Useless shit..:P haha Seeing things happen around me
Being unable to do anything to correct situations
Makes me feel helpless
Makes me feel sad
Makes me feel like shit

I pick up a bottle
It has a label stated there
The memory loss pill
I wish I could be free of such burden
The feeling of being burdened because of knowing that your friend is not in good condition
To feel sad for them
To feel pity for them
*Consumes the pill*

It will all be forgotten soon in the next 5 seconds.
I wish.
Whatever is in my brain, will always remain a memory
Whether bitter or sweet.
Ughh

I don't know what I'm writing anymore.
Gonna go to One Utama now.
Watching initial D tonight!
YAY!:)  ¶ 8:22 PM 0 Comments

  Possessiveness+Control+Selfishness Decided to dedicate a post on such matters. I am terribly pissed with such people. Grr. No names shall be mentioned here, but I am terribly pissed. I am feeling sad for certain people. But anyhow, I shall continue with this post.

I can't stand people or actually, more for Guys, who can't act like a gentlemen. Who do not have what I call manners. Who do not know how to speak to girls despite their anger. Who do not know how to control themselves in their own wrath. Who do not know that it is not good to even swear at a girl. You know? Who don't even know how to treat a girl for her worth. If you cannot see the worth of the person and you don't treat that person right, all I can tell that person is please...GO TO HELL! Or at least learn the right way and correct yourself.

I can't stand people who are so self centered, and their self centered-ness carries on to affect others. Who are possessive when they do not have the right to be possessive. I think it's just plain bullshit. Never ever control others, not even threaten them. And sometimes I don't know how some people can be so patient with such incompetence. Sigh. It saddens me alright. If a person is self centered, they shouldn't make it affect another person and make that person in despair or sadness or provoking anger. Grrrrrr...I am not saying that I am a perfect person you know. I am trying to repair myself from such things, but there are some people there who are just like that and it's freaking pissing me off. To see my friends being oppressed, just the mere sight, makes me pissed. But I cannot do anything because it is not my business.

Ugh. For all you guy friends of mine out there, I hope you are not like what I have mentioned above. Because if I know the girl whom you mistreat, I will tell you off cos you are my friend too.

Anyways, I can finally sleep in peace after lashing it all out here.:) Time to sleep. gnite.!  ¶ 12:50 AM 0 Comments

  Wednesday ( I ran out of titles..) I am soooo soooo dead tired. Today was a blast. It's always a blast when I hang out with both Elicia and Lisuen. Hahahahaha. Heard that anot Elicia and Lisuen..? You're both happening people like me! Haha.

Had cheese baked rice in Kowloon today!! WAAaAAa..!! Damn sedap!!! Haha..and so big somemore the portion..woo hoo..!:) Then left to KL for Sg Wang to follow Eli alter her dress. Then went to One Utama to follow both Elicia and Lisuen go shopping. I almost didn't feel my legs for that moment. Hahaha. After that, Eli dropped me at my car and I went out with Julian and the rest to watch War of the Worlds. Was a good movie cos of the effects but the ending sucked! Sigh..

My life summarized in short points. Hahaha. I feel as if writing this blog is so short. Anyways, check out the next post..which is written out of my anger+feelings on such a subject..  ¶ 12:41 AM 0 Comments

  Tuesdayyy.. Shucks. I can't be poetic when I want to. This sucks. The poetic in me only comes out during certain times. Sighhh...

Today was a good day. I shall not elaborate the details. Just had loads of fun. Had dim sum in the morning. Went down to KL to settle my VISA app, went to Sg. Wang to help Elicia shop for her prom dress which she finally bought!! Came home. All tired and sleepy.

I'm dead broke, dead tired. Ughhhh...but the fun was worth it. Hehe.:) Tried this Teppanyaki shop in Sg Wang, not bad..quite nice actually. And I finally caved into my cravings for Famous Amos!!!:) Had 100 grams thanks to Elicia!! *Thank you eli!* Shared it with her...the cookies are just GOOOOOOOOOD....!

Whooooaaa..:) I guess I'll stop writing now. I can't think of anything to write. I want to write a poem but I've got no inspiration. Sigh.  ¶ 7:12 PM 0 Comments

  A&W.. Haha. Had loads of fun in A&W just now. Had a float with coney dog. OMG. THe calories!!! AAaahhh..no more no more I tell you.

