Love what you do, do what you lovE!

Love is patient, Love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud, It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.
Love always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.

Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.
Love never fails.

Corinthians 13 : 4 - 8

` Su-ee
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` 23
` XPS/SNGS/VJC/NTU
` Woman of little words
` Split Personality
` Passive
` Stoner
` In the process of self-discovery
` Only reactive to sodium
` Love what you do, do what you love
` In every challenge lies an opportunity
` Life's not about making the best choice (cos we never know if we would), but rather making the best out of whatever choice we make

Thursday, October 30, 2003

Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak.
Sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go.

NAME ANALYSIS FOR: Peh Su Yi [from here]
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Peh:
You don't fair well under inharmonious conditions. You are very peace loving. You can get very upset when you are frustrated. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts.

Su:
Status is important to you and your ability to achieve success and earn money. You have a need to be noticed and seek status. You are soft-hearted with a charitable nature.

Yi:
Financial gains and status are important elements in your life. You want to do things in your own way and on your own terms. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically.

so in conclusion i am quite materialistic right? hmmm... i think it's quite accurate.... ok, more like very accurate.

chem prac today. was ok i guess, since i could test for all the gas. but i think that i wrote the answer for one ion wrongly, and the design experiment part was totally gone case. hope that i'll do really well...... kind of pinning hopes on chem instead of physics now... did i mention that physics prac was a total disaster? :(

i phlogged in chinese, but i guess it didn't work... so sad....

study hard!!!!! i can't wait for it to be over! and i think there's sth wrong with my body clock. i keep sleeping in the afternoon..... hope that i can stay awake during the Os.... think i'll have to turn to coffee again.

i want to make a new layout!!! but i'll have to wait. i think that i am so 善变... layouts usually lasts for a month only...

oh yar, i ended up getting 74 for my hcl. looks like my "nightmare" came true. who said that dreams were the opposite of reality?

can't wait for all to be over. i really can't wait.

i am putting everything into your hands now. because i believe you will give me what is best for me.

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Tuesday, October 28, 2003

The more a man learns, the more he realises how little he knows.

i'm here. know i shouldn't be, but, since i came online to print some physics stuff, why not just drop by?

physics prac today. was not good. :( i must say that the teachers have great prediction skills. i mean, the experiments was abt the same laws, just that the way it was conducted was different. and it was really rather different. my graph and everything related to it is gone already. i have totally wierd points and i started panicking. and in the end i just anyhow draw a curve which does not have a maximum point when it's suppose to have one. :x bleh. hope chem will be better. and this serves as a warning. for me to study extra extra hard for my Os physics.

i keep dreaming nowadays. does this means that my mind is too unactive during the day and has too much energy to spare in the night? or does it show that i am thinking too much? yesterday, i dreamt that i couldn't get 75 for my hcl. the process was rather long so i shall not elaborate. and i think that my dreams are totally ridiculous.

no more time!!!!! but i just have this very bad feeling for Os. i just hope that i don't panic and breakdown halfway in the middle of an exam.

and sandra toh, click here.

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my flower bloomed at 5:05:00 PM
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Thursday, October 23, 2003

dammit! i think they cheated me of 1 mark for my HCL. i got 69.5 mod 5, so it's 74.5, rounded off, 75! but my results is 74 only!!!!!! i want my precious one mark!!!! :(

You are the Crayon Box. You have a multicolor
personality. You mix well with all the other
colors because there's a small part of every
color inside you.

What Color Crayon Are You
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my flower bloomed at 8:54:00 PM
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How many times did we miss God's blessings
because they are not packaged as we expected?

the last two days were so not productive. to think that i was suppose to be motivated since monday. but at least today is the first day i come online for the whole week. improvement seen.

spent tuesday searching for my dearest gown. and i tell you, colour restriction is just so damn irritating. if not for the rule, i could have just easily bought sth black which i look good in and spend alot less money on the gown. and a lot less time searching for it. anyway, went out early in the morning to orchard and walked here, there, everywhere (literally) and after almost 10 hours, i finally bought my gown, from OG people's park. my legs are still aching... anyway, i took pictures of my gown. please click here and here for front and back view.

