Monday, March 19, 2012

It's Spring.....

And still snowing.

I'm not a fan of the white stuff but lucky for me I (1- don't have to drive in it, and (2- it melts by noon, if it sticks at all.

Things have been fairly uneventful around these parts. The kids are still in their regular activities. The boys have reached their blue belt in Tae Kwon Do. Jacey is becoming a live Gumby, and can bend and contort into all kinds of uncomfortable positions. Everyone is getting tired of the cold wet weather around here and the kids and Duke will run out to enjoy the 5 minute breaks of sunshine we are blessed with every so often. I'm getting antsy myself for some nice weather.

Spring break is approaching fast and we have some big family fun planned, a birthday, a building project, and most exciting would be that Dustin should be here to enjoy it with us. We've sure waited a long time to enjoy a couple weeks with our soldier and are SUPER glad it's right around the corner.

Logan's health has been good up until recently. His sweet sister shared her cold with him. He turns 14 in a couple of weeks! He's so stoked. Eighth grade has been good to Logan and he seems to be mister social. He excels at tae kwon do, still loves a good book, and is ready to get back into swmming.

Gavin hit double digits and celebrated his 10th birthday with a lunch date with Mom, followed by a shopping spree, then dinner with everyone and ice cream cake too! He is my sweet smarty pants, and he's becoming a challenge for his teacher. Just today he told me that he "mostly takes naps in the morning at school because he gets his work done too fast". He's an extreme reader, loves math, and enjoys hanging out with his friends from school.

Jacey is finally settling into kindergarten and learning it's not all about her. It only took her 6 months to realize nobody at school can see her crown. ;) She's still in love with dance, and is amazingly strong and flexible, which landed her a solo in her acro routine for recital. She loves to color, decorate, and organize. She loves make up, but hates to have her hair fixed. She insists on wearing her purple and red tie dyed cowboy boots with everything.

I have had my fill of doctors and complications for the year already. What started as a visit to the ENT for MRSA and a recurring sinus infection, turned into 3 pulled teeth, secondary infection, a botched root canal, trips to the endodontist, more secondary infections, a slew of crazy medications, trips to the ER (3), allergy testing, CT scans, and imunosuppressive therapy. That's just within the last month (and off the top of my head). I follow up with the surgeon in a week to find out when my next sinus surgery will need to be scheduled, and crossing my fingers it's after August is over.

Dustin has been busy busy "over there". He has been studying for the board, but it keeps getting pushed back so it's looking like he won't go until May now. He was a part of a big reenlistment ceremony, where he resigned for another 2 years of active duty. It was a big tough choice to make since he wasn't able to follow his original plan for reclassifying into a different job. Hopefully everything happens for a reason and this change of plans will lead us down an even better path than what we'd hoped for. He's looking forward to r&r soon and the end of deployment.

So that's our update so far. I'm hoping to get a post together with some new pictures. Not much exciting going on around here yet. Soon living in the pacific northwest will pay off and we'll be blessed to enjoy the amazing area!! Going without sun for soooo long really makes you appreciate it when you get it. I've already started planning our spring and summer bucket list. Hopefully the Dad man is as willing a participant as the kids were (forced to be) last year ;)

Monday, January 2, 2012

Christmas In Pictures

What are holidays without muddy puppy prints to clean up?
Jaceys most favorite gift turned out to be a hair set for her dolls.
Teenagers.... music, headphones, new books.... he's a happy camper.
The coolest new Nerf alternative.... no foam darts for the dog to eat!

The flash! it's too bright! Can we open our gifts now that you've blinded us?
Bitty Twins Ava and Aiden. Jacey is loving them!
Duke found his gift under the tree and was mad the kids wouldn't stop opening theirs to play with him.

Gavin loves art! He got a set of pencils and nice paper to practice on. Maybe his school work will have more work than doodles now? It was worth a try!

A Brand New Year

Well, as the first day of 2012 ends I'm feeling very optimistic about everything that will unfold this year. It will be a year of many changes for our family, both big and small. I'm excited to see how it will unfold, since we still have no idea what direction things will head.

