My Life, My Story, Myself

已经是第五天了,不知不觉已经过了这么多天了,你说过你会今天回来,可是到现在还没收到你的来信.

过去的几天你过的还好吗?

今天看到你那天的照片,不知为什么就呆了几分钟望着你的照片.可能太想你了吧。。

这几天我都在担心一件事情，担心我会把你给忘了，每一晚都是在想你想到睡下去。haiz..老了。。

我打算写在这里是因为我要提醒我自己每一天都要想你，等你回来。

放心，伤心的日子我都惯了，思念你是正常的，说不定想着想着，会找到新的另一伴呢？=p

接下来的日子我都会好好得过下去，你在那边应该会很开心把，我也不想打扰你现在的生活。

你说过你是位很专一的女人，那你应该也不会阻止我对你专一吧。=p

未来的日子不知会怎样，但只要知道你健健康康的开心，我就安心了。

Printscreen from Penny's account....KLCI futures (FKLI) hit a high peak today morning...long hedge is the winner...seems some big fish just enter the market...please drop some advise here for reference if there is any pro analyst pass by..^^

2010年的冬天你选择了离开，你只留下一封信，一个礼物，和一个回忆给我。

看了那封信，我没伤心，没失望，反而看开，开心了很多。到了今天我很肯定的知道答案了。

你所留下的回忆都已经记在我心里了。我说过了，就算没有了爱情我的日子还是一样的过，我会好好的学习，创造为来的我。

有些事我虽然没跟你说，没有交代一声，是应为我不想给你麻烦，我只希望你能了解我做的一切是为你好。对不起如果伤害到你的感受。

说真的，我有好多话想对你说，好多地方想带你去，好多东西想和你去看，好多节日想和你度过，好多惊喜想给你，想和你分担困扰。不知还有没有这个机会。

我没找错人，你是我对的人。我很清楚你不是我的幻觉而是我的梦想。。。但如果要以强逼性来换取幸福的话，我会选择放弃。

我的承诺还是一样，过去，今天，或未来，我的门还是没锁。

这个圣诞节我选择了离开这里，我想静一静，

我把我们的所有回忆给写下来是我怕如果有一天我老了，等不到你了，失意了或忘了你，至少我们的故事还会永远的留在这里。

我尊重你的选择，我答应你我会开心的过日子，一有空一定会去找你。

在这里我想说声抱歉，我是一位空手企业的小伙子，好多东西无法给到你。我知道你会说什么，我没这个意识，我只是想说出我的心声，别误会。而且我也不知道我未来会不会成功但我一定不会放弃梦想。好了。。就这么多吧，觉得好囖说。。

谢谢你为我做的一切。

~我爱你~

Mahathir, Queen Elizabeth, and Vladimir Putin all die and go to hell.

While there, they spy a red phone and ask what the phone is for. The devil tells them it is for calling back to Earth.

Putin asks to call Russia and talks for 5 minutes. When he is finished the devil informs him that the cost is a million dollars, so Putin writes him a cheque.

Next Queen Elizabeth calls England and talks for 30 minutes. When she is finished the devil informs her that the cost is 6 million dollars, so she writes him a cheque.

Finally Mahathir gets his turn and talks for 4 hours. When he is finished the devil informs him that the cost is $5.00.

When Putin hears this he goes ballistic and asks the devil why Mahathir got to call Malaysia so cheaply.

The devil smiles and replies: "Since Najib took over, the country has gone to hell, so it's a local call."

今天的你特别美，虽然我口说不美但你知我想的是什么。我选择去是因为我怕再也见不到你了，可是见到你时又很想叫你别走。好矛盾。整晚我都静静地在偷看你，我心好寒，好寂寞，因为我知道我该放下了。我不能再好像之前约你了或找你了，或许你会说我很悲观，很想不开，可是我希望你知道我所做的一切都是为你好。你应该知道为什么这几天我都不找你，可是一旦我接到你的来电，我真的很兴奋。当时好想抱着你说我爱你。 *发梦吧我*

我从来不过问您的过去，也不想知道，因为我希望看见的是我们的未来而不是过去，或许我知道的事实不多，但也不代表我的爱不真。就算我是个白痴，我还是会选择你，等待你，就算等不到我还是我自己，还是那个爱着你的那个，因为我知道爱一个人不需要介意任何的代价或回报。祝福和快乐是最好的爱。听起来有点假，信不信就由你来看了。

我走前交代你好友给了你三个心，其实没什么意思的，当中有两个是你好友折的，三个心代表三个字，你自己想吧！
收着它们，虽然不多但是一个心意吧。这个圣诞节无法送你礼物了，不知该以什么身份来祝你，送你礼物，所以我决定今年一个人度过或回乡下散散心。先说明我不是emo,而是看开。爱上了你是无法改变的，但如何去爱你是还可以改变的。

從妳的眼角 慢慢地明瞭
我能做的很少
原來妳藏著傷 但不想和我聊

妳選的電影 像某種預告
不坦白的主角
最後流著眼淚 堅持獨自走掉

散場的擁抱 我還在燃燒
但妳心裡的浪潮 拒絕讓我看到
妳煎熬 不肯定什麼是最想要
愛才又像樂園又像監牢

散場的擁抱 混亂的心跳
多寧願只是爭吵 還能道歉和好
我知道 妳留著和他所有合照
明明面前是答案 卻撕掉 不要

呵護地祈禱 溫柔地討好
愛能讓人渺小
苦笑冒充微笑 浪漫得不肯逃

10months ago I met her for the first time,

9months ago I start searching for her,

8months ago I start giving up for searching,

7months ago I had my last final paper in University life,

6months ago I started my first job and during my birthday I found her back,

5months ago we went out for the first time,

4months ago I had the first movie and also the last movie with her, (*If not mistaken)

3months ago I know she is leaving,

2months ago celebrated her birthday,

1month ago I still hold tight myself,

Today,

All the memories and left me this silence that made me hurt and choke.

