"The Last Samurai" struck me with the brutality of the killings and the wanton massacres depicted in the movie. The gory details include blood spurting out from katana cuts and hara-kiri scenes with decapitated heads following soon after. What was really disturbing was the striking similarities of the 3 battle scenes: Indian-American, Algren-Samurai and Ninja-Samurai. The scenes of American Red-Indian women, men & children alike, being shot and sliced up. Babies crying. The helplessness of the victims couldnt be brought across better. Perhaps it was for the first time that i was exposed to such brutality but other war-films with massive guns and artillery just did not have the same effect on me. Or it could be the cries and sympathy for the people that really got to me. The Indians were portrayed as defense-less people, obliterated by the American calvary wielding rifles and guns. The viewpoint and memories of the guilty protagonist (Tom Cruise) only served to enhance the horror of the mindless killing by the opressive an agressive Americans.
The second battle scene whereby the newly recruited, not-so-highly-trained Japanese fought the fearless Samurai was a moment when the Indian killings were relieved. In the eyes of the protagonist, Algren, the japanese were jus like the helpless indians, as they could not even fire a gun properly. They ended up being slaughtered by the samurai and Algren was captured, alive, after near fatal melee combat with his would-be captors.
The third scene was more of an assasination attempt than an all-out war. What was disturbing was the near-realisation of the Indian massacre, as there were children and women involved this time, at the Samurai enclave, a simple village in the mountains. Spurting blood and severed heads re-appeared, as if it was the only draw of the movie. Immense pathos was evoked as the blatant killings jus threatened the end of an otherwise peaceful people, had the samurai not been well-trained and not been triumphant.
Another thing that i really like was the setting of the Samurai village. It showed a group of dilligent and highly disciplined people, not tainted by the many evils of the harsh outside world. The undulating relief and beautiful mountains of the village backdrop enhanced the serenity that the place exuded. Background music was a great help too, not being too loud like some other movies but still able to bring out the right atmosphere at the right time.
The last battle whereby the samurai were annihilated was one of honour and respect for the character, Katsumoto, the leader of the exiled samurai. They had fought to the last man for their beliefs, ways and traditions and could be likened to someone in the modern world fighting, albeit somewhat helplessly, for their rights and beliefs. Truly admirable, defending what is dear to one.
All in all, the movie's most impressionable message was the horrors of war and massacre, as seen in the internal strife of Japan. The battle scenes were nicely linked and the reality of it was felt. I kind of liked the show, albeit the gore and brutality and quoting someone, "a rather inaccurate portrayal of pre-modern Japan." That, to me, is not important as i was only looking at the story on itself, not the nitty-gritty details of how prim and proper things should be represented.
Saturday, January 31, 2004
Friday, January 30, 2004
Why is everyone using the word "wadeva" or the phrase "wad the hell"? is it very nice to use? i dun like the way it is said, as if they couldnt care less. As if they are totally disregarding who they are speaking to. SO bad. Dont tell me it's the new lingo of the JC-world. Or is it some lingua-franca of JCs that i have never heard of? What JC-world anyway when every little step goes towards preparing for A levels? Mus be one that's pretty narrow and stuff...yuck.
Lectures (Chem and math) were boring as usual. The energy of a lecture jus cant compare to the energy of a tutorial, as in a classroom setting. It jus stimulates my mind so much more than the frigid lecture hall. The attention given by the tutor is also much better than 1 lecturer to a few hundred-odd kids squirming and fidgeting, losing concentration and affecting others around. That's what i mean by energy.
Physics was a slack double period. Our tutor ended with telling us ghost stories abt the sch, some 'fort factory" and the red house. Poor Amos was so freaked out he ran out of the classroom, but was chased back by Zhong Ye. however, he still left the room not long after, this time with Liying in tow. How amusing. :D
Gp was the usual, with char, prasee and others arguing it all out initially and totally amused me to no end. Not to forget minling and yunshan's lost looks and amos and charmaine's doodlings on the handout (think apple). Was completely burnt out when we completed the first part of the lesson so during the second part i wasnt functioning very well.