Anyways, me, nick and ray had a nice chat n laugh about nurturing. LOL. I tell you..the ideas this Raymond comes up with. Really hilarious. Ik and Cheryl joined us later. The whole session, ik and nick were trying to take a pic with Cheryl but she didn't want to take a pic with them. ( hahaha..sorry la..I just found it really amusing today. Not boasting or anything k. This is aimed to nick and ik..)

So after having what I had and a long chat, it was time to go back. I knew Cheryl is studying in Adelaide ( same place where my sister did her degree in pharmacy ) and so happen she's doing pharmacy too. So I was just wondering if she stayed in the same residential college with my sister...and guess what? I looked straight and I saw her wearing a t-shirt with 'St. Ann's College' printed so large..! And this is the conversation that went on after I realized that.

Me : Hei, I just realized that you're staying in the same place my sis stayed when she was studying in Adelaide.

Cheryl : Who's your sister?

Me : Lai Ping.

Cheryl : OMG! You're lai ping's brother?!?!? OMG OMG!!! I have to take a picture with you! (fyi : my sister happens to be her senior..)

* The commotion goes on for awhile. I feel like a celebrity suddenly. Nick was like 'heiii unfairrr!!'*

* Speechless for the moment*

*I can picture Ik's expression..*

LOL. She even asked me for my ID to confirm that I was my sister's brother. Hahaha. I found that amusing. Went home with a big smile! :D LOL!

Ahhh..that was a highlight for my day..!:) Being treated like a celebrity. Ngeks.  ¶ 12:21 AM 0 Comments

 
my passion..!:) Church drums setup.   ¶ 9:29 PM 0 Comments

 
*say cheesEe!!!*    ¶ 9:28 PM 0 Comments

  What to put? Today is a real bummer day. Did nothing but literally just lazed around the house. Had to pick my mum up from school and do some banking cos I need to get my visa done ASAP. Watched Sin City on DVD. REally good movie!:) I love it!

Err..dinner was actually insufficient but became sufficient as soon as I drank coke. Haha. The remedy to an empty stomach feeling..COKE!:)

Sometimes I wonder, would it be better to keep the anger in or to let it out? I found out that just keeping it inside and being the quiet one while other's are heating everything up tends to make them cool down faster. But sometimes, I think it's not that good cos too much anger kept within would definitely cause an explosion. And I am really afraid of that happening. I pray God, that You will give me patience and perseverance to stay calm and un-angry as much as possible and never let me lash out at people in anger. I need anger management. I guess sometimes the truth does hurt.

Listening to the truthful comments my mum tells me sometimes does hurt a lot. Sometimes it pisses me off as well. Sometimes I feel as though she uses whatever I tell her bout me against me. And she wants me to be transparent it seems. What is the use of being transparent when the other party doesn't know how to keep quiet? Well, that's my mum. I do love her, don't get me wrong. It's just that she tends to over-dramatize a lot of things, and I really hate it when she uses whatever I tell her against me. It's just bad. But who am I to say? I'm her son. So, I guess I have to be quiet and submit. Bleah. I feel a tinge of rebelliousness rising within me. But I'll kill it before it gets to me. And one more thing, I hate threats. Never threaten me. Or you will reap the 'rewards' of threatening me.

I guess I'm pissed at the moment. But I don't know. Somehow I feel angry but yet I feel calm and cool. Weird. Guess if there were 10 levels of anger : 1 being cool and 10 being freaking hot, I think I'm somewhere at about 3-4 now. Hmmmmm. *ponders*

This are all writings from my inner self. Uncensored. Haih. I tell you, maybe that's why I prefer to go out more often then stay at home. I run a lower risk of getting scolded or getting into a heated argument. Hmmm.

Life and all the people involved in it. Just makes it really interesting.

Gonna go for A&W soon. I'm getting fatter ( hope nott..). *stares at stomach*

Grrr...why is food so irresistable? Ngeks.

  ¶ 9:15 PM 0 Comments

  Random.. I finally can rest! After a hectic week and weekend. Non stop drumming for 2 days! Whoa. Really an experience. It's fun to play but it can get a wee bit tiring.

I'm so tired now I just feel like sleeping. Got to get my visa done by tomorrow. Hopefully the Visa app center will let me fax in the missing documents. I'm way too lazy to go down to KL and hand in 2 slips of paper. -.-"

Had a great time today. First time hanging out with some of the Young Working Adults. Quite an experience. They aren't as strict as I thought they would be, instead they were very easy going. Cool.

