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Attending many 21st Birthday parties this year, as well as hold simple 21st celebration for many of my dearies this year as well. In the beginning 21st was just any other birthday, time we all gather together to have fun, buying presents and party the night off. But then now as I look back, this year of 21st hold a lot of meaning not just about being legal in age, receiving all the awesome presents or anything close but its a chance of re-knowing a lot of your friends again.

Attended quite a lot of 21st parties this year, receive quite a few of invitation that I never in my life thought I will receive ones too. The invitation from those friends that I haven been contacting since donkey years ago. Its was good to get together again, to know that actually the bond is still there. Its was a really warm feeling.

Attended Belinda’s 21st PJ Party last sat, it was really great & awesome. The venue was great, the girls were great everything is just so wonderful! though there is only 7 of us but the amount of fun we have is huge! Brunch at Prive to movie which totally suck to dinner & then close door drinking session at The club hotel! Pillow fights, drink drank drunk session and breakfast the next morning. Not forgetting the 500plus photo we took that day! I totally feel the bond with the girls again, I remember distancing from them for a period of them but I am really glad that they are still so ever willing to ask me along for meeting up and fun! This year of 21st found me back my girlfriends not that I lost them before but that I found a deeper meaning to this friendship of ours : )) Love you girls!

Start my few simple 21st celebration and so far I would say they are all awesome thou very very simple. Shall update more on my 21st when it all officially ends! People take 1 night and 1 massive party to celebrate their 21st but I take a whole month of simple celebration to celebrate my 21st. Can’t wait for more celebration & definitely the actual day itself!

Tonight you made me cry over & over, again & again. Its been so long since I slept in that damp pillow. All i was to hear you say “Could you stay with me and go through this with me” and not pushing me away from you!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST! Yet another of my dearies turn 21st! this time round its our forever lovely and pretty Seow Hui ((: From the shy little girl that I know from 13 to the mature pretty young lady now, we have seen the worse and the best side of each other. We use to spend every weekdays studying together and hang out after school. Walking aimlessly at Sun Plaza, chatting at mac, causeway for neoprints and morning Kbox session all the way at CCK. I seriously miss those times that we spend togther. Thou we have all moved on and achieve what we are all going after, I hope that this friendship of ours stay true, pure & FOREVER! More unglam moments of ours together! We shall all stay forever 21 as you have wish alright! Hope you achieve more in life & jia you our university graduate to be.

XOXOXOXOXOX

angela  ♥

I LOVE YOU BF! ❤

Currently in a super ultra mood swing situation, have been feeling so moody the whole day. haven’t been feeling myself, fought with BF over silly stuff, 21st venue not confirm and work sucks! Tell me how to stay cheerful like this? (:                                                                                                                                                                                                                           Remember i planned a 21st party for BF last year and everything seems to be going so smoothly, found a place real easy and food catering was settle by BF mum everything just went off so well in the organising period. But why is it that when it come to my 21st everything goes haywrie, I can’t a proper venue! without a venue how do i start on the other things. and now ms moody swing is making me regret that decision of having a party and making me so moody! told Bf that i wanna to do away with the party and he say no, he wants me to have a party because i planned one for him last year but it seems like finding trouble for myself, I am the one doing all the planning, sourcing of the venue. I am not trying to blame him but i guess maybe what eunice say is true ” she will nv have the determine to organise a party” maybe its true for me too, maybe i dun have the determination too! I just got started and i am really all half-hearted and wanting to give up. People ask me why dun i just hold it at BF condo’s function room, actually i would love to but would it still be fun if I have to stick to a timing and ask my friends to leave when 11 strikes? hahahahah sounds like Cinderella  uhu! Venues that I think is good and suitable are simply just too expensive, will you be willing to spend 500bucks on a 1 night chalet? I might as well use that money and treat all my friend to a good meal? Venues that are reasonable price are told to me by friends that they are too ulu, too far, too hard to get there and too chui 😦 Actually just wanted to stick to those more reasonably priced one but am damn afraid that no one will turn up cause it too inaccessible for them. All I wanna is only a average place with reasonable pricing is it really that tough?

BF told me why not just settle for coast sand aloha, the double storey chalet but my concern is there is only a room and only that room is with air-con and i dun think the hall is big enough to fit many people? Is it nice to let people sit outside the chalet? Someone told me to not worry so much cause if i were to worry this much I will never ever to able to find anything that is suitable in my opinion which i guess is true also lah hor. maybe i should just stick to my own decision which is between coast sand aloha or Hometeam NS Pasir Ris!