We're nearing the half way mark on this deployment, and I'd thought that would feel like a big hurdle. I was hoping for a sense of relief, for a weight to be lifted, a feeling of "it's all downhill from here- the hard part is over"...... but that is far from how I actually am feeling.

I'm more annoyed with the whole thing. I'm tired of it. I'm fine, emotionally I don't feel much different. I will say I find myself getting aggravated easily over little things though, and that's not my style. It's a feeling of not being able to do anything to change the situation even if I wanted to...

There's also the reality, that if all our best laid plans come true, Dustin will be gone the majority of this year too. Our goal is for him to go back for additional training to allow him to change jobs after this deployment. He'll only be home approximately 2.5 months out of 2012. We only got him for about We only got him for about 4-5 months in 2011. So.... about 6 months together out of two years adds up to a lot of alone. And after a while, alone gets old. I will be the first to admit that there are times I love alone. I'm the perfect person to be alone.... but even I get over it at some point.

I wonder sometimes if our communication options were better if I'd not be so aggravated lately.... who knows. Too many what-ifs to really know. What I do know, is I'm super happy to be getting our lives back to busy! We took a break from everything over the Christmas holiday, and getting back in the swing of things will be helpful. We all do better when we have our routines as close to normal as possible.

Now that I've spent plenty of time complaining, I will try to be better about some fun exciting picture filled updates!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011


It's amazing to me how quickly this year has passed. Over all, we've had some major changes but are all doing wonderfully!



Dustin and I celebrated our twelve year wedding anniversary. We've spent half of our lives together as a couple, and although it makes me feel old, I can't imagine spending it any other way. I feel blessed to have married young and look forward to all the years and adventures we still have ahead of us.

I've been really enjoying being able to stay at home with my children. One of the many blessing and benefits that comes from Dustin joining the Army! I couldn't be happier as an Army wife. I've been blessed with meeting some of the best friends here, and really love the area. I'm secretly hoping we stay for quite a while! I volunteer with an organization that rescues dogs adopted by soldiers in Afghanistan, and it sure is a wonderful way to keep busy.




Dustin left for a year long deployment to Afghanistan this summer. It's been a big change for the entire family, but we've all adapted wonderfully. We get to have regular communication, and occasionally the internet will cooperate and we can skype face to face. His job there is a long, hard, stressful one, but also one of great importance that saves many lives. He is eagerly looking forward to his 2 week break in the spring, then will return to finish his deployment.




Logan is becoming a typical teenage boy. He enjoys sleep, eating, talking to friends, texting, tae kwon do, sleep, texting, and the computer. He also still loves to read, and flies through a series in no time. He's always looking for suggestions on what to read next. Logan is in 8th grade now, and just made the first quarter honor roll. He's also been awarded to "Character Counts" awards, which teachers nominated him for. He is Green Belt-One Stripe and is hoping to test soon for his Blue Belt. He also took first place this fall for his division in a board braking tournament.




Gavin is having a remarkable year! If you didn't know, Gavin had a very rocky start with his education, and was usually below grade level. He suffers from severe anxiety, and ADD. This year we took him off meds for the summer, to give him a break from the undesirable side effects. He seemed to do so well, that he started 4th grade unmedicated. He was lucky to have the same teacher move up with him, which I think played a big part in his success. He is already testing at a 5th grade reading level, and off the charts in math. His teacher estimates by the end of 4th grade, he will test out in a high school level for math! Gavin loves reading now too, and usually picks up the series Logan had just finished. He enjoys riding his bike, playing with friends, being outside, Tae Kwon Do, playing with Duke, jokes, video games, and drawing. He is also a Green Belt- One Stripe and will test soon for his Blue Belt like Logan.




Jacey, oh Jacey. She really keeps us all on our toes. She started kindergarten this year, and while she started off great, is now noticing she is not the center of attention all the time. It's an adjustment for her. She is a bright girl, but like to do things her way. She's also got some perfectionism in there too! It's obvious she is the baby of the family, and she fills that roll to the fullest. Jace started her 3rd year of ballet this fall, is still eating it up, and would live at the dance studio if I'd let her. She's taking 3 classes and performing in 2 acts in the nutcracker. She's found a great love for Acrobatics as well. At 5 years old, she dances in the 7-9 year old classes. Jacey loves animals, her American Girl doll, make up, dance, bossing her brothers around, singing, snuggling, and arts and crafts.




