Love what you do, do what you lovE!

Love is patient, Love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud, It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.
Love always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.

Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.
Love never fails.

Corinthians 13 : 4 - 8

` Su-ee
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` 23
` XPS/SNGS/VJC/NTU
` Woman of little words
` Split Personality
` Passive
` Stoner
` In the process of self-discovery
` Only reactive to sodium
` Love what you do, do what you love
` In every challenge lies an opportunity
` Life's not about making the best choice (cos we never know if we would), but rather making the best out of whatever choice we make

Friday, December 30, 2005

just came back fr tanjong pagar. dunno what to feel now.

the interview turned out to be a introduction about the company. it's about biomagnetism. and now i'm down for training for the nxt week. note no pay will be given. =( after the training they will decide if i stay or go. =( so... it can be a fruitful one week, or a wasteful one week. hope it will be the former. maybe it's just god's arrangement to make me come out of my shell huh.. so coincidentally that after one week of job search, i end up here. maybe it's all meant to be. plus i stayed there way to long which made me miss my other interview at bugis. well, i shall take this as a break. one more week before i have to look at classified again. (hopefully i won't) sometimes we have to think positive right?

anw the company is filled with lame ppl. ok maybe just one lame person. and most of them speak chinese! quite rare. but i'm still not confident of myself, because i'm simply not a people person. i'm passive, not interactive. even when playing maple story, i'll wait for the monsters to charge at me, not me attacking them first. haha. so anw... i really dunno what to expect.

may god bless me.

one fruitful thing i learnt today: i'm healthy! i saw my finger blood vessels or ions or whatever flowing and i don't have clogged arteries or whatever. haha.

ok time to go. tata

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classified ads on temp jobs are getting lesser and lesser by the day.

still not looking forward to ltr's corporate interview. i can't picture myself working there!

hope i don't screw up the other admin interview. i don't mind screwing up the corporate one though. haha.

now i'm gg out everyday for interviews. =( waste bus fare money.

dinning out today. no money. cycling tmr. no money again.

maybe i should just stay at home and maple for the nxt half a year. and then i'll become a level 70 mage by july.

i had a bad dream for half an hr this morning. wierd ppl in my dream too. like mediacorp artists. haha. maybe i've been watching too much teeveeeeee! nxt wk i can watch shows for 4 hrs straight fr 7-11pm. wahaha. haven't done that for a long time.

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Thursday, December 29, 2005

gggrrr. so much competition for jobs. it's only 12 noon and they tell me all the interview slots are full?!? grrr. and i'm still dreading the interview tmr.

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

i hate being a full time job seeker. =( i better not be unemployed next time when i graduate. i'll feel very sad and depressed.

went for interview again today. went all the way to toa payoh and decided not to go for the tution coordinator interview. hah. anw went for another interview at tanjong pagar and damn! not admin work! seems like i'll be trained to train ppl. management. the person mentioned business management! goodness. i so cannot make it for the job. and first time ppl speak chinese to me during interview. i stupidly agreed to come down for a 2nd interview on fri and i'll be facing the big boss or director or big shot... cham. still ask me wear office wear. and everyone there wears suits and ties. =( i secreatly hope i dun get the job. unless the pay is super attractive that it can make me overcome my fears. but i doubt so.

travelling by adult fair is expensive! a train ride cost $2+. i feel so poor.

more interviews tmr. hais. just hurry interview and give me a job! i'm sick of waking up in the morning and stare at classified, call or email potential co.s tt will hire me, go all over sg for interviews. and i have no more formal clothes to wear!

job seeking sucks. you get my point.

my contacts is gg to be thrown away soon! took a photo of it for fun. haha. 做纪念.

saw nice pc wallets! the leather is like damn soft. but the price is damn high. i'll buy it if i have a source of income.

i can't stand being poor. that's why i can't stand being unemployed.

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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

once i start mapling in the night i can't stop. this is bad. =(

looking forward to gd classified ads tmr!

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Monday, December 26, 2005

today is a public holiday and i see no newspaper. where is my classified?! i need the classified!!! =(

well, tmr will be a better day. i shall start calling companies up. and find a job before the new year!

