hospital already. It's been an interesting day.

I am still unsure what to do. I either have to be really honest with someone and get this problem over with and not let it bug me. Or I can just let time do it's magic wonders.....

Hmm..*ponders over the 2 options*..  ¶ 11:40 PM 0 Comments

  Positivity!:) I have realized that I have been rather negative lately. It's time to take a shift to a more positive outlook on life. I have always been known to be an optimist except when it touches certain issues of exams and girls. Haha. Other than those 2, I'm good.:) With the latest incident that occured ( please refer 2 posts back..), I am still rather shocked at the insecurity of my neighbourhood. Been grapling with the fact that my house got broken into. The very place where one would think that they'd be safe in, intruded, robbed and makes one feel violated. There is no safe place anymore. Been grapling with the fact that my lap top is gone although I will be getting a new one, but nothing beats my lap top that got stolen. But anyhow, what the Lord gives, He can take away. This time, my faith is tested. And I am hoping that I would make it through.

Girl problems..although miniscule, their still bugging me. I've decided to just chill and try not to focus too much on it. Everything is under His control. It's no point for guys to figure girls out. They are just...infigurable. The complexity of their actions. UGh. Well, I guess if I meet that special someone, I will know it. Right now, it's not really the right thing to think bout. The ability of girls to just turn cold suddenly from such proximity, just bugs me. Did I do anything wrong? Hmmm...beats me...but I guess it's my tendency to blame myself more. But not this time. I guess it's just pointless thinking bout it. Better to think of positive outcomes that can come from the problem, instead of the problem. I guess I'll have to be more honest with myself. But I can never really figure out what I did...can any girl help answer my riddle? LOL.

Work loads are excrutiatingly pain. Getting a design project with values that have been calculated which are rather absurd is just plain frustrating. Imagine designing a heat exchanger with air which passes through the tubes with a velocity of 900+ m/s which is 3 times the speed of sound mind you, it's just impossible!!!!!! The damn tube will just break under such increasingly high speeds. The pressure drop is just too drastic!!! Impossible!!! Sigh. Got to meet my lecturer tomorrow and ask him to help answer my second puzzle. Haha.

Nothing to look forward to except for extra heavy workloads and rather boring weekends. Faith embassy is another 4 weeks away. Occurs on my last week of my semester. How scary is that? Haha...I love to read my friend, Raymond's, blog. It's just...amusing. HAhaha..Ray u shud be proud I advertise ur blog mannnn...:) hahahaaa..but well..life has to go on..taking it one step at a timeee now..  ¶ 11:26 PM 0 Comments

  Psalm 16:8 As I was just walking down my stairway, a verse struck me. This verse was written on my whiteboard at my landing. IT never struck me in such a way that it did today. The verse is the topic. And it goes :

I've set the Lord always before me
Because He is at my right hand
I will not be shaken

Psalms 16:8

With all the things that has happened since yesterday, I believe it's not only me who is going through these tough times. Most of the core team of Faith Embassy are also going through what I would call a spiritual warfare. And my friends, this verse is to encourage us to put God always before us so we will not be shaken. I think this is very important for us. As ik said in his blog, we the people of faith embassy are nothing if we do not have our faith in God. So let's keep our faith in God and let it increase. It's hard to say that I am not shaken from yesterday's incident, but I will not let it hinder me from God. Instead, I will let it be a time of making myself closer to God. As I was going to sleep, the song still kept on ringing in my head. The verse that caught me was

I will be still and know You are God.

Most of the times, we just know God as God but we never take it seriously that He IS God and He is in control of everything. I believe there will be a positive outcome from this incident that happened. Although I have undergone the trauma, still overcoming it, I believe God will be my guide and my comforter in the times of need as His word proclaims it.

Just felt like sharing this message I learnt today...so let us never forget to put God before us and place Him at our right hand...so that we will never be shaken no matter what circumstances it is.  ¶ 4:21 PM 1 Comments

  Period of testing I am feeling like crap. My house just got robbed. I lost my lap top, my digicam, my webcam, my mum's and sisters jewelerry and all the money in coins are all gone. In just 1 and a half hours, everything just got swept away by some idiotic robbers. Sighz. What's worst is that all my stuff I placed in my lap top. All my pictures. All the precious moments. All the data I have inside my computer. My assignment due on tuesday..also left inside there completed. Now I've got to restart everything. Sighz. Well, at least on the bright side I might get a new lap top. But still, it's not the same.

