Thursday, January 15, 2009

Ethanese Series

Ethan cracks me up.

We went to This is the Place Monument Park in Utah before Christmas with all the cousins and Grandma/Grandpa Jorg. It was so fun - live nativity, puppet show, caroling, square dancing, etc. I asked Ethan if he had fun and he said, "um ... not really."

My dad loves his grandson Ethan and often tells him that he's gorgeous (his way of saying Ethan is so cute). While we were there at Christmas Ethan asked me, "Why does grandpa call me gorgeous?"

We're still working out the kinks with potty training. Over Christmas break, Ethan peed on me and said, "It's okay mommy." (Um ... no, not okay!!!) Then right after he said, "Mommy, there's pee on your shirt, you need to wash it." (Thanks, bud!)

So I've mentioned before that Ethan doesn't like to get his hair washed, wet, brushed, or cut. We tried to give him a hair cut after Christmas, but it was a nightmare!!! He screamed and cried through the whole thing. I tried to explain to him that getting haircuts is just something we do. I told him if we don't cut our hair, we will look like monkeys. This almost made it worse. He started wailing, "I don't wanna look like a monkey!"

More on Potty Training Adventures: It sometimes is a constant struggle to get Ethan to go potty, so we initiated something called "Happy Potty." Now when he goes, he'll yell, "I went happy potty!!" He'll even sometimes say, "Hey mom, do you remember when I peed on you?"

He still calls girls "grills." I'll often tell him before bed that he's my best boy. He'll say, "You're my best grill." I'll then say, "Goodnight sweet Ethan," and he'll say, "Goodnight sweet Mommy."

Ethan's pants are usually too long, so he often asks, "Mommy, roll my sleeves up." (Roll up the pants."

When I had a hard moment during Christmas, he came up and started patting my back and stroking my hair, saying, "There, there." It's amazing how kids imitate us.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Happy Birthday Oliver!

We sang this specific verse at your funeral for a reason:
"He gave me my eyes that I might see
The color of butterfly wings.
He gave me my ears that I might hear
The magical sound of things.
He gave me my life, my mind, my heart:
I thank Him reverently
For all His creations, of which I'm a part
Yes, I know Heavenly Father loves me."

In my mind I can see you with Father up above dancing with butterflies, listening to His calming voice, and watching over us.

"Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning." 
I don't have many memories of Oliver because our time with him was so short. However, I'll never forget the outpouring of love we received from our family and friends. I mean, my mother even flew home from Africa for heaven's sake! I love Marjorie Pay Hinckley's quote, "Be kind. Everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." So with that I wanted to challenge everyone reading this to try to do something kind for someone else today.  During the entire year, I have not been able to re-read the many notes/letters of care we received. But today I am reading them again, and I wanted to give a sampling of some of the kindness shared with us one year ago. Today, I glean strength from the Savior and all of you.

"My heart is heavy as I can honestly say that I understand what you are going through ..."
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"In the span of two short days you have witnessed a valiant spirit leave this world ... we're certain we cannot comprehend the joy that will be experienced when we see each other again."
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"We are thinking of you."
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"It is my hope and prayer that you may be be able to feel some peace."
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"My heart aches that you are hurting."
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"Thank you for reminding all of us to treasure the ones we love."
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"You are in my prayers each and every day."
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"We know you will fare well."
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"Oliver is a wonderful example to our family as we've had beautiful opportunities to talk about our Heavenly Father's plan."
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"I also felt a deep sense of gratitude for the blessing it is to fast and pray for each other."
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"Somehow, when our thoughts turn to him, we can hear faint echoes of a pre-mortal past and a promising future."

Grow, little flower, reach for the light, your sweet little spirit forever in bloom.
Glow, little star, tucked into the heavens, cradled with care in the curve of the moon.
Blow, little leaf, to a beautiful someplace safe in the sheltering arms of a breeze -
Know, little one, that you'll always be with us ... forever held close in our love's memories.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Beautiful Colors

I appreciate the small and simple things. Ethan got up particularly early one morning when we were in Yakima for Thanksgiving. The sunrise was spectacular. We watched it together. I said, "Ethan, look at this." And Ethan said, "Oh Mommy, what beautiful colors." It was a special moment I wanted to remember.