Duke will be turning 2 next month and can be quite a challenge at times! We attempted obedience training with some success, but our goal to pass the Canine Good Citizen test this year was a tad unrealistic for a hard headed Labrador puppy. He's an amazing addition to our family, and hopefully in a years time will be a certified therapy dog. I can't wait for him to be able to visit hospitals and bring comfort and happiness to others like he does to us. Duke loves treats, baths, to swim, play fetch, sleep, go to daycare, and have sleep overs with his best friend Lola. He knows many commands, but still lacks good manners outside of home.




We really hope you enjoyed our update, and that this letter finds you well. Have a very Merry Christmas and a Blessed New Year!

Love,
The Moore Family

Sunday, December 4, 2011

The Ugly Truth

I completely had abandoned this blog. I really didn't have any intention of coming back to it. I'm surprised I remembered my log in info. Since I did remember, and even on the first try, I decided that would be my sign that it was time to get back at it. So here's the ugly truth.
With as long as my break from blogland has been, I'm not even going to attempt a catch up. But fair warning, this is a long and lengthy and not-too-fun post... so sorry. I promise from here on they'll get better!
We are currently well into the first half of Dustin's first deployment, and it's definitely been an eye opening experience for me. I've learned a lot, about so many different things.
I wish I'd gotten to this blog a few months ago, while everything was still pretty peachy and my outlook on this year of flying solo still contained many brightly colored hopes and dreams. Since I'm about a month past that phase, it's not so pretty. So please bear with me while I learn to figure this all out. It's been a host of various issues, all piling on top of each other, and eventually wearing me down to a point where recovery seems a daunting task. I try to remind myself multiple times a day, that it's just life. There have been no major disasters. The children are thriving, happy and well.... and me, well..... I'll survive, cause that's just what I do.
The good news is I'm actively trying to help myself. I started seeing a therapist (who I lovingly refer to as 'the-rapist' on occasion). I've found a PCM (primary care manager- this is army speak-learn it) who I actually respect and have some faith in. Read: she doesn't make me feel crazy. I'm also trying to get back on meds for my ADD. My drive to prevent "crazy" is enough to assure me that I am in fact quite sane, since crazy people don't know well enough to worry about going crazy.
Now some details:
(if your just stalking and don't really care feel free to skip this part)
Life at home returned to normal at a much faster pace than I had anticipated. The kids were in the middle of their summer break when Dustin left, meaning that the lack of schedule provided plenty of wiggle room to allow for 'bad days' and 'adventure days'. It allowed us to get out and do things, like camping, vacationing, etc. And boy were we busy. So busy, I was eager to get the school year going so I could find some time to breathe.
My memories now looking back on our summer are so clouded. I remember the first days of school clearly though since it was a much anticipated year for any parent.... all of my children went to school full time. I enjoyed the freedom of hours of uninterrupted time to myself. I had grand ideas of how that time would be spent. Unfortunately our immune systems had other plans.
Now, I'm admittedly a very sickly person. I have no clue why and I make no excuses. My kids however are generally healthy, only experiencing the minor flu bug or virus once or so throughout the fall and winter. Not. This. Year. I think it's safe to say not a week has passed that someone in this house hasn't been ill. And not just sniffles... we're talking strep throat. Pneumonias. Strange fevers that last for a week. ER trips. Vomiting. More doctors appointments than I care to count. Someone is always sick! (as I type this Jaceys is laying next to me in bed with her fever breaking... she's managed to strip out of her feeties without even waking up)
A couple months of sick has lead to.....
Add to that, my ADD. It's out of control and that's putting it nicely. Without someone here to hold me accountable, nothing gets done. I'm not kidding either, and it drives me crazy. I feel completely handicapped by my brains inability to function properly. Telling me to "just do it" is like telling someone in a wheel chair to "just try harder to walk". It isn't always this bad, in fact, it's never been this bad. It leaves me feeling so defeated, before I even try. It gives me anxiety. It sets me up for failure no matter what I do to try and help myself. I makes me depressed.
So, to quote 'the rapist', "You have three fires burning".
Depression, ADD, and my Health (sinuses). All three major problems to be dealt with, each problem fueling the others, and the only way to resolve this is to treat them all at once. It means doing things I greatly dislike. Like lots of medicine and doctors appointments..... admitting my weaknesses. But I have no choice but to continue ahead hoping for the best.
As for my sinuses... I'm still awaiting an appointment with my ENT. I had one scheduled, but due to starting on the wellbutrin, and it's lovely side effects, I had to cancel. I will reschedule on Monday.... while I'm at my home away from home for some lab work.
I've learned some things. (1)I will never ever again go off my Adderall, because it's now near impossible to get someone to prescribe it again. (2)I will never ever take Wellbutrin again. After two doses I was about ready to have myself committed to a hospital. It was an ugly day in my life, who knew medications could mess with your mental health in such a negative way?? (maybe I'm just naive) (3) Not all medical professionals are lousy. I just seem to have bad luck finding the ones who aren't. (4) Having a strong support system is worth a million dollars. I know I have a handful of people I could call on for help.... but there are 2 in particular I couldn't make it without. (5) I'm stronger than I give myself credit for- and my own worst critic.
Next I will try to fill you in on the kiddos, and maybe even on Dustin.... since lately deployed life seems to be the least of my problems ;)