Most importantly thank you dearies who told me that no matter where I hold it or how ulu it is you guys will still be willing to come. thanks you so so so so much! At least i guess my party would not be totally soul-less right hahahhahaha XD Also to all the wonderful people who helped me sourced for help in booking a suitable venue- girlfriend I am so sorry to trouble you! Leon, for helping me find high and low for civil servant and asking your mum to gather information about the HDB chalet, we shall keep our fingers cross about that okay! YingAn for helping me check if your dad belongs to the group called civil servant, Linda Jie for helping me ask Guan hwee kor kor if he has any lobang!

Even if my 21st party don’t pull through in the end I will still be damn happy cause I have a bunch of people who are forever there for me and so willing to help me! THANK YOU ALL   (:

millions of years since I blog! Been so long that so many things happen, Bf is already back from his Thailand trip, times passed so fast this time round because I was so busy and focus on preparing for the exams that i didn’t realise that time is flying pass me. Thanks to girlfriend who was my best studying partner this time round. mugged at different with her through the whole exam hoping that we will do well. But well papers was damn tough this time round and I really am not very confident about it. Please I only need to see a 50 in the result slip, I will be so contented just to not have to retake the papers, I swear! But well exams are officially over so lets enjoy and cry over spill milk 2 months later. Say hello to my 3 pathetic weeks of holidays before school starts all over again! I wanna party and have fun before school starts!  (:

There might be 101 reasons why a couple break up but i feel that the few reasons stated in the above graph so true.  Many a times its because of pride, ego, face that stops the both party from apologising. But its also because of this pride of yours cause you to lose the love of your life and live with regrets in the future. Worth it?

Had a tiff with Baby on sunday, silly stupid things that i can’t be bother to tell anyone but its always this kind of little things that cause us to fight till no day no night. We dun fight over big stuff, or i should say we din encounter any but this little stupid fight all boils down to us thinking is it because we dun understand each other or its just that we are not compatible? If thats so how like we mange to go so long. Man vs Woman a simple yet complicated theory, girls are sensitive, girls need assurance, girls need to be shown and tell. guys hard to explain, guys feel that deep down you should know. is it the lack of communication by the guy that makes things so hard to understand? Totally random uhu, don’t even know what i wanna say just feel like ranting, typing what whatever that comes to my ming.

Anyway Baby and I are good. He is away for field camp. He called before he leaft just to say he loves me. Touch touch* sidenote-Baby is leaving for Thailand on the 23 May – 10 Jun. I keep telling everyone around me I am okay, I will be good. Just nice its my exam period, I can put all my heart into studying and enjoy with him when he is back but is this really how i feel deep down? I dunno I am such a loser when it comes to exam, I need to burn midnight oil thou i start studying early, i breakdown super easily when i get stress up for exams. In the past baby will burn midnight oil with me encourage me when i breakdown. But this time round it won’t be the same, he won’t be around. Will i still be able to do it?

Its was all suppose to be a simple friend sence but mintues later it became so evil BF snatching plot! So much about trust, so much about i love him so i trust him. But deep down do you really? Or maybe he dun even deserve your trust in him. Why believe someone who you know have cheated on you over & over & over again! Then following it was days of cursing & swearing, threatening and crying. Is there really a need for all this? This really makes me think is love really that fragile?

Anyway enough of all the emo stuff plus its also because of this I realise how fortunate I am to have so many people around me who cares and trust me prefectly!                                                                                        

 Thanks you Lynette Girlfriend, you are the first person to know about this, thank you for being there for me, comforting me when i felt so helpless & lost when something likt this happen and with alex away for fieldcamp to make things worse. Thanks for being so nice. I really won’t know what foolish things I might do without you around. Thanks for all the messages to ensure that I am okay despite being on sms strike!                                                                   

Thank you Boyfriend for trying to settle things for me and in the end you almost got into trouble yourself! Like i told you a million of times you are the last person that i were wanna see getting hurt because of me! Thanks for the night that you came all the way out from camp just to check on me and make sure that I am safe and sound.                 

 Thank you Boss Leon for texting mt the whole of the afternoon, thou you scolded me silly & blur but it all shows that you really care and thanks for reminding me time and again not to meet her as I might be kidnap by her! And i am not fierce to you all okay, so stop saying I am soft and nice to her but fierce to you all..                                                       

 Thank you Boss Ying An, thou you din text me or stuff (as usual! the boss that do the least :P) but thank for the phone call, for all the jokes you created that make things seem lesser scary…                

Thank you Eunice & Jeffrey for asking if I am okay when you guys realise my facebook shoutout! This little gestaure is greatly appreciated by your friend here!                                                                                                                         

I know there many more dearies who silently cares out there. Thanks!

I really feel very loved & bless by all of you ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

As times goes by in a relationship, people tend to forget the day and month but only focus on the years to come but this sweet BF of mine never fails to forget the 14th of every month, each & every month! Thanks You BF!                                        Happy 50th monthsary! Love you lots lots ♥ ♥ ♥      

He might not be the most handsome & rich BF but he is the BF that love & dote on me the most like his little princess (: