Journal of my life
Monday, January 28, 2008
Sometimes in life, I just have the urge to just go against everything I believe in.
Well I don't know if it's Christlike or not, but I guess it's just me. Sometimes there's so damn many expectations of us, that I feel like I just want to go against all of those expectations.
To just break every single one of them. Just to live my life the way I want it and not the way other people dictate it to be.
Interesting isn't it? We live most of our lives meeting expectations of people, be it our friends, parents, spouses, bosses whoever.
What happens if just in one single day, you just broke all of their expectations?
Would be interesting to try out.
That being said, my principles will still be my principles. It's just the thought that other people try and shove things down your throat and force you to swallow it...can I just puke it all out ar?
However, it could just be the rebellious side of me speaking.
I told myself I'd never want to be emo again, and all I got from that is a jaded perception of girls. OMG. I wish sometimes I could rewind to the time I was naive. But that will never happen.
I have this disability now to show my emotions, or so as tsuen says that I don't display them very obviously. Then I learn that I don't flirt, I guess I don't really. I don't know why.
Maybe it's cos I was raised up with 3 sisters that I learnt to treat every girl I meet with respect and as a sister. Dammit. Hahaha. Oh well, no complaining. Just gotta take it slow. I'm sure God has prepared someone for me..it's all just a matter of time and taking action.
This year is going to be my year of discovery. To discover myself, my weaknesses and my strengths. To repair what has been faulty for years though it's dam tough. I wish sometimes I was living on my own..it helps me to face my responsibilities even more. Also a year to get myself fit again.
:)
Being emo-less is quite fun, but I am still not facing my main issue which is how to conduct myself when I'm emo or when things go awkward. Sigh. Why is life so complicated?
Gonna head to bed or else I'd be sleeping at work tmr. Just some random ramblings... ¶ 12:11 AM 0 Comments
Well I don't know if it's Christlike or not, but I guess it's just me. Sometimes there's so damn many expectations of us, that I feel like I just want to go against all of those expectations.
To just break every single one of them. Just to live my life the way I want it and not the way other people dictate it to be.
Interesting isn't it? We live most of our lives meeting expectations of people, be it our friends, parents, spouses, bosses whoever.
What happens if just in one single day, you just broke all of their expectations?
Would be interesting to try out.
That being said, my principles will still be my principles. It's just the thought that other people try and shove things down your throat and force you to swallow it...can I just puke it all out ar?
However, it could just be the rebellious side of me speaking.
I told myself I'd never want to be emo again, and all I got from that is a jaded perception of girls. OMG. I wish sometimes I could rewind to the time I was naive. But that will never happen.
I have this disability now to show my emotions, or so as tsuen says that I don't display them very obviously. Then I learn that I don't flirt, I guess I don't really. I don't know why.
Maybe it's cos I was raised up with 3 sisters that I learnt to treat every girl I meet with respect and as a sister. Dammit. Hahaha. Oh well, no complaining. Just gotta take it slow. I'm sure God has prepared someone for me..it's all just a matter of time and taking action.
This year is going to be my year of discovery. To discover myself, my weaknesses and my strengths. To repair what has been faulty for years though it's dam tough. I wish sometimes I was living on my own..it helps me to face my responsibilities even more. Also a year to get myself fit again.
:)
Being emo-less is quite fun, but I am still not facing my main issue which is how to conduct myself when I'm emo or when things go awkward. Sigh. Why is life so complicated?
Gonna head to bed or else I'd be sleeping at work tmr. Just some random ramblings... ¶ 12:11 AM 0 Comments
Friday, January 11, 2008
So here I am.
Sitting down blogging when I've got nothing better to do.
The new year has been good so far. Started hitting the gym. Trying to cut down my food intake.
Gym is really good. I love it. The endorphin rush I get after all of the workout.
I think I'm running out of things to blog anymore. I feel like I'm changing somehow.
Work's been really busy and all, emotions are still in tact I'm glad.
Looking forward to a good year ahead and definitely memorable moments.:) ¶ 9:29 PM 0 Comments
Sitting down blogging when I've got nothing better to do.
The new year has been good so far. Started hitting the gym. Trying to cut down my food intake.
Gym is really good. I love it. The endorphin rush I get after all of the workout.
I think I'm running out of things to blog anymore. I feel like I'm changing somehow.
Work's been really busy and all, emotions are still in tact I'm glad.
Looking forward to a good year ahead and definitely memorable moments.:) ¶ 9:29 PM 0 Comments