Sent out sms's for prayers from my close friends. I am currently praying hard that my lap top gets recovered in once piece without anything missing or lost. It is so hard to give thanks to God in this situation. But hey, I am trying my best. At least I give thanks to God that no one was at home when it all happened. At least I didn't even start my design project on my lap top...or else I would reallllly be pissed man. Phew. At least most of the stuff in my house are still in one piece. THank you God. I believe You will bring us through this tough time of spiritual battle. Haih.

Got to get started on my chemical and phase equilibria assignment due tmr. Just got to copy it down from my rough workings and write it in a presentable manner. Then I'm gonna work on my lab report tomorrow and hope I can finish it by tomorrow as well. Hmm..as for my girl problems, I dunno what to do. But that is the least of my concerns now. Please pray for me yea. It is very much needed. :) God will always be my comforter in times of trouble.....

Till my next post..:)  ¶ 11:32 PM 1 Comments

  Depression,anxiety... I'm feeling weird. I'm feeling depressed, empty, ditched, rejected, ignored...too many words to describe it. I just feel like shit now basically. And I can't stand it. It just sucks to be stuck in this damn weird mood. When you're all blank and all you can think bout is one person n your negative feelings. Dammit.

At times I wonder why this kinds of things happen to me? I hope as time passes by, this issue will be resolved. I wish sometimes I had a heart of steel. Not prone to falling for people. That would be excellent. It would be a challenge to make myself fall for someone. Less heartache, less weirdness, more efficient individual.

Sigh..today was a great day despite my negative emotions. Had 2nd faith embassy service!!:) Super happening man...!!! Was really good..!! Do encourage u to come next time...

I guess that's all I will post now..dam sleepy and tired and depressed..gimme a pillow, bed and a nice air cond room and I'll sleep all my pain away...

Drama king..:) hehehe..  ¶ 9:47 PM 1 Comments

  Ignorance I'm feeling ignored lately. Don't know whether it's just my paranoid self or I am really being ignored...hmm..these kinds of things don't get out of my mind easily. I tend to blame myself a lot as well if something goes wrong..sigh..it's just a sudden change. And when it's sudden..it feels more impactful..haih..
Sometimes I tend to wonder..is there anyone out there who is right for me? It's a question which can only be answered by God. But I do believe that everyone is meant to be with someone. Well..I'm just screwed lately.

Much assignments are pouring in. I hate it. But what can I do? I paid for this torture. Sighz. I finished 3 of my assignments already out of 5. But the thing is, this coming week there's gonna be another 2 more coming in..!!!! Sigh. I want this to stop!!! Hahaa...and I found out I ain't gonna have 3 months break. My dad asked me to apply for the internship in this consulting company which deals with hazard analysis. He said it's a good opportunity to learn. I just hope that if I get the job, they don't just gimme office boy work..that'll be crap.

Went jogging today. Very invigorating. After finishing 2 rounds, it feels as if you have reached the top of the world!! Conquering your limits!! Hehe. Well at least that's how I felt. Putting myself through 10-20 mins of shear torture only to feel good. Hmmm..how ironic is that? Gonna have lunch with my best friend ken zen later if he can even wake up..and then off to Faith Embassy!!:) Yeahhh...it's here..!:)

Sigh. Okay. I got to get back to work...it's work work workkkkk till my 2nd semester ends..!!  ¶ 10:31 AM 0 Comments

  Nothingness.. Shattered I am. Broken I am. It sucks. Liking the same girl so many times only to come back to the conclusion of killing that feeling because it doesn't seem like a possible option. But everytime I thought I killed the feeling, it gets resurrected and it haunts me more. I guess I haven't really killed it. Killing emotions is not easy. And I've done it before. But I hate it when it happens. And as always, I've got to do it again.

Finding out the girl u like is interested in another guy is the worst thing that can happen. Makes u feel insignificant for a moment. I'm speaking from previous experiences. It's not nice I tell you. It makes one feel depreciated. I'm not saying I won't stay friends with the person, I'm just saying it sucks. Forget my emotions. Forget my feelings. Take it all out of me and throw it in the nearest rubbish bin. I'm quite sick of it sometimes. Although they say that's what it's all about. I believe if 2 people are meant for each other, everything runs out smoothly. But maybe that's just my wishful thinking. If the guy likes the girl back, the least I could do is be happy for her for finding someone who meets her needs. *Takes all feelings and emotions and dumps it into a trash can*..I wish I could..