PE wasnt as bad today. In fact, it was the slackest lesson so far. Didnt feel completely drained at the end of the lesson. Looking forward to lunch on monday. Hope we can go for movie after that too. Peter Pan anyone?
i realised that everyone was busy with their respective CCAs but i currently have no need to report to any. How weird, as if i have so much time on my hands every day. The hockey guys went for hockey and the touch rugby and softball people have started training. Even the interact club has begun doing something...JusT whEn is drama going to start?!
Physics was a slack double period. Our tutor ended with telling us ghost stories abt the sch, some 'fort factory" and the red house. Poor Amos was so freaked out he ran out of the classroom, but was chased back by Zhong Ye. however, he still left the room not long after, this time with Liying in tow. How amusing. :D
Gp was the usual, with char, prasee and others arguing it all out initially and totally amused me to no end. Not to forget minling and yunshan's lost looks and amos and charmaine's doodlings on the handout (think apple). Was completely burnt out when we completed the first part of the lesson so during the second part i wasnt functioning very well.
PE wasnt as bad today. In fact, it was the slackest lesson so far. Didnt feel completely drained at the end of the lesson. Looking forward to lunch on monday. Hope we can go for movie after that too. Peter Pan anyone?
i realised that everyone was busy with their respective CCAs but i currently have no need to report to any. How weird, as if i have so much time on my hands every day. The hockey guys went for hockey and the touch rugby and softball people have started training. Even the interact club has begun doing something...JusT whEn is drama going to start?!
Thursday, January 29, 2004
hurt by aggressive SMSes. Coupled with at least 2 previous episodes. This is so bad, sometimes i wish i had never seen/heard it, for it's detrimental to our friendship. For that matter, i declare that u are an insensitive BLOKE! "Watch yr tone young man!" haha that feels better. Oops~ i mean, cant i feel proud of what u were doing? Then again, perhaps i was wrong in doing wad i did too. U wanted a low profile ya? hmm but wad's so bad abt it anyway? it's not shameful or anything, u shld be proud of it too! Where's that sense of pride? BLEAH! this is so bad for the mind and body, heart and soul too. KRAk! AM i too serious or am i treating it with too much levity? i dunno........
Had a very weird dream yesterday. Cant remember the details but my current classmates were in it and it was like during maths lecture. The lecturer was Mr LeeCH and i remembered being called out and later when i returned was terribly mortified. Cant remember y though... do dreams tell u something? cos i seldom dream. Think of nitemares............`~`
Went to the oasis to do hw after sch, together with biwei, amos, zhong ye, liying and of course, char the great. Praseetha joined later while Sangee popped up every now and then. It was a relatively short day, albeit a little boring. The best part was Mr Swaran Singh's lesson. Had a good laugh at how he conducted the lesson, always talking to noone else but the board and being so very particular abt the way answers were presented. He was so particular that wad would otherwise be a very short answer would turn out to be 1 page long! -_-''' I tried to ask Janna to change to the way he would want it so he would not amend her working and spend 15 mins for 2 qns and say, "we are making good progress" in his i'm-talking-to myself manner. Almost like the old, boring professors that u see in cartoons sometimes. The effect, however, was still disastrous. He still managed to spend 15 mins on the 2 questions! Anyways, being so senior and all, we should accord to him the due respect ya?
Back to the oasis (it's this place where there are tables and is very windy) we were supposed to do work but with all the chatter and craziness that char, amos and biwei brought, everyone soon sidetracked from their work and started bantering. Idly. haha. Took intermittent breaks, one to the canteen (with gross chicken skin) and jus staring into space. It's amazing how they can make so much out of a dead whale, with references to.....microcellular structures or more specifically, gametes. All too soon char and liying had to go for training but i had not even finished 2 out of 13 qns that i had to do. Liying suggested dinner.......at 730. ~_~ Had no money too, if not i would have bought files and the physics TYS before it ran out of stock like the chem one.
