clinging and movin on.

Yay! my first post for the new year. NewYear's Eve was quite pathetic though, spending most of it in sch. but 汤圆 at beach road was good (esp green tea and sesame), even better than ramen -they kinda all taste the same. and yuxin was sooo farnie. haha. shant say more to preserve her reputation but such things to say! we could have died laughing on the train. haha. oops. the rest of new year's eve was bad though. tried to do phy HW but couldnt go past the 2nd out of 5 qns. haiz. mus be the long stupid draggy day at sch. thought it would end early. hope that orientation goes well...looking at the programme i suppose it banks on the OGLs alr. wad does bukit timah mean to me? :S and family session...like how? haha dunno yet also. bleah...

It's New Year's Day today. sch starts in 2 days' time and orientation too. not exactly looking forward to the big "A"s and certainly not NS but i suppose time will pass as quickly as 2004. and poor soccer ppl my get cut even though they train all the time. so sad. esp during yr 2. dunno wad to say shant say anymore. haha.

爱情不过是一种普通的玩意, 一点也不希奇. haha this song is so old but dunno why the tune jus gets stuck in the head. using it for deStefano's walk-in. should be quite fun, everytime i wanna do the steps i want to burst out laughing. cant wait to see mr wong's reaction to it. hope silin can grasp everything in time. Orientation prep. has been so frantice nowadays all my plans to rush my holiday hw are now dashed. haiz wad to do? haha jus leave a bad impression with the tutors and dont do meh? haha kena blacklisted. oops. aiya but nowadays jus wanna do orientation then go home sleep and carry on with the stuff next day...not that i like to change things so many times. but "carmen" is very nice leh. i wonder if the movie is jus as nice....probably not since it's like the 30's or 40's haha. cant get it out of my head alr haha oops.

Y is there a giant earthquake which generated giant tsunamis which wiped off so many ppl? how terrible. i cant imagine the scenes at the disaster sites (i mean i can but dun t want to :S). thankfully for msia and sumatra we are safe but wad if there weren't those land masses? would we be covered in water? maebe no need to hand in hol hw alr. is Nature trying to curb the population explosion? maebe we put too much strain on the earth. like the plates wanted to burst and buckle. and Nature said yes! Poor ppl out there and it's the talk of the world. and it happened mostly to 3rd world countries too. so that so-called 1st-world countries can "be nice" and offer aid. i wonder how much of it is like "wanting to help" cos there's so much politics involved. haiz haha. not that i wanna be sceptical of ppl who really wanna help. maebe jus too disillusioned by life? dunno la a confused teenager? haha that sounds absurd...but true? a whole new world with sumatra moved 33m. wow. Nature... but it's really sad to noe that so many died cos of water. like 60000+ and still 2 heavily hit zones not accounted for. and ho fai was in india before that. :S 100000s die and live moves on. hmmm

Spent Xmas eve with alaric, brandon and samuel. Orchard road was amazingly packed, so much so that it was impossible to turn back after we left taka. And traffic at Orchard station was only one-way. haha. Dont really like massive crowds, and really couldnt stand those mad ppl who would jus any nearby strangers a cold spray on the face. how absolutely rude...parental guidance mus be abysmally lacking. haha. maebe im jus the one not in the mood. The stroke to midnight was relatively safe, however, cos we scuttled off to Lips cafe at cineleisure, high and dry and away from all the commotion and stupid sprays, but engaging in sinful indulgences. like wad? fried chicken, cream of mushroom, mashed potatoes and mudpie and apple crumble with vanilla ice cream. and early grey tea too. haha fragrant.

Oh ya, did i mention those sex-toy thingeys that amos said they were? haha apparently those flashy things sold like hotcakes today. shld have brought my pins down to sell. haha. it's xmas now and julito would be back tml...i hope. and i heard dominic would be back at ard the same time. maebe i can run off to fetch one and the other as well? haha dunno, jus a thot.