Had volleyball today as well. Very good. Hehehe. Had some cheesy wedges and mashed potatoes thanks to elicia and lisuen! Ah and the water too!:) What would I do without you both? LOL.:P

I want to dota but yet my body is yelling at me to sleep. ughhh..the tiredness. I have so many things to read which I haven't read. SIgh. I want to meet up with most of my friends before I leave!:) So if any of you want to meet up with me, please let me know!:) Keke...

Can't say much now. I felt poetic this evening but didn't take that chance to blog. Now I regret. LOL.  ¶ 11:58 PM 0 Comments

  I dunno what to blog about.. Today. Hectic day. Most of my days have been hectic. Being out since the morning till the night. I'm just tired. Tommorrow is going to be another hectic day as well. Ahhh..the simplicities of it all just being on a holiday.:)

Today was Faith Embassy service. It was good. Praise and worship sounded good surprisingly despite the fact that it was only 2 practices and we sucked during the practices. Praise God! Must be some anointing. :)
HAd dinner at williams ( AGAIN! )...sigh..I wanna get out of williams man. I'm getting sick! Hehe. Had this thing called baked pasta ( shared with Crystal, Iris and Yee Ping ). REALLY good. Cheesy. Recommended for all of you who go to williams but don't know what to order. But be warned. It's rather pricey. :)

I'm now back at home instead of being in Sunway dota-ing with the other guys. Feeling sleepy. Gonna take a break early. Sleep early. :) Got to wake up early tommorrow as well. It's been one month since my exams. I actually am looking forward to my 3rd year in UK. The work and all.

Just got told by tsuen that I'm gonna be a tuition teacher!! Hahahaaaa....I am hoping my memory doesn't fail me on form 4 stuffz. Phew.

Gonna sleep now...life is in the slow mo now..:)  ¶ 10:53 PM 0 Comments

  Fattening days..wooohoo..:P Yesterday and today were the best food filling days of my life!

Lasagne and cake at La Manila followed by a superb combination of waffles and float from A&W..! Whoaa..and what else to top that..great company from a friend whom I haven't seen in ages! You know who you are!:)

Then today..teriyaki chicken set followed again by a superb combination of float and waffles with ice cream from A&W!!! Hahaha..I'm gonna stop A&W for a while now..and also to top that, the company of my very good friend huei yuih (ngeks cute n adorable but i haf to admit quite annoying sometimes..:P LOL), ik and raymond ( my other 2 guy friends from church who go through what I go through at times..). Hehe.:) Had fun taking pictures. Phew. No more fattening food for the next week or so..

I really want to watch starlight cinema!!! Got a friend pending on me also to watch. Hmm. I think I'll give it a shot cos I want to watch kingdom of heaven..and so happens I think she hasn't watched it as well. :) Hehe.

Went to summit today to follow a bunch of them to rock climb. I ended up sitting around just staring at them as they sweated it out and stressed themselves out. Looks quite cool but I don't think I'd be able to climb those humongous walls...-.-" Had loads of fun though.

Hehehe..I feel so hectic-ed lately. So tired. So poop-ed. Wooooo..tiring. I just realised that my blog is very emotional ( according to some people..). Is it true? I am just writing from my heart. Haha...

Some how I just want my poetic self to come back again..dammit. Can't be forced out. Sigh. Will post up some pictures of the recent happenings later.:) Gonna play a game of DoTA or 2 before going to bed..:P

Good night oh lovely world..:)


  ¶ 12:15 AM 0 Comments

  Hecticism..:P Today was a REALLY hectic day. A long day as well. WHooooooaaa..and I survived.

Started of with me having only 4 hours of sleep and having to wake up at 6.40 am to send my mum to school and come back. Couldn't catch sleep after that and went with my dad to KL to get my visa done at bout 9 am. Got my dad's license renewed, got letter of reference from the bank for my dad's bank statement since the visa thingy needed it.

Ran across to ampang park to get some stuff photocopied while waiting for the letter of reference. Got the letter, headed to the british high com and handed my application stuff only to be told that my picture is unacceptable cos it's with a blue background and they just told me how much money I needed to pay for the visa. -.-" Why can't this idiotic british people state it earlier or something? Anyhow, I thought my picture was correct cos what happened was they wrote so many damn things in the specification for the picture, that somehow white just missed my sight. -.-"" Stupid stupid stupid.