Back to the oasis (it's this place where there are tables and is very windy) we were supposed to do work but with all the chatter and craziness that char, amos and biwei brought, everyone soon sidetracked from their work and started bantering. Idly. haha. Took intermittent breaks, one to the canteen (with gross chicken skin) and jus staring into space. It's amazing how they can make so much out of a dead whale, with references to.....microcellular structures or more specifically, gametes. All too soon char and liying had to go for training but i had not even finished 2 out of 13 qns that i had to do. Liying suggested dinner.......at 730. ~_~ Had no money too, if not i would have bought files and the physics TYS before it ran out of stock like the chem one.
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
Had a really wonderful day, with nothing but tutorials and lunch on my timetable. It was short of returning to the good old classroom style teaching i guess. Felt like it anyway. What was not so good was the daunting thoughts of clocking 80 CIP hours and acheiving CCA points through the lousy PEARLS system. Making things difficult for us! Tch! There was this fascist talk by the VP regarding the modules which the school has come up with pertaining to our holistic development. I have never believed in such talks. If it comes, it comes. That's all. To borrow a cliche, "Actions speak louder than words"!
Went to the library as well. Had been procrastinating for some time. First visit in the capacity of an NJ student. Was really big and spacious. Relatively quiet too, compared to our national libraries. Im not sure about the books available though. Jus went there to do my chem tutorials. What was utterly shocking was what Hin Yeung said he would do. When i was about to leave, he told me that he would finish his chem tutorial [i was not done with mine :( ] and then grab a bite, before returning to read a TIMES magazine. Really industrious. The benefits of a well-equipped school library that closes late i suppose.
Went to the library as well. Had been procrastinating for some time. First visit in the capacity of an NJ student. Was really big and spacious. Relatively quiet too, compared to our national libraries. Im not sure about the books available though. Jus went there to do my chem tutorials. What was utterly shocking was what Hin Yeung said he would do. When i was about to leave, he told me that he would finish his chem tutorial [i was not done with mine :( ] and then grab a bite, before returning to read a TIMES magazine. Really industrious. The benefits of a well-equipped school library that closes late i suppose.
Sunday, January 25, 2004
Was feeling fed-up with partial fractions today, so i went out to meet shawn, brandu, saaaaaamuel and yy. went to play pool then went macs and then KFC. DOH! My appetite wasnt really very good cos of diarrhoea yesterday and all the gas so i couldnt really eat that much fast food...or rather cos that was too oily.
Char and i joked abt cutting sch tml, start a revolution. HAHA but that's JUS a thought, becos of all the holidays for CNY and Xmas (27 days) we only have abt 3 days of holidays! where's the true spirit of (celebrations)? haha Haiz helpless abt this...sad
Char and i joked abt cutting sch tml, start a revolution. HAHA but that's JUS a thought, becos of all the holidays for CNY and Xmas (27 days) we only have abt 3 days of holidays! where's the true spirit of (celebrations)? haha Haiz helpless abt this...sad
Saturday, January 24, 2004
jus came back from wendy's. Visited the toilet and saw faeces that resembled quaker oats just that the colour was more intense. Before we went to wendy's we went to mr tan's where we watched the school of rock and this loew budget film called "monty python and the holy grail" which had a super lame ending and nowhere was there the mention of python. -_-'''
Then went to wendy's. played mahjong there and talked abit. Then took these pills which caused the colour of the faeces and the gas in the system. bleah! i miss working with wendy. What she said brought back some very good memories but sadly that has come to an end. Said that there'll be another meeting. Hope it'll be nicely spaced...ok im starting to crap will stop here.
Then went to wendy's. played mahjong there and talked abit. Then took these pills which caused the colour of the faeces and the gas in the system. bleah! i miss working with wendy. What she said brought back some very good memories but sadly that has come to an end. Said that there'll be another meeting. Hope it'll be nicely spaced...ok im starting to crap will stop here.