If this is a dream, hurry wake me up, tell me everything were a lie,

Sorry..I'm so greedy, when i'm thinking of you, my day and night changed,

If i force myself to fall in love with someone else, will I live again? will you still stay in my life?

Thank you..Thank you for all the memories......

Whatever you say to me, You can go now but I'll still wait for you..

Guess nothing will happen in this coming Christmas again, another year of watching others welcoming Christmas...I'll back to hometown this time probably.....

Just found back this song...after years, still *thumbs up*

I have no idea since when I started to love typing mandarin instead of English, Maybe because my English sux, that's why lack of confidence, anyhow who cares...

The day before yesterday was my last day, the day after yesterday is my first day.

The old Andy is no more, Today is the brand new me back to work, a better and improved me is back. I given a chance to prove myself better, I will appreciate it, I rejected all the offers out there and focus on my current career. I do not care how others look at me, how they think of me. People just like to talk but my life not belongs to them.

Bad thing happen, I fall sick today, heavy sinus and light fever and cough on my first day as FTH. Took my new tag, new title but sickness spoiled the happiness....I HATE SICK!!! However I want to take this opportunity to thanks those who helped me during my difficult time, who guide me to a better life. Got conned RM20 by a pharmacist in Watson who said the medicine will works in 1 hour before my meeting start. Thank you Watson.

I wish to share this out to her, but my health do not allow me to do so. I'm sorry....Took 2 panadols before I go find Mr. 周公...Hopefully I will get better tomorrow...

IBM Annual Dinner




Photo shooting of BP Disbursement team (i like this photo because everyone is smiling naturally)

Everyone who talk to me lately, work with me should be able to know what happen to me.

I would say It's my critical time.

I know many cares of me, many try to help me, tell me to be more confidence,

I tried smile, tried to be happy, but I know I'm worry, I'm sad inside me.

Anyhow, just face it naturally. I believe I can accept any result at the end of the day.

God bless...

Christmas decoration is everywhere, Christmas song is everywhere,

Yet, lonely another year again....I HATE CHRISTMAS!!

It's my off day today...Why am I awake at 8am still? just couldn't turn on, mind keep thinking, worrying so many things..ARGH!! guess gonna burn all my time off and remaining leave after today.

*I hate this feeling, it's one I know all to well, it's a thing called heartbreak and it hurts like hell*

*Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do*

*Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met*

Day 1 (Wednesday)

Thank You IBM......
*sorry sis for leaving half way, wasted your effort organizing the event.


Day 2 (Thursday)

Decided to clear my Annual leave by taking 2 days leave today and tomorrow...in the meantime, feel so lifeless waste my leave without gaining anything..should have back to work!!

Seriously have to force myself to go check out about SME's tomorrow!! lazy me!

went for lunch with wh, siang, sj, sy, and ivy....first time sit in new volkswagen polo...feel so cool but seriously I'll go for a bigger car by paying the same price.



Watch "Hachiko" today at home, never know the movie is so touching after I watch it myself & Hachi is really cute and faithful dog...my Cooper wait for me come back every night too...Love him more than others although sometime he really do piss me off...^^

1.) N.Korea fires onto S.Korean island

SEOUL, South Korea (AP) - North Korea bombarded a South Korean island near their disputed western border with artillery Tuesday, setting buildings ablaze and killing at least one marine after warning the South to halt military drills in the area, South Korean officials said.

South Korea said it returned fire and scrambled fighter jets in response, and said the "inhumane" attack on civilian areas violated the 1953 armistice halting the Korean War. The two sides technically remain at war because a peace treaty was never negotiated.

The skirmish came amid high tension over North Korea's claim that it has a new uranium enrichment facility and just six weeks after North Korean leader Kim Jong Il unveiled his youngest son Kim Jong Un as his heir apparent.

The North's artillery struck the small South Korean-held island of Yeonpyeong, which houses military installations and a small civilian population and which has been the focus of two previous deadly battles between the Koreas.

One South Korean marine was killed, three were seriously wounded and 10 slightly wounded, a Joint Chiefs of Staff official said. Island residents were escaping to about 20 shelters in the island while sporadic shelling continued, the military official said.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2010/11/23/apworld/20101123184848&sec=apworld

CNN,

Seoul, South Korea (CNN) -- South Korea's president called on his military forces to use "action" and not talk to punish North Korea for deadly artillery attacks on Tuesday, but international diplomats appealed for restraint.

"The provocation this time can be regarded as an invasion of South Korean territory. In particular, indiscriminate attacks on civilians are a grave matter," President Lee Myung-bak said at the headquarters of the Joint Chiefs of Staff here, according to South Korea's Yonhap news agency.

"Enormous retaliation is going to be necessary to make North Korea incapable of provoking us again," Lee said.

"Given that North Korea maintains an offensive posture, I think the army, the navy and the air force should unite and retaliate against (the North's) provocation with multiple-fold firepower," he said.

Two South Korean marines were killed and 15 South Korean soldiers and civilians were wounded when the North fired about 100 rounds of artillery at Yeonpyeong Island in the Yellow Sea, South Korea authorities said, according to the South Korean Yonhap news agency. The attack also set houses and forests on fire on the island.

http://edition.cnn.com/2010/WORLD/asiapcf/11/23/nkorea.skorea.military.fire/index.html?hpt=T1

2.) At least 378 die in stampede at Cambodian festival

PHNOM PENH, Cambodia (AP) - Rescuers on Tuesday trawled a muddy river for more bodies and Cambodia prepared for a day of mourning in wake of a stampede by thousands of festival goers which left at least 378 dead and hundreds of injured.

The prime minister called it the country's biggest tragedy since the murderous 1970s reign of the Khmer Rouge.

A panic-stricken crowd - celebrating the end of the rainy season on an island in a river - tried to flee over a narrow bridge in the capital Phnom Penh late Monday and many people were crushed underfoot or fell over its sides into the water. Disoriented victims struggled to find an escape hatch through the human mass, pushing their way in every direction. After the stampede, bodies were stacked upon bodies on the bridge as rescuers swarmed the area.

