My Life, My Story, Myself

昨晚我病倒了，躺在床上挣扎，一闭上眼睛就想到你，这几天没听到你的声音，我不想烦你，但我真的好想你。有些东西我真的好想亲口和你说。

What hurts the most is seeing someone you love crying beside you but you can't do anything because you are the one who make her cry.

People says "You've never felt pain until you've felt love", how I wish this could be true because I really hate lying to myself that I do not love you anymore and hate being an idiot who always make you cry.

I cried because I let myself down, I afraid losing you.

Dear god....

The sad thing is, you haven even give a try driving my first lady and already plastic surgery....really SAD DIE ME!!

Like a red rose, you pierced me with thorn like words,

Like a tattoo, you carve in deeper the more I try to forget you

Day by day, it never stop bleeding,

It's a Red Christmas,

People says loving someone suppose to be a happy thing in life,

It's stupidity that killing me hardly,

My tears drops every night whenever I pray for you,

It's always a single word "love" that kills a man in battlefield,

What is the definition of "treating me good from today onwards",

I want to get away from hurting myself If it's only I can forget u,

Love existed once since 4 years ago,

Loving someone is no longer what I am good at in the past 4 years,

I'm fear inside me,

I'm even fear losing you,

It's not about the physical or mental,

It's about who you are,

It ain't easy to find another part of you in your life,

I believe I found mine,

I have my proposal for you,

I love you,

It's more than love, It's having a family with you,

It's the same wish again, But it's different this year,

What is Christmas if it's without you,

So, I told Santa to give away my wish to you,

Because my wish is to see you healthy and cheerful,

Merry Christmas to you.