Rushed to Ampang Park, got my photos taken instantly, thank goodness for the coat, got the cash and rushed up to the Visa place before the lunch hour..it was only 20 mins away from lunch hour. Got there, went to a new officer and she checked it. And she told me ... "What if I told you I can't accept your application today?" I just stared at her blankly. I felt like all my effort was wasted. But luckily, the lady was kind enough to accept my application. *phew*

Got on home and went to The Curve to have lunch with Wai and Tsuen. Funny company. Especially Tsuen. Hahahaa..after that we went to 1 utama to see a drift challenge which after waiting for 2 hours and 15 minutes didn't even happen. Tsuen u owe me biggg..!! Hahaha..just kidding la.:) Had to cancel my cake session with Grace cos I had to attend a family dinner since it's my sister's birthday!! Happy birthday che!:)

Went for music practice after dinner and came back. Whoa. I'm superbly tired now....feel like plopping on my bed and going on to lala land. Waiting for Lisuen and Elicia to call me out for somemore exciting adventures of theirs..haha..ah well..don't think it'll happen soon.

Well, gonna get some sleep!:) Till my next post..  ¶ 12:07 AM 0 Comments

  Booooring.. My life now feels so aimless. But I am still loving it.

Woke up in the afternoon. Groggily got myself cleaned up. Watched butterfly effect - REALLY GOOD!

Ate lunch. LAzed around till dinner. Went to eat at Zuup with Soo Ann and Wei Ming. Went to watch Batman Begins in midvalley after that. REALLY GOOD movie too!!:)

Got a call from a friend who told me that a bunch of my old school mates are going to Redang for holidays. Still pondering on whether I should go or not. I feel rather lazy. HEhehe..plus I love where I am now. NGeks.

Gotta start getting my Visa ready. Sigh. Time flies fast......

I am getting calmer by the days and not so easily excited. Hehe..:) TIll my next post..

*Plops on bed ready to go to slumberland...*
  ¶ 12:40 AM 0 Comments

  Whyy?! Frustration surrounds me. 2 decisions surround me.

One : To go holidays with my friends and enjoy myself while I miss out on a promise I made with a friend.

Two : To fulfill my promise and be a good friend that I am.

*ponders on the 2 options*

I guess I've partially made up my mind already.

I'm gonna pick option 2. I've let my friend down once, don't want to do it again.

A promise is a promise. No justifications to break it.

*Hopes nothing of importance happens on that weekend*..

Gonna get some sleep now. Really tired.

Good night oh lovely world full of decisions...
  ¶ 2:51 PM 0 Comments

  Wrong things consistently.. I feel so screwed now.

I didn't mean to hurt someone but it happened anyway.

What am I going to do now? *frowns*

I feel so guilty on the inside.

Can't figure out what to do at this moment.

I screwed up badly today. From what I wanted to do, to hurting people whom I care about dearly.

I am sorry Huei Yuih for hurting you. Didn't mean to do it.

*Flings self out of the window*

Let me just die from the impact of the fall.

Better than to feel really guilty.

I guess I'd just have to come clean this time. *picks self up from the fall*

Sigh. This sucks. Hurting people who don't deserve to be hurt. Am I a damn barbarian? Heartless and cold??

I don't know...  ¶ 12:22 AM 0 Comments

  God's creative invention.. I was just pondering.
God actually has a really creative invention
I would like to call it the LOVE drug.
It's definitely got to be a drug.
As you all know, many types of love encompass love itself.
But why I say love drug,
It's cos we need to get our doses
If it's in controllable amounts,
We survive till the next fix
If not, we get overdosed.

Effects of overdosing include
Missing the person much of the time
Thinking of the person much of the time
Hesitating to do some things related to the person much of the time
Getting stunned by the sudden emptiness of the whole situation
Till the next fix
The effects will persist.

The drug itself is pricey
Costing the heart and the soul of a person
The drug can cause hearts to break
Souls to suffer impecable torture
Or it can cause
Hearts to be filled
Souls to be happy and joyful

It cannot be bought with money
Time and communication nurture it
Attention helps it grow
If brought up carefully
Can be the best thing in the world.
It cannot be obtained in any store in the world
It can only be found in another person.
And also in God.

God's creative invention : Love drug
Beware for it is not as simple as it seems to be...
  ¶ 11:57 PM 0 Comments

  Sigh.. I took myself high up
Mustered all my courage
Did what I wanted to do
There was a reply
A welcomed reply but I stumbled
Let out things which was not meant to be said
Oh stupid me!
*Slaps self*
But in the end, I felt it was worth it
To do what I wanted to do
And to get a welcomed reply to it.:)
  ¶ 11:39 PM 0 Comments

  Of waffles and ice cream.. Just got back from A&W.