The search for bodies in and along the Bassac River continued Tuesday as state television showed horrific footage of twisted and writhing bodies -- both alive and dead -- piled on each other. Some desperately reached out with their hands, screaming for help and grasping for hands of rescuers who struggled to pull limp bodies from the pile as if they were trapped in sand or snow.

It remained unclear what sparked the stampede. Police and witnesses pointed to the narrow bridge as providing inadequate access to and from the island. Two Singaporean businessmen who organized a sound-and-light show for the festival, said authorities had closed another bridge earlier in the day, forcing tens of thousands of people to use a single span.

One witness said the trouble started when several people fell unconscious in the press of the crowd. Another survivor said he heard a police siren just before the panic erupted. Ambulances raced back and forth between the river and the hospitals for several hours after the stampede. Calmette Hospital, the capital's main medical facility, was filled to capacity with bodies as well as patients, some of whom had to be treated in hallways. Relatives, some crying, searched for the missing Tuesday morning.

1
University of Malaya(UM)
Kuala Lumpur

2
Science University of Malaysia(USM)
Penang

3=
Northern University of Malaysia(UUM)
Kedah

3=
University of Tunku Abdul Rahman(UTAR)
Perak & Kuala Lumpur

4
International Medical University(IMU)
Kuala Lumpur


*Taylor's, Inti's, Monash and etc students, please check from below link regarding your college ranking. ^^

*Anyhow, don't think this is accurate, just wait for the announcement from government. Many sure say "lousy government sure help themselves","some may say Malaysia government no quality, people international college can lose to local college?"

http://malaysiauniversityranking.blogspot.com/

Saturday


First, It was a random plan where many of us got conned by the organizer to eat lunch in PULAU KETAM today. It was a crazy day but really do enjoy the day with X-dest guys. ^^




Just for your knowledge, the boat fee is RM7 per way, per person. It is highly recommended to take another speed boat which only cost RM10/way instead of this "turtle" boat.

After 1 hour plus of journey on water, finally we reach Pulau Ketam.




Besides seafood is a must to have there, Fried Ice Cream (Yam) is also a must to give a try!

Before the day end, Happy Birthday to you Gwynne again, May you have a blessed 22nd birthday..^^




Sunday


Been planning to go SkyTrex long time ago, due to many circumstances which caused the plan fail many times, this time me, wh, and ylo decided not to wait for the others as we know it definitely won't work if continue wait for everyone to be free and have money so we decided to join Monash public speaking group to challenge Skytrex Extreme Challenge.

Best cookies in town!!



Biscuits from Ipoh



xoxo....^^

You helped me unfurled my wings,
You made me take that initial flight.
You made me see what was beyond what we have,
You made me realize how it was to taste freedom.
Yet, how come you don't to be beside me?
How come you just left and went on your way?
Leaving me to go on alone,
Leaving me with ever more question within me.
I loved you like no other,
Did you ever know that?
When you were down,
My heart broke.
When you were happy,
I was ecstatic.
I feel so far away from you,
I tried to reach out,
You never put your hand out,
I'm just left longing.
Weren't we suppose to finish this race together?
Weren't we suppose to be the ones celebrating in victory?
Then why do I feel like I reached the end,
And you never made it?

每一晚的現在，我都會回想今天所發生的每一件事情，

或許就是這樣讓我在短短的日子裏看開了更多事情，

每一晚，我都在想這是我的生活嗎？我爲什麽要掉眼淚呢？

我知道我很辛苦，很难受，但我一定要坚强的埃过去，不再诉苦了，何必呢。

就算未来的日子有多难过，我一定要埃过去。

感情方面，我不想了。。甜，酸，苦，辣， 我都尝试到了。

想要爱一个人就要懂得去尊重对方。无论对方的决定是什么，另外一方一定要接受和珍惜她。

我的爱情故事虽然不是每次都是完美的结局，但我真的很感谢和珍惜每一次的故事，过去。

就是它们陪伴我成长，然我学得更好。

可是现在我累了，我想拿长假，专心我的事业。没事业如何给到对方幸福呢？

我不想我老婆和我一起埃苦。我要把最好的都给她因为我爱未来的那个“她“。

如果有人在问关于我爱情方面，我的答案还是一样，

“我还是单身，但我心里有了“她“。

今天和一位好朋友聊了个晚上，人开心了很多。谢谢你哦。

我会做好功课才出来闯事业的。不了解我的人以为我是个狠，毒，利用，撒手段来达到目的。

看不起我的人只会说我吹牛，或发梦。

了解我的人知道我是个怎样的人，不会问多。

你不了解我，我也懒得解释。

有道理我就听，没道理我也听，这么大了，还不会分辨对错就残了。

这就是我！Stubborn 的我

Music is my life~

A 22-year-old undergraduate owns more than S$5mil (RM11.5mil) worth of property and luxury cars in Singapore, reported Sin Chew Daily.

The undergraduate known as Ah Long said his parents bought him two condominiums worth S$2.2mil (RM5mil).

He had earlier owned a three-storey landed property worth S$2.2mil (RM5mil). The fully furnished property was bought about three years ago.

Ah Long said his parents bought him a S$320,000 (RM736,000) Mercedes Benz when he obtained his driving license.

“They later bought me another Mercedes Benz worth S$400,000 (RM920,000).

“I also have another car, a Honda, which I use to bring my dog for its grooming sessions,” he said.

The daily reported that the youth’s father owned a legal firm and had many investments in the island republic and China. His mother, a Chinese national, still worked as a senior engineer.

Ah Long said that he liked handphones and pens, adding that he had bought at least eight handphones over the past three years.

The most expensive handphone he had ever owned was a S$12,000 (RM27,600) Nokia Vertu.

He said that he also had six Montblanc pens priced between S$600 (RM1,380) and S$2,000 (RM4,600).

When asked what he wanted to do most, Ah Long said he would love to work as a “frontliner” in a hotel.

Here's some random pictures of the day.