Friday, January 23, 2004
Why won't people want to play in the rain? How abt singing nothing but "lalalala" at the esplanade when visiting exhibitions? What abt sprining surprise CNY visits? what is it that is really bothering them? wad inhibitions? i dunno. hehe. i jus feel like doing all the above but apparently people seem to think that im out of my mind to even suggest these things! Oh before i forget, let's go stock up on chicken and meats before M'sia gets bird flu or something and our chicken supply gets cut, and then meat prices soar like never before. I dont want to eat expensive foods too often. And what's wrong with chicken? i think it tastes perfectly alright :)
Thursday, January 22, 2004
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
some crappy CNY celebrations took place today, but my class' couplets turned out quite ok. Returned to CHS, with some others, but as soon as i came out from the staff room, the rest were already nowhere in sight. I guess they were more interested in catching up than anything else.
The bus interchange at Tampines was amazingly empty today, as if all the buses available at the interchange had jus left before i came. THe people must have been back at home, having dinner with their families. The scene was rather impactful and this made me rather pensive on the trip back, as the bus jus rumbled along the expressway. Being CNY eve and all, it set me thinking, reflecting on life in the past 4 years.
i asked myself if i was happy, but the more i thot about it the sadder i became. A dominant emotion has been gripping me for the past 2.5 years and i really wonder who has noticed it at all. People think i'm cranky and spirited but who really noes how i feel? it's not always obvious but somehow my writing all express the same emotion, albeit the raw expressions. So much for sensitivity to passages. There are many people around me, some good friends, but do they really noe how i feel? i guess not. I abandoned myself to work, discovering some things which had sustained me, till now. I mus find it again, soon, for life suddenly seems without purpose, as if im just conforming to a routine. At the end of the day, that same emotion haunts me. I listen to people talk, now and then, sometimes they are oblivious to my presence, sometimes intently. Each time i hear something sorrowful, fill with pathos, i ask myself if my predicament is worse. I dunt knoe, really, for this has been wastimg me away slowly. Being in a typically Asian family, i guess not even my family noes how i feel. Indeed, i would really be surprised if anyone knew. Always i project a cheery facade but inside it's a totally different world. That's why i treasure moments that are shared, instances when i can forget the feeling inside. I hate to be alone, because that would mean that i have to face my inner demon. I always wonder, if i can someday win this fight.
Some people ask to be understood and im trying real hard, but it doenst come in an instant. How would u answer if i asked u how much u noe me? u can probably get at most half rite. I suppose no one gives that much attention to what i really feel. But that's alright. In this world, even the sensitive have become insensitive, for each of us are jus too caught up in our own affairs. How many times have i tried to say something and be mistaken for being crazy? i dont know. U do but u probably dont care. How many times was i serious and u treated it with so much levity? ask yourselves. Some people have lots of principles and philosophies but "who are you, to judge me!?" I guess u cannot differentiate wad's real from the false, wad's the truth and wad's not. Someone joined Him when i was younger and since then, everything changed. I guess the trauma was too great to bear. I've seen someone waste away, degenerate, but i feel so helpless. Sometimes, you really cant tell wad's from wad anymore. You jus feel like giving up. I feel like crying but i wont. It's not that no tears would come to me but i dunt want to. i guess this is why people jus dont know the real "me".
The bus interchange at Tampines was amazingly empty today, as if all the buses available at the interchange had jus left before i came. THe people must have been back at home, having dinner with their families. The scene was rather impactful and this made me rather pensive on the trip back, as the bus jus rumbled along the expressway. Being CNY eve and all, it set me thinking, reflecting on life in the past 4 years.