Been sometime since i blogged. haha i think i was too lazy. aiya nvm. i think that we are victims of efficiency. like i start to get fed up with those mini jams along lentor and lornie roads. and like we cannot stand long queues at the cashier. haha. jus a thought. like everything's so efficient in Singapore that we'd probably die if we get caught in a manila traffic jam.

Haven got time to go write my xmas cards and edit kenny's speech and do hol HW and and and argh!! like 1001 things to do. bleah. jus thrash it all away; i NEED to blog. haha i mean crap. so all my cards would arrive late, on monday. after xmas!! boo. at least better than never give out la. only bought my cards for the old boys today. NJ ones mostly finish liao cos rich and i sharing haha. all the farnie things.

Ok need to rid viruses now. anyone got any good antivirus software? i think many viruses have been disguising themselves in emails supposedly sent by me. poor me....

Went to JB on mon. jus daniel and brandon went. haha. it was quite fun. digging all stuff pirated and exploiting the currency advantage that we have. kinda like splurging la. like an overdue pamper-yourself kinda thing. FYI the JB City Square's Vivo! cafe sucks cos it had practically nothing to order. half of the items on the menu was unavailable. shld have gone to like secret recipe or something. haiz. bad lunch. anw, we chanced upon this very nice shop which frames up movie posters very nicely. it's so nice that daniel spent RM$189 on an Xmen2 poster and brandon spent like abt 50 ringgit on some spiderman2 stuff. very nice la but im financially unable to indulge in that kind of stuff not budgeted for. haha. and the nite market was ermm different from the ones we have in singapore. more of like markets which sold anything from food to clothing to those little stuff ard the house which we take for granted eg batteries, nail-clippers yada yada. very interesting. not like in singapore u'd find hawkers selling carrot cake or chwee kueh or hot penang laksa with available seats and tables. so we settled dinner buying from the stalls and sitting by the roadside, letting the denizens of wherever we were know that we were eating, looking at a building which has not been completed since sec 1. and the big pao was damn big. like it was bigger than my palm combined. o_O. but then it's nice so im not complaining. too bad we had so little ppl. but all 3 of us cant enivision ourselves going on such trips with JC ppl. too high class alr and probably wouldnt sit by the dirty roadside. haha who noes.

been busy the last few days with CIP gift wrapping and grant-a-wish(GAW) External Drive at J8. quite fun but it gets real bad when no one bothers. oh well, still managed to catch Ocean's 12 yesterday. the storyline's kinda messy. hid abit too much and so much flashback was used that ppl were confused. and the farnie parts had no one laughing cos Singaporeans are not used to more subdued humour i guess. they only laugh at those dumb silly stuff. wad a pity. and i think most of the subtle innuendos would be missed, like "...not getting distracted.". i suppose it's a good show if u can piece everything together. sad to say, i prefer the prequel. oh no. haha so much for superstar power. (think brad pitt, matt damon george clooney juli roberts and catherine zeta-jones.)

Zone nite yesterday was quite fun. haha but couldnt sit down and eat properly, cos mus do this, do that. and had to report like 2.5h before time. slacked much also la so no pt. but actualy dinner was 9 course leh not bad somemore. not all vegetables, so is gd for us but bad for charmaine. i think she was the only vegetarian ard. haha can only eat the cucumbers at the side. but cos of this missed much of gathering at weiming's. like when we went there everyone was gone la. ok not liddat but most ppl were going alr. and meneo didnt stay much longer. like she left 10 min into our arrival cos we were SO late. haiz so sad.then in the end left only like shaun, wx, kc, brandon and me. bert and alex shieh played PS2 downstairs till god-knows-when. so left us 5 in the room, bitching abt everything under the sun. esp abt crispina (her email's related to fried bananas), crispy bananas. and crispina's concert with smash hit "Peel bananas". abit crazy alr la but late at night also dunno why we got so high. and stupid wx obsessed with SN yearbook and this person from VJ. like everytime go wm's house only can look at that. wad late night activity la, aiyo! had some fun on MSn in the morning before kc and brandon those pigs woke up. haha like with hq la. poor hq. but i didnt noe it was anything liddat. ahaha. shhhh. i dunno who's reading this haha.