Had a waffle with ice cream ontop and a large float with Nick, Wai, Ivan and the Limlets.

That was simply a really good deal.

But it still won't take my mind of certain matters.

*Feels rather fat at the moment..*

Jogging is on tommorrow. Time to burn of some fat and take my mind off things.

*Plops on bed ready to sleep..*

Good night cruel world..  ¶ 12:39 AM 0 Comments

  High I'm on a high. A sudden high that's dropping really fast to a low. *SCREAMS*

*Crash* I fall flat face on to the ground. *bone cracking sound*

*Let's out a roar of pain..*

*Blood flows all over*

*Picks self up and moves on till the next fix..*

Should have gone zouk yesterday..*slaps self*

Nevermind..we shall go again someday..!:)

Sorry for the utter nonsense I'm mutterring....  ¶ 10:55 PM 0 Comments

  Boredom I'm damn bored....would someone save me?:P  ¶ 1:14 PM 0 Comments

  I never...I wish.. I never thought that IT would have seeped back into my life
I never thought that IT would make me feel this way
I never thought that IT would come before I fly off
I never thought that IT would cause much heartache later

I never knew she was special to me till now
I never knew she looked so beautiful to me till now
I never knew she's such a nice person to be with
I never knew she's such a nice person to talk to

I never knew I'd feel so lost without her
I never knew I'd feel so comfortable with her
I never knew I'd feel this way about her
I never knew I'd feel like writing this

Until now.

I wish this feeling would never go away
I wish I would be more confident
I wish I would be myself
I wish for so many things that are not possible to be granted..
But most of all
I wish that someone would feel the same way I feel..:)

Notice : This came up from random ponderings..:P so it's not meant for anyonee..i think..  ¶ 12:02 AM 0 Comments

  Expressions of my faith.. Sitting in this room
Black and unlit
Darkness surrounds me

Pondering on things that are not worth pondering on
Justifying things that I knew was wrong from the start
I find that I am wrong
Terribly wrong
I kneel down and begin to pray to my God
For forgiveness
Regretting what I have done

As I pray, the darkness surrounding me slowly backs away
Giving way to the glorious light
The room that I was sitting in
Black and unlit it was
Transformed into a lighted room, full of happiness
No room for despair, sorrow and guilt
Just happiness and joy

I stand up and start basking myself in the glorious light
Feeling myself being lifted up from the darkness
Oh how great is my God!
  ¶ 12:33 PM 0 Comments

  God is great..!:) Woo hoo! Collected my results today. The real slip of paper!:) HEhehe..was super happy still cos I can't believe my own results! Only one explaination for it really. It's that it's from God.:) HEhe.
Today was a rather tiring day. Went to KL then to subang then back to KL.

Was super fun though. Went to Uni to collect my results. Dr. Chong wasn't in till 11.30 am when I was already there by 10.10 am. Sigh. After that, I decided to go to subang cos I wanted to visit my Taylor's lecturers. So we went and visited. While I was having a drink in Asia Cafe, lisuen called me to ask me whether I wanted to go Sg. Wang. So I told them I'll call them later la cos I was in Taylors to meet my lecturers and I definitely wanted to meet them first. So after meeting them, I headed down to Sg. Wang and met up with Elicia and Lisuen. Went walking around with them to shop cos Elicia wanted to shop for a prom dress. And after walking through most of the shops in Sg. Wang, Elicia decided she's gonna get the dress from DP. Good for you eli!:) hahaa..

After hanging out with them, drove to church for music practice for this coming Sunday for parent's day celebration. We're gonna rock the church!:) Eheh..:) And I just got home after that. Superbly tired at the moment. Gonna get so much sleep. Lisuen and Elicia are really fun to hang out with. Hahaha...the stuff they talk about jus amuses me. REALLY WUN!!:P

Ok la..gonna go get sleep. Not much thoughts now. Just gonna read my bible and pray before I sleep!!:) Cya world..  ¶ 12:16 AM 0 Comments

  Eventful day... Today was rather fun day. Started with a day of going out for dim sum with nick, elicia and lisuen. Haha..was rather fun having their company. Then I had no plans for later. Elicia and lisuen suddenly asked me whether I wanted to go and watch a movie with them later..so I was like 'sure..why not?'.
Went to midvalley at bout 3 pm. Movie was originally at 4 pm but was shifted to 6 pm. So we had 3 hours on our hands..and what do 3 girls and 1 guy do when they have nothing to do in a shopping mall..? SHOP of course..haha..went around shopping with elicia and lisuen. Ee mei tagged along as well. Elicia was looking around for a dress for a prom. Lisuen was looking around at shoes. HAha. Was fun hanging out with them la.