i asked myself if i was happy, but the more i thot about it the sadder i became. A dominant emotion has been gripping me for the past 2.5 years and i really wonder who has noticed it at all. People think i'm cranky and spirited but who really noes how i feel? it's not always obvious but somehow my writing all express the same emotion, albeit the raw expressions. So much for sensitivity to passages. There are many people around me, some good friends, but do they really noe how i feel? i guess not. I abandoned myself to work, discovering some things which had sustained me, till now. I mus find it again, soon, for life suddenly seems without purpose, as if im just conforming to a routine. At the end of the day, that same emotion haunts me. I listen to people talk, now and then, sometimes they are oblivious to my presence, sometimes intently. Each time i hear something sorrowful, fill with pathos, i ask myself if my predicament is worse. I dunt knoe, really, for this has been wastimg me away slowly. Being in a typically Asian family, i guess not even my family noes how i feel. Indeed, i would really be surprised if anyone knew. Always i project a cheery facade but inside it's a totally different world. That's why i treasure moments that are shared, instances when i can forget the feeling inside. I hate to be alone, because that would mean that i have to face my inner demon. I always wonder, if i can someday win this fight.
Some people ask to be understood and im trying real hard, but it doenst come in an instant. How would u answer if i asked u how much u noe me? u can probably get at most half rite. I suppose no one gives that much attention to what i really feel. But that's alright. In this world, even the sensitive have become insensitive, for each of us are jus too caught up in our own affairs. How many times have i tried to say something and be mistaken for being crazy? i dont know. U do but u probably dont care. How many times was i serious and u treated it with so much levity? ask yourselves. Some people have lots of principles and philosophies but "who are you, to judge me!?" I guess u cannot differentiate wad's real from the false, wad's the truth and wad's not. Someone joined Him when i was younger and since then, everything changed. I guess the trauma was too great to bear. I've seen someone waste away, degenerate, but i feel so helpless. Sometimes, you really cant tell wad's from wad anymore. You jus feel like giving up. I feel like crying but i wont. It's not that no tears would come to me but i dunt want to. i guess this is why people jus dont know the real "me".
Monday, January 19, 2004
Drama orientation was on today. Like my classmate was saying, the seniors didnt exactly made a very gd impression of drama on us. But she made me realise that the love is for drama, not the people there. I noticed that the people alone at the young co. got me very hyped up but those are NJDrama were no where near. The energy levels were SO different. Somehow, i wish that the people there would have been the good ol' few; it's an added bonus to be able to work with people u noe and are comfortable with. I guess i was looking for something that could not be found again. The time, place, people and circumstances are all different. The director is no longer wendy, administration was no longer with AT and the people were no longer as familiar as before, no longer exuding the kind of comfort and warmth. Dramafest and late nights on SYF eating packets of duck/chicken rice outside the auditorium will not be the same again. I left a part of me behind that could never be recovered, buried together in collective memories.
Even the cathigh ppl that i see along the corridors are just somehow different. So much for deja vu, huh?
"Look dustin, it's raining. Not very hard though. I guess whoever's making the rain doesnt want to wake you up. Dustin? Dustin you awake yet?"
Even the cathigh ppl that i see along the corridors are just somehow different. So much for deja vu, huh?
"Look dustin, it's raining. Not very hard though. I guess whoever's making the rain doesnt want to wake you up. Dustin? Dustin you awake yet?"
Saturday, January 17, 2004
Hate all that politicking and arguing. Makes CCA no fun at all, esp when the authorities are at loggerheads. Fancy fighting it all out in front of the cadets somemore. What will they think? so put off... then the security guard didnt want to let me in when i went to NJ becos i had NO collage pin!...i know it's for security reasons but wad the crap...felt so out of place when i finally could enter when my maths tutor came to my rescue.
The gathering was in some ways a success and in some ways a flop. Success as in yay turnout was quite gd, the usual people save for some busy souls. Then had lots of fun jus sitting there by the letter boxes and stoning and talking. Flop in more ways than one though, for in the first place we couldnt decide on where to go for dinner then couldnt decide on wad to eat. The complaints didnt help any. I mean come on we dont do this everyday so y spoil the mood by saying how all that is not worth it and "no vegetables for me" kinda nonsense. Crap. surely got more than 1 person irritated. and oh i was so late for the meeting, so terribly embarrassing and sorry for that. And in the end got into fiesta and splurged away. It's not that i'm rich or wad but sometimes we have to make do rite? we cant have everything our way everytime rite?