Someone told me today,

"Andy~you are getting older, your white hair getting more day by day, your entire hair look grey now, no longer black like last time, What happen? don't think too much.."

Question

"How come I do not know I myself having stress while others can see?"

"If yes, what is the stress I am suffering??

"What kind of sign is this?"

"Something wrong to my health?"

The truth is,

I know what is happening, everything will end soon....

The clock is ticking, I have not enough time, 18 days left, I doubt I can finish it!!!
I'm getting better, more positive,

1 thing I really learn t,

Since i can't get inside you, I choose to stay outside there, your heart, be your guardian.

6months, 1 year, 10 years? I'll still there...

Forever be the friend that love you always..

Guess you will never know, Coz I will never show,

"我不在乎你下次回來待多久
我只在乎這心動前所未有
我不會走 Coz I Love You So
想給你 最好的我 就算只是朋友"

"The reason why 我決定離開
There is Only One Reason
Why Coz I know you deserve better and more
你一定要好好生活 別想太多
為什麼我寫了這首歌 只想用心對你說
I love you and I still do I love you now
But It is just in a different way if I may
But now as a friend
我知道當我離開世界的那一天
你一定會流淚 在我的照片 前面
以後如果在街上碰到你和你心愛的那個誰
唔好避 我會微笑 帶禮貌 的心來面對"

i wish your luck, wish you health, wish you love, with a smile and a hug. You are always a family to me.

DAM!! this song always make me emo!!!@#!@#$

Don't let someone become a priority in our life when we are just an option in their life,

Never explain yourself to anyone, because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislike you won't believe it.

When you keep saying you are busy, then you will never be free; When you keep saying you will do it on tomorrow, then your tomorrow will never come.

When we wake up in the morning, we have two simple choices, Go back to sleep and dream or wake up and chase those dreams.

Don't make promise when you are in joy, Don't reply when you are sad, Don't take decision when you are angry. Think twice, act wise.

We make them cry who care of us, We cry for those who never care of us, And we care for those who will never care of us.

If you fill your heart with gratitude each day, you will attract more love, peace, joy and abundance

Life is always about searching, we keep searching all the time for friends, love, peace, success, and for so much more....but at times do wait for awhile and search for your soul, It won't take you anywhere but will help to reach yourself.

This is the truth of life, It's strange but true. However it's never too late to change.

My thinking changed sudden

Whatever in my mind is gone,

Politics, Finance, Marketing, Management used to be my interest, my daily topic,

But it's gone, Everything just gone like that. I cannot recall everything!!

Some sort of lost memory.

I am avoiding something but What is the thing I avoiding?

I want to hang myself I want to know how does it feel.

People say I'm getting crazy, some even stunned with my recent behavior.

I'm not emotional, I'm not depressed,

It happen too sudden till I couldn't accept Myself, My life now!

This is not the life I wanted, I hate it!

Give me time, I will come back with a better me.

Nuclear attack? look fake?

It's real and it was taken at Indonesia's deadly Mount Merapi when it erupted. amazing right? End of the world lo~

Day after Halloween,

Receive a big surprise/shock on the 1st Nov at 1am from someone,

Bet you have enough of nagging from everyone,

Please be extra careful next time k?

Today is the day where decision is made about my future,

My lovely "sister" hyunah-shin back to Malaysia from business trip,

My so called right ear "eva" back to Malaysia from China too,

1 more month before she fly,

Entire country Tyre price increase..

&

Happy Birthday Mom~

~Lame~

我不在乎什麼天長地久
我只在乎你想不想要擁有
一顆真心和溫暖的手
在身後 陪你微笑 或淚流

我不在乎你下次回來待多久
我只在乎這心動前所未有
我不會走 Coz I Love You So
想給你最好的我 就算只是朋友

還想和你做朋友
想念 your big brown eyes
可愛的 lips I wanna kiss
I miss 想一直牽著你的手
但我還年輕 心不定 又能 怎麼辦

Boy 有什麼話開不了口
No worries 我只是用腦想過頭
擁有了又想自由 自由後又想擁有
等待著 空逛著 有話別保留

他們說颳風的時候
你總選擇要一個人顫抖
Guess You'll Never Know
Coz I'll Never Show
為了誰你不自由

我不在乎什麼天長地久
我只在乎你想不想要擁有
一顆真心和溫暖的手
在身後 陪你微笑 或淚流

我不在乎你下次回來待多久
我只在乎這心動前所未有
我不會走 Coz I Love You So
想給你 最好的我 就算只是朋友

信不過別人把你追走
也信不過自己暫時把你擁有
你低頭喝著酒 別只顧喝著酒
做朋友 是保護你 最壞也是最好的藉口

我明白要你愛是荒謬的要求
我明白有些默契我必須要遵守
只是你眼眸 走漏了一種
BABY BABY 想愛不能愛的哀愁

Hey 好久不見 仲記得你鍾意聽
不如不見 記得以前和你分享我的擔心
煩惱還有我的驕傲
但現在我們之間卻變得越來越有禮貌

When we broke up
你的朋友一定拍手說好
現在你身邊的他們大概都不喜歡我
但是我還是我 我還一樣能活
The reason why 我決定離開
There is Only One Reason
Why Coz I know you deserve better and more
沒了我 大家信不過的那個星座
你一定要好好生活 別想太多
為什麼我寫了這首歌 只想用心對你說
I love you and I still do I love you now
But It is just in a different way if I may
Hey for sure I know you used to love me more (appreciated)
But now as a friend
我知道當我離開世界的那一天
你一定會 流淚 在我的照片 前面
and I'll do the same
not coz I was your man
coz you have always been like my family to me
這不是秘密
但係你身邊又會有幾多人知
流過的淚 說過的話 仍在我心中
雖然已經失去你
以後如果在街上碰到你和你心愛的那個誰
唔好避 我會微笑 帶禮貌 的心來面對
i wish your luck, wish you health, wish you love
with a smile and a hug
i wish your luck, wish you health, wish you love
with a smile and his hug