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

Ho ho ho!!! Merry Christmas!!!

hope everyone enjoys this festive season! i really want to go for boxing day shopping... but. no resources. =(

spent christmas eve and christmas attending a funeral. i think i ate too much peanuts and guay ji so now i have a bluging tummy like Santa. =(

Speaking of Santa, i've been wanting to tell him to grant me my christmas wish!!!!!! let me retrieve my wallet and find a job with pay above 1K pls!!!! thank you. =)

dong zhi is over and i haven't ate any tang yuans.

one cousin went to become an air stewardess. i've always thought that it was a cool job, although i feel that it can be quite dangerous. what happens if there is a plane crash or terrorist attack? and it's qt unsafe for a suagu person like me to be wondering alone in some other faraway place. anw, i was thinking, since i don't think i'm accountant material and i prolly dun know what are the possible careers for an ASS grad, maybe i can go FASS and then become an air stewardess when i graduate! hahaha. but still i think it's not a job for life. there's no old and ugly air stewardess right. so i still have to look for another job ltr. =( hmmmm. ok that's like one of my possible job choices. maybe i'll consider it if i nv become a fat pig when i graduate. haha.

i haven't mapled in more than 24 hrs! now that's record breaking.

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Saturday, December 24, 2005

this morning (or should i say last morning) i was dreaming about losing the neoprints that i took that day. i dreamt that they fell out from my wallet and was no where to be found.

guess what happened today (yesterday to be exact)?

i lost my wallet.

i must say that i think this is the first (or one of the vv few. i can't rmb) times that i actually lose my wallet. i dare say that i've been rather careful and the closest i've been to losing my wallet in my memory was when my wallet dropped into the toilet bowl in pr1 and i cried like mad. i seriously don't think i've ever lost my wallet! and now it's gone! poofs. =( i'm damn sad. cause about $16 was inside (pls note that it's money and any amt is significant because i'm v poor with no income now), my ic!!!!!!! , my atm card, my neocard, my small neoprint, my agent's namecard, my NDC dental apptm card, my library card, my ez link, my hairdresser's discount card, a charmainder (or whatever pokemon i forgot the name) phonecard, my 符(? chinese deteriorating) and my young photo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like how can i ever replace all these things?!?!?!?! boohoo. i hope someone found my wallet and will return to me. i hope it's not a case of theft or i'll never get to see my wallet again.

please let me find my wallet...

on a slightly happier note, i received my first (and prolly the last) christmas present! it's a sundress packed in a box. first time i'm receiving clothes in a box and i think it's damn cool! it's so class and elegant. muahaha. i think clothes packed in a box are for those prissy princesses and are only seen on tv shows. anw it's a nice dress. the third in my cupboard. (the first 2 are my sec 4 and jc prom dress) but somehow i think i won't wear it v often. still, i think i'll try la... time to wear new clothes! i really want new clothes. and new alot of things! but i can't afford to buy christmas present for myself! =( the problem of being unemployed. tis saddening.

chirstmas is coming the goose is getting fat,
please put a penny in the old man's hat.
if u haven't got a penny then a half-penny will do.
if u haven't got a half-penny then
god bless you! god bless you!
(lyrics may be innaccurate due to the failing memory of the blogger)

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

ytd i was feeling shocked, panicky, excied etc. today i'm feeling nth. is it better to be kept busy, or is it better to be home alone feeling bored and meaningless? just one day apart and feelings are so different.

hope the starhub ppl call soon because i will need to start looking for jobs! jan is coming! i should not be jobless!

the ball of my feet still hurts from the heels yesterday. =(

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Wednesday, December 21, 2005

so i went for the first interview in my entire life. or should i say first 2. and i think that hmmm. i'm not suited for interviews. haha.

the house phone rang this morning. i refuse to climb down my bunk and answer it so it rang and rang and stopped. then my hp which was on my bed rang. i recognised the number. recruit express. oops. my agent told me that there is this starhub customer service job. attracted by the 9 bucks an hr pay, i happily agreed although i know that i am not exactly the ideal candidate for customer service. haha. ok so i had to pass an interview by his manager first before i go down to starhub. the agent prep me for a while. i'm starting to think that he is actually a nice person. manager comes. interview starts, interview ends. ok i can go down to starhub. so i tried to follow instructions and get there, trying to run in my heels cause i was late alr. then finally when i got there i saw some other candidates who were also sent down by recruit express. waited for a while before it was my turn. after that, met the interviewer, interview starts, interview ends. this time i think i kena stun by her qn. then i was silent for a while. then i started er-ing. all the big no-nos during interviews! so i think i'm not very hopeful about getting the job. anyway i heard that the job is really tough. so maybe it's a blessing in disguise? haha. jobs are really hard to find nowadays...

