You have all been missing me terribly, right?!

I knew it.

So it's been a ridiculously long time since I posted anything on either of my blogs. Let me explain:

I met an amazingly hot guy who has fallen madly in love with me and I'm spending every spare moment in his arms.

Or not. :) haha!

The real (less juicy) truth is that I started grad school. And I love it!! I'm in class 3 nights a week, and working three days a week, and doing mom stuff in between. Oh, and waking up early and staying up late to get all my reading done for class. Which (surprisingly) leaves very little time for blogging. Or showering.

I am finally starting to feel like my life is not hell on earth. Even though to some of you it would be :). I seriously am in love with the Master's program I am in. I love my teachers. I love the students in my classes. It's been 3 weeks and I already feel a bond with them. Since this is a therapy based program, classes tend to be sort of...therapeutic. :) So so so so glad I decided to go back to school.

Also, I've finally made some decisions about my life that have been hanging over my head for months. Like whether I should move to San Diego, or stay in Sacramento. Long story...but I've decided to stay in Sacramento. And I feel really peaceful about that choice. Huge relief to have finally come to a decision about that. My life is starting to settle into a bit of a routine (crazy, freakishly busy routine...but a routine, nonetheless). It feels good. And it's about darn time. :)

Ryah update: We had her tested for allergies because the poor kid has just been throwing up pretty much her entire life. Turns out she's got some serious ones. Normal is .375 or below. She is a 1.2ish for peanuts. Lame. She is a 2.5ish for dairy. Really lame. And she is a 6.7ish for eggs. WHAT?!?! Holy mink! Poor thing! No wonder she's been sick and barfy all the time! Practically everything I was feeding her had dairy, eggs, or peanuts! Seriously...what 1 year old's diet isn't entirely made up of cheese, yogurt, milk, bread, and peanut butter sandwiches? So, she's officially on soy milk. And green beans. And that's about it. haha. If any of you know any awesome vegan meals, let me know. Ryah's getting sick of all 3 things she's allowed to eat.

What else...

Yeah...that's about it for now.

I will try and post every once in a while, but it will not be as frequent as it's been in the past. Luckily for you all, I've gotten my sister Brooke hooked on blogging, and she's almost as entertaining as me. :) Almost.

And now I've got to go prepare for the fight. Because when Brooke reads this she'll laugh and disagree with me, and then I'm going to punch her in the gut. Because I could use a little more drama in my life right now...

I'll let ya know how it turns out.

Okay, so I really am making this blog private. But it is a pain! I finally sat down to do it, and I have to MANUALLY enter in everyone's email addresses. And I've got a lot. I'm talking close to 100 email addresses. And I have to manually enter them all.

SERIOUSLY!?!?

What is this, 1705? I swear even pilgrims had the technology to drag and paste email addresses!

Typing them all in one at a time just seems so primitive.

Anyway, just wanted to let you know that I am switching it to private, slowly but surely. It's just taking me a while. Don't forget to leave your address in a comment or email it to me if you would like to continue reading this blog...

I got a comment on my previous post from an anonymous person that I would like to respond to. My thoughts were too long to stick in a comment, so I'm responding in a post. Look at that, Anonymous!! You're anonymously getting your own post on my blog. Good job :).

Here is part of their comment:

"I know nothing about your personal situation, nor do I need to know, so this question may not even apply to your specific situation. However, HOW do you know when divorce is right for you?I think in our religious "culture" it is one of the most taboo topics around and understandably a situation of "last resort". How is that decision come to? How do you make peace with it and know for sure it is the right thing to do under the circumstances? (p.s. This is not meant to put you "on the spot" or to sound judgemental, it is an honest question. I know many people who are staying in bad situations because their fear of divorce, or the fear of the "unknown" (i.e. having to go back to grad. school, use daycare, etc.) overrides their fear of their current circumstances...if you have any insights to share, I think it could be incredibly helpful!)"

For my response to this question, visit my other blog: Have Joy.

...From today my Master's Program begins!! I am so excited/nervous/freakedout/stressed/monkey/anxious/terrified/thrilled/tired/happy/can't wait!! (Did anyone notice the monkey in the middle there? Just threw that in for fun.)

Anyway, this month will go by quickly. My mom is coming to visit for a while, my hours will be changing at work, I'll be buying books and figuring out my schedule, then to Reno for a weekend, then school! I think once school starts I will actually be spending more time with my girls than I've been able to since March, which I am so excited about. It just breaks my heart when I think about not being with them all day. Tearing up right now. Quick, change the subject.

So, there ya go. Oh, and I am getting really tired of this not-really-divorced-but-not-really-married stage. Like really.

Isn't it time for me to wake up yet? This nightmare is getting old.

Oh Leroy...how nice of you to buy your girlfriend fruit using someone else's money! What a catch you are! You tell your Lovey Poo to hold on to you! Who says romance is dead? You bring warm feelings to my heart, Leroy. Way to go.

The other day Taylen was ridiculously low on sleep (which means she was a cranky nightmare). She was being a bit of a stinker and I said, "You're being so cranky, you must be pretty tired."

She folded her arms, looked right at me and said,

"I'm not cranky. I'm just a brat."

Well, I'm glad we got that cleared up.