I think my theory is quite true. I find that so far most of the dj girls that I know rather well are very amusing people. Hahaha..movie was very good. Watched Mr and Mrs Smith. Angelina Jolie super sexy la...eeEeeE!! The cinema was rather hot. I dunno why. But my day was rather fun.

Ahh..right now..I'm superbly tired. Gonna read my bible and pray first then catch some sleep..! Till next time..  ¶ 10:23 PM 1 Comments

  Deeper... Light to men
Love of God
Healing for the wounded heart

Like a child I quiet my soul
Hear Your voice surround me Lord

Jesus, hold me into Your heart
Into Your heart
Lord, my soul delights
And I know You hear my prayer
Take me deeper Lord

Glorious son to You I shall bow
Bow my knee, bow my will
Cherished by the strong and the weak
Humble hearts shall hear You speak

And by Your love Lord,
You opened my heart
Now Your light will shine always
By Your word Lord, Your promise secure
And my soul will live always
Take me deeper, Lord.

- A song which I want to make as my prayer -  ¶ 10:39 PM 0 Comments

  Friends.. I'll be straight to the point. There are many kinds of friends. But there are a few which I can't stand. Hmm..I'm gonna be really honest here. But if you think that I'm talking bout you, please do not be offended. I am just merely stating my feelings ok? I'm not saying I'm perfect. Just saying that I can't stand certain friends.

The top of my list would be applying mainly for guy friends. I don't like guy friends who sometime don't know how to be a gentleman. This doesn't just encompass manners. For example, I can't stand guy friends who know that a guy friend of theirs likes this girl friend of his, and then tries to compete with the girl friend for attention. Can't they just back off? Or is it to hard? ARe they being posessive or insecure? Or do they realize that they have certain feelings for the girl friend? I've seen this twice already. And I jsut find it so hard to understand why can't the guy be a good friend to his guy friend and let him know the girl and go after the girl? Considering that it's his friend, he should know the characteristics of his friend. Of course there will be times where interference is a must because the guy knows that his friend is either a heartbreaker or a player, or when it endangers the girl. But heck..just let the guy have a chance at knowing the girl la.

Ah..another type of friend I can't stand is one who lies or basically talks 'cock' ( please forgive my profanity..). Like for instance, claiming that he has things which he doesn't. Just to get attention. U know? Attention seekers. I haven't encountered any girl friends of mine who do this by the way. Mostly comes from guys. Sigh. What's so hard? Can't you just tell the truth? Is it so hard to accept that you don't have certain things or you weren't involved in certain incidents? Aihhhh..

Ah..I can't stand friends who are negative!!! YES! Pessimists I mean. Yes they are tolerable..but when they are really really pessimistic...it's annoying! I'm sorry la. But I think I'm more of an optimist. So I really can't stand it when some people are being really pessimistic. About a lot of things. They can't stop worrying themselves or complaining. Either one. SIghhhh!

Ugh. Okay..that's my list for now.. If I go on, it'll take really long. Hehehe..I'm sorry but I hope this doesn't offend anyone. I'm just stating my feelings.

Today was good. Went for both 1st and 2nd service. Pastor Daniel preached 2 different messages. In the morning he thought about getting the special annointing, the precious jewel God has given us, the special gifts that cannot be purchased with money. And then in the 2nd service, he talked bout 5 basic principles to maintain the Holy Spirit in our lives. Very edifying.

Went for hi tea in Eastin. Really good. The food there was cool. Ate quite filling. Went for volleyball in the evening. Lisuen and Elicia brought me dunkin donuts but I couldn't eat it cos I was feeling really full!! SORRY YA ELISUEN..! eheh..:) this doesn't mean I don't want any more food from you all k..ahhaha..I still want wunnnn..

Went williams as usual. Hung out for awhile and came back. REally pooped. I've discovered that as I start reading the bible more intensely, things become more centered around it. Amazing. I've tried to focus more on certain verses that I read, and it's just amazing, that somethings which I never knew, I learnt it there and then. And God really speaks!:) Bible is Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth...so don't go off without reading it first.:)

Okay. Currently listening to the cd by United Live. Really good worship songs. Really like it. Recommended for those of you who are looking for youthful worship.:) Hehe..gotta go now...really long la my posts..hahaha..