Currently being tormented by the endless datelines to meet. Endless I tell you. What's worst is when you can even solve your assignment and the dateline draws even nearer!!! Damn. I've got too many things on my hands I'm starting to learn time management in crash course mode. 4 assignments within the next 2 weeks. 1 lab, 1 design project, 2 pieces of coursework ( which one is due for tomorrow..and the next one next monday..). I'm struggling for my time. Trying to find time to do my example sheets for maths. Not easy when I'm being bombarded by tons of assignments.

Stress is at its peak for this month. Surviving this month ensures survival for the next month of stress. But at the core of my sustainance, is my trust in God to sustain me throughout the whole semester. I believe that He is my strength, and I can do all things through Him. Learning a lot bout God slowly. But it's worth it when I start to crawl back to God. I don't like to do it when I'm in trouble. But I feel that it's time for me to search for the Creator and repair my relationship with Him. It's interesting what you can learn from Him.

Well, faith embassy is coming this saturday at CBC Seapark which is situated in ss2. Along the cheow yang row. Starts at 5-7 pm. Entrance is free and it is open for all youth!:) So please do come!:)

That's it. I just felt like expressing myself in the midst of my sadness and stress. Till my next post..cheers!:)  ¶ 11:15 PM 2 Comments

  Missing you I've never felt this way
Missing you this bad
Makes me feel as though time has been put still
I try to stop thinking of you
But the more I try, the more I do
And this feeling isn't pleasant
It tortures me to my core

I wish you would know how I feel
But that would be impossible
As long as you hold on to your past
I would never get a chance
To let you know

Well if you are reading this
Then you should know how I feel
The time to reveal will come
When everything is right

But right now, just know this
That I miss you and that's all that matters to me now...  ¶ 9:16 PM 0 Comments

  Weirdness I've been in a state of dilemma. Although I keep on trying not to think bout it, but I end up thinking bout it anyway. I try to stop thinking bout her. Only to find myself thinking about her more. This is getting to me. I dunno why. I've been sighing more in the past few days compared to usual. I'm still praying and waiting for answers. I've talked to my close friends. And as usual, when you sample a big sample, u get a variety of answers. Haih. How does one handle the situation I am in?!? I wish I had a direct answer. I hate it when I begin to think too much. It gets to me. How can emotions be so powerful to even encompass a person although the person wants to remain unemotional?

Enough of my nonsense. I have been well so far except for that thinking business which affects me deeply. Sern Liang's birthday is around the corner. It's cool. Hehe. I got him his present already. Boy is he gonna be surprised!!:) Hehe. Went jogging on thursday and I'm going again tomorrow. It's so much fun when you have friends with you to motivate you to jog. Hehe. And after that you feel fitter. Hehe. But yeah, nothing much has happenned. Lots of work and assignments to do. Datelines are all creeping near. I'm so dead if I don't start now. HELP!!!!

Well, that's all. Till my next post...  ¶ 9:17 PM 0 Comments

  Parents.. I can't get what is it with parents. What's it with mothers? Or at least my mother? Why can't they understand what I'm going through? What the hell is wrong with them? I can't stand freaking people who think they are above the rest. Yes I do agree my mum is above the rest. But I do not agree with the point of them blackmailing me. I hate blackmailers. So never black mail me, or you'll pay the price dearly. But since she's my mum, I don't give a shit about her black mails. But that doesn't mean I like them.

I hate it when my parents don't see what I see. When they think they ARE always correct even though at times they are not. I hate it when they're damn bias and they only see what they want to see. DAMMIT. Open your eyes and see both sides of the picture! Sigh. Worst thing is when I argue with them, I give them a correct picture or I hit something, then they will either persist in their own blind ways, or they will just shut up and tell me they've got nothing to say. Sigh. Sometimes, I wish I had more open minded parents. But life is just the way it is. I guess just got to give some time to let this issue cool off. Just remembered, I also hate it when they don't even put the effort to be in my shoes.

Anyway..thanks for like reading my state of shittiness when I'm pissed. I've got so many things going on now that being stressed is a part of my life now. And the stress gets bigger and bigger as I go along. 3 coursework assignments to do. 1 lab report for next week to do. The datelines are all so dam close to each other. I am under pressure now!!!! Sigh. I still can't stop thinking of somebody. Hmmm. Gotta settle this thing soon before it gets to me.....