It was more fun after dinner, when everyone got bubble tea and sat down by the letter boxes to chit chat and spout nonsense, which was basically a twisted or not-so-twisted storytelling session(~_-) abt how some people were doing in JC. Dont wish to go into detail but overall it was quite fun cos the autographing of class photos was indeed just pure "high". Samuel's card got the best autographs ever, wad with 3, 4 or 5 entires per person...haha all the verbal diarrhoea. Spent so much time signing that we went home immediately after that( it was 10+++!!!). Will be missing them. wonder when we will meet like that as a big gp again. Didnt write in too much detail...seems like it will bore anyone else who's not in the gp...even seems to bore me...oooo scary...
The gathering was in some ways a success and in some ways a flop. Success as in yay turnout was quite gd, the usual people save for some busy souls. Then had lots of fun jus sitting there by the letter boxes and stoning and talking. Flop in more ways than one though, for in the first place we couldnt decide on where to go for dinner then couldnt decide on wad to eat. The complaints didnt help any. I mean come on we dont do this everyday so y spoil the mood by saying how all that is not worth it and "no vegetables for me" kinda nonsense. Crap. surely got more than 1 person irritated. and oh i was so late for the meeting, so terribly embarrassing and sorry for that. And in the end got into fiesta and splurged away. It's not that i'm rich or wad but sometimes we have to make do rite? we cant have everything our way everytime rite?
It was more fun after dinner, when everyone got bubble tea and sat down by the letter boxes to chit chat and spout nonsense, which was basically a twisted or not-so-twisted storytelling session(~_-) abt how some people were doing in JC. Dont wish to go into detail but overall it was quite fun cos the autographing of class photos was indeed just pure "high". Samuel's card got the best autographs ever, wad with 3, 4 or 5 entires per person...haha all the verbal diarrhoea. Spent so much time signing that we went home immediately after that( it was 10+++!!!). Will be missing them. wonder when we will meet like that as a big gp again. Didnt write in too much detail...seems like it will bore anyone else who's not in the gp...even seems to bore me...oooo scary...
Friday, January 16, 2004
PE was absolutely dreadful. Ghastly. The teacher made us run 6 rounds, with 15 push-ups between each round and that was not the worst. We had to do crunches and some idiotic hold-ourselves-off-the-ground exercise that apparently helps our abs on HOT CONCRETE ground! talk abt idiocy at new heights.
Then there was hockey trials. This time it's inefficacy at new heights. A bunch of them had to wait for 1 whole hour for their turn at the trials and in the end the person-IC jus said that they could go home and they would be called down for trials the next week. Apparently it has been going on for several times. This is just so screwed. A sheer waste of other's time and effort and everything else!
It also seems that many people are taking up three or even four CCAs. Are they crazy or wad? As if the JC workload isnt enough to kill them. But i guess it is a way to test out different stuff before committing to anything, especially when no one is certain of what will happen after the first three months.
Had a long day, then had dinner with dominic, weiming and YY. Ate herbal chicken but dunno why some people just dun like things that are herbal. THey are SO wonderful! These people jus cant appreciate the good stuff, too bad. Herbs rock!!!
Looking forward to tml when 44 '03 will meet for dinner. Seems like have been meeting up with ex-classmates lately but tml seems like it will be the most massive one to date.
Then there was hockey trials. This time it's inefficacy at new heights. A bunch of them had to wait for 1 whole hour for their turn at the trials and in the end the person-IC jus said that they could go home and they would be called down for trials the next week. Apparently it has been going on for several times. This is just so screwed. A sheer waste of other's time and effort and everything else!
It also seems that many people are taking up three or even four CCAs. Are they crazy or wad? As if the JC workload isnt enough to kill them. But i guess it is a way to test out different stuff before committing to anything, especially when no one is certain of what will happen after the first three months.