Cyaaa...and I'm superbly happy today..:)
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  Impromptu Saturday.. Today was a rather fun day. I thought that having a seminar from 9.30 am - 4.30 pm would be superbly boring, but this was not the case. I went for Pastor Daniel Lim's seminar today on prophetic intercession and prophetic worship, and all I can say is that it was a really good experience. For me, today was an impromptu day because usually us musicians, would have practices on songs and free flow worship before the real day. But today, it was on the spot. No practices. No time for rehearsals. Just raw power. Raw energy. Live music. It was good. The experience of being led into worship so unprepared and just clinging onto the Holy Spirit for guidance in worship was a really good experience.

Pastor Daniel is a really good speaker. The way he speaks God's word to us, with such enthusiasm and captivating voice. It's really hard for one to fall asleep in his sermons. After that, we went for dinner with Ps. Daniel and his wife, Ps. Levi and family. Had a really good time asking them questions. What really captivated me this past 2 days is the power of prayer. Often we doubt the power of our prayers, but little do we know that that power is the most powerful thing God has entrusted us with. Ps. Levi was sharing with us the love story between her and Ps. Daniel and it was rather interesting. Because mostly was that she prayed for THREE years and her prayers were specific. Not to mention her confirmation through her dreams! This people are the kind of people who really reignite my passion. So, from now on, I'm gonna pray everyday. Pray a specific prayer. Pray through. I believe my God will hear me out.

Ahhh:) Another issue I find it hard to deal with is jealousy. Often do we know that jealousy, the green eyed monster, is one monster which is VERY hard to tame. Sometimes I don't even know whether the jealousy feeling is due to protectiveness or just due to plain jealousy. It's just an emotion which is rather hard to control. Makes us do crazy things. Makes us paranoid. Makes us just not who we are. Tends to make us feel insecure. And mostly this feeling is most abundant in loving relationships. Haha. I just think that this feeling has been popping our rather often lately. Sigh. Why?!?

Anyway, I've decided to journal down my prayers. I hope it works continuously. Haih. I'm starting to miss some of my friends like soo ann and sern liang, whom are my closest buddies but I haven't seen them for more than a month. Also miss my best bud kenzen...got to find time to hang out with them before I go. Sigh. Departure. Leaving is always the hardest thing to do.

Well..gonna go off now. Till my next post..have fun reading!:)  ¶ 10:21 PM 0 Comments

  Friday.. My friday was a tad too boring and a whole lot unproductive. Long holidays tend to make one feel lazier and lazier everyday. I think I really deserved this 4 months break away from studying! Hehe..besides it's gonna be my last 4 months here before I fly to the UK right? SO I should enjoy myself to the max!!!:) Gotta start reving my engines and finding something to do.

Didn't go out much today except to julian's house at first. Played Tekken 5. Dam fun. Then went out with mei cos she didn't want to go out with Geng Pung alone. So just accompanied her la. And she got lost along the way to my house. HAha. Ate mcdees and went to church for Pastor Daniel's talk. He's really good. Speaking on spirit of prophecy and all. REally bombastic words. Hmmm..but very good.

Sometimes I figure everyone has a threshold of patience. Some are low and some are high. I think mine is in the middle. Sometimes I can't take it when people fool around and really take me for granted. And sometimes there are people who are just downright rude but no one ever tells it to them in the face. IF there's one thing I'm not, it would be direct. I'm not a direct person. I find telling people directly makes situations rather awkward, but if I really can't take it I would tell the directly. For example, doesn't have to be when I'm angry, if I like a girl, for me to be direct with her would really make situations awkward..ehehe..so I'll find some other ways to tell her subtly but clearly reassuring..still finding a way to do that. Eheh.:)

I've decided that from today onwards, I will live my life more wholly devoted to God, my saviour, my Lord and my king. There's nothing better then just knowing Him. I've decided that I've been slacking for too long. Time to get myself up and moving.

Life is rather fascinating. So many things to make it so much more exciting, and yet there are also limitations to certain activities in our life which are for our own good. Emotions make us go on a roller coaster ride most of the time. Love often hurts just to make us realize how important it is. Sufferings make us appreciate things in life which we take for granted and it always helps us learn something new. New perspectives of life. People who say life is so boring and is so meaningless, I think they're just blind. Open your eyes. There's so much more to life. Especially when you know that you have been saved by God who loves you so much. Hmm...what else do you want?