anw, i think i must really do somethings: (not in order of importance)

sleep by 2am and wake up earlier like a normal person
exercise ~~maybe~~
new blog layout
decide on uni course
pack my stuff
buy work clothes
reduce my mapling hrs
learn photoshop (i must say that xiaxue is really pro aft looking at some of her edited photos)
read

the badminton four finally met up after a gazillion years! and i finally took neoprint aft 956478312 years. haha. we shall play badminton and make that part of my exercise plan. ;)

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Saturday, December 17, 2005

i have been suffering from unpeaceful sleeps and waking up earlier than i should have these few days, for fear tthat the job agent will call me anythime. this is bad. it's been almost a week and i'm getting impatient. i shall email him tmr. hope that that is not considered as a rude gesture.

i dreamt that someone wanted me to sing christmas charols with her.

i need to do productive stuff and not play maple story.

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Thursday, December 15, 2005

christmas is coming. i just received a christmas card fr liyun. like her, i will always get reminded of our goldcoast days during christmas. those were the days... and all the christmas songs that i've learnt in choir... maybe i should dig out all my christmas charols score and sing them. wahaha.

i desperately want the customer service job!! mr. agent, pls offer me the job!

time to change layout. maybe.

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Saturday, December 10, 2005

wooo i'm so irritated w all the photo webbies. they keep resizing images and make them so puny. i hate small photos. grrr.

i need a job!!!!! i need to fill my newly created bank account w money!!!!

time to train our vocals and chinese reading skills. wahahaha.

i feel so lazy. not doing the things i'm suppose to do and doing the things i'm not suppose to do. hurhur.

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Sunday, December 04, 2005

today is the 4th of dec so happy sisterhood day!

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so prom is over... it was just so so i guess... lots of photo taking. i would say that it is more of a photo taking day than anything else.

started the day by fantically packing my stuff and making sure that nth goes wrong. tried v hard to cover my tan line thru various means. haha. used a cheapo mtd. anyway set out to vanessa's hse and went to do hair and makeup together. wasn't very please with the service, especially the hairdressers. fortunately it turned out to be ok. (but i had a hard time washing my hair cause it was full of glitter, gel, some other stuff and alot of knots and tangles) after that jean's dad fetched us to carlton hotel where the class booked a room, so we went to put our stuff there first. cabbed down to ritz and started taking photos. a first glance i couldn't really recognise people i saw cause they were either too over made up or too low profile that i really don't think i've seen them ard in school before. anw, we took more photos and finally went into the ballroom for dinner. dinner was really quite disappointing, considering the price. just pretty, small portions on a big plate. not that delicious. too bad i didn't take a photo of the food. wanted to take photo of the prom tix too, but kind of lost it too. sigh. anw, as i said, prom was all abt taking photo. at one pt of time only mickey and kp were at the table eating and all the rest were walking ard taking photos. not much prog gg on also... just that host, some cjc dance and a few bands... yup. that's about all. walked back fr ritz to calton. lol. took stupid photos along the way. and i tell you, it's v hard to run with heels wearing a tube and dangling earrings because 1. your feet will hurt, 2. your dress threatens to slip down and 3. your earrings will drop out if your earhole is too big.

back at the hotel, we played stupid games, went to bathe (took damn long). talked. apparently, some people think that i will win survivor if that group of us who were in the hotel took part. lol. haha. i think i can't really survive. apparently i'm low profile but i kind of know how to plan and scheme. hahaha. ok. anw we all didn't slp for the whole night. sth bad happened along the way and chua was sent to the hospital. but he was ok in the end la. but some stupid staff of the hotel got us v angry cause he chased away our cab. it was an emergency ok. we need to go to the hospital and he still chase away our cab. grrrrr. luckily chua is fine or else........ anw aft tt some of us went for breakfast at macs nearby. then came home and slept.

been watching full hse since fri and i've finished watching it!!! yay. qt fast. haha. not bad la. qt funny, but sometimes qt heart wrenching too. first time watching a korean drama that is not about sister loving brother and someone dies or lose his memory or whatever. not a sappy love story. which is good! i like happy endings. but dramas are dramas.

now there's nth to watch alr.... probably go back to playing maple story. have better things to do, like upload photos and pack my stuff and think of what to study in uni and find a job. but i feel lazy! just feel like rotting around.

time to slp, although it's still qt early, considering my recent habits. haha.

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