clinging and movin on.

Everthing seems bleak. I dun think my PS likes us very much. Maebe he's hoping that we will all die in the field and never come back. And that island is rather miserable. Day in day out, I only see the barracks, training grounds and cookhouse. and other ppl training. it's almost like a prison, only better. The only good things there are my section mates. and platoon mates. and sometimes, only sometimes, the food. The commanders all have mood swings faster than the oscillations of atoms in a quartz crystal. My platoon is really trying very hard but they are still not satisfied. i dunno why but we are always compared to previous batches. Are such comparisons fair? Would they themselves like to be compared with their elder brothers? i dun want to recount too much of a miserable island experience. Island holiday, anyone?

Being in BMT makes me wonder how effective NS really is. Sure, we get trained physically and mentally. But in the end, when war breaks out, wad will really happen? will servicemen stay or flee? Even for those who stay, will they really squeeze the trigger in the end? Not just at men, but what about women and children? The elderly and sickly? The helpless? Knowing that if I let them go and some day, they may get back at me? We no longer use swords and shields but guns and weapons of mass destruction. Do ppl still associate chivalry and gallantry with war or do we all know of the harsh cruel reality of war? Pointing the muzzle at someone is one thing but squeezing the barrel is another thing altogether. and we never practice on live targets, do we? Should deterrence and diplomacy fail, how do we ensure a swift and decisive victory? What will really happen when we do go to war?

Dustin: This is the last time. This is the last time. Can't you just....

This is the last post before i enlist. Like im scared. But everyone's going in too. So there's nothing to be afraid about. :D See you all soon. esp the ppl coming in on 6 and 7. Too many wad ifs, so little time. I'll miss everyone and everything, like all the food that's out here. BLAH!

I have NEVER seen any other digit other than 5 and 0 occupy the cents slot of my EZ-link card. For the first time today, as i tapped my card on the turnstile at orchard station, i saw 8 cents in that last digit. i was so shocked i stood rooted for a few seconds. I cant believe it. I'm paying adult fares. That needs getting used to. haiz. Happy 2006 everyone. Get used to adult fares for A-level graduates.

I finally finished all my university applications. haha yay!!!! I never want to do anymore US applications like ever again. Disgusting overseas unis. they are out to get international students.

Orientation begins in 2 days. Im sure the 38th will do a good job. 4 more days to enlistment. i think im just going to take it ez-pz.