due to the tiring and long gown search which caused me to return home at 10+ and hence have to sleep at 12+, i was so damn tired yesterday. and the lessons were so bleh, i might as well not go to school at all. spent geog lessons eating sweets. ok... went to cut hair, and that took a long time cause there was quite a lot of ppl at the shop... so i came home, did 5 maths qn in half and hour and decided to sleep at 8.30. by 9pm, i was asleep on the bed. hehe... it's like the earliest time that i've went to bed.

actually i planned to pon school today. but then received news that we have to collect our results, so went in the end. they moderated quite a lot. but only 1 was of use to me. teachers gave their last advices. had maths lessons. decided to go hc open house and see see look look. was ok lah. quite a good evnironment actually, but i won't go there cause of the ex sch fees. saw a ultra smart pri school classmate who went to rgs. and was shocked that she actually called out my name! i didn't see her actually. and i realise that the journey home was slightly less than an hour.

tmr is a public holiday. time for intensive mugging. time to keep my younger sister out of the room. shall plan my timetable today! and i better follow it closely.

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Sunday, October 19, 2003

What you can't get out of, get into wholeheartedly.

ok. went to vj and tj open house. firstly, i realise that travelling is a huge factor. although i can sleep on the journey to school and back home as usual, it's still a waste of time. esp during evenings. i took 1 and a half hours to travel from tj back home. and a little less than that from vj. for the past few days, i have been yan2 jiu1-ing the map. my bet on the fastest route to tj is 119/136->854->229 and for vj, which i am convinced is faster, is 136/119->55.

ok. back to open house. i thought that it would help me decide where to go, but i didn't feel anything at all. so very neutral. i also dunno why. tj is fine, old at some parts, new at some parts, staircases at the wrong place, basically you have to walk in circles. vj is quite small, the auditorium is nice, the canteen looks like a hawker center, they have tvs too, fans blowing out water vapour, nth much actually. i figured that if you want to go for sports, go tj. but i haven't figure out where to go. sigh. maybe they should organise sth called "life in _jc" then we can go to a jc and study for 1 day to get the feel of life there or sth like that. anyway, i was damn impressed by vj choir, cause they sounded too perfect, and i guess i can nv join them. which led me to wonder, what cca i should join? but that can come later. now i must settle the what sch i should go qn. going nj next week. went there before, shouldn't get lost. hope that i won't feel so neutral.

actually, long long ago, i wanted to go vj. i dunno why, maybe the name just sounds nice. but i've always went to the same sch as my sister, cause well, our standard is kind of the same. so i always rely on her in some ways. and now i am wondering if it is time for me to step out of the comfort zone and brave winds and storms myself.

and i saw 4 ppl from my pri sch, 2 are my p3-4 classmates, 2 are my p5-6 classmates. only said hi to 1, since she was standing right infront of me. and she can't remember who i was, only remembering me as "pri sch classmate issit?" oh well, the last time i saw anyone was 3 years ago. but i am sure i can recognise almost all the girls in my class. my memory aint that bad. and the 4 whom i saw looked more or less the same as before.

i've decided that it's time to exercise some self control and discipline, so i shall like, not use the com unless i am listening to music, not come online for more than 3 times a week. yup. see less of me here. and once i get the phlogger fixed, i shall phlog instead of blog.

i have the motivation to work. i hope it isn't too late. 14 days. and i need exam like conditions. silence pls. (specifically to my younger sister)

tata.

*geraldine: i posted sth for u to read at the previous entry's shoutout. pls read k.