我不在乎你下次回來待多久
我只在乎這心動前所未有
but i have to go Coz I Love You So (I love you so)
想給你 最好的我 就算只是朋友

我不在乎什麼天長地久
我只在乎你想不想要擁有
一顆真心和溫暖的手
在身後 陪你微笑 或淚流

我不在乎你下次回來待多久
我只在乎這心動前所未有
我不會走 Coz I Love You So
想給你 最好的我 就算只是朋友

nice to meet you, I'm very happy that I've met you in my life
謝謝你
in here, i wish you luck and health
hope to see u again
good bye

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been
Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand all that your love can bring

Oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
Oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else
Made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
Lonely was the song I sang, until the day you came
Showing me another way and all that my love can bring

Oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That I can't keep loving you (can't keep loving you)
Oh, with half of my heart
With half of my heart

Your faith is strong
But I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you
Than half of my heart
But I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
I can't stop loving you
With half of my . . .

Half of my heart
Oh, half of my heart

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do

Half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man who's never truly loved anything

29.10.2010

It was a random night where 7 of us last minute decided to give a visit to uncle lim at night.

It was raining when on the way there but rain never stop us from going up there.

We were surprise how come the first entrance is blocked when we are turning up

This is what happen actually,



Seven killed in bus crash


Such a bad sign.

We reach up hill at about 11.15pm.

It was a fun night however it turns ugly again after D receive a call from C where C get involve in an accident when going down hill.

We rush down and see what happen actually.

They hit the divider & the car unable to move

We have to call tow car and it cost RM450 to tow from Genting to USJ. WTH~

Thank god everyone is safe.

Reach home around 3.15am.

Was hesitating should i call her but end up i just drop a message and wish her good night.

What a day~

What a coincidence again~

Morning before I get down from car head to office, The song play on air again.

Noon, The song play again on air right after I start my engine heading to sports after work.

"你不知道的事"

真的很多我意想不到的事吧。


Anyhow, just a simple post to to mourn for those who sacrificed in Tsunami attacked at Sumatera, Volcano erupts, and never forget "Paul" aka the sotong man or world cup sotong.


R.I.P Paul....

不知为什么最近每当再次想念你时，那首“你不知道的事”很自然得就播了出来，是天意呢还是巧合？还是我真的想太多了？

以前的我从来不介意，也不想理外人怎样看待我或说我， 但既从认识你之后，我开始变了，我不想再过着过去没意义的生活，我不想被你误会我的过去，我真的很在意我在你心目中的那个我。我不想解释也不想提起过去。我只想努力的去改变未来的自己。我不想永远活在自己的世界里，是你然我更加奋斗，是你然我更加的努力创造未来，是你然我下定决心一辈子只爱你一位。

能见到你的日子也不多了，我只想在剩下能见到你的日子开开心心的渡过，然剩下的日子都是美好的纪念。

我难过是因为我知道你难过，我生气是应为我没本事给你最好的，我失落是因为看到你失落， 我伤心是应为我不能体谅你的用心/苦心。

我对你的期待是没人能体谅得到的，我对你的爱是永远不变，不管你在任何天涯海角，不管你过去，现在 或 未来发生什么事，我都会永远在原地默默地等待，听你，爱你，关心你。

亲爱的，你听到了吗？

FBM KLCI was up 0.06%, Japan's Nikkei 225 added 0.51% while Hong Kong's Hang Seng rose 0.26%.

Crude palm oil 3-month futures were up RM11 to RM3,001 per tonne.

Nymex crude oil added 44 cents to US$81.01 per barrel.

The ringgit was quoted at 3.113 to the US dollar.

SINGAPORE (AP) — Oil prices rose to near $81 a barrel Friday in Asia, rebounding slightly from the previous session's steep drop, as traders mull the possible effects of anticipated moves by the U.S. Federal Reserve to spur economic growth.

Benchmark oil for December delivery was up 40 cents to $80.96 a barrel at midday Singapore time in electronic trading on the New York Mercantile Exchange. The contract lost $1.98 to settle at $80.56 on Thursday.

Oil has seesawed above $80 this week as investors speculate on possible Fed measures known as quantitative easing, such as buying Treasury bonds to help boost money in circulation and bank lending. The Fed next meets on Nov. 2 and 3.

"This week's price volatility is likely to continue for another week and a half until the Fed meeting provides some clarity regarding the extent of widely expected quantitative easing," Ritterbusch and Associates said.

"We look for a sizable easing effort to likely weaken the dollar and bolster equities and enhance oil's appeal as an inflation hedge or valued asset."

Crude has been boosted this year by strong demand from emerging economies such as China which has offset sluggish consumption in developed countries. Some analysts expect Chinese demand to continue to grow, despite a surprise interest rate hike earlier this week.

"Contrary to market fears, the health of Chinese oil demand remains extremely robust," Barclays Capital said. "Actual data has embodied some serious upside surprises, in line with the economic growth in the country."

In other Nymex trading in November contracts, heating oil rose 1.55 cents to $2.23 a gallon and gasoline gained 1.67 cents to $2.058 a gallon. Natural gas jumped 1.4 cents to $3.382 per 1,000 cubic feet.

In London, Brent crude rose 68 cents to $82.51 a barrel on the ICE Futures exchange. - AP

Standing at the junction thinking where should I head to,

It's the time again to think about my future,

The fire is burning in my soul, I have a greater target to achieve,

Any wrong decision could cause me no turning back,

I don't decide just because of money, I decide as long I see future.

I know what I want, I planned my life but I overlook the risk I'm taking.

I want to learn, I do not mind to fall, as long I have the chance to learn,

I'm not those "Pisang lupakan kulit",

But the offer was so attractive where I really see what I want.

Question now is,

What I want, What I see is really What will happen?

should I build a stronger foundation first or straight hit to the top?

What right do I have to choose If I'm not the best yet?

Business Consultant is my career to achieve where people always say why my brain full of ideas but I never open one for myself.

