when i hear about people, who have been together for a couple of years, breaking up, i can't help but wonder, sometimes with fear: when will it be my turn?
the fortune teller did not mention that i will have a happy family. there will be arguments, she said. and i didnt probe further. i didnt want to know. i dont want it to be a self fulfilling prophecy.
the truth is, human beings are easily tempted. easily swayed. blinded by superficial things, practical concerns. i'm not saying all of us are. but more often than not alot of people are.
comparing with others might be a good or bad thing. i dont know. makes me feel like im always inferior and not good enough in many aspects. what i have is just the tip of an iceberg, compared to others. but if you put aside all comparison, you'll realise life aint that bad afterall.
i can't tell if the grass is always greener on the other side or not. i hope it isnt. but i can't help thinking that it is.
sometimes my mind is just filled with contradictory thoughts.
i have no idea what i value, no idea what i want. i need to have some kind of believe. and strongly believe in it.