Had a long day, then had dinner with dominic, weiming and YY. Ate herbal chicken but dunno why some people just dun like things that are herbal. THey are SO wonderful! These people jus cant appreciate the good stuff, too bad. Herbs rock!!!
Looking forward to tml when 44 '03 will meet for dinner. Seems like have been meeting up with ex-classmates lately but tml seems like it will be the most massive one to date.
Thursday, January 15, 2004
It's been another long day...came home and slept some before i went out and met up with Brandon, YY, TTK and Andy. Decided earlier today to do so when YY asked and in the end i was late because i overslept. -_-'''
There's this girl in class, Charmaine (Shar-mane), who is like the alter ego of Brandon...she's not exactly very Brandon-esque or anything but the way she speaks and the things that she says achieve exactly the same effect on me as what Brandon's actions will, ie i will burst out laughing. This is SO insane. Today she did it again by making everyone burst out in laughter during our so called "after school meet-ups" where everyone was stoning either becos we didnt want to go home or we had to wait for CCA / trials to start. BORING!!
Poor TTK is being discriminated in school...dunno how or why or wad but i guess u can find clues in Shawn's blog...poor ttk...somehow im glad that i ended up with a nice class to begin with.
There's this girl in class, Charmaine (Shar-mane), who is like the alter ego of Brandon...she's not exactly very Brandon-esque or anything but the way she speaks and the things that she says achieve exactly the same effect on me as what Brandon's actions will, ie i will burst out laughing. This is SO insane. Today she did it again by making everyone burst out in laughter during our so called "after school meet-ups" where everyone was stoning either becos we didnt want to go home or we had to wait for CCA / trials to start. BORING!!
Poor TTK is being discriminated in school...dunno how or why or wad but i guess u can find clues in Shawn's blog...poor ttk...somehow im glad that i ended up with a nice class to begin with.
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
Jus realised that piling tutorials can be so scary....cos the tutorials are so intense that the tutors jus keep coming...and the super gifted ppl from top schs in singapore make my math look like scrap paper. boohoo!
Anyways today was another BORING day...becos i intended to go get lens paper after sch with some ppl and yet in the end they told me that they were not going anymore -_-'''. so i went back to the canteen and stoned with some of my classmates. They were teasing some ACS(I) guy called kim soon abt this girl in class and i jus could not help myself joining them too..haha.
Not sure when drama starts, but it's like all the other CCAs are already starting...everyone's like joining sports or something heh it's really weird. i mean wad's the rationale behind it anyway? are u realli into competitive sports or wad? oh well nevertheless all the best, maebe someday somewhere i will see yr names in the papers (hopefully not in the orbituaries). Gd luck.
Anyways today was another BORING day...becos i intended to go get lens paper after sch with some ppl and yet in the end they told me that they were not going anymore -_-'''. so i went back to the canteen and stoned with some of my classmates. They were teasing some ACS(I) guy called kim soon abt this girl in class and i jus could not help myself joining them too..haha.
Not sure when drama starts, but it's like all the other CCAs are already starting...everyone's like joining sports or something heh it's really weird. i mean wad's the rationale behind it anyway? are u realli into competitive sports or wad? oh well nevertheless all the best, maebe someday somewhere i will see yr names in the papers (hopefully not in the orbituaries). Gd luck.
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Haiz i think i'll ask shawn for help on sat when we meet....the HTML is sooooo strange...can't even see the words that appear on my blog...how does it work?
Anyways today was a bad day...found out that i had the greatest tendency to sleep in class at around 2 - 3 pm....so i was dozing thru math and i didnt really get the lecture so it seems that im in for it for math..yuck...
Chem teachers in NJ are like so boring...they drone incessantly into your ears. drowning you in monotony....luckily it was early morning if not it would have been off to lala land.
GP tutor was ok...not much to talk abt..but GP sounded very tough -_-'' Despite all these complains, i still think sch's fun...maybe it's me or perhaps it's the people there...the yen for me cat high classmates is just as strong as most, but it's kinda different though, perhaps bcos most of them are in the same sch and im not the only cat high boi in class, getting discriminated and all. It must have something to do with that.