Heard that wx and dominic's stuff got purloined while they played soccer at bishan park. aiya dunno wad to say also. stupid thief. took everything valuable and throw the bag at some recycling area. didnt happen before at the street soccer court. stupid thief. stole so much stuff. i think 3 phones,1 imported discman with accompanying earphones and cash. dominic lost 2 phones(dunno money involved or not) and wx lost everything, including TWO bdae gifts. so sad for them. i cant imagine losing stuff liddat. like tht time lost pencil box in the LT. bleah. like weixuan says, it's the sentimental value more than anything else.

Oh ya and i forgot abt OGL session yesterday. kinda standard but like alot of ppl not ard. went out again after that. almost had to eat yoshi heng didnt. aiyo. but yuxin introduced chocolate banana cake at secret recipes. i always thot those cakes there looked huge but when came ok la. bigger than the standard cake at coffee bean etc but not THAT huge. haha but the cake was really nice. as with all banana cakes, including the one at alaric's sis' bdae. yumyum. i supposed bananas jus go well with confectionery? haha dunno.

oh and i met up with yin hai today. felt kinda sorry for him. apparently he was working for some biomagnetic company, DW Groups(Biomagnetism) PTE LTD. and he was trying to explain the effects of biomagnetism on human health. actually i suspected it when i saw him at the void deck, with his partner, this guy called jackson. but i jus stayed on la, despite it being a waste of time. 1h ++!! haiz. poor yin hai. he told me that he alr bought the stupid mattress which cost like $2880. the price is kinda ludicrous. i might jus as well invest in a computer. and it's not exactly as if i wanted it very badly wor. im not exactly thrifty but to part with $2880? no thx. im not a millionaire. and the thing is sly jackson tried to push a pillow into my hands when he knew that i wouldnt buy a mattress. BUT it cost $150 too. for a pillow? no way! first he asked for my name, which i gave and he wrote it down on some invoice! aiyo! luckily i didnt give my IC no when he asked for it. stupid guy. im not THAT stupid. and i think the explanation of emitting negative ions of crystals due to body heat is utter bullshit. and the charging of cations and anions using magnetic fields....brrr. anw i think i caused yin hai to be sacked since today's his last day on trial i guess. kinda feel sorry that he emptied his savings for his parents' xmas gift. like comeon la, no need to pull on filial piety and such one lor. "Do u want ur parents to be healthy?" BLAH! i dont think any parent would be happy if their son who's yet to have a steady income splurged on such a weird gift.

Going Msia tml. neeed to update passport as well. oh well. if not for brandon. luckily i didnt go today. heard that it's not open. oh well tml then.

Had a CIA meeting today. settled most of the station games stuff but STUPID STUPID dunno why got to sell 100 collar pins at $3 each leh. i mean come one la. who would really buy those pins? even if there's energizer batteries in the pins alr. like halooooo.

And yay khai nam msged abt bbq. to all cat high '04 Students' COuncil sec 4s, pls take note. he wants u to noe that it's on 19 dec, east coast park pit 10, near carpark C1. come at abt 3 plus and bring $8 to help cover costs. yupz. all interested pls email me: limhm_mel@hotmail.com

and i didnt play for gamesfest today. kinda sad but it's another thing altogether. shant say more abt it. went to join the rest of CIA at J8 instead. haha. and i finally noe that ear holes are not natural. bleah

It was so boring today to stay at home and really do nothing at all. haiz. shld have done other stuff but i guess i was jus too lazy to get out of the house. SF yesterday seemed to go quite well. It was more smooth than anything, other than the initial part, when wad everyone wanted to do was to wait for their friends or take photos. THe last thing they wanted to do mus have been to enter the ballroom. maebe it happens every yr who noes? haha. but i guess the event itself was a standard dinner. Nothing very extravagant or wad, jus a good old dinner with ppl all dressed up and looking different. i suppose it's something standard. even raphael ong looked different. more diff than 2 yrs ago. Wouldnt expect them to wear grey for some time. and kudos to SFCP for pulling it off so well. i think it was quite well received and qutie touching. too bad nobody got it down on tape? i wonder if any of the seniors still think of whether they have made the rite choice to go to NJ. or maebe to JC. what would we really think at the end of this 2 yrs? would we still be comparing to sec sch? or like how are we going separate ways? haha. i dont know!