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Summer Summer!

Our summer has already been an eventful one!
Logan was admitted to Madigan for a sinus surgery (We're thinking it was #7), a bronch, and a clean out. He spent 3 days there, and is now completing IV antibiotics at home. Keeping our fingers crossed that his PFT's are up when we go for follow up next week.
Jacey had 2 weeks off from dance, and is back at it, dancing 3 nights a week. She eats it up! If we could afford it, she'd dance for hours on end. She's already starting choreography for this winters nutcracker, and bounces around the house humming the music. I'm even thinking of letting her "audition" for more parts in it this year. She loves it that much!
I've taken a break from bow land. I just feel I have too much on my plate right now to give it 100%. Family first, right?
Gavin and Logan are testing in a couple weeks for Tae Kwon Do again. I think they're actually starting to lose some interest... probably because it's getting harder.... but also because they have a major case of the "lazies" this summer.
Dustin only has a few days left at home before he begins his journey "over there". I sent out an email with his address, contact me if you haven't gotten it and want it. So far it's been smooth sailing and I'm hoping the rest of the transition goes as well.

Thursday, June 30, 2011

My Deployment Bucket List

I have a year. Alone. I could sit and wait around and feel sorry for myself.
OR
I could go and do and accomplish all the things I've been wanting to do, but they don't seem to interest Dustin. So I'm making a list :)
I want to rent a beach house.
I want to take the kids camping at Kalaloch.
I want to go to Mt Rainier.
I want to go to the museum of glass.
I want to fly space a to Utah, and California, at least once.
I want to see a play.
I want to take the kids to disney on ice.
I want to go to the American Girl store.
I want to go back to the gym.
I want to lose 50 lbs.
I would say Hawaii.... but it'd break Dustin's heart if we went without him! Everything else on this list, are things I've wanted to do for about 2 years. Things that Dustin would rather not partake in. So instead of dragging him along, I've saved them for this year. I'm sure I will add more to the list as time passes. But I wonder just how many I will be able to cross off in this year?

Monday, June 20, 2011

Happy Father's Day!

Hoping my dad had a great day! He is an amazing Dad and we wish we got to see more of him!
My poor hubby spent the day being sick, but we spoiled him any way!
I also realize it's been over a month since I updated the blog... so in completely random order, here are some pictures to enjoy!

Jacey at her recital.
Caught her mid chew. She was too busy trying to get rid of me to worry about pictures!

My sweet husband spoiled me with a NEW RING! It's pretty awesome I can't lie.

Duke and Jacey having a camp out in the family room.




A few from our trip to Utah.






Our Great Strides Team, Logan's Crew. We had a great time! Can't wait for next year.

Jacey Sunbathing. We take whatever sun we can get!


Boys 4 wheeling with Uncle Dave

And I promise to add some of our family pics soon!!