Got sabo-ed for CT rep...dont really like my CT but hope it'll change for the better since i have only met him once...if not it's just for 6 mths. 6 mths becos i have decided to stay at NJ, albeit the draining journey to and back EVERYday. Kinda like the place, though it still cannot beat dear old CHS. not the one in the new era, under a new reign (those CHS graduates '03 should noe wad i mean anyways.)
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Seems like many people didnt know what CCA to join... but since i found wad the physics tutor said very true and inspiring, i decided to pick up drama again and live out my passion...but i doubt i will get the same kind of feeling i had in CHS ELDDS Drama Group (2001 - 2003)...Nevertheless, it's still drama...On a sidenote, the day the physics tutor came into class and mentioned abt pursuing our passions, i instantaneously remembered brandon and wendy...brandon becos he went on to pursue his passion in the form of TSD in VJC and joining the SRT Young Co., kudos to you. Wendy becos there was once when she said, "If you have the passion, go for it. Everything will work out fine." Seems like these words have alot of impact on me, to remember all these after 2 years of mind-numbing studies. I feel like i'm missing out on something important, but i know that this year and the next are not for me to join drama yet; i just can't commit, wad with trying to adapt to a new life with A levels ahead and having a standing committment to SJAB...haiz guess it'll be later then...
To those i noe in other JCs or elsewhere, i miss you...even to those in NJ and are not in my class, i miss you TOO... and i'll definitely miss some of my teachers (in EL, SC and yes even SJAB as well) who have not only enriched me in terms of knowledge acquired but emotionally and mentally as well.
Anyways today was a bad day...found out that i had the greatest tendency to sleep in class at around 2 - 3 pm....so i was dozing thru math and i didnt really get the lecture so it seems that im in for it for math..yuck...
Chem teachers in NJ are like so boring...they drone incessantly into your ears. drowning you in monotony....luckily it was early morning if not it would have been off to lala land.
GP tutor was ok...not much to talk abt..but GP sounded very tough -_-'' Despite all these complains, i still think sch's fun...maybe it's me or perhaps it's the people there...the yen for me cat high classmates is just as strong as most, but it's kinda different though, perhaps bcos most of them are in the same sch and im not the only cat high boi in class, getting discriminated and all. It must have something to do with that.
Got sabo-ed for CT rep...dont really like my CT but hope it'll change for the better since i have only met him once...if not it's just for 6 mths. 6 mths becos i have decided to stay at NJ, albeit the draining journey to and back EVERYday. Kinda like the place, though it still cannot beat dear old CHS. not the one in the new era, under a new reign (those CHS graduates '03 should noe wad i mean anyways.)
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Seems like many people didnt know what CCA to join... but since i found wad the physics tutor said very true and inspiring, i decided to pick up drama again and live out my passion...but i doubt i will get the same kind of feeling i had in CHS ELDDS Drama Group (2001 - 2003)...Nevertheless, it's still drama...On a sidenote, the day the physics tutor came into class and mentioned abt pursuing our passions, i instantaneously remembered brandon and wendy...brandon becos he went on to pursue his passion in the form of TSD in VJC and joining the SRT Young Co., kudos to you. Wendy becos there was once when she said, "If you have the passion, go for it. Everything will work out fine." Seems like these words have alot of impact on me, to remember all these after 2 years of mind-numbing studies. I feel like i'm missing out on something important, but i know that this year and the next are not for me to join drama yet; i just can't commit, wad with trying to adapt to a new life with A levels ahead and having a standing committment to SJAB...haiz guess it'll be later then...
To those i noe in other JCs or elsewhere, i miss you...even to those in NJ and are not in my class, i miss you TOO... and i'll definitely miss some of my teachers (in EL, SC and yes even SJAB as well) who have not only enriched me in terms of knowledge acquired but emotionally and mentally as well.
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