Politician is my dream where I love politics and intended to change country policy and government since I was young due to corruption country I lived in. I love corruption~^^

Yet still standing at the junction waiting for direction.

直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个每好风景
只是他早已离去
直到你相逢
他早已经不在对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔
直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个每好风景
只是他早已离去
直到你相逢
他早已经不在对你留恋
最后的你
开始了一段挣扎
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔

Happy Birthday to you~ This song specialty dedicated to you~

~It's your day~

~Hope you like it~

After 5 months of waiting, finally CSI, CSI NY & my most favorite CSI MIAMI is back!!



Sad thing about CSI Miami season 9, Jesse Cordoza is dead. =(

Toll highways and PPP projects

> The government plans to build six highways (No wonder you dare to say no loss will suffer by government after stop increasing PLUS highway fee for 5 years)

> Toll rates on four highways owned by PLUS Expressway Berhad will not be increased for the next five years.

> Greater KL MRT to be implemented from 2011. (come on, build your LRT to putra height as planned first)

> A new 100-storey landmark, Warisan Merdeka, to be completed in 2020. (yet still lose to Taipei 101. Dumb ass investment)

Tax incentives/hike

> Import duties for around 300 preferred consumer items to be abolished. (cigarette? yea, 75% bumiputera are heavy smoker)

> Service tax to be imposed on paid television broadcasting services. (Astro bill more expensive?)

> Service tax for restaurants, hospitals and car rentals to be increased from 5% to 6% (salary gone another 1%)

> Sales tax will be exempted on all types of mobile phones.

Housing and Community

> Stamp duty exemption of 50% for first time house buyers on a house priced less than RM350,000 (T&C: How many % for Bumiputera & non-bumi? please find for me any 350k house in klang valley)

> RM350mil to implement various programmes to combat crime(WTH is this? to combat crime = throw 350m to police?OMG!)

Family and women

> RM70mil for programmes with selected NGOs to strengthen the family institution and address social ills.

> 40 1Malaysia TASKA to assist women to obtain quality childcare and early education for their children. (Agree..Malay-sian need assistant for their child or not there will be many "baby mat rempit" on the road in 5 years time)

Civil service

> Maternity leave increased from 60 days, not to exceed 90 days for civil servants.

> Housing loan for civil servants increased to a maximum of RM450,000 from RM360,000 currently. (wow...great idea..who will pay if they default? T&C again~)

Education

> RM576mil allocated for scholarships for those wishing to further their studies. (Great! our ministers can spend more on their child college fee)

> RM213mil allocated to enhance proficiency in Bahasa Malaysia and the English Language.(COST RM213m just to expert in BM and English?? I rather throw you to UK for free and you learn faster)

Health

> RM15.2bil to build new hospitals and increase the number of doctors, nurses and supplies of medicines and equipment. (solve your unemployment rate first before you talk)

> Another 25 1Malaysia Clinics will be established, bringing the total to 76. (How many of you will really visit this clinic when you are sick?)

Environment and green tech

> RM1.9bil to finance environmental preservation projects. (RM1.9 bil??preserve more bodies or McD patties or KFC??) I rather you take 1.9bil invest and pump up Bio-tech industry.

> To further encourage ownership of hybrid cars, import duty and excise duty exemption will be extended until Dec 31, 2011

Welfare

> RM100mil allocated to implement various orang asli programmes. (wow..charity?foc or buy vote?)

> RM218mil to benefit 80,000 disabled individuals through various programmes. (each person can get RM2725 = enough to buy coffin for them)

Well done government, You still as stupid as last time. still live in your corruption dream, building a bridge cost millions? building a 100 storeys Building cost 50billion+? I can build another city on top of Mid Valley with that amount of money.

PLUS highway will not increase in 5 years time but you build another 6 highways? No wonder you say won't suffer loss. I prefer you to say won't increase petrol for the next 5 years time and abolish KESAS and LDP toll.

Is this the way to put Opposition in trouble if you lose the next election?? Please do it, I believe we can solve all these issues.

(She just look like the you last time)

I found the way to let you leave
I never really had it coming I never really had it coming
I can't believe the sigh of you I can't believe the sigh of you
I want you to stay away from my heart I want you to stay away from my heart

( 너희 집 앞으로 가고 있어 빨리 전화 받어 ) (We're coming home as soon as you pick up the phone)
(neohui jip apeuro gago isseo ppalli jeonhwa badeo) (Neohui jip apeuro gago isseo ppalli jeonhwa badeo)
( 내가 , 아파서 죽을 것 같거든 ) (I, i think ill die)
(naega, apaseo jugeul geot gatgeodeun) (Naega, apaseo jugeul geot gatgeodeun)
( 너 못보면 , 내가 진짜 죽을 것 같애 ) (Motbomyeon you, I really feel like dying)
(neo motbomyeon, naega jinjja jugeul geot gatae) (Neo motbomyeon, naega jinjja jugeul geot gatae)