There can be miracles when you believe
Though hope is frail it's hard to kill
Who know what miracle you can achieve
When you believe somehow you will
You will when you believe

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Thursday, October 16, 2003

I would go with you to the ends of the earth and we'll fly.
I've been waiting forever for this,
This is the night.

sleepy sleepy. doing maths makes me want to doze off any time. :/ and i realise that i can't do maths!!!!! brain not working. bleh....

went to buy clay's album today! yay!!! manage to buy it. listening to it now. :) but i paid $1 more for the cd.... bought at the wrong shop. :( and there are some damages on my cd.... :( but nvm.... the songs are more impt. shall put it on repeat mode... and get all the songs into my head in no time. :)

the great big Os is approaching really fast. and i realise that i do not have enough time to get myself fully prepared. but i am just feeling too tired and lazy to work. dumb. dun wanna 临时抱佛脚 again. waking up in the wee hours to cram stuff into your brain is not fun.

motivate.

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my flower bloomed at 5:00:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 15, 2003

There's gotta be more to life.

My inner child is sixteen years old today

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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What gemstone are you?

19// 35//

my flower bloomed at 11:55:00 AM
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Tuesday, October 14, 2003

Not everything that can be counted counts,
and not everything that counts can be counted

pinch your nose and say: i feel terrible.

this was what i have been sounding like for the past 24 hours or so. i suspect that my dear younger sister spread her flu virus to me. sigh. now i can't breathe properly. and i dun feel like eating solid food... i just want sth that will slide down my throat automatically so maybe it won't hurt so much. terrible to be sick. i haven't caught a flu in ages. now the bin is flooded with tissue paper. hope i can recover by thursday. it's hard to breathe through the mouth.

went to compass point to look for clay's CD today, but i saw none. :( thought that i will be able to enjoy his voice fully tmr, since there's no school, but now i can't. shall try again soon. and metro's prom dresses are out. but the colours are terribly wrong, so that means i can't buy anything from there at all. :( buying the grad dress is such a troublesome business. sigh. and i thought that i would be able to see some new daniel yam gowns online but the website is so not updated. sigh. guess i'd have to wait till some magazine with lots of grad stuff to come out.

there's phlogger! guess what it is.... it's blogging thru sms. so interesting right..... i am in the midst of trying it out.

school's quite sian nowadays. i think the lessons are not productive. was falling asleep during chem yesterday. and i feel cold everyday. and the chem teachers have proven themselves to be more kiasu than any other teacher. look at the amt of ws we have?! faints.

i just realise that my eyesight is bad. wearing my old specs, staring at the computer screen, i mistook a fullstop for a comma.

sigh. i can't breathe properly again.

btw, happy 19th chinese birthday, sis! :)

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Saturday, October 11, 2003

Fail again. Try again. Fail better.

i am very irritable today. acting as if the whole world owes me a living.

bleh. tired. was called to fetch my younger sister to the doctor. wasted 2 and a half hours doing that. :/

i am slacking. which is bad. i simply have no mood to do anything!!!!!! tired to print out some prelim papers they post up on epebble, but it's so damn blur, i can't even make out the numbers. plus, there's no answer, so what's the point?

today is wasted, and tmr will be too, for i have to attend some weddng dinner, which i assume will bore me to death.

i know what i want, i know what i have to do, but i simply dun do it. i better change this.

three more weeks. but my momentem is broken. got to get it back asap.

i feel that my prelim results is giving me false hope. i dun want to do any worse for the Os.

and i finally weighed myself today, sandra toh. haha.

where did my i-finger go? sian. i feel like the world is going against me.

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my flower bloomed at 6:09:00 PM
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Thursday, October 09, 2003

When the going gets tough,
the tough gets going.

i am online! when i am suppose to be doing the compassvale eng compre..... hehe... but must go epebble, so i shun bian come here....

ok. so most of the results are out. except emaths cause mrs seah haven't finish marking. i pray and hope that i can get a 1. so far i have plenty of 2s but not a single 1. which makes me sad. unsatisfied. amaths was disappointing. the rest was surprising. and i didn't do well in the paper that i was confident in. like ___. @__@ but nevertheless, i am very happy and satisfied. i think i am really lucky in some ways. yes. 我是幸运的.

now i have to make choices. i hope the open house of the various schools can help me in making my choice. cause i am really lost now.

i hope good results don't lead to complacency. i don't want to meet with any downfall. not at this point of time. but i know that i am complacent already. so obvious. help!

i shall plan my sudy timetable.

