So I guess I might not be getting over you anytime soon.

Hahaha. Sometimes life is better when you just don't think of matters that really take up so much of your time.

I've decided to use my time slightly more efficiently by investing in myself, to develop myself.

Hoho.

Work's been good.

Hoping that my company would send me to Germany for a small company business trip! hoho.

But fat chances la right.

Sometimes it's so weird that people view life so bleak and so jaded. I view life as vast opportunities at hand and as a good thing that I'm still alive and kicking in this world despite the awful amount of thoughts about the reality of the situation or of life. But I guess, a mindset or outlook to everything makes a whole lot of difference.

Oh well.

Being single is fun and I'm really loving it...but I guess there are just small moments where you just want someone closer to you than just a friend.

I really miss Seng and Liza. OMG. :(

The housemates who really mattered to me. Really.

Time to sleep. I'm babbling now.  ¶ 11:54 PM 0 Comments

  Nowadays I'm losing my mood to blog.

It's becoming sort of an ardious task as my life is full of no updates.

HAHA.

Work is fun but becoming pretty tiring. Celebrated Cassie's birthday yesterday with a bunch of youth. It was fun surprising her..and the video was...HAHA.:P

And Cassie, I DO NOT MISS MCDEE'S!

Anyhow, I realise in life the best things are to invest in people..to me it's more on the church youth. To invest time and life into them because after all, I don't want to feel old! HAHA.

But yeah, it's all good. I need to find myself a hobby.

Blah. Life's like that.

Emotions are stagnating on one person.

No fluctuations. No progress. Nothing.

Woo:(  ¶ 12:10 AM 0 Comments

  Life has been pretty stagnant lately.

Everything seems to just be passing by me without touching me.

It feels so surreal. I don't know how to explain it.

It feels like I don't really care about the small things anymore..I don't really care anymore.

Don't know whether this is good or bad, but I do enjoy this state now.

No emoness, nothing to worry about, just living life one at a time.

Sort of feels calm and peaceful.

If only I could just remain here just a little bit longer....  ¶ 8:36 PM 0 Comments

  So, I know I'm pretty emo though a lot of people I meet don't think I am.

Ahaha.

But anyhow, bowling today was fun. Batting cages was fun too.

On the other hand, I was tired like a cow when I got back. Man, work again tomorrow.

I sorta love/hate what I'm feeling now.

The feeling where you like someone, but you know you can't do anything more.

Cos you know she doesn't look at you that way.

But then, you still just love her company and just being around with her. And that's the hard part.

You know you can honestly never get over her, at least not now, until you meet someone else whom you feel so well attached to.

Or until you feel the true heart break and just cut off any mode of communication till you recuperate.

Sigh.

Oh well, that's my life.  ¶ 11:22 PM 0 Comments

  To want to change is easy,

But to change is hard.

Sigh.

I need to change myself.  ¶ 11:17 PM 0 Comments

  "So what should I do, just to stay next to you as though I'm unaffected "

Hoho. In partially emo mood.

But I'm not going to unload my emoness here.

Just that I feel the hardest thing to do (as far as I've experienced) is to just be a friend to the person you have emotions for.

But that's as far as things can go, and it's best to just accept the truth and face the reality of it.

Life isn't always flowers and happy thoughts.  ¶ 9:54 PM 0 Comments

  I was just wondering that my blog is pretty gloomy and emo.

I think I wanna change my layout and my perception of life.

But then again, I don't know if it'll be as easy as I think it'll be. My life has been in constant emo.

I think I know why and I guess I lack a sense of security in my ownself.

Well, I'm planning to change that. So what if I get rejected? I should take it with a pinch of salt and brush it off after awhile. After all, it does happen to everyone.

So what if I miss a person? I will miss many people in my life although this one is special.

I think all I really need is a change in my thinking. To be renewed in my mind by Christ's teachings.

To be submitted to His will, to be obedient and to discover Him again.

What I once ignored, I need to pick up again. I need to find myself in Him.

I'm a sucker when it comes to girls and my emotions, but I've truly had enough.

I've realised how deeply shallow I am in Him, of how much I really hunger for His word, of how much I need Him to be my security and not people or material wealth.

All the sunday school and youth teachings just suddenly kick me back in the arse..HARD.

It's time to renew my mind. To look at things at a different perspective, in His perspective.

I want to be a better person. I believe everything has it's season as said in Ecclesiastes.

I just need to believe and have faith.:)  ¶ 12:12 AM 0 Comments