전화 좀 받아줘 , 1 분만 Just pick up the phone, a delivery
jeonhwa jom badajwo, 1bunman jeonhwa jom badajwo, 1bunman
내 말좀 들어줘봐 , 잠깐만 Give me a favor, hold on
nae maljom deureojwobwa, jamkkanman nae maljom deureojwobwa, jamkkanman
죽을 것 같애서 난 숨도 못쉬어 I'm going to die gataeseo breath motswieo
jugeul geot gataeseo nan sumdo mosswieo jugeul geot gataeseo nan sumdo mosswieo
나좀 살자 , 제발 한번만 Give me a live, Just once
najom salja, jebal hanbeonman najom salja, jebal hanbeonman
너의 집 앞에서 네시간째 Nesiganjjae front of your house
neoui jip apeseo nesiganjjae neoui jip apeseo nesiganjjae
찢어지는 내 맘 넌 모른채 You're breaking my heart just fell,
jjijeojineun nae mam neon moreunchae jjijeojineun nae mam neon moreunchae
웃고있니 , 행복하니 Are laughing, so happy
utgoinni, haengbokhani utgoinni, haengbokhani
모든 추억과 날 버린채 Gave up all the memories and me
modeun chueokgwa nal beorinchae modeun chueokgwa nal beorinchae
아프고 숨이 막히는 침묵 Painful silence breath
apeugo sumi makhineun chimmuk apeugo sumi makhineun chimmuk
어느 새 내 눈물을 가려버린 빗물 My tears go away any new rainwater
eoneu sae nae nunmureul garyeobeorin bitmul eoneu sae nae nunmureul garyeobeorin bitmul
머리에서 발끝까지 소름이 끼칠 듯 Seemed to cause goose bumps from head to toe
meorieseo balkkeutkkaji soreumi kkichil deut meorieseo balkkeutkkaji soreumi kkichil deut
내 피가 솟구치는 기분 중독된것처럼 I feel my blood pumping like a poison
nae piga sotguchineun gibun jungdokdoengeotcheoreom nae piga sotguchineun gibun jungdokdoengeotcheoreom
하루종일 온통 고통스런 But she's gone But she's gone all day, all over the painful
harujongil ontong gotongseureon But she ' s gone harujongil ontong gotongseureon But she 's gone
바라보는 너의 시선 그리워 I miss watching your eyes
baraboneun neoui siseon geuriwo baraboneun neoui siseon geuriwo
That ' s why sing this song That 's why sing this song

제발 지옥같은 여기서 날 꺼내줘 Please Help me out here like hell
jebal jiokgateun yeogiseo nal kkeonaejwo jebal jiokgateun yeogiseo nal kkeonaejwo
이게 꿈이라면 어서 날 깨워줘 If this is a dream come Wake me up
ige kkumiramyeon eoseo nal kkaewojwo ige kkumiramyeon eoseo nal kkaewojwo
모든것이 다 거짓말이라고 해줘 Everything I need is a lie
modeungeosi da geojitmarirago haejwo modeungeosi da geojitmarirago haejwo
내게 말해줘 말해줘 나 살 수 있게 Tell me, tell me I can live
naege malhaejwo malhaejwo na sal su itge naege malhaejwo malhaejwo na sal su itge

I found the way to let you leave
I never really had it coming
I can't believe the sigh of you
I want you to stay away from my heart

Every day and night 난 술에 만취 Every day and night I'm drunk
Every day and night nan sure manchwi Every day and night nan sure manchwi
마음이 안심하는 것도 잠시 Mind at ease while also
maeumi ansimhaneun geotdo jamsi maeumi ansimhaneun geotdo jamsi
시간이 약이면 왜 낫질 않지 Time to go away, why do not drugs
sigani yagimyeon wae natjil anchi sigani yagimyeon wae natjil anchi
이럴 순 없어 , 이건 사랑의 반칙 I can not do, it's love cheat
ireol sun eobseo, igeon sarangui banchik ireol sun eobseo, igeon sarangui banchik
미안해 , 난 참 욕심이 않아 I'm sorry, I'm very greedy
mianhae, nan cham yoksimi anha mianhae, nan cham yoksimi anha
수면제도 나를 돕지를 않아 The system does not help me sleep
sumyeonjedo nareul dopjireul anha sumyeonjedo nareul dopjireul anha
밤낮이 바껴 니 생각마다 Thinking of you every night and day pass by
bamnaji bakkyeo ni saenggangmada bamnaji bakkyeo ni saenggangmada
이리저리 돌아다녀 몸부림 치나봐 We've been wondering around in agony chinabwa
irijeori doradanyeo momburim chinabwa irijeori doradanyeo momburim chinabwa

하늘이 내게 내린 벌인가 I have fought the sky fell
haneuri naege naerin beoringa haneuri naege naerin beoringa
아님 그리 쉽게 나를 버릴까 Should I not so easily
anim geuri swipge nareul beorilkka anim geuri swipge nareul beorilkka
억지로 누군가를 사랑하면 또 살아갈까 When you love someone, and the general prosperity of force
eokjiro nugungareul saranghamyeon tto saragalkka eokjiro nugungareul saranghamyeon tto saragalkka
별들 사이를 누비고 내 맘을 노래로 채우고 Our way among the stars fill my heart with song
byeoldeul saireul nubigo nae mameul noraero chaeugo byeoldeul saireul nubigo nae mameul noraero chaeugo
Don ' t leave , let me freez Don 't leave, let me freez
날 좀 도와줘 , Help me please Help me, Help me please
nal jom dowajwo, Help me please nal jom dowajwo, Help me please

제발 지옥같은 여기서 날 꺼내줘 Please Help me out here like hell
jebal jiokgateun yeogiseo nal kkeonaejwo jebal jiokgateun yeogiseo nal kkeonaejwo
이게 꿈이라면 어서 날 깨워줘 If this is a dream come Wake me up
ige kkumiramyeon eoseo nal kkaewojwo ige kkumiramyeon eoseo nal kkaewojwo
모든것이 다 거짓말이라고 해줘 Everything I need is a lie
modeungeosi da geojitmarirago haejwo modeungeosi da geojitmarirago haejwo
내게 말해줘 말해줘 나 살 수 있게 Tell me, tell me I can live
naege malhaejwo malhaejwo na sal su itge naege malhaejwo malhaejwo na sal su itge

I found the way to let you leave
I never really had it coming
I can ' t believe the sigh of you
I want you to stay away from my heart
I don ' t want you to leave

나를 두고 가지 마 Do not leave me
nareul dugo gaji ma nareul dugo gaji ma
정말 끝이라고 내게 말하지 마 Do not tell me it is the end
jeongmal kkeuchirago naege malhaji ma jeongmal kkeuchirago naege malhaji ma
단 하루조차도 너 없인 살 수 없어 Even one day can not live without you
dan harujochado neo eobsin sal su eobseo dan harujochado neo eobsin sal su eobseo
I want you back , want you back in to my life I want you back, want you back in to my life

I found the way to let you leave
I never really had it coming
I can ' t believe the sigh of you
I want you to stay away from my heart
I don ' t want you to leave