Well, that's it for now. It's time for me to slip away to my world of slumber!:) WIll update somemore when I got somemore things to update bout..eheh..:)  ¶ 12:45 AM 0 Comments

  Enlightenment.. I just suddenly realized something throughout this past few days. We are not meant to be alone. Men weren't made to live life alone. That's why God created Eve for Adam. The missing rib in every guy's body. It seems like it's just meant to be fulfilled by that one special person. Of course I'm not forgetting bout God la. BUt I am talking apart from God.

Realising how much a guy would do to win a girl's heart is really interesting. Guys would do almost anything when he likes or loves a girl. Hmmm....hahahaha...and what really is interesting is the way emotions play with us when we're in that stage. When we all start getting paranoid and insecure, when we all feel really good after talking with that special person, or even after a date with that person...all the emotions in our lives that make it more interesting although it hurts at times. Hmmmm..ahh..

Chinese songs are hard. I don't like to play them. I'd prefer english songs anytime. Grr..talking from experience in the practice just nowww..agh!

I would rather much like to settle down with someone who can accept me for who I am and allows me to be myself when I'm with her although I'm not perfect. Ah and of course she must be good looking in my eyes la...I don't care bout other people. Hehe.:) And yeah loads of criterias. But I only tell these criterias to my really close friends.

Ahhhh...I'm gonna dota now! WIll update somemore posts later..:P  ¶ 12:19 AM 2 Comments

  DotA! From today onwards, I have joined the dota players in playing dota. Hahaha. Simple concept of a game but interesting and fun game to play.

Had my first sessions today playing with nick and then playing with the sunway church people. Was an experience although we got our ass pawned. Hehe. I used to play dota and I was dam sucky then also. Guess now it's time to up my level a bit. Hahaha..I am sorry but this is due to the ultimate boredom I face everyday..haha..I need to find something to do..!

I guess that's the excitement of having such long holidays. But I feel time is passing by rather fast. I don't want to leave malaysia yet!!! Agh..! But I am looking forward to the overseas experience when I'm over there. Just hope that I meet nice people and get good lecturers..eheh..:)

Well, my day was just full of dota today. I think tomorrow will be the same..but we'll see how it goes..and yah I got to update my links soonn...hmmm..:P

Nites!  ¶ 1:28 AM 0 Comments

  Thank you GOD!:) Life has been good so far. Just found out my overall average for my 2nd year is 76%!! HAhaha..I'm super happy now!:) That's a first class average for all of you who don't know why I am so happy. Not only that, in order to get that percentage, means my 2nd semester average must've been 79 cos I've checked it with my 1st semester results!! Hahaha..and I only have one person to thank for this..which is Jesus!:) HEhe...remembering the constant prayers everyone has given to me especially my parents and my cell group members! WOooohoooo...so I am dedicating my results to God cos I know He's the one who helped me. Because just looking at my life of constant enjoyment, I definitely know that I wouldn't have gotten what I got if not for His help.

Ahhh..now I can finally relax. Reuben Morgan concert later. Hope it's not as sleepy as his cd. -.-"

Goin for dinner with Ray later too. Mwahaha..

Went down to KL for lunch today..I never knew lunch was 4 hours long..hahaha..but it was good.
Much of my emotions are not stirred up at the moment and I hope they remained settled for this few months. Agh.

Well..that's it for now!:)  ¶ 6:03 PM 0 Comments

  Elisha Cuthbert is hot..!:P hahah.. Whoa. Today was a rather productive day I would say. Got up early, jogged one round in kiara park, had breakfast, washed and polished my car, went out with nick and mei to coffee bean then to nick's hse to watch 'The girl next door' and then to dinner at bout 8 pm. Just got back. Rather tired. Tomorrow is another long day ahead.

Elisha Cuthbert is hot! "The girl next door' is a movie about this guy who falls in love with his new neighbour which worked as a porn star before. Whoaa..I tell you, he's one lucky guy..! Hehe..anyway, enough bout elisha cuthbert..hahaha..

One of the most interesting highlights of this week would be shopping in sungai wang in KL with hueis and ivan. Wai was supposed to be there but he had to go back to get his car and never returned after that. It was a good day of shopping although there wasn't much time but I managed to get what I wanted.

Hope to go again soon...hmm..:P Results are coming out on monday!! I'm so dead!! Gahh...better email my tutor to email me the results instead of me going to uni on monday and receiving it..hehe..advancement of technology has its benefits.

Well, that's an update from me for now..shall post up pics if there are any..:P

Ciaooo..  ¶ 10:30 PM 0 Comments