Till the nxt post..ciao  ¶ 9:03 PM 1 Comments

  Mutterings of the heart I am so lost. So at a blur. I feel so happy when I'm with that someone and I feel like shit once I'm not with her. Is that normal? I guess. I just wished I had guts to tell her. Something which I always have trouble with. Isn't there an easier way to tell? Hmm. But it feels good that after so long, at least my heart still feels. If you have read my previous 'saddening' blog posts, I never thought I would ever like someone. Hmmmm. Never thought that I would think of her so much...and it kills!

Who I like is a secret. Hehe. It's no use putting on the blog when I haven't even told her. I'm still wondering if I should. I guess if I don't tell, the burden will bury me. But to tell is such a ... scary thing. Haih. Dilemma. Usually I can handle situations..but when it comes to this..I lose all my sense of handling situations. Hmmmm.

The feeling of liking someone is somehow bittersweet. It has its ups and downs. Gathered together to make a person with the feeling a victim to his/her own irrationality. Haha. But I guess it's like that. We humans are such complicated beings to have such things as complicated as feelings. Hmm...

People ask me to wait, and some people ask me to do it. How can I choose what I should do? I'm an introvert but sometimes I guess I've got to crawl out of my shell.

Ahhh...forget it. That's what I've been thinking for this few days. Hmmm..it sends shivers to my spine to think about such instances where when I tell her what I feel, what would her reaction be. Hmm.

Anyway, today has been a tiring day. I'm so drained of much of my energy. I've got to start focussing on my work again. Tons of assignments due. Datelines are creeping near. Guess got to get my butt back to my work...  ¶ 9:16 PM 1 Comments

  Beautiful Soul I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you, I'd be always faithful I want to be
What you always needed
Then I'll hope you see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

-Beautiful soul by Jesse Mccartney-

I think the song is really nice and meaningful. Hmm. If only someone knew..hehe..:)

Time to chill....haha..:)  ¶ 11:00 PM 0 Comments

  Serenity I am in dilemma. I am always in dilemma. I've been thinking bout somethings which have boggled my mind a bit. Sometimes I wish these things would stop bugging me. On girls, I'm an utmost blur person. Sometimes I don't want to think too much or I try not to read too much. It's hard. Sighz. But sometimes I felt as if it's an obvious thing. Been adviced to just stop and wait till I am really sure. Not sure at the moment. But I do like the girl. Hmmmm. Guess I'll see how.

Anyway, today was quite fun. After buying soo ann's present yesterday I gave it to her today. And she really liked it!!! Hahaha..yeah!:) Went to dome's with sern liang and her to celebrate her bday then went to williams. It was cool. I got a priviledge from williams mamak!! Haha. So cool. Williams is the place to be!:)

Gonna go jogging tomorrow. I've got tons of work to do. I hope I can start on it tomorrow after jogging. Sigh. Time is flying by. Work is piling up. And what am I doing? Nothing. Sigh. Got to get myself started!

Till next time..!:)  ¶ 11:58 PM 0 Comments

  Sometimes I wish I had the gift of poetry. I find it hard to express myself in writings. Everytime I try to write something like a poem, I find that it sounds bad. Hmm. Maybe I should take up writing classes or something. I finally came to my senses. How is it that it's so easy to say something but so hard to do it? Can anyone give me an answer?

I've been bombarded with tons of assignments due in few weeks time. I have to start my engine roaring. Been slacking too long. Realised that I have so short time to accomplish so much. I only got another 6 months before I fly off to UK. Feeling rather down now. Although it seems far, but I feel as though I'm gonna miss my home terribly. Especially my friends. Sigh.

Anyway, soo ann's birthday is coming this fridaY!! Haha..and I haven't got a chance to go and buy a present yet!!! Shall set out for it soon. I've already thought of a present for both of them..cos sern liang's birthday is just 10 days from soo ann's..so I've already got an idea.:) hehe..u all watch out la soo ann and serny..hahaha:)
Gonna just enjoy the moments I'm here and not think bout the future. Hmm.:)

Well I hope u peeps enjoyed the pics of me in FRIM. Haha.:) Got to go now..tons of work to do....  ¶ 7:28 PM 0 Comments

 
Walking toward the path that leads to the canopy walk..with a good friend, Julian.   ¶ 11:02 PM 0 Comments

 
The group of us before the Team Building event.   ¶ 11:01 PM 0 Comments

 
Posing on top the canopy walk of FRIM. It was a freaking tiring journey to reach the top..:P   ¶ 11:00 PM 0 Comments