Gamesfest tml and CIA meeting. doesnt sound as bad as rotting away at home.... sometimes u jus cant stand ppl grousing away and going on and on and on. going on abt the same thing. EXACTLY the SAME words for YEARS on end. it's jus irritating i wish i could bash the person's head. or lock the person away in the other corner of the world. and that's not the worst part, the worst part is wallowing in self-pity, always hoping that providence is jus round the corner and would "change their fate". Maebe it's too much TV or maebe it's jus lousy superstition. But i jus HATE it to hear such stuff. y cant u jus pick urself up and depend on urself and not hope against hope that something out there would be helping out? why mus u complain of ur job when there are so many ppl jobless out there?? why mus u complain of life when there are millions more unfortunate ppl out there in the world? why? is it cos im jus too young to understand or am i being too harsh on myself? It's been for 5 yrs and most likely will be for 5 yrs. and everyday i hate u more and more. it's not that other things that u do dont matter, but sometimes it's jus getting harder and harder, to find stuff to forget everything. sometimes, indifference is jus the best.

Went for my second OGL session today. it's the 3rd for most of them though. haha. spent most of the time practising the mass dance and of course, rushing out a new deStefano script since parts of the old one was deemed full of "tasteless humour" and needs to be portrayed with some "menacing dignity". haha had some troubles initially but it got better soon after the creative juices got flowing. now we know who's the crappy ones....

Then went to pizza hut for lunch. Not bad, quite worth it as each student got $2 off the order. haha and we ordered additional sides so it kept me filled for quite awhile. Continued to keefe's house. haha i dunno what the ladies were doing, teasing keefe's little sister and their neighbour. they appeared to be playmates and the neighbour claimed keefe's sister's to be her best friend. haha and silin arh, still had to ask ppl abt boyfriends and stuff. like keefe was saying, "dont teach them all the wrong stuff". something to that extend la. haha.

Went to watch umizaru after that. It's a good film, much better than taegukgi, even though it's not a war epic but still i would place them in the same category. but obviously umizaru is much better. Nothing like the glamour and fanfare of hollywood products. Jus one theme song for most parts of the movie and others here and there and effectively using silence stuff liddat. Jus diff from normal hollywood fare and that's refreshing, after being inundated with so much western stuff. and it was a cultural exposure as well for many i think. I mean, u dun expect butts to be shown openly on screen, not 1, 2 but at least a dozen all at the same time and more than once in the show. haha. now i noe wad my sensei was talking abt when they were telling us abt communal baths in japan and their swimming pools. jus dun mistake it for something that's specific to the military i suppose.

BLS instructor course was a breeze compared to actual BLS itself. the toughest part was some stupid theory paper compared to a really irritating machine for BLS. haha now that it's over, i jus need to wait for 3 mentorship sessions before im qualified. ok haha.

I HATE ONLINE GAMING. not only does it lag due to the fact that there are gazillion ppl online at teh same time, there's so much fraud associated with it. some cheats use bots to help level up their characters. *glares* and worst of all i always have to wait till my brother decides to end his gaming session. annoying online gamer. always makes me lose 1h of sleep on average. and his HCL is below level average!!! how many times mus i remind him of that. see! the traumatising effects of online gaming. i should seriously consider passwording the comp or something. like break the cd and delete the game! bRBRBRBR. and with the neverending workload, this jus has to top it all doesnt it? -_-""