하늘이 내게 내린 벌인가 I have fought the sky fell
haneuri naege naerin beoringa haneuri naege naerin beoringa
아님 그리 쉽게 나를 버릴까 Should I not so easily
anim geuri swipge nareul beorilkka anim geuri swipge nareul beorilkka
억지로 누군가를 사랑하면 또 살아갈까 When you love someone, and the general prosperity of force
eokjiro nugungareul saranghamyeon tto saragalkka eokjiro nugungareul saranghamyeon tto saragalkka
별들 사이를 누비고 내 맘을 노래로 채우고 Our way among the stars fill my heart with song
byeoldeul saireul nubigo nae mameul noraero chaeugo byeoldeul saireul nubigo nae mameul noraero chaeugo
Don ' t leave , let me freez Don 't leave, let me freez
날 좀 도와줘 , Help me please Help me, Help me please
nal jom dowajwo, Help me please nal jom dowajwo, Help me please

( 죽을 때까지 기다릴거야 ) ('ll Wait until they die)
(jugeul ttaekkaji gidarilgeoya) (Jugeul ttaekkaji gidarilgeoya)
( 니가 아무리 뭐라 그래도 난 기다릴거야 ) (But I'll wait for you no matter what)
(niga amuri mwora geuraedo nan gidarilgeoya) (Niga amuri mwora geuraedo nan gidarilgeoya)
( 내일 다시 올게 내일 다시 올게 ) (I'll be back tomorrow I'll be back tomorrow)
(naeil dasi olge naeil dasi olge) (Naeil dasi olge naeil dasi olge)

I’ll leave you alone so have a great life.

Say it properly,
Look at me, look in to my eyes and say it.
Why did you say goodbye,
Do you want to end it between us?

(I know), you’ve got a new girl.
(I know), you’ve got bored of me.
Although the tears are filling up

I’ll leave you alone so have a great life.
That’s all I can say.
I’ll forget about it so have a great life.
Be happy even without me.
The love you’ve thrown away,
Take it with you,
Take all of it away.
Don’t even bother to say sorry,
Don’t worry about me.

Yo, sorry my sweety
Your lips that are supposed to leave from my side
Looks resentful today for some reason.
I have to hold you back, but words won’t come out
And you’re already drifting apart.

(I know), you will forget all about me.
(I know), I will end up hating you.
Although I know everything

I’ll leave you alone so have a great life.
That’s all I can say.
I’ll forget about it so have a great life.
Be happy even without me.
The love you’ve thrown away,
Take it with you,
Take all of it away.
Don’t even bother to say sorry,
Don’t worry about me.

(You) were my reason to live.
(You) were everything I’ve ever wanted.
You, it’s me, who used to care about no one else but you.

(Why), why are you leaving from my side?
(Why), why are you throwing me away?
You were gonna be like this anyways, so why did you love me?

Do you remember that day,
The day when we’ve met for first time?
I still remember it,
Those words you’ve promised.
You said you would care and protect me and only me.
You said that you don’t love anybody but me.
I believed you, I believed your lies.

(Oh), oh.
(Oh, oh, oh) Did you really love me?
(Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh) No, no, no, no.
(Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh) I’ll forget about it so have a great life.

Mr. P@nadol

Where are u~

It's so weird to see USD did not fluctuate with commodity price(oil, gold) today,

For years I've been analyzing, I told everyone most of the currency fluctuate based on the country's export and gold value.

Yes, There is some country who do based on that, US never, for years, i realized Gold is the one always set the price at highest peak and slowly petrol price will fluctuate later on, this tactic was used to counter the last crisis and it works.

Here's how it works, Firstly, US will lower down USD to the lowest point, countries especially Asia will tend to buy more USD which actually equal to buy more imported good from Europe.

Feel proud right? the more you import, the less you export, demand on local turn lesser, less investment on local, however local government will take this opportunity to strengthen local currency (eg RM) and invest in overseas, for example (EPF invested RM500bil in UK real estate)

Wise decision to see our currency turn stronger? the more it stronger, the more expensive our food will be, the more tax you have to pay. Real estate in Malaysia will collapse if tax keep fluctuating. Still good decision made by government?

Weak dollar fuels the rise in oil and gold.

It's the tactic where Malaysia will never learn.


Look at the news here,

Gold, oil, silver, and copper -- all of which are priced in dollars -- surged to new highs. Gold ended the day with a record close of $1,340.30 an ounce, after hitting an intraday high of $1,342.60.

It's not just gold attracting investors' attention. Oil settled at a 5-month high of $82.82 a barrel Tuesday, and copper continues to trade around a 27-month high. Silver is also at new highs above $22 an ounce, its highest level since the early 1980s.

"If you push down on water, something else is going to pop up somewhere," Adams said.

"I wouldn't be surprised if we saw $1,360 [per ounce of gold] this week," said Carlos Sanchez, precious metals analyst at CPM Group in New York. "I think we'll see $1,400 by the end of the year."

Foster was even more bullish about the precious metal. "I think we've got our sights on $1,400 to $1,500 in the next three to six months," he said.

Part of what's driving the recent run is that gold remains miles away from its true peak, when adjusted for inflation. Gold hit its real record on Jan. 21, 1980, when it rose to $825.50 an ounce. Adjusted for inflation from 1980 dollars to 2010, that translates to an all-time record of $2,184.08 an ounce.

Anyone out there still remember what I told you why do I choose Swiss Franc to swap with USD and swap to Singapore dollar /Aussie ? Today CNN explain to you why.

From CNN business news today;
"Dollar also lost ground elsewhere, dropping to a two-month low of $1.5938 against the pound, falling 0.3 per cent to a record low of SFr0.9629 against the Swiss franc and losing 0.4 per cent to a 26-month low of $0.9745 against the Australian dollar."


May be I do not explain well here, well, I suck in explaining, Learn it from news everyday. I'm not a good financial planner, but I understand the economy flow. I still bull shitting? Too bad. life sucks..^^