clinging and movin on.

Taiwan has fantastic atmosphere, esp where there are alot of people, hawkers and unique shops. and the clothes are pretty nice, quite different from what we have here. Even though the streets were cramped and reminded me of JB and bins were not much in sight, the air was tingling with life! It's almost like what we see on TV or movies: music blending into noise and big bright florescent signboards, just tt this time, there was the overpowering fumes of exhaust and human waste. The only regret i have is not trying out more of the local delicacies and getting more foodstuff back. kinda miserable if u ask me. and i didnt get to go to danshui. and i didnt really like the themed parks cos those really felt artificial. yeliu, on the other hand, was so much better, even though i thot the beachline was pretty small, but it was rather picturesque. oh well, i shld definitely visit it one more time. I also got to experience squalid living conditions much like squatter settlements. and we had to battle temperature variations on top of mental and physical exhaustion. but i guess it's nothing compared to wad andy's lot had to go thru. shall stop here before i give too much info or ppl think that taipei is not worth visiting. dun want you-know-who to come knocking on my door eh.

One more wk to passing out. i really wish to stay in the sch but what are my chances? Being a unit 3SG isnt exactly a big deal, is it? one wk ahead before an eternity of misery.

about 7 hrs more till i have to report to the airport. really really dun want to embark on this trip. am jus not mentally prepared to do SBC and live firing all over again. so wad if we can fire AP rounds that we cant do here? dun be too fascinated with all the killing machines, i'd say. and we are going to live like taiwanese soldiers oh yeah haha. cramped bunks, beautiful bathhouses and distant cookhouses. yay, i really cant wait to see it for myself. This is like the finale of the course but i am not looking forward to it. i wonder why. perhaps it's becos after this, we are really on our own. everyone thinks that passing out and becoming a 3sg soon is a big deal, but what abt all the additional responsibilities tt we'd have to bear? so far weve all been trainees and noone gives 2 hoots abt alot of things. i have a feeling many of us are going to learn the hard way, looking at how we are handling our military lives. and i wish my pc wont be so set on seeing me in a unit. i'd much prefer to stay in ATI, wadever the reason. sometimes, life cant get any worse. oh well, i shall try to look forward to RnR. People have been saying that im pessimistic, but im really jus trying to place things in perspective and come to terms with them. hmmm

This week's been really short and we had a nights out on mon, at fish&co and it was veryvery mortifying!(i wonder if low finally got that highly coveted email add). and the past few have been rather slack. Learning days was quite a flop. someone shld have recced the venue early in the morning and not leavee it ot 45 min before the event to realise that the aircon wasnt working. seriously, wad was he thinking? i guess this is wad happens when we take things for granted huh. really dont feel like going to taiwan alr...i have a feeling it's not going to be as easy as KOH says.

there's really nothing to do when ur unit is haveing an off day while everyone else is in camp. and it's the sch holidays now. bummer