Bobby came out of camp alr! positively like from a cartoon book. for more info, ask candace or weechiew for photos.
1 wk to NS and it's positively boring. sense of helplessness and anxiety and what not. Life will nvr be the same again.
It's REALLY boring. like dead bored. someone give me something to do. (I'm pocrastinating my essays again. oh well.)
Monday, December 26, 2005
Friday, December 23, 2005
It's amos' birthday today! Happy birthday, fugly baby. It was quite enjoyable playing RISK in his mansion. The place is not small at all. And thanks everyone for eating the first try youtiao with fish paste. Except samuel yeo who still thinks that eating it will cause severe food poisoning and even death.
2 days to Christmas and 13 days to enlistment. it's like enlistment at the very end of Xmas. At that pt of time i will lose myself and dissolve into a recruit. "The nail that stands out will be hammered down.". There will be no me, I or you. There will only be us. It's encouraging group think. "Yes sir, no sir, i dunno sir!". Even so, Japan has thrived with such conformity has it not? It's all about conformity and adapting, isn't it? And there are so many horror stories about NS. hmm wad no thursday nights and SOC and BMT. hmm i really wonder. why do people's opinions vary so much. We are worried. like real worried. and there's even death in the Pasir Ris camps? Why do ppl persist in fatal training when we lose 50-odd years of life? Not one, not tue, but several each yr? How much is that worth? Im not going to survive NS, wad with monkey bars and wad not. Not to mention PT and erm vulgarities and er Tekong knows what.
Im sick and tired of all that university and scholarship shit. At the end of the day, it's a luxury. Some people cannot even afford an education and here i am looking at Overseas universities. Even the local Us. When someone else is trying desperately to survive on another land. All this nitty-gritty and competition is making me lose sight of what's really important. To be grateful for what i already have and not be spiteful of what i dont have. It's also very tiring to try and package and sell myself. To constantly project myself and lose myself along the way. I shall just be myself and see what they say. If they like it, good for me. If im rejected, then it's just not meant to be. Why get all tensed up over this? After all, it's best if im accepted for what i am, not what i am supposed to be, is it not?
2 days to Christmas and 13 days to enlistment. it's like enlistment at the very end of Xmas. At that pt of time i will lose myself and dissolve into a recruit. "The nail that stands out will be hammered down.". There will be no me, I or you. There will only be us. It's encouraging group think. "Yes sir, no sir, i dunno sir!". Even so, Japan has thrived with such conformity has it not? It's all about conformity and adapting, isn't it? And there are so many horror stories about NS. hmm wad no thursday nights and SOC and BMT. hmm i really wonder. why do people's opinions vary so much. We are worried. like real worried. and there's even death in the Pasir Ris camps? Why do ppl persist in fatal training when we lose 50-odd years of life? Not one, not tue, but several each yr? How much is that worth? Im not going to survive NS, wad with monkey bars and wad not. Not to mention PT and erm vulgarities and er Tekong knows what.
Im sick and tired of all that university and scholarship shit. At the end of the day, it's a luxury. Some people cannot even afford an education and here i am looking at Overseas universities. Even the local Us. When someone else is trying desperately to survive on another land. All this nitty-gritty and competition is making me lose sight of what's really important. To be grateful for what i already have and not be spiteful of what i dont have. It's also very tiring to try and package and sell myself. To constantly project myself and lose myself along the way. I shall just be myself and see what they say. If they like it, good for me. If im rejected, then it's just not meant to be. Why get all tensed up over this? After all, it's best if im accepted for what i am, not what i am supposed to be, is it not?
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Having swimming pools is a sin when there are places where water is sacred. But swimming pools are nice. Felt very clean after that.
"were you the one who left your wallet in the toilet?"
"ya."
"I found it. But i've turned it over to the lifeguard already."
"THank you very much!" (hands outstretched, big smile on face)
"but the money's all gone though. It's just left with the cards when i found it." (facial features droop, doing a 180 degress turn.)(he takes a few steps...)
"oh. but there's alot of money in there."
"oh... :S"
Some one lost all his money. and i picked up the empty wallet. what would i have done if i had chanced upon the wallet first?
Fried food always smells nice. But when I take the first bite, it's all so disappointing. Is that why idealism brings about disillusionment and realism brings about pragmatism? (cant remember where this qn came frm).
Im lazy. like real lazy. so this is a short post. even after 1 mth. yes.
"were you the one who left your wallet in the toilet?"
"ya."
"I found it. But i've turned it over to the lifeguard already."
"THank you very much!" (hands outstretched, big smile on face)
"but the money's all gone though. It's just left with the cards when i found it." (facial features droop, doing a 180 degress turn.)(he takes a few steps...)
"oh. but there's alot of money in there."
"oh... :S"
Some one lost all his money. and i picked up the empty wallet. what would i have done if i had chanced upon the wallet first?
Fried food always smells nice. But when I take the first bite, it's all so disappointing. Is that why idealism brings about disillusionment and realism brings about pragmatism? (cant remember where this qn came frm).
Im lazy. like real lazy. so this is a short post. even after 1 mth. yes.
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