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Tuesday, October 07, 2003

finally finally. the banner is gone.

now, where did my shout out go?

i am evolving into a lumpen mass. help!

i need to exercise desperately.

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sleepy sleepy.

got back 2 papers in two days. i hate waiting. tmr will be do or die day.

quite happy with my results. i mean, what more can i expect? they came as a surprise. a good one. just keep this A2 trend going and i'll be happy.

dunno why but everytime i see maths i'll feel like sleeping.

i still can't fix my layout. bahh.

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Sunday, October 05, 2003

ok. i am damn worried. eng. dun wanna fail it.

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sigh. i can't seem to get rid of the stupid banner.... :(

lot's of maths hw to do.... sian...

went out yesterday...... saw some nice but expensive gowns.... nice gowns are hard to find, i just realise.

eh, tmr is the big day.... should write a will before i get a heart attack. haha. actually i dun have much properties, so it doesn't matter. :/ good luck to everyone.

i better start studying.

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my flower bloomed at 2:08:00 PM
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Friday, October 03, 2003

i finally got my new layout out. after three day's work. but there are still many flaws. shall edit them soon....

i'm tired. yawn. walked around orchard today. legs aching. too unfit liao... anyway, orchard has no gowns, except daniel yam ones, which is out of my budget. yeah. i just realise how hard it is to buy a gown. off to search for more tmr. bet my legs will break.

last day of jc talks. i want to go to the open house. cause nth is more accurate than seeing it yourself. yeah. and can gauge the travelling time...

next week. i'd rather they hit me with the bad news all at one go. it's torturing to recieve bad news one day after another. boo. and i can't wait to get over and done with it. perhaps the goodness of it all is that it will ~~hopefully~~ motivate me to study hard. gotta redo the maths prelim papers. but i don't mind really.

got to learn the grad song. it's really nice. touching. nearly cried when listening and singing. can't imagine what will happen on the actual day. i'll probably do the opposite of smile on that day.

Souriez
The sights and sounds we treasure
To these we hold on tight
Now it's time to say goodbye
And leaving's never kind

From children we've grown stronger
Now like eagles we take flight
We've learnt we've laughed together
But from today I'll leave your side

Souriez cause you know I'll be your shelter in the rain
Souriez for there's always many good times through the pain
No matter where our roads will take us, how far apart it may
Souriez when you think back on today

Standing in the present
Walking on ahead
Memories formed around us
Upon the path we laid

Together we have weathered
Through countless winds and storms
But it's never time to say goodbye
Our bond's still deep and strong

Oh, no one, no one
Can let this feeling fade
We've found it we'll keep it
We'll come back someday and we'll smile as we say

Souriez when you think back on
Souriez when you think back on
Souriez when you think back on today

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Thursday, October 02, 2003

listening to jc talks is a depressing activity. i hate decision making. i wish that i never had to make any choices. can't things just remain the same?

seems like we are one of the slowest school in getting our results. another friend of mine got 11 points. i guess i made a mistake in asking. i'll be really contented with anything like that.

have been spending time making my layout. hope it'll be ready by tmr. but i dun think so.

sian. i am tired. bored. i dunno. just sian.

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Wednesday, October 01, 2003

there's sth wrong with my nose. it hurts. but the problem is, i dunno what's wrong.

i just realised that my image programme's trial version has expired!!! ahh!!! now i can't make my new layout. how great. i've already search for my picture!!!!! i planned out everything liao!!!!! sob....

had 3 jc talks today. and reality is hitting me hard. not quite yet, but soon. next week. it bothers me. i got this premonition that the truth is going to hit me hard. right in my face. then i dunno how to face it. and i dun want to face it. :( how..... one friend of mine got 9 points! gosh. it's really really depressing lor. i wished i didn't have to study. i can't face my results. probably end up in depression. haha. that's too serious. ok. anyway, i think the rj teachers and principal are nice.... if not for the ri and rg dominance in the school, i will consider going there. if i can make it.

sigh.... i am extremely bothered by this uncertainty. i think i won't be able to sleep in peace.